Chapter 35: It is difficult for a doctor to heal himself
After the rain, a layer of fog slowly rose in Yongxi Village.
After a heavy rain, the ground is moist, the sun rises, the temperature rises, the water evaporates, and a fog is formed.
The fog swam through the mountains, hazy and hazy, forming a huge canopy of heaven.
On the back hill of Yongxi Village, there is a cloud and mist, slowly rising.
The fog is all drifting with the breeze, but why does one place rise slowly from the bottom up?
The smoke was like cooking smoke......
At this time, Lin Zifan sent a message that they had entered the mountain according to the positioning of our vehicle, and Songtai City also sent police support as a guide to accompany the mountain, and everyone is now on the winding mountain road, which is expected to arrive in thirty minutes.
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Yongxi Village is a rich village.
The people here are simple and simple, the people live and work in peace and contentment, and there are primary schools, health centers, and Tulangzhong in the village.
Yongxi Village is the "treasure land of feng shui" in the mouth of the people, there has been no drought or waterlogging for decades, and the people's crops have been harvested every year, truly "more than every year".
Everyone has homesickness, living in their hometown, and being buried in their hometown when they die, which is called "returning to the roots".
There are many people in the village, some of them marry far away, some of them marry in, and young people go out to earn a living and return to the village to support their old age when they are old. What remains unchanged is that homesickness.
The villagers often say that "where the loess is not buried", but in private, they are in the nearby mountains, looking for a place to live in a hundred years.
Luo Qingyun's parents were buried in the back mountain of Yongxi Village, and at that time, the village had not yet moved.
Luo Qingyun's parents died of illness, his father died of cancer, and his mother died of a stroke.
From the beginning of his parents' illness, an idea to study medicine took root in his young heart.
He wants to be a doctor, to be a good doctor, to help patients heal, to help them live longer, to give them a good quality of life.
His father was bedridden with cancer and in unbearable pain. Therefore, after he became a doctor, he would ask the patient's family with deep feeling whether he wanted to continue the treatment.
Because he knows that when a person is sick and bedridden and has no quality of life, it is not only the family members who take care of the patient, but also the patient himself who suffers.
In that era when education was not paid attention to in the countryside, Luo Qingyun's parents paid great attention to his education. When Luo Qingyun doesn't study well, he will be beaten, scolded, and starved. Luo Qingyun didn't understand what his parents were doing at that time, he only saw that the neighbor's children could go out to play after school, and no one cared if he studied hard at school and did his homework when he returned home.
Luo Qingyun also wants to play freely with the children in the same village after school.
But at Luo Qingyun's home, he not only had to repeat what he had learned in school during the day to his parents, but also complete his homework under the supervision of his parents, even though his parents were illiterate and did not know whether he wrote correctly or not.
Because Luo Qingyun's parents know that if they have no culture, they will have to stay in the village for the rest of their lives to farm.
They know the hardships of farming.
They have no culture, but their knowledge changes fate.
After graduating from primary school, Luo Qingyun was sent to the town's middle school.
Although the road is far away, Luo Qingyun's father will ride a bicycle, regardless of winter and summer, rain and snow, to take him home. Because he was afraid that Luo Qingyun would live in the school and learn badly.
Meng's mother moved three times, pitying the hearts of parents all over the world.
It's just that the young Luo Qingyun didn't appreciate all this.
When he took the high school entrance examination, he didn't do well in the exam, and he was only admitted to the last high school in the city.
It was also at that time that Luo Qingyun's father was diagnosed with cancer, advanced lung cancer.
A teenager will always grow up overnight, and he doesn't need anyone's persuasion, just a small thing.
But what Luo Qingyun experienced was not a trivial matter.
That night, he suddenly woke up, and a sense of responsibility arose. In the days to come, he is the man of the family and the pillar of the family. He needs to use his own shoulders to carry the whole family.
High school is in the city, Luo Qingyun can no longer go home every day, he can only choose to live on campus.
When his classmates smoked, drank, fought, and fell in love, he was the only one who stayed up late and studied hard.
Everyone laughs at him for being a nerd, but no one knows what's going on in his heart. Now, he wants to get ahead, and he wants his parents to see the day he gets ahead.
The tree wants to be quiet but the wind does not stop, and the child wants to raise but does not wait.
The day after he received his acceptance letter to the medical university, his father left him forever.
He buried his father in the mountain behind Yongxi Village, and his mother told her that if she died, she would also be buried here, this is their home, their roots.
In this way, Luo Qingyun began his medical career.
Survival is human instinct. No one wants to die, everyone wants to live, but illness has become an obstacle.
How desperate it is at the moment when a person is sick......
Even if there is a lot of reluctance, there is nothing that can be done.
What Luo Qingyun wants to do is to be a doctor who can "really" save people, he wants to become a doctor with a scalpel, and he has to rely on his own strength to snatch back one fresh life after another from the hands of death.
He knows that the Grim Reaper is powerful, and all he can do is do his best, and he can save one by one.
But there were many times when he couldn't do anything.
In the ICU, he has seen too many lives and deaths, and the most difficult thing for him to say is: "We have done our best." ”
He often wondered if he would save more people if he had worked harder.
Thinking like this, he has been working in the hard and tiring ICU for decades.
Luo Qingyun practiced medicine to save people, and felt that he could accumulate yin virtue for himself, so as to bless his mother, but his mother still died of a stroke.
In accordance with his mother's wishes, he buried her in the back mountain of Yongxi Village, next to his father's grave.
A year later, the village was relocated, and the government built a relocation building for the villagers in Songtai City, and also solved the employment problem for everyone in the nearby factory.
But all this, Luo Qingyun's parents can no longer see it.
In this way, Yongxi Village became an uninhabited village overnight, and no one came here again.
There is only one man who will drive here alone and go to the grave of his deceased parents, year after year, year after year.
After a few years, a man would bring a woman and come here to worship.
After a few years, the two will bring their children and come here to worship.
And today, there is only one man, with heavy steps, supporting a somewhat tired body, with a lonely body, slowly walking up the back mountain.
He knelt in front of his parents' graves and wept silently.
As the coins burned, in the firelight, he saw the smiling faces of his parents.
At this moment, he was sad.
At the same time, he was relieved.
For so many years, he studied medicine, but he saved people's lives, but he couldn't save people's hearts......