Just when I was fighting with Yuxiu, Concubine Jing hurriedly came to "Stop!" What's going on! ”

"Concubine Jing Niangniang...... Save the concubine ......" Yuxiu cried and begged Concubine Jing for help.

Seeing this, Concubine Jing shook her head helplessly. Then, he came over to help me up, and coaxed me softly, "Concubine Xian, you are messing around again." ”

"Hee-hee-......" I raised my little face and said with a smile, "She's beautiful...... She's so beautiful......"

I'm a crazy person, and of course I won't apologize to Yuxiu. So Yuxiu is dumb today, and she can't say anything.

In addition, Concubine Jing is the person who is Qing'er's sister. Even if Yuxiu is the sister of Qing'er's sister, but she is so unreasonable, Qing'er's sister will not allow her.

Sure enough, Concubine Jing only said a few words, and let Yuxiu go back to her palace.

Yuxiu originally came to find me to be angry, but who knew that she was beaten like this, and she was unwilling.

I saw that she had only walked a few steps, and then she turned back and said, "Niangniang...... There is something wrong with the concubine! ”

"What?"

Yuxiu first smiled at Concubine Jing, and then glared at me fiercely, "This Luo family has committed such a big crime, and almost the entire Luo family has been beheaded."

Imperial Physician Luo can still survive because his sister's body needs him to take care of it. But this concubine is the root of all disasters, why does the emperor still want to keep her life? ”

Luo family, beheaded!

In my originally stupid eyes, a touch of shock unconsciously flowed out. In my heart, I don't know whether to believe Yuxiu's words or not.

Didn't Russell say that the Luo family was just sent to the frontier? Even Sister Qing'er told me that.

Why is it that now that it has reached Yuxiu's mouth, the people of my Luo family have been beheaded?

She's lying to me...... She must be lying to me......

When I think of me, my expression returns to the same as before. Although he pretended not to understand anything, his thoughts were all pinned on Concubine Jing.

If Yuxiu is talking nonsense, Concubine Jing will definitely blame her. But if what Yuxiu said was the truth, then even if Concubine Jing had the intention to hide this secret, she couldn't embarrass Yuxiu in public.

After all, Concubine Jing took care of me, which is a private matter. If it is done too obviously, it will inevitably provoke the dissatisfaction of others. Thus, contrary to the original purpose of protecting me.

After waiting for a while, I heard Concubine Jing Niangniang speak, "Aren't you and Concubine Xian the old days?" Just want her to die? Jin Meiren's question should be asked to the emperor. ”

It's just a doubt in my heart, and because it's old, I think she's very pitiful. In the whole world, she is the only one with the blood of the Luo family. ”

With that, Yuxiu hooked her lips and smiled at me. Then, they made a salute, "The concubine retires." ”

……

I looked at Yuxiu's swaying figure, as if I had fallen into a dark hell.

The people of the Luo family were all beheaded...... The people of the Luo family were all beheaded!

In the whole world, I am the only one who has the blood of the Luo family!

Concubine Jing did not refute Yuxiu, but used a vague rhetorical question to solve this problem. But no matter how vague Concubine Jing is, it's useless.

Yuxiu's smug look when she looked at me, and her satisfaction when she left, showed everything early.

She came just to let me know the truth, to make me miserable.

Scold......

It turns out that Russell and Sister Qing'er have been lying to me for so long!

What is assigned to the frontier, what has hope as long as it is alive, it is all fake! Fake!

Why! Why did God do this to me!

At first, I thought that as long as I didn't drink that bowl of soup and medicine, as long as I was strong and boiled up, the Luo family would be able to show the snow. However, the emperor completely destroyed my hope.

Later, I survived by pretending to be crazy and stupid. Thinking that when Sister Qing'er has a firm foothold, she will definitely be able to find innocence for the Murong family and the Luo family, and bring the two families back from the cold land of the frontier.

But now...... Yuxiu said that the Luo family no longer exists.

All my perseverance and hard work, and the hope I have in my heart, are all my own wishful thinking.

……

I sat alone by the dry well in the courtyard, hugging my thin shoulders. All that flashed in my mind was my father's loving voice and smile.

It's me...... It's all because of me.

Without me, my father would not have had an accident in old age. If it weren't for me, the Murong family wouldn't have been implicated.

