Chapter 50: True Self-Knowledge
When the day dawns, people will wake up.
If people don't wake up, you can't say that the sky is not dawning, because the sky is always going to be bright, why don't people wake up when the day is bright, because people can not wake up.
The sound of slapping footsteps swirled in Chang Yu Feng's mind, he was groggy, his eyelids were always fighting, and he couldn't lift it no matter how he lifted it.
All he heard was the sound at the top of the stairs, it was a very faint sound, and he didn't even know if it was really ringing, or if it was the sound in his head.
"Why did you come back alone? Where's your brother? It was Emina's voice, but all I heard was it...... Because how Changyu Feng wanted to wake himself up, but he was always unable to do it......
It's as if you've been blindfolded by someone else and can't see anything.
"No...... I'll bring some water......" Erica took a large glass bottle and filled it with water.
The sound of water gurgling into the bottle is so familiar...... It's as if my five senses are several times more sensitive, and I can hear them......
He was ready to rest for a few minutes, so that he would be better and not as deenergetic as he was now.
"Don't run around, you know? Did your dad bring you cryolite? ”
"Brought ......"
It's a smack again, and it should be Erica going upstairs.
"Strange...... Sleeping for so long......" Erica picked up her bag and put it on her body, and staggered downstairs.
It's been a long time since I felt like this......
Debilitated......
Sleepless ......
Relying on the blessing of spiritual power, his previous state did not need much sleep, and he could even rest for a few days and nights......
It's good to squint for a while, but now I'm tired like this...... Presumably, even if you get up, it is difficult to have the spirit......
This physical condition is so poor, it is not necessarily possible to do better.
He tried to open his eyes, his right eyelid and left eyelid were jumping violently, tears flowed out, it was really uncomfortable, Chang Yufeng sighed unconsciously, and then closed his eyes, tears flowed down, there was a feeling of the small nails cut off stuck in the eyes, and the stinging was unbearable.
"Mom! I'm leaving! Erica's voice faded away, and Chang Yu Feng tried to open her eyes again......
This time it wasn't as hard as the last time, but it opened all of a sudden, looking at the ceiling, and Erica's fierce bear. He got up and felt a wave of dizziness and even nausea retching......
He was caught off guard by retching and his brain was instantly congested, his face was swollen and red, and he couldn't retch, making himself cough violently......
"Ahem, ahem...... What...... Ahem...... Circumstance? Chang Yufeng coughed and hammered his chest, trying to alleviate this situation, but he was a little more comfortable, but his face was not ordinary......
The face that just swollen red is simply not too terrible...... But now his face is like yellow wax, this terrible feeling is not ordinary horror, if you really want to say it, you still think that you are almost going to be terried, and you will die.
He touched his neck, trying to smooth his throat, touching the hot throat, he slid his hand down again and again, the pain in his throat was not so intense, he cleared his throat, and then held his drowsy head and jumped off the table with his hands, but, to his surprise, this leap almost fell, and was about to fall to the floor, but fortunately he grabbed the leg of the stool in time to avoid falling......
In such a state, it's like a person who is seriously ill in sound, and even the state is getting worse and worse, and it seems that I don't know why I have a situation, just because I stayed up late?
Is it just staying up late to make yourself in such a bad state? Or do you have some kind of disease of your own?
Will you need to check it out?
To be honest, he has never been sick, because the blessing of spiritual power can strengthen himself, and it is difficult to get sick when he is young and strong...... Even so, he saw that others were sick, and that was how sick he was, weak as a baby...... Or even more.
Now, it's no longer the same time...... His weakness was visible to the naked eye, and his symptoms began to manifest......
The door was not closed, and he leaned against the wall to go downstairs, and everything was not so pretty, and the stairs twisted together made him really not know whether to go down or not.
"Oh...... Lamb...... There's no more to eat...... Summoned beasts don't eat grass, right...... I'll see if there are any biscuits......" Amina was wiping the table, and as soon as Nagayu Kaede came down, she finished wiping it and took off her apron, which broke on the hanger.
Changyu Kaede didn't have the strength to answer...... Holding one hand against the wall and the other on his forehead, he suddenly lay on the table.
"Oops, what's wrong? Sick? Got a cold? Amina reached over and lifted his head, questioning with the back of his hand.
