Sujiawu, the top of the mountain.

Courtyard in the tomb.

The two old men sat in the flower garden outside the courtyard, looking through the line of mountainside and watching the sky flow outside.

The old woman slowly embroidered flowers on a roopa and whispered, "I still think your decision was too hasty. ”

It seems a little casual to speak, but for this old couple who have been in the courtyard of this tomb for a long time, this kind of speed of speech is the state they are most accustomed to now.

Old Minister Su, who was half-lying on the recliner, was not in a hurry to answer, gently picked up the kettle on the small clay stove next to him, and slowly poured it into the teapot.

Water vapor permeated his old face, making the future a little blurred.

"Why do you say that?"

The old woman lowered her head and watched the stitches fly, "He's still too young after all." And you have been away from the court for many years, and Concubine De's heart and strength, you have less understanding. This person still wants to marry Yan Yan now, that is, he wants to completely tie the Su family to the carriage, shouldn't he be more cautious? ”

Old Minister Su silently looked at the teapot, flying up and down in the teacup like a silver needle inlaid with gold and jade, and said slowly: "If you have something to say, you can say it directly." ”

The two have been married for decades, and of course he knows that these words are just a word thrown out.

He has used decades of ups and downs and finally reached the top of the sea career to prove his outstanding political wisdom and vision, his wife will never simply question the ability of Xia Jingyun and Concubine De's faction.

The old woman sighed, "Husband. ”

Old Prime Minister Su was secretly stunned.

Just like being called by his parents often means that things are a little bigger, at the age when he has been getting along for decades and is disgusting for half a night, he is so tired of shouting, he knows that his wife is going to get down to business.

"Do you remember your ambition when you were an official?"

In one sentence, Old Minister Su was silent.

As soon as this person gets older, he is afraid to recall things, but he also often likes to recall things.

I often sit at the entrance of the village and in the courtyard for half a day, slowly and carefully reading the past of my life.

A legend in his life, such as Su Lao Xianggong, is no exception, and when he is said like this, his eyes are confused.

The dense tea gas rises, as if a young man who is as rich as jade, ascending high and looking into the distance, his spirit is flying, and he is full of spirit and says those heroic words to the king's holy virtue, helping the people through the world, and opening a peaceful and prosperous world.

The stars have changed, and unconsciously, decades have passed, and the young man is already gray and old.

After a while, the old woman said slowly: "Over the years, although you have cared about your family and occasionally had helpless things, but for the country and the people, you are worthy of the king's favor and the support of hundreds of officials." What you have done in your life is not worthy of your original intention. But what if others don't think so? ”

Old Minister Su understood what Mrs. meant at the beginning, listened to her explanation, and did not speak.

How can a talented young man not have ambition, but it depends on where this ambition is used.

If the situation is turbulent today, like a fire in the palace, if he is a talented person, he is not willing to be a pastemaker, but simply adds a fire, directly burns down the palace room, and starts a new stove.

As long as he wins in the end, from a utilitarian point of view, the Su family does not lose.

But for the old minister Su, who worked diligently for the people all his life and worked hard to renew the life of the Great Xia Dynasty, it was a matter of great regret for him.

I'm sorry for most of my life, I'm sorry for worrying about the country and the people for most of my life, and I'm sorry for walking on thin ice for most of my life.

Madame's worry is not worried about the safety of the Su family.

Her heart is always the young man who remembers the ups and downs of the country, and she is always the old man in front of her who has never changed his will.

The Su family, to her, is not so important.

Old Minister Su felt this love and warmth, drank tea in silence, and thought about the answer.

In silence, the black cat, who didn't know where to go, jumped to the side and rubbed the calf of Su Lao Xianggong with his head.

Old Minister Su lowered his head and reached out to untie a small black sachet from its back.

Stacked in the sachet was a fire-lacquered envelope.

Old Minister Su checked the fire paint seal letter, opened it, and took out the letter inside.

The first thing that catches my eye is a line of small words: Xia Jingyun said goodbye today, and presented Miss Wen in the long pavilion, which is recorded as follows.

Old Minister Su was half-lying down, looking down.

There is no indication of the background to the first paragraph.

After reading the second paragraph, he smiled slightly, "This Xia Jingyun's talent is indeed good, and he has a bit of the style of the old man back then." ”

Although the old woman did not know what was written on the letterhead, she silently pursed her mouth and did not debunk it.

But then, the expression on the face of Old Minister Su slowly solidified, looking at the [Dengslou also, there was a country and nostalgia, worried and fearful, full of gloom, extremely sad and sad. ] paragraph, stunned.

He remembered the caution on his officialdom climbing road, the gains and losses, and the pain and confusion when he was briefly disappointed

Go to the country and nostalgia, worry and fear.

Only those who have experienced ups and downs can truly experience the kind of gloom and sadness.