I'm stupid...... I'm stupid!

The belly pocket is gone, and I can't get it back. I was framed, and I have nothing to say. The Luo family is destroyed, and there is nothing I can do.

In this life, I am hopeless.

In that case, what am I still alive for?

The innocent Murong family was implicated, and his father, who was not at fault, had already fallen to the ground!

And I, the culprit, why do I still pretend to be crazy and stupid to live?

I think I know how arrogant and lofty I was back then.

Now, he spends his days alone in this cold palace, talking crazy several times a day, making himself look like a ghost or a ghost.

No...... I've had enough of these days!

The reason why I was struggling at the beginning was because my father was still there and my family was still there. But now, my father is gone, who can I be worthy of if I am still alive?

I'm sorry for my father, I'm sorry for the Murong family, and I'm sorry for myself!

I think...... Follow your own wishes and make a choice for yourself. Instead, live to drag Russell and Sister Qing'er!

Yes, I have always been led by others, and I have never followed my own heart.

I love Brother Yusheng, but I went against my wish to marry him and entered the palace as a concubine.

I didn't want to sleep, but I chose to endure in silence because I couldn't do anything.

I want to be free, but because I am the daughter of the family, I never dare to make a choice unbridled.

When should I laugh and when I want to cry. When to say what to say and what to do, it is always a matter of going with it.

Now that it's come to this, I really don't want to go on like this, meaninglessly!

……

After I entered the cold palace, Russell always came to me every once in a while to ask for a pulse.

Because there is Qing'er's sister and Concubine Jing above, I am a crazy person. Even if others knew, they always turned a blind eye and never interfered.

Yes, I'm a woman who has lost her mother, and who has lost her sanity and innocence. In their eyes, I don't want to go out of the cold palace again for the rest of my life.

What's more, now that even the emperor ignores me, how can I still be a threat?

On this day, Russell came to the cold palace as usual with a medicine box on his back.

"Hua'er, I brought you a flower chicken, come and smell it, is it fragrant?"

I got up and sat down across from Russell and watched as he smiled as he took a pack from his medicine box and carefully opened it in front of me.

"You're secretly carrying things to the kilometre again......" I stretched out my hand to take it, but said, "Didn't I tell you not to take risks?" ”

"Don't you like to eat?" Russell didn't care about this, "Although now Concubine Jing Niangniang is the assistant of the sixth palace, take more care of you."

But after all, she is a person on top, and many things will inevitably not be taken into account. Since I can come to see you, I should bring you something you like. ”

"This is called flower chicken so rare, I can't even bear to eat it." My heart was slightly sour, and I bit my lip and burst into tears.

Seeing this, Russell hurriedly wiped away my tears, "You eat quickly, don't be reluctant." I'll bring it to you again in a while. ”

When I saw that he doted on me so much, the sorrow in my heart spread out in all directions for no reason: "Good...... I eat ......"

Before he died, he was able to eat his favorite flower chicken, and he was not a starving ghost.

"Brother Su" I chewed the fragrant chicken in my hand and said, "Is Qing'er okay?" ”

Russell was stunned for a moment, and said, "Don't worry, she is the queen's mother, and she is better off than you." ”

"I haven't seen her for almost a year, and I really miss her." I lowered my head and whispered, "It's my birthday in a few days, and I don't know if she's free to come and see me." ”

"Why did you suddenly remember to see her?" Russell sighed and said, "Now that you are in the Cold Palace, she is high in the Kunning Palace, with different statuses and different identities......

"I know" I know that Russell is afraid that I will cause trouble for each other when I meet my sister. However, I really want to look at her again before I die" However, I am alone in the cold palace, and I am really lonely......

Looking at the entire harem, I can only talk to her. No matter how different our identities are, no matter how different our statuses are, she and I are sisters. ”

"Okay," Russell has always been like this, and can always understand my thoughts, "Since you want to see her, I will pass the word on your behalf tomorrow." ”

"Brother Su, thank you."

"Quick, hurry up and eat the chicken." Russell saw that I was so polite, and he felt a little helpless, "This thing, the longer you keep it, the worse the taste will be." ”

"Good ......"

I tried my best to stop my tears, and obediently ate the flower chicken, and I couldn't bear to disappoint Russell.

