Chapter 11: The Horns of the Peacock's Feathers
Leora freed himself from the Wanderer, this time intending to travel to the Wing Age, an ancient period when the universe was still in an uneven energy and was often destroyed and reborn. Prior to this, most of the attractions he had traveled to had existed in the current plane, except for Earth, the birthplace of the Multistar Federation.
He focused his mind on the crossing point of the spatial gap, and in an instant, he had leapt into the reflux force field of another color.
He placed himself in a soothing track, and he couldn't help but feel relaxed. He asked himself, "Is it because of Hermione?" β
Since the loss of Saffir, Cabe, and Michelle, the infinite silence has led him to embark on a transformation of the Wanderer. One of the most significant changes was the input of the central system of the computer Hermes into the program of "self-decision-making ability" and "anthropomorphic tendencies".
At first, he just had a casual attitude, but Hermione's situation was surprisingly good. The computer, which was originally just a combination of unconscious mechanical parts, almost transformed into his close friend, and sometimes even able to answer his puzzles.
However, as Hermione's anthropomorphic part grew, Leora found that he was not only unable to grasp it, but was gradually surrounded by it. He was pleased that Hermione had developed an intellect of incomparable depth. However, lately its "individuality" has been too strong.
On more than one occasion, Hermione consciously or unconsciously revealed the signal "I like Leora". At first, he thought it was just fun, but as Hermione became more and more inclined to control his behavior, Leora realized that she had fallen into a trap of her own making.
The problem was that Hermione knew him too wellβhis helplessness and need. Leora couldn't resist Hermione, and in the end, he gave up refusing, although his clear consciousness knew that he was about to be locked in some kind of possession and possession by Hermione, but he couldn't be too cruel to such a cute little computer.
In fact, before going to lift Sigana's seal, he and Hermione still had a big argument. Leola was frustrated that Hermione couldn't refute even the reasons he had held - admittedly, once Sigana regained his sense of self, it would be very bad for Leora; What's more, even if Sigana is restored, it will only cause him to fall into an abyss that is more painful than when he was sealed.
However, when he returned to "The Wanderer", Hermione only sympathetically soothed his pain, though Leora understood that Hermione was also implicitly a victor. It's just that he can't explain to Hermione what it means to be "romantic and weak in life." Hermione never makes mistakes, even if it creates possessiveness.
He began to try to retrace when Hermione began to feel jealous of wanting to own him completely: just as he was back in the plane where Earth had just been destroyed, he saved an Elrmine priest, Fugus, out of a strange favor.
Fuggs is a Catholic priest with a doctorate in biology. The dying man had a strong sense of insight and mystery, and in the presence of the silver-haired, green-eyed priest who seemed to be a combination of a gentle lover and a deep priest, Leora felt for the first time the desire to depend on a living being.
However, when he brought Fugus back to the spaceship, he was met with fierce opposition from Hermione.
"Leora, this is an unsmart decision, and I want you to cancel it."
"Whatever you think about it, I've decided."
"He's still going to die, how many days can you keep him alive?"
Then, Hermione kept refusing to talk to Leora, like an angry child. Leora began to wonder why it was so angry, but it was Fugus who reminded him.
"Leola, it's jealous."
"How is that possible? It's just a computer! β
Fugus's expression was very serious: "Can't you still notice it?" Even you yourself have denied that 'it' is inanimate. Think about it, how do you treat it? β
It was then that Leora felt like she was in some kind of obstacle. But there's no denying that he also has an extraordinary attachment to Hermione, and he knows he'll lose his independence. However, he stubbornly pressed that feeling into the most obscure spiritual area, and only took care of the priest.
Hermione was right, he really couldn't save Fugus, despite all the cutting-edge technology and equipment, even at the cost of hurting himself, he emitted the highest telekinesis and injected it into Fugus's festering body. He knew that the priest's radiation-ravaged life was softening and decomposing day by day, and in the end, everything fell into the realm of nothingness.
Finally, in the moments before Fugus died, out of sorrow and disappointment, he confessed his secret.
"That's who I am. No force or substance can destroy me β not even myself. No one, including me, can endure it, death is eternally far away from me, and the saddest thing is that I can't be hostile to those who want to destroy me. β
"Tell me, Fugus, I've been around for so long, why can't I find the meaning of why I'm this being?
"Tell me, or let your god answer me, Fugus. In what circumstances did I have an unprovoked vision? β
Hearing Leora's confession, the priest's withered face fell into deep thought. When he opened his eyes again, what Leola saw in those pupils was not the resentment, envy, and greed of the others; Fuggs's eyes were filled with total pity.
He struggled, making a sound out of his ruined vocal cords, and miraculously, he projected all his deep wisdom to the last few words.
"Leora, I am a human being who knows that I am going to die, and I am going to feel the fear of death. But what is death? It was just a veil through which my life would be transformed. If I don't lose myself by dying, you shouldn't lose the feeling of life by not dying.
"I can't answer why you exist the way you are, and neither can my God. Perhaps, you are my God, and God must carry the burden of eternal time.
"Leora, you have to learn not to enter death, but to rise above it. Only then will you be able to realize that death is only yours. β
A subtle wry smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. Thinking of Fugus's last words before his death, although he did not agree with all of them, he cherished them deeply.
At that time, he incinerated Fugus's remains in the Nian wave and scattered them all over the universe. When he re-entered the ship, where only the computer was left, Hermione spoke timidly, its voice visibly dampening the joy of gaining him.
"It's just us now, isn't it, Leola? I will always be with you, after all, I am part of your eternal life. β