I can't be sadder enough......

Because I often think that my heart has been immeasurably wounded, but as my experience grows, I feel that my trauma is nothing more than a surface that does not hurt or itch for him.

Then, from the bottom of my heart, I reflected on why I was the way I was.

Between the self and the true self, where should I balance?

Am I really mediocre...... Am I really nothing, and do I need to exist in the world I know?

I deeply doubted myself, I couldn't think of it...... What kind of attitude should I take to straighten out my life?

I can say it, but I can't......

I'm a cowardly person, honest, responsible, content with the status quo — there are so many things I don't understand - and too few things I can understand.

My life experience is not enough to support me, whether it is to think independently or complete this unfinished life, I simply cannot free myself from this shackles...... I became ...... So small......

I started thinking about my life very early.

From the time I was abandoned, everything about me looked back in the past...... So much so that I stood still for a long time...... For a long time...... It's been a shadow for my whole life, and whenever I look at those eyes that I can never forget—the eyes that I can never have again—I look at their mothers, at their ...... Father......

I know that I may never hug them again for the rest of my life.

Although they are alive.

Now, they're dead......

What is there to think about for a person like me......

I almost ...... Nothing...... Can you understand my feelings? I never thought about how grateful I was to my parents......

Because I don't need to think about it...... I just need to live my life......

But I also deeply understand that everything I have is nothing...... It's all small...... are non-existent...... My Fantasy......

Because I have almost, nothing......

I don't think about it all the time...... What the hell am I ...... What's in it...... The answer I got was that I didn't have anything......

I am deeply remorseful......

No...... I shouldn't be remorseful...... Because I have nothing and have nothing to do with myself......

My parents abandoned me......

They abandoned me while I was alive...... At the time of their death...... I'm ...... too. I haven't seen them again......

I can't imagine them because I can't do anything like that......

I'm just a ...... Such a lucky person who has lost the world......

I had nothing since I was born, and I knew that I could not afford to lose my life with other children, except me, with me and my wretched creatures......

From the starting point, it was completely lost.

If it weren't for the fact that I still have a friend from a welfare home...... I think...... I did lose my ...... completely. Something I don't want to lose......

Have I ever owned anything?

I do have those ...... What I can see......

Like what...... My body, my tiny soul, my ...... ...... The mind that is complaining......

I was so angry...... Because I had to do this to make me understand and look back at my past in pain! I must! Change him!

I'm not one! Waste that no one wants.

I'm not one! Waste that can be discarded by others!

I'm not one! A soul that can be manipulated at will!

I'm going to! I want revenge! I'm going to! Give birth to me and raise me for all revenge!

I'm going to take revenge on my parents!

They brought me into this world! But they abandoned me completely! They brought me to this disgusting world......

What kind of fairness is said, what fairness is pursued, and what fair world is created?

Without your parents! You are nothing!

Without your parents! You are but a wisp of yellow sand in all things, a lowly soul, a thing to be discarded and ridiculed!

There is no connection that your parents give you, and you don't have the education you get! Give your assets! How did you ever go from a big kid to have the resources of this world that can be traded for money?

You're just ...... Mole ants among ants...... How do you have it all? How do you get everything? How did you! Foothold in this world?

The land of projectiles, still thinking about everything, and all the tragic acts?

It's ridiculous!

It's ridiculous!

It's a ridiculous joke!

In your life, don't you think about where everything about yourself comes from?

There is no compassion for oneself, there is no pity for oneself, there is no ...... for oneself Huge resentment!

You!

You!

You!

You guys!

One by one, you guys!

You've lost your parents! What's left?! How much is left, you can see it...... Intrigue?

You have nothing left......

Because that's how you are......

It's your parents! Make you like this!

Be! You! And also! He! It's them! Put you! It's like this!

Give me! Will you have everything! All lost! All discarded! Destroy them all!

You guys also! What's left? You wretched people!

You guys! Woe to humanity!

Poor humans!

Damn!

Mankind!

I'm going to bring you!

All!

All! Destroy!

No one can! Stop me!

No one can! Stop me!

No one can!

Disobey me!

[I hate it...... It's nothing more than ...... My own birth...... And also...... All about humanity... Everything that makes me sick ......]

[How much I hope...... I'm a ...... ...... that never existed in the world Stuff. 】

[Rather than being abandoned at will from birth...... Disgusting ...... Everything ......]

[It's not an easy thing to destroy the entire human race!! But! As long as I exist! As long as there is me, the day I want to destroy humanity exists! I'm pooping! OK! You can do it! 】

[I want to destroy humanity!] It's too simple! I don't even have to bother with it! You can let them kill each other! 】

Follow my call! Follow my power! Follow me! What I have!! Great power! I'm going to use you! Wipe out all the humans! 】

【I need!】 I need! I need more! Filthy soul! A soul that rivals a good-for-nothing human being!

I'm going to bring you! Forge into a weapon capable of destroying the world! 】

[Nope! Hahahaha! Yourselves! and have the heart to destroy the world! Follow me! Follow me! Let this world be destroyed together! 】

[I really can't figure it out......]

Why would anyone love the world......

Maybe it's because they haven't suffered much......

They can't be blamed for that...... If you want to blame it, blame myself...... No, you can't! Will be my most massive malice! Crush them!

Let them cry! Go find your own mom!