Die...... Won't forgive me...... She said she would never forgive me if she died.

No matter how much I paid for her, I deceived her after all.

yes, I lied to her. How could I deceive her? Don't I know that she trusts me?

At this moment, my heart suddenly cut like a knife. It wasn't because of the cruel things she said to me, but because I felt like I didn't deserve to be trusted for the rest of my life.

In addition, more is distressed.

I feel sorry for Yuqing's eyes when she looks at me now, I feel sorry for her being kept in the dark, I feel sorry for her and she wants to seek answers, but I can't tell her what happened behind her scenes.

Since the collapse of Luo Mansion and Murong Mansion one after another, in fact, Yuqing and I have worked hard to support the same things. Even, she has to endure more than I do.

As far as she is concerned, I am the only person in the world who deserves her 100% trust. But now, even the people she thought would not betray her played tricks on her......

I could feel her despair, but I couldn't comfort her with words like empathy.

Although I have also deceived her because I have no choice but to deceive her, and my heart is barren. But I'm not her after all, and I can't bear the unknown for her.

I hesitated for a long time before I wrote on the paper:

- I'll tell you in a little while, my body is not healed yet, and I can't hold a pen.

Even though, Yuqing and I both know in our hearts what kind of roles we play each other on the "stage". But I still have a little weakness and don't want to speak.

"It doesn't matter if you can't hold the pen, you just need to nod and shake your head." But Yuqing has always been stubborn, where can I get rid of it in a few words?

I saw her sneer, aggressive, "When did Yunhe get poisoned, and what kind of poison was it, you knew it from the beginning, right?" ”

I listened to Yuqing's words and involuntarily raised my head. At this time, the expressions of Yunhe and Nian Yi in the room fluctuated slightly, and they were like Yuqing, looking forward to my answer.

If I faced Yuqing lightly, maybe I could still struggle for a while, but now, with the two children looking at me with wide eyes, I can no longer resist it.

That's it, that's it!

Even if Yuqing had already guessed everything, it didn't matter.

The emperor's time is running out, even if Yuqing knows the truth, rushes back to the capital from here, and tries his best to enter the palace, it will be too late.

So, I closed my eyes in despair and nodded.

Yuqing's feet were soft and she almost fell to the ground.

The eyes that looked at me became more and more heartbroken and desperate.

"The person who wants to poison Yunhe is Qingcang, and the person who brings the poison to Yunhe is the Imperial Concubine Wuhuang. And the poison when you poison it comes from you, right? ”

"It was Qing Cang's idea to let Yunhe fake his death in the eyes of the whole world. And you and the dancing concubine are accomplices in this conspiracy! Bringing Yunhe from the palace to the secret room of Luofu and imprisoning him again was simply at the behest of Qing Cang.

From the capital to Jiangnan, the people who secretly protect you have always been the shadows sent by Qingcang. Qing Cang is not a faint king at all! Everything he did was to force me and my children to leave the capital, right? ”

Right! You're right!

I didn't even think about it, so I nodded.

Everything is a situation set up by the emperor with painstaking planning, all in order to force you and your children to leave the capital and be safe and sound during the war.

You and your children are both insiders.

You're right!

The emperor is not a faint king, he loves you and loves you miserably.

Since I chose to nod my head in the first place, I didn't have the possibility of shaking my head again for any questions she asked next.

Even though, I know better than anyone else how much Yuqing expects me to shake her head at her.

Because I only have to shake my head at her, I can deny all her speculations, and I can deny my deception to her. In this way, she can hold a grudge and live day after day.

Instead of......

With guilt, it is difficult to get by.

Yuqing saw me nodding again and again, and the bitterness at the corner of her mouth was obvious, "It took two months for you and Yunhe to come from the capital to find me. And in June, the news that Qing Cang suddenly dismissed the harem concubines also spread throughout Dongling. Brother Russell, what exactly do you want to do? ”

What do we want to do?

I want to give you a world without threat, and I want you and your children to spend the rest of your life together in peace.

What else do you want to do?

So, with difficulty, I picked up the pen and wrote crookedly:

——The emperor's dismissal of concubines did make the capital change. However, it is not enough for me to abandon my wife and children and bring Yunhe to Jiangnan to look for you.

