You've said you want to know what I'd be like if I fell in love with someone. At that time, I sneered, just like my mother, who was infatuated with my father and the emperor, and in the end I got nothing and nothing. As an emperor, I have so much that love is a joke to me. But I didn't expect that in the end, I was trapped in this love word, and now I can't even pull the corners of my mouth and smile bitterly.

As I told you before, I had a serious illness when I was a child, and when I woke up, my brain lost all my previous memories. It's true, but after this, I have a shadow in my heart, and that shadow is curled up in a small corner, not making a sound or moving, and I ignore him.

But I never thought that this black shadow would no longer be quiet one day, he would be restless when you were there, he would be dull when you said something, and he would move with you from time to time between your gestures. I think I'm stunned, and I'm afraid to hate this inexplicable familiarity, which loosens my always strong heart a little.

I pretended not to know, and reinforced.

That night I heard the doctor say that you are pregnant, and I would have taken the baby out of it myself if it had been put on hold. But what was I thinking at the time? yes, I thought, stay, I want this child you gave birth to.

But while you were asleep, you actually called other men's names in my arms, which is a challenge to my imperial dignity, and is that why you don't want to love me? I think even if you don't love me, you can only be mine, and I ordered the Weiyang Palace to be sealed.

I thought you would cry, you would be sad, you would cry and beg me like before, but I never thought that you would live in peace in Weiyang Palace. Your indifferent attitude to everything annoys me inexplicably, in order to prove that you don't have to. I didn't go to Weiyang Palace for more than a month, forcing myself not to think about you, but when I walked to the Imperial Garden, I saw you at a glance in the chaos.

You look back at me, and there is still a little bit of joy in your eyes when you saw the excitement, and I will take it as if you were happy to see me. At this glance, I know, you have lived in my heart silently and lazily, and this kind of satisfaction in my heart makes me happy and worried.

I'm glad you saw me, but I'm worried about whether the current situation will be against you.

The court is shaking, the murderous machine is hidden, I will imprison you in Weiyang Palace, I let everyone know that I can't wait to abolish you! I hid my deepest secrets from anyone but me, but I never thought that I had deceived everyone, and I had been deceived myself.

But just when the dust settled, I got what I wanted, and you were still by my side. I haven't seen you for a few days, I went to Weiyang Palace to see you, but you think that I treated you like this for the sake of military power, so good. You can be whatever you want, but why can't I feel your heart when you're around me? I am near you, you do not move, you talk to you, you do not move. Okay, you forced me, I punished Weiyang Palace inside and out, you finally moved, but ......

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I was scared, panicked, anxious, tyrannical. I finally remembered, when I heard you call Lord, I was afraid, afraid that if you knew that I had poisoned you with my own hands, and you were like this now, you would not be thinking of me like this now.

I thought, let you never know that I love you, and never let you know that I am Qin Qing, the master you talk about all the time. I'm going to say something against your will in a domineering way. Only in the dead of night, will I secretly take out my mind to you. Even so, I'm satisfied, as long as you're there, anything, really.

In this way, you will never know who I am, you just need to know that I am Qi Jinqing. You will never see when I love you the most, because I only love you most when I can't see you.

Suddenly, it was four years.

"Father! Father! Father! Dandan has been looking for you for a long time, and my father is here! A milky baby voice sounded from the hall, and I followed the voice, and a meat ball in a scarlet robe and brocade robe bounced at me like a meat ball.

I put away my messy thoughts, raised the corners of my mouth, and bent down to pick him up. Hearing Dandan, he pinched a piece of Qionghua petals in his arms and said, "Father, where is this?" Why hasn't Dandan? ”

Where is this? Where is this? I thought about it upside down in my mind and said with a smile. "This is where Father first met DanDan and your mother." Fu raised his head again and looked at the boundless sky, and said with some bitterness, "Isn't it beautiful." ”

Holding the meat ball in my arms and turning to leave, I still couldn't hold back and looked back again.

Yuqiong glazed face Feihua, Qingruo nostalgia for the boundless sea. Sitting on the end of the world is nothing, and the Qionghua jade tree is empty.

May I meet you again in the next life, I don't want you to remember me, I just want to recognize you when I meet you......