When your ordinary happiness is shattered, it is the good things of the past that can sustain you to continue to live. ’

When I looked at the photos on the wall, I was tired and tired, curled up under the covers, and the tide beat over my mind, carrying all kinds of memories......

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That afternoon, I got off work very early, drove home from the suburbs to pick up my children, and found that it was still early and a little tired, so I went home first, set an alarm clock, and leaned on the sofa for a while.

After the alarm went off, I stretched, rubbed my eyes and prepared to get up, a pink coat slipped off my body, and I was about to call Su Huan, but the phone rang.

"We are from the city hospital, are you Su Huan's family? ……”

I shuddered, my phone almost dropped, and I didn't have the heart to listen to the next words, so I quickly drove to the city hospital, and the half-hour drive felt like driving half a lifetime.

When I arrived at the door of the emergency room, just as the rescue was over, the red light went out, and the doctor told me that the rescue was ineffective. I immediately rushed in and looked at the two of them, I suddenly collapsed on the ground, I felt the sky spinning, my ears were ringing, I felt the sky fall.

It took me a long time to recover and bring their bodies home. Later, I learned that she was happily picking up her children that day and crashed into a large truck at a fork in the road......

After returning home, the parents of both families were in tears, fainted for a while, and the hair of the elders on both sides seemed to be half white overnight, and I didn't shed a single tear during this time, and I didn't even know how to cry. Her parents have always treated me very well, and they were terrified to see that I had been silent, and even comforted me with tears.

"I'm fine, don't worry." I tried to squeeze out a smile, and I knew that my smile was ugly at the moment. These were the first words I said after her accident.

For a long time after the funeral, I couldn't get out, I was late for drinking all day, and the factory fired me. For the next half a year, I squatted in front of the grave with a bottle of wine every day and drank alone, I seemed to be able to see them after drinking, this period was the happiest time for me during that time, sometimes crying, sometimes laughing, the people in the town thought that I was hit too hard, mentally disturbed, adults and children deliberately kept a safe distance from me.

"Xiao Huan, we once agreed that it would be for a lifetime." I sat on the stone pier in front of the tomb, filled with a sip of liquor, and looked at the sky with tears in my eyes. "I just want a simple life, why is it so hard."

"Xiaoxi, didn't you say that you have to spend your birthday with your parents every year, and you want your father to give you a gift, how can you forget!"

I hate myself, if I drove directly to the school gate to pick up Xiaoxi, it might not be separated from our family, I wanted to slap myself, but they would never come back.

The days of decadence were muddy, with long fluffy hair and long stubble, looking like a vagabond, languishing and depressed all day, often drunk on the sofa in the cemetery or bedroom, and drunk with alcohol.

My mother was also sick because of my depression.

"Your mother just fainted, come over and help take her to the hospital." My father called in a hurry.

I suddenly sobered up, and hurriedly drove to the old house to take my mother to the town health center, to the town health center, they said that the technical conditions were limited, and they could only temporarily suppress the condition, because I was drunk, the town ambulance sent my mother to the city hospital.

After being examined by the city hospital, the mother has a serious cerebral thrombosis, and high blood pressure is a major trigger, so she must take antihypertensive drugs in the future, and she must not have excessive mood swings.

After curing my mother, I found that I couldn't be so depressed, not for myself, but also for my mother, for the sake of the elders on both sides, the Su family only had one daughter, and at this moment I was the child of the two families, and I was the support of the two families, and I couldn't fall.

"Su Huan, I figured it out, I must cheer up, my parents need me, I have to go through this hurdle, this is what you want to see." I didn't drink again this time and was sober.

After half a year, I finally got back up from this gloom. After cutting my hair and shaving, I noticed that I had changed a lot during this time, with more gray hair and wrinkles. I have to earn money to take care of the family.

When I returned to work, I was able to spread my energy around work, and my state was getting better and better, and my parents were living as usual. And Su Huan's parents greeted me more.

More than a year after Su Huan and Xiaoxi left, Su Huan's parents persuaded me to find another partner while I was still too old, I knew that they felt sorry for me and had no one to talk to when I faced life alone, but I always insisted on not getting married again.

"Silly boy, our family Xiaohuan is not mistaken, but our old couple is really distressed to look at." The two elders said very worriedly.

"Mom and Dad, I really can't forget Xiao Huan and can't get over this hurdle, let's not mention this in the future, our family will be happy in the future."

"Okay, as long as you're happy." They didn't insist anymore.

I haven't forgotten what Su Huan said about the place where the family is going - Wudang Mountain, and this time I brought my wish: I hope that my family is healthy and safe! This was Su Huan's last unfulfilled wish before leaving.

I think that this wish may have been heard by the gods, and there will be no waves in life, and the elderly on both sides will be safe and healthy.

More than ten years have passed in the blink of an eye, I am nearly fifty years old, and both parents are in their seventies, except for my mother, who passed away five years ago, someone has introduced me to some women during this time, and I have never responded, I know that I can no longer hold anyone in my life except Su Huan's heart.

During this period, I often went to sit in front of the graves of Su Huan and Xiaoxi and quarreled with them, I was afraid that they would be lonely, and at the same time I was afraid of loneliness.

Work can make life fulfilling, and of course, work is not a substitute for everything, eating, sleeping, walking...... At these times, I often recall the bits and pieces of my life with Su Huan Xiaoxi, that time is now like a dream, and after a long time, I began to wonder whether it was my fantasy or the beauty that really existed, knowing that I went to see the two lonely tombs to determine the beauty that once existed, and the cold reality now.

The light was on in the room, and I slowly opened my eyes, and I knew that I had finally returned to reality, and a picture on the wall was now fixed in my mind for every memory, and at this moment, all the memories in this room came to mind.

I want to go to Su Huan and Xiaoxi's cemetery again, I want to talk to them, and I think our family should be reunited in a short time......