I specially wrote down the words of abandoning my wife, hoping that Yuqing could remember that I disregarded the fear of my life, left the entire Luo Mansion, and came to find her painstaking heart. And don't, do not act irrationally when you know the truth.

I saw Yuqing's eyes, and sure enough, they flashed when I wrote the words "abandoning my wife". So, he continued to tell her the truth.

I said that it was because the eldest prince found out that Yunhe was in my mansion. I said that leaving the capital was the emperor's order.

"Sure enough...... The cat in this is really not simple. Yuqing sneered and said, "Brother Russell, thank you for your confession." In the next few days, I will help you find a good place to recuperate. ”

I listened to Yuqing's words and couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

When she said this, it proved that she had no doubts in her mind at this time. And I don't have to be forced by her to answer all kinds of questions that I don't want to speak, or that are difficult for me to speak.

OK......

That's all she knows.

OK......

Regarding the emperor's body, she has no doubts at all.

In this way, it can be regarded as me being worthy of the emperor and Yuqing at the same time.

Although I couldn't help the emperor hide his hard work, I did hide his evil disease. As for Yuqing, I told her frankly everything she asked.

In heaven and earth, in the emperor and in Yuqing, I have a clear conscience.

But......

This breath was not relaxed for a while, and when I thought about it, I suddenly realized that something was wrong.

With Yuqing's temperament, she will not be so calm.

Thinking of this, I suddenly became nervous, "Hmm......mm"

However, Yuqing didn't pay attention to my wordless persuasion at all, but said lightly, "I will find a quiet place again and let you recuperate." It will also leave flowers to serve by your side. As for me...... It's time to go back to the capital. ”

"Hmm...... Hmm...... "I grabbed Yuqing's hand and shook my head desperately.

No! She can't go back now!

Although, when I decided to tell her everything, I did think about it, and even if she went back now, it would be too late.

However, it was all right.

If the emperor's plan to die together with the eldest prince succeeds, Yuqing will naturally be fine when he rushes back at this time. However, if the eldest prince survived, he saw the emperor's thoughts. That...... Yuqing going back at this time is equivalent to a sheep in the mouth of a tiger!

I raised my pen and wrote on the paper:

——The palace in the capital is a lifelong support for you and your children, and you really have to go back. But, now is not the time.

"You're not me, how do you know this isn't the time?" Yuqing saw what I wrote, and was very sarcastic, "Brother Russell, I don't care what your plans are, whether it's for my good or not."

I'm ...... now I just want to take my child back to the palace now, and ask him in person what he means by hearing people! ”

After that, Yuqing resolutely turned around and left, not giving me any chance to dissuade me. Even if I couldn't stop whimpering on the bed, even if my eyes were full of tears and asked her not to leave, she still didn't have the slightest relent.

……

Yuqing finally returned to Beijing with her two children, and because my body did not heal, I have been taken care of by Huajing and others.

By the time I was almost in good shape, everything was fine.

The emperor's plan succeeded, and he died with the eldest prince.

I didn't get to see it with my own eyes. But I heard that the fire of the Jinluan Hall burned all night. Yuqing and the child watched the emperor disappear into the flames, watching the Jinluan Palace turn to ashes, but they couldn't do anything at all.

After the emperor died, he left a holy decree.

said that he ascended the throne as a young man and did nothing for more than 30 years, but he did his best to protect the safety and well-being of the community. He also confessed that he was ashamed of the world and his subjects, and in order to protect the royal heirs, I told a big lie. Bury the prince, abolish the queen, and send the harem.

He hoped that the civil and military officials could take more care and support for Yuqing's mother and son after his death. Dare to admonish and provide more assistance.

The position of the Son of Heaven was passed on to the crown prince Wenren Yunhe, and canonized Yuqing as the Empress Dowager Zhaojing Shuci, assisted the new emperor to ascend the throne, listened to the government, and took charge of the jade seal until the new emperor took on the great responsibility.

In addition, he also specially explained to the world, and when his baby girl Nian Yi grew up, she would choose her son-in-law as she wished, and mortals could not force or kiss. Regardless of whether the son-in-law is rich or poor, he will marry with a hundred miles of red makeup.

