The diary continues

On April 7, 2012, on the bus to Beijing Normal University, I suddenly thought about a question, maybe she had taken this bus at different times in the same seat, and we could be regarded as passing by in another sense

In 2012, on September 16, I actually saw her on the news, she acted in a movie directed by Zhang Kaige, I don't know why, I suddenly felt a little weak

In 2012, on October 1, I watched her movie in the cinema, she acted very well, she was liked by many people, maybe I should understand that we are after all, life is north and south, you to Xiaoxiang and I to Qin

On October 15th, 2012, I made up my mind, I knew I was having an impossible dream, but if I tried a little harder, would it be possible in the future.

In 2012, on December 25th, another year of Christmas, I came out of the library at 11 o'clock in the evening, there were few pedestrians on the road, I saw a couple, and suddenly I thought how good it would be if she was around, in fact, I don't love the holidays, not to mention the foreign festival of Christmas, probably because of the apple that was not given out that year, I don't know if there is a chance to send it out in this life.

In 2013, on June 2, I watched the movie "Notting Hill" for the first time, and I ranked it as the No.1 movie in my mind, hoping that one day I can make my dream come true like the male lead.

On July 7th, 2013, this summer vacation was not wasted, and she continued to fill in knowledge, she was trying to shine, and I had to work harder.

On January 1, 2014, the first day of the new year, I fell ill and she had a new TV series to air soon.

On July 12, 2014, the graduation season, I graduated early, took three years to complete the credits in advance, was rated as an outstanding undergraduate graduate, and was even more guaranteed, but my joy was not shared.

In 2014, December 25th, Christmas, in the library, I hope she has all the best, and I hope I have the opportunity to say this to her personally.

On March 21, 2015, this week was more stressful, so I chose to continue to take the bus to Beijing Normal University, I don't know when it started, this has become a way for me to relax, and I will feel much better when I look at the place where she has lived

On August 4, 2015, when I saw a milk endorsed by her, I instantly liked it. People's liking is like this, inexplicable, sudden. Because the specific object that people like is likely to be a concrete manifestation of their own ideas, but unfortunately, I am lactose intolerant.

In 2015, December 25th, Christmas, Forget Worry happily shared with me that he would be back next year, and we could see each other more often in the future, he asked me why I didn't fall in love, did he like men, he wouldn't be affected by anything in the UK, of course I have someone I like

In 2016, on June 13, she won the Magnolia Award, and today I don't read books, so I'm happy for her.

On July 12th, 2016, I graduated early again, and when the new semester begins, I will start my teaching career and start my doctoral degree at the same time.

On November 13, 2016, I watched a movie "Shimbashi Lovers" today, and if I have the opportunity in the future, I would like to confess like this: If the sky is white, but the clouds are black.

2017year,May 11th,Today in the class, there is a male classmate from the class who accompanied the female classmate of the class to class,I pretended not to see,Youth is so good,It's a pity that I haven't talked about a youthful love,But I was lucky to meet her

On October 25th, 2017, it was raining today, and I missed her a little

On August 23, 2018, this year my PhD graduated early again, and the teacher found me and had the opportunity to be a visiting scholar in Cambridge for two years, hoping that I could pass, I was a little hesitant, after all, this abroad, since then we are on opposite sides of the world.

On September 3rd, 2018, I came to Cambridge again, on the one hand, Cambridge's classical philosophy attracted me, and on the other hand, I was still dreaming that incredible dream, if I could become a particularly powerful scholar, would I have a chance? Well, I don't know where the opportunity is, but I've been telling myself that for years, so let's keep it up.

On December 25, 2018, a student recommended "Love Actually", a so-called must-see Christmas film, to me, hoping to have the opportunity to watch it with her in the future

On March 23rd, 2019, I hope to have the opportunity to travel with her in Cambridge in the future.

On July 8, 2019, a rare sunny day, I thought about her all day by the Cam River

On September 3rd, 2019, I went to London today, met an interesting bookstore on Charing Cross Street, and wrote a letter to myself ten years later, I wrote a letter, I don't know if I will be with her in ten years.

In 2019, on December 25th, today's literature can't be read at all, and I want to give up a little, but I haven't owned it, so how can I give up

On April 16, 2020, I learned from a friend that she actually went back to our alma mater high school for a roadshow, but unfortunately I couldn't go back, and I hope to have the opportunity to attend her movie premiere in the future and see her up close

In 2020, on July 6th, I returned to China today, and I shouldn't write a diary in the future, there are too many traces of her in the diary, and if I write again, it's just to add sadness. In the future, I should love others, and I may be on my own. But she should always remain in my heart, I will always miss her, and every festival, I will bless her until I am old

The diary comes to an abrupt end here, and it seems to represent the owner's heart to some extent.

Jiang Baizhi sobbed quietly, obviously there was no one in the room, but she was afraid that others would hear it.

In this diary, Su Ye thought about her for nearly ten years, went to Beijing Normal University hundreds of times, and visited abroad for her to study for a doctorate.

It turns out that the sentence Danyun is black, the sentence that everything is successful, the sentence Happy New Year, the "True Love First", and the "Notting Hill" have been brewing for more than ten years!

It turned out that the regret he said was really his regret, and in countless unknown nights, he thought about himself countless times, and he wanted to take himself to Cambridge, to the River Cam, to the place where he once lived

To be honest, Jiang Baizhi has no surprise in her heart at this moment, only regret and an inexplicable emotion, regret is that she had a conflict with Su Ye not long ago, and she is still accusing him of being too selfish.

And the inexplicable emotion is: she suddenly felt that she was a little unworthy of Su Ye's love!

This love that spans the years is so great, so sincere, it is a teenager's entire youth, but is he really that good? Is it really true about Su Ye's love?

At this moment, Jiang Baizhi was a little overwhelmed, to be precise, she was a little flustered, and this love made her feel a little weak.

(End of chapter)