The chicken is already cold, and the taste is indeed not as good as when it was made. But now, a mouthful of chicken in my mouth is enough to satisfy me.

Russell saw that I was eating happily, and his face was somewhat comforted. He found silk cloth for me and checked my pulse.

Later, he said that my body was too weak, and I had to cultivate well, and I didn't think too much.

When I saw him off, I took the initiative to take his hand for the first time, "Brother Su, you have to take care." ”

Russell's body shook, "What? ”

"I said, everyone in the Luo family was exiled to the frontier, and you are alone in the palace, so you have to take care of yourself." I smiled and said gently, "I'm locked up in the cold palace now, I'm afraid I won't be able to get out of this life, and I won't be able to take care of you ......"

When Russell heard me say this, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, "Silly girl, don't worry, I'll take care of myself." ”

……

The cold palace at night is always particularly eerie and terrifying, and the lone lamp in the courtyard is accompanied by the ghosts crying and wolf howling outside, swaying in the wind.

I sat at the table and waited.

If Russell had passed the word after he returned, Sister Qing'er should have come too.

"Sister......

Sure enough, in a trance, I heard a familiar voice.

I raised my head and beckoned, "Qing'er, you're here." ”

Sister Qing'er hurriedly stepped forward and said with a crying voice, "Didn't I explain that Concubine Jing can't be without your use?" Why are you so thin now? ”

"She doesn't lack anything for me, and she sends me new clothes every month, but I don't want to dress up."

I looked at a person as big as Sister Qing'er, and she was still crying like when she was a child, so I couldn't help but pat the back of her hand and said, "A concubine who has lost her heart and is crazy and secretly gives birth in the cold palace, it is better to keep to herself." ”

"Nonsense!" Sister Qing'er's face was serious, "Sister, I don't allow you to say that about yourself." ”

When I heard this, I smiled and said, "Okay, okay, since Qing'er is here today, can I help my sister make a good mess?" ”

I still remember when I was a child, whenever I went to Murong Mansion, or when Qing'er's sister came to Luofu, we always changed our clothes for each other.

From choosing clothes to hair accessories, jewelry, and makeup, everything should be considered.

I always pick out calm and restrained clothes for her, and dress her up as a lady. Counting on her, she can be gentle and virtuous, and she will marry well in the future.

As for her, she tried her best to choose some regular clothes that were convenient for me to move around. And because I didn't like to take care of myself since I was a child, I couldn't comb my hair, so I always combed a round bun. said yes, only by moving like a rabbit can Brother Yusheng like it.

Hehe...... At that time, we always hated each other, but we never tired of it.

Although it was late at night, Sister Qing'er and I were not tired at all.

She ordered Qiaohui to bring me water, and gently and considerately washed my face and hair. Then, I chose a royal blue dress for me to change into, although it was not gorgeous, but it was clean and elegant.

"Qing'er, my sister remembers that when you were a child, you didn't care about yourself the most, but you liked to help Siqi comb their hair. Today, my sister asked you to comb my sister's hair, how about it? ”

When Sister Qing'er heard this, she immediately picked up the wooden comb on the side, "It's good if my sister doesn't dislike it." ”

There was no decent dresser in the cold palace, only a bronze mirror that was broken to the point that only half of it was left.

Sister Qing'er's movements were very careful, as if she was afraid of hurting me. Her expression was very serious, and her whole body exuded the radiance of motherhood.

This time, she didn't comb my hair again. Instead, he looked at my clothes and combed me in a generous and decent bun.

Subsequently, he helped me apply rouge gouache and tossed a lot of effort before he lightly opened his lips and said, "It's done!" ”

I looked at myself in the mirror and was amused, "It's a little bit like that, but after tonight, it won't look like that again." ”

Sister Qing'er burst out laughing, "Sister Dare to love is willing to clean herself up in order to welcome me?" ”

I laughed embarrassedly.

Sister Qing'er, after tonight, I won't go back. There is no future, and naturally there will be no such glamorous and moving appearance.

However, before I die, I have no regrets in my life if you can personally dress me up!

I took Qing'er's sister's hand and looked at her carefully. found that she was dressed simply today, and the orchid hairpin on her hair has always looked very good.

I know this hairpin......

The hairpin is extremely beautiful, but sharp and sharp. This is what General Murong gave to Qing'er's sister for self-defense.