The movement was fast, and Nagaha's eyes drooped, and his eyelids were fighting, although it seemed to Emina that he was open. But he looked like he was asleep again......
"It's so hot!" Emina withdrew the back of her hand in surprise: "I'll go see if there's any medicine...... Erica, this kid is really ...... I knew she couldn't take care of her......"
"No...... It's me...... His own question ...... "Chang Yu Feng couldn't even touch his hot forehead...... It may be that the head has completely disobeyed the call...... Now I just want to sleep......
"Summoned beasts are no different from humans...... If you're sick, it's troublesome......" Amy hurried into the room, still muttering, "If only I were there...... I went out yesterday...... I'm really a little reluctant to ......."
Chang Yufeng couldn't say anything more, his head was groggy and he hit his arm, he had a headache, and he was even accompanied by an invisible fever......
Chang Yu Feng thought that if he got sick, it might be a lucky thing......
Now, he is no longer a super spiritual power user, but a guy who can catch a cold and get sick......
This is more suitable for your cowardly character...... It's not okay to be greedy for life and afraid of death, but maybe you can protect yourself more...... After all, life is too fragile......
When you know this, you will be more cautious and less arrogant......
How important is it to cherish one's life and protect oneself, but how difficult is it?
Compared with the calamity of innocence, compared with the calamity of others, there may be more times when one's own destruction and indifference to oneself are the great harm......
Kaede Nagawa didn't have any more ideas...... This headache seemed to evaporate his heat, and his whole body trembled unconsciously......
There was nothing else......
That's a good thing......
Amina came over with the medicine, and then quickly poured a glass of water, the medicine was a small spherical pill, she gently held Chang Yu Feng's forehead and raised her head, pressing Chang Yu Feng's mouth Among the people, although it is a sheep, it has a clear face, Chang Yu Feng's body is very fat, and his current state is more like a standing villain, because of the wool relationship and fat.
The rare wool on his face became more and more like a small man......
It's just that the appearance is still a little strange...... If you don't count the way he is paralyzed now, he is usually more like a hairball......
Among the sheep, Amina grabbed the position above his mouth and under his nose and made him open his mouth, this pressure was a little painful, but fortunately, Chang Yufeng didn't care anymore......
"Drink water...... "Emina shoved the pill into the side and beckoned Chang Yu Kaede to drink water......
Maybe I don't think it's good to grab his mouth and pout...... Because it's like a prisoner forcing him to drink water......
Chang Yu Feng felt the pill in his mouth slowly dissolve...... It is bitter candy with a minty flavor...... Of course it's not sugar, it quickly melts in your mouth......
This forced Chang Yufeng to want to drink water, and he felt a lot better when he felt weak, it was not because the medicinal effect had taken effect, but because the bitterness and the coolness of the mint made this wonderful feeling like a torture of love and hate, he gulped down the water and dragged the pill down......
"Alright...... It'll be fine in a while......" Amina continued to put the back of her hand on Changyu Kaede's forehead, not because of how soon it would be fine, of course, but because she needed to confirm if it was the disease......
"The burn isn't serious...... "Emina leaned her other hand against her forehead, looked at her forehead and said, "I'll go get the quilt out...... That's where Erica and Jack slept when they were kids...... I'll go shop it, and you'll rest here a little more."
"Good ......" Chang Yu Feng obviously felt a strange change, like a clear stream - it was definitely not the feeling of mint, but the cold water poured into the whole body, making himself feverish.
I felt that my brain was not so obviously drowsy, but the other senses did not subside, and I still had weakness......
I can't really say it's because of the quilt......
It's more like it's because of your own vulnerability......
Sometimes, he would also wonder if it was some demon king, some god was too powerful, and he had no power to fight back...... Actually, it's not, it's just that I'm too weak, and I take it for granted that I can fight through hard work, but I don't see the gap between myself and their talent at all.
If you don't have enough self-awareness, it's not that you can't help admitting defeat after seeing the gap, but that you don't have a way out of your own way after seeing the gap......
No matter how glamorous and prosperous the path that others have walked out, or even if they don't necessarily come out on their own, it is also their path......
And not ...... yourself
Regarding his own cognition, Chang Yu Feng thinks that he has a big deviation......
