We will eventually take the train home, like the wild geese returning from winter, with the parting and sadness that time gives. ’

Twenty-two years old.

"It's okay to go back, I'll have to go back sooner or later anyway, and I know you may not like the environment here, it's okay, everyone's ambitions are different, it's good to make any decisions."

In the office, Wang Hui greeted me with a big hug.

After packing my things and getting ready to go, I found that I didn't have much nostalgia for this place except for being familiar with it.

On the way back, I chose the green train, and I wanted to sit in the car and think about something.

I like to sit in the car, the car races against time, and I can take a break between time and speed, and I can get a temporary relief from my spirit.

On the train, I occasionally looked out the window, occasionally closed my eyes, and occasionally glanced at other people. When you see some people, you can feel his suffering, when you see some people, you will taste his joy, and when you see some people, you will not understand how they can sleep so comfortably, which is enviable.

No matter how much you like the journey, there must be an end, and the time to be content with leisure will always pass so quickly.

When I arrived at the station, I deliberately took a bus and stopped at the gate of the former No. 1 Middle School Campus for a while.

In two years, the town has not changed much, it can be said that there has been no change, except for a few more new buildings, everything else is still the same.

"My grandson is back, how do you feel that you have lost weight, your grandfather went to buy meat, and I will cook you a delicious meal in the evening." My grandmother pulled me into the hall and began to ask about this and that, which was very affectionate.

My parents both work in the city, and when they heard that I was coming home, they asked me directly what I should do in the future, and suggested that I buy a house this year.

If you want to buy a house, the house price was relatively low in the first few years, and it has risen several times in the past two years.

In the face of these things, I want to rely on my own strength to live independently, they insist that they want to buy a house in the next two years, and then they want me to concentrate on earning money to get a girlfriend, and my grandparents with gorgeous hair also want me to find a girlfriend, I am surprised, according to the normal school, I guess I am still in school, this is going to get married and have children for the purpose of talking about friends will be a bit too much.

Years later, my parents took me seriously to look for a house in the town, and after looking for a long time, they found a three-bedroom and two-hall on the third floor, my father liked this house very much, I felt okay, my father asked my opinion, and then my parents insisted on most of it, I went out of the small half, and my father pulled me to decorate it again, so I naturally enjoyed this house for myself.

To be honest, I didn't really have any dreams when I went out, including now, I really don't know what I can do, my father said either learn a skill or go to the factory to work hard for a few years to save some money, maybe not a lot, at least save a little.

I really don't know what to learn, so I made a decision and wanted to go to the factory to work. The wages in the city are not lower than those in the coastal areas, but they are always close to home, and the heart is much more stable.

After making this decision, you can see with the naked eye that the attitude of distant relatives at home is not as good as before, and when you come home from out of town, they don't know what you are doing, and they may think that you can break through the world, and now that their fate has been fixed, they feel that you are like this. As the saying goes, a person ascends to heaven if he obtains the Tao, and if he does the opposite, it may be the opposite, which is the reason.

The pride in my father's heart was also consumed by me, and the indefinite expectations for me were finally disappointed, this is probably fate, and the choice at that time is also becoming a reality, I didn't believe in fate, but at this moment I believe and admit it......

At this time, there was no freshness when I first entered the factory, since Huang Qi disappeared from the moment of my life, life seemed to be less energetic, and I experienced the kind of torment that Wang Hui said about working in the factory, and the mechanical repetition day after day.

To say that the current life is okay, at least I don't have to think about anything, a salary that fluctuates up and down a month, and five insurances and one housing fund, sometimes it's not bad to think about it, it's quiet on a dull night, and I can live a fulfilling life when I go home from work to play games, listen to songs, and chase dramas.

I spent a year like this, to be honest, Huang Qi slowly seemed to be fading in my heart, but I didn't delete the photos of our past in the phone, and I still felt excited to see her from time to time, although I later heard that she had a child with that man a year after she separated from me, and she didn't graduate so she took a break from school, but then I never saw her in her circle of friends, and I only learned later that she avoided me when she posted these, and I saw a lot of those irrelevant and painless daily life.

I know these things about her, and I silently bless in my heart, but also a little sour, in the days after that, among the girls I have seen, there are more beautiful than her, but I have never had that heart-warming feeling for her, and I have never found it again, I even feel that I have lost her and lost the ability to love again.

She exists indifferently in my heart, and I don't bother to change the unlock password of my phone.

From time to time, I and my colleagues go to the night market to eat barbecue and drink beer, and watch the women around them change stubble after stubble, I also ignore it, how to greet and how to greet, and then eat and drink seriously.

I realized that where it is not the rivers and lakes, people say that those handsome stars on TV have a messy relationship, and that is just their rivers and lakes are magnified, why are they condemned, because they are in front of the camera, on the silver screen. Who cares about our rivers and lakes? No.

So those of us who are in the rivers and lakes will magnify our desires even more, and I, like them, have desires, but I frame myself with a box, and I am afraid that I will become a self that I don't understand, and at that time I can get the joy of a moment of desire indulgence, but I lose myself.

As my grandparents get older, they want me to start a family as soon as possible, and then I can hold my great-grandson, they say that I can see my great-grandson in this life and have no regrets, from the beginning of a slight mention to the meeting after the passage of time to have a few words, although I am a little resistant, but always give them a sentence is still early, not in a hurry and other words to hit the sloppy eyes.

After the age of twenty-four, they frequently brought up this topic, and I couldn't do anything about it, and there was no more heartbeat among the girls I got along with, and I even felt that I would never meet the girl who made my heart beat at the right frequency in my life.

As soon as I reached this age, my relatives and friends around me rushed to ask, and I also rushed to ask perfunctory. Forget about the pressure of their urging at work, and then use some of the money you have saved to buy a cheap car, and plan the occasional vacation to travel alone, which can also add some background to your dull life.

When everything is calm, there are always people in life who will drop a pebble and make some splashes, and I hate this little episode......