Yunyan, on the other hand, was given the fiefdom of Yunnan as the king. The Emperor Dancing Concubine made unlimited contributions to the rebellious ministers, and was canonized as a virtuous concubine, given to live in the concubine's house, and accompanied Yuqing to the end of her life.

To be honest, the emperor was really thoughtful.

Whether it is Yuqing, the three children, or the virtuous concubine, he has made all the arrangements.

Except for me.

I remember telling him that if his plan succeeded, Yuqing's mother and son would successfully get the world. I don't need to be prosperous and rich, I just hope that I can wander the world with my wife and children and live freely.

He obviously promised me, but in the end, he didn't say a word.

I know that he is going to give me the right to stay to Yuqing. Let Yuqing decide whether to let me go or let me stay in the capital.

Yuqing and I, aren't Yuqing's favors more important?

At first, I blamed him in my heart.

But when I returned to Beijing, I found that the entire Luo Mansion was safe and sound. The two children, not only did not suffer any harm, but also gained weight. The blame for the emperor in my heart slowly dissipated.

I can't imagine how the emperor, who was really isolated and helpless, managed to protect my wife and children so well after I left the capital. I can't imagine how much effort he put into it. So in comparison, freedom doesn't seem to be so important.

As long as the family is alive and stays, leave it to Yuqing.

……

In December, heavy snow fell.

Qiaohui was dressed in a rose red dress and a snow-white coat, standing at the gate of Luofu waiting for me.

When I came back, the first thing I said was, "Russell, you've lost weight." ”

My eyes blurred for a while, and I didn't have time to think about it, so I hugged Qiaohui into my arms. I hugged her with all my strength, almost overwhelming her.

"Luo ...... Russell ...... I couldn't breathe...... ......"

When I heard this, I let go of my hand slightly, but the strength that wanted to tie her into my bones and blood still didn't stop.

Out of breath? But what to do? Qiaohui, I miss you so much.

I miss you...... I want to go crazy!

It's good that I'm back alive.

The storm has finally passed, and our family can finally live peacefully.

Don't worry about moving your head, no revenge, no need to live in intrigue. Just live so peacefully...... That's nice.

"Russell, I made you braised pork noodles."

Did you make noodles?

Qiaohui, it's a pity that I just want to eat you now.

I'm not interested in any scallion pancake braised pork noodles at all.

"Russell, let me go, let's go back to the house first, it's cold outside."

Not cold......

If you're cold, I'll hold you tighter.

Hold you tightly in your arms, and you won't be cold.

"Russell, what's wrong with you? The more you talk about you, the more ...... you become Alas...... Like a child. ”

Haha, silly and clever. All men are a child in front of the woman they love, don't you know?

In the past, you were always messing around with me, but now I am here occasionally, why not?

"Russell, you made my feet a little numb."

Don't be afraid, hold it for a while.

Your feet are numb, and your husband will carry you back later.

"Well, forget it. Russell, it's good that you can come back. I miss you so much......"

Well......

Since returning home, this sentence is the most popular.

……

On the second day after returning home, Yuqing sent me to Cining Palace for dinner.

In Cining Palace, there are no extravagant furnishings, and there is no green smoke when the biological mother of the eldest prince lived. Yes, it's just Yuqing's usual elegant style, and there is a sorrow that is so thick that it can't be dissolved.

She didn't say anything about my deception, just drank glass after glass and talked nonsense.

I just listened, never answered.

"Brother Russell, I'm only twenty-eight years old, and I'm the queen mother, heh...... Hahaha......"

"Have you ever seen a twenty-eight-year-old Queen Mother? You must have never seen such a young Queen Mother. In the future, if you are fine, you and Qiaohui will come into the palace to see me a few times. It's a surprise. ”

"Brother Russell, how can you say that Qingcang can be so ruthless? It wasn't a big deal, and it didn't reveal anything to me......"

"Brother Russell, I heard that people are 100 years old. Those who are in good health are above 100 years old. Those who are physically impaired have a very short lifespan. I wish I had lived a few years less, don't you think? ”

"I'm only twenty-eight years old this year, if I live a long time, how will I live the rest of my life?"