He wanted to live for himself...... But I didn't think about how to live for myself...... It's like last night, cranky all night...... I didn't come up with a reason for it...... Even when I think of an idea that is a little energetic, I always lie on that bed and think about it......
Think, who wouldn't think?
He also thought that he had saved, no, even let Lin'er have a bright future, but that was always thinking, living in a dream......
That's not how it shouldn......
For one's own cognition - a person with ordinary qualifications - and then the mediocrity that can only suppress one's talent with drugs - such a person who does not do anything very well - does not have a plan for doing things, and thinks of a person who is one out - the best thing is to be cautious, the one is to say the ugly one is a person who is unwilling to understand other people - a person who does not have the patience and confidence to give it a go - this is the kind of person...... These are all some of the drawbacks......
It seems that people who are good for nothing but kindness may need to know themselves better and understand what they should do next......
Or, how should we live for ourselves and think about the meaning of life......
How should life be lived......
How many choices are in front of you that you haven't grasped...... Those who have passed are no longer nostalgic...... Those who are coming......
And how to choose......
There is no answer, but it doesn't really matter...... Because no one is really able to fully explore everything about themselves......
Calm down...... Think about it......
The bitterness in the throat was like the coolness of mint for a while, and then it disappeared completely for a long time......
Chang Yu Feng found that he suddenly fell asleep again, he had been sleeping on the table, and he had not woken him up, and he had not even felt hungry......
He woke up to see Erica and Jack sitting next to him, and they had even returned from herding their cattle and sheep......
As for why children should herd cattle and sheep, the reason is also very simple...... The cattle and sheep are more docile, the children are easy to lead, and Emina feels that the children need to exercise, and it is too difficult to grow up in the house.
When they came back from herding the sheep and oxen, they sat down at the table and waited for their food to eat......
They each took a small notebook and practiced writing with an ink-soaked pen...... They are very quiet, for fear of disturbing themselves......
The cold medicine is very effective, and with the unconscious sleep, it has finally eased up......
Watching them write one word after another seriously, in order not to make noise to themselves, they all talked in a low voice, and they were silent when they looked at each other's handwriting like this......
Once upon a time, he was the Jack in front of him...... He lives in such a warm and happy family, and under this kind of education, his character has indeed become a little cowardly......
No, that's not cowardice...... It's an unconscious empathy for the sake of others......
In such a family...... How much reluctance is there? Under such a complex, their own choice ...... and infinitely wide......
How could the boy who felt that fate was indignant always remember the luck he had encountered in this life?
Or maybe it's like this, no one follows luck all their lives...... No one follows bad luck all their lives......
Fate under the Difference of a Thought...... Or is it so unfamiliar......
It's an amazing feeling...... It's amazing and brings tears to your eyes......
"You're awake! I heard you're sick...... "Erica saw Nagayu Kaede, who had been staring at them, "I'm really sorry...... I should have given you a little more quilt......"
"It's okay......" Chang Yu Feng smiled, although his face was a little ugly, but he was still smiling.
"We're afraid to wake you up...... I'll go get the porridge for you......" Jack jumped off his stool and walked to the kitchen.
"Really? I don't seem to be hungry though...... There's no need to take it......" Chang Yufeng touched his stomach embarrassedly.
"My mom told you to eat it...... You can eat it......" Erica put the pen down and looked at him with her little head propped up, "Can you really be my summoned beast?" I don't know what it is like to summon a beast...... My parents didn't teach us anything...... So, I don't know much about ......."
Nagawa Kaede also looked at her, and her big eyes could tell the longing......
"Is that so? But...... What did you think at the time...... Are you trying to save me? Chang Yufeng looked at him happily, and also supported his round head.
"Hmm...... To be honest, it's not once or twice that I've seen a small animal in the forest get hurt...... Longxing will meet those big bad guys...... It's always like this......"
"Well, it's really wrong for them to do this...... "Chang Yu Feng looked at her blue eyes, and the self in them had some indescribable feelings, more like a friend: "Thank you for your love and taking me in......"
"It's okay, it's okay...... Dad said that helping others is a small thing, and reaching out for the weak is what everyone should do......"
Erica's words moved Chang Yu Feng, such a young child.
It's like a kind of concern, a thread tangled in yourself and this family......
Think for it, think about it, and live for it.