"Melt in the scene, touch people's hearts!"

The next period of spring was bright and joyful, and it aroused his spring breeze and proud years, but when he got old, he was not so excited about those cheerful things.

"Whew! To taste the heart of the ancient benevolence, or to do something different. Why? Don't be happy with things, don't be sad with yourself; The height of the temple is worried about the people; Far away from the rivers and lakes, you are worried about it. It is a worry about advancing and a worry about retreating. But when will it be? It must say: "The worries of the world are worried, and the joy of the world is happy." Belch! Weisi people, who am I with? ”

Old Minister Su was like being struck by lightning, and stared blankly at these lines of ink, especially at the two sentences.

[The worries of the world first, the joy of the world after the world]

His hands trembled slightly, obviously a few pages of light and fluttering, but it seemed to have a thousand weights!

It's obviously a sentence and fourteen words, but it seems to have written his life's spirit and ambition!

Because it is the cry and original intention of countless people who are loyal and patriotic, and have the world in their hearts!

"The worries of the world are worried, and the joys of the world are happy."

He muttered, and then laughed, "Weisi people, who will I return!" ”

——

Su Jiawu, Su Yuanshang's house.

An old man came out of the backyard.

Two women hurriedly surrounded them, one was older and the other was not middle-aged, but they both looked concerned.

"Old man/father, how's it going?"

The old man, who had just visited his son, shook his head, "This child, hey! ”

A long sigh of complexity, a long silence.

seems to be regretting Su Yuanshang's years of hard study;

seems to be lamenting his long-awaited efforts in the past;

It's like summing up the persuasion that has gone one after another these days.

They actually understand Su Yuanshang in their hearts, just in their prime, the good future is lost, and how to spend this long life, if it is them, they may be even more difficult to accept.

But at the same time, they still have a glimmer of hope.

Life is still long, why can't you cheer up?

The official road is cut off, is there no other way out if you don't become an official?

At worst, I am studying at home, husband and wife are harmonious, raising children, and the future children and grandchildren are full, and this experience is not in vain!

But now, this glimmer of hope is also very small, which is tantamount to a fool's dream.

A rush of footsteps woke up the three people who were standing silently in the room.

The housekeeper hurriedly came, "Old lady, old lady, lady, eldest lady is here." ”

These titles are connected together, and combined with the behavior of the steward, it seems a little weird.

But in Sujiawu in these years, it will not cause any misunderstanding.

Because the eldest lady who doesn't add all the additional titles just refers to that one accurately, the eldest lady of the rest of the families should already be called the eldest sister.

Mrs. Su's face turned slightly pale, "You can't be here to let us move places, right?" ”

This is the biggest heart problem she has had in addition to worrying about her husband these days, and she didn't think about the unreasonableness at all, and she went out in fear.

Su Yanyan nodded slightly to the three of them, and then said, "I want to see Uncle Yuan Shang." ”

Mrs. Su said stubbornly: "So that the eldest lady knows, my husband is quite depressed these days, and he drinks all day long, and he is afraid of bumping into the eldest lady." ”

On the side, Su Yuanshang's mother also chimed in: "The eldest lady has a daughter's body, deign to come, I'm afraid that Yuanshang can't afford it!" ”

Su Yanyan said lightly: "It's okay. ”

At this point, everyone didn't have much to say, so they had to lead Su Yanyan over in fear.

He not only prayed that Su Yuanshang would not anger the next head of the family too much, but also fantasized about the miracle that Su Yanyan could cheer Su Yuanshang up.

Following everyone towards the backyard, Su Yanyan's personal maid looked at the back of her young lady, quite helpless.

I heard that this person rescued him from the clan, and he didn't want to serve the clan, but he was drunk all day long, and that Xia Gongzi came to persuade him several times before to no avail, so why should Miss come and ask for hardship!

This shouldn't be something that the eldest lady should worry about!

Not to mention everyone's complicated thoughts, Su Yanyan came to the backyard accompanied by the guards and Su Yuanshang's family, and smelled a smell of alcohol.

As we get closer, the wine gets stronger.

When I came to a room and opened the door, I was greeted by the smell of alcohol accompanied by the heating of the dragon in the house.

"Husband, the eldest lady is here!"

Mrs. Su hurriedly stepped forward and reminded anxiously.

Su Yuanshang leaned on the couch and looked at Su Yanyan, but he only arched his hand symbolically, and his body didn't sit up straight.

"The eldest lady is busy with affairs, if you ask me to move, just send a steward to inform you, and we can't resist."

"If you come to persuade me to do something else, the eldest lady can save some effort, please go back."

When everyone heard this, their faces turned white with fright.

Unexpectedly, Su Yanyan didn't get angry, "I'm just here to show you an article." ”

(End of chapter)