The 45th day of your departure

Our children are really good! You see, Li Tifu was admitted to his ideal high school, and his future will be bright.

I'm so happy for him, if you're sure... Yes! I'm sorry to say such an unlucky thing, I'm sorry! I want to say you're happy to hear that!

I've been meeting you every day lately.

I used to hear the elders say: if a person appears repeatedly in your dreams, it means that they are missing each other.

How nice!

You must miss me too!

Alas!

I really want to meet you!

But I know it's not the time yet.

I have to say that people are really fragile and timid.

Do you know? Sometimes when I am alone at home, I feel very lonely and lonely, very insecure, and sometimes I am afraid to be alone at home.

I've sometimes thought about leaving, leaving this world to meet you, and sometimes I've even thought about taking my two children with you.

I'm terrible and selfish.

But you know, all of this is why I miss you so much.

Human nature itself may be evil!

It's just that we're slowly learning how to exercise restraint.

People will really do unimaginable things for their own selfishness, their own feelings.

But on the other hand, I'm afraid I'll not be able to hold on, you know?

You see that Li Tifu went to high school, and it's a very honorable thing, isn't it!?

It's just that after this child went to high school, I began to worry about it.

It's okay now, my salary and energy can keep up, and these two kids don't have much temper, they are very sensible.

Usually they don't cry, they don't make trouble, they don't make excessive demands on me, and they don't spend money indiscriminately.

It's just that you also know that these are temporary.

You don't think I'm thinking about it, or thinking too much, it's like that.

These two kids are also boys, and they're going to grow up, and they're going to college, and when that time comes when they need more money, I'm worried I won't be able to stand it, you know?!

At that time, I was worried that I would not be able to stand it and would not be able to bear it.

I'm afraid I can't afford my pitiful salary.

I'm afraid that when the time comes, I won't be able to provide them with the environment they need, and I won't be able to provide them with the university they need, and I'm afraid that I will delay the future and future of these children.

What should I do?

Umar, when I used to have you, I didn't think about this, I was very stable and felt very safe, but since I took charge of this family, I have slowly developed the habit of thinking twice about a small thing, and thinking for a long time before doing it.

Life is really scary!

I hope that everything will have a good result! I can't seem to do anything but pray.

After reading this page, Li Tifu understood why his victory when he dropped out of school was so easy.

"You thought of this a long time ago! Mother, I really shouldn't have spoken to you like that, you are a wonderful mother, thank you! Thank you for your consideration of me, and thank you for your concern for me."

Li Tifu didn't say too much as usual, and slowly began to become silent and steady. Because he began to understand that in order to be worthy of his mother's efforts, he could not just use his mouth, but use practical actions to give his mother a satisfactory return.

Li Tifu was silent for a moment, calmed down for a while, and then began to turn a new page.

Li Tifu saw that many pages in his notebook had only short titles, and the content was either empty or very short. Li Tifu guessed that there might not have been an unforgettable and profound event that day, so he didn't read it carefully when he encountered this kind of content, and swept it away.

Li Tifu continued to read!!