"Really?" Jin'er didn't believe what I said, "Is it really as simple as using it?" ”

"What if not?" I asked rhetorically.

"If everything was just utilization, maybe we wouldn't have come to this point." Jin'er smiled bitterly and said, "Cousin, you are a man I have admired since I was a child. Every word in your mouth, every expression on your face, every look in your eyes, I know their meaning better than anyone else.

At the beginning, when you and I visited Qing'er, you were so indifferent and alienated from her. If you tell me that you thought of taking advantage of her at that time, I believe it. But as time goes on, you get to be impressed by her.

Although we don't usually see each other often, every time you mention her to me, you hold back your feelings again and again. But...... You can fool me, others can't fool me! Whether it's a pretending calm cover-up, or a glint in your eyes. It all made me see your feelings for her clearly! ”

After that, Jin'er's eyes were covered with a layer of tears, "The moment Qing'er reappeared from Kunning Palace, my aunt waited for four whole years!" I think, with my aunt's temperament, I should have urged you to hurry up in the past four years, right?

I close my eyes and imagine how you deal with your aunt and tell her that Qing'er is different from others, so it takes more time. But is that really the case? No! A large part of the reason why Qing'er has been in Kunning Palace for so long is because of your selfishness.

If you are not interested in her, you only think about the big picture. Two years! At most, two years after you get close to her, it's time for her to come out! Instead...... Because you have moved your heart to her, you have not yet been notified of her will, and you have begun to waver first.

You hope to spend more time with her, and you hope that she will get farther and farther away from the emperor. I also hope that I can slash the emperor as soon as possible and take back everything that belongs to me. You're torn between taking her for yourself and using her for your ends, and in a flash, you're struggling for two more years. ”

"Is that enough?" I asked coldly.

I have to admit that Jin'er's words hit the nail on the head. Although I have only met her a few times in the past few years, she can still pierce my mind. But I don't like people to put on a face that sees me through. Even though I was ashamed of this person......

"Is my cousin scared?" At this time, Jin'er is no longer the empathetic girl she was at the beginning, she has vitality in her heart, and she can't wait to pull me along with her, "Afraid that my feelings for Qing'er will be known by others?" Afraid that someone with a heart will make a big fuss? ”

After that, Jin'er grinned with tears in her eyes and smiled at me, "Don't be afraid, cousin, I won't tell others your mind......"

"Jin'er!" I glanced at Jin'er coldly, feeling that she was very indifferent at this moment, "Do you know what you're talking about now?" Do you know who you're talking to! Does such random suspicion of others really make you feel more happy? ”

After that, I snatched the flask from her hand, "Jin'er, what's wrong with you?" You weren't so virtuous in the past! ”

"Once upon a time?" Jin'er smiled bitterly, "It would be nice if everything stayed in the past!" But on the contrary, I have been deceived by the harem, and I have been driven crazy by open and secret fighting! I don't want to live this kind of life anymore, I don't want to ...... anymore."

"It's always been the norm in the palace to fight openly and secretly, and I have always been the norm in the palace" I know that this is just an excuse that Jin'er is looking for at random, so he ruthlessly debunked and said, "You have been by Wenrenqingcang's side for more than ten years from the Prince's Mansion to the Forbidden City, you should have been used to it a long time ago, right?"

Why did it take until this time to come back to your senses and hate your body for not being able to help yourself? Do you know that your recent mood has made the queen very unhappy! ”

After that, I softened my tone slightly, "Jin'er, listen to my advice." I know that since your uncle's accident, you have had an extremely difficult time. Although she has the identity of the eldest lady in the An family, she lives under someone else's roof.

Later, for our great cause, she entered the Prince's Mansion and became Concubine Hua in the Forbidden City. He has been following his mother's instructions all day long, and has never had a comfortable day.

But now, we've been planning for so many years. As long as you grit your teeth and persist for a while, you will definitely be able to end this inhuman ordeal! At that time, you will have what you want, and you will not have to live a life of involuntariness.

Although the queen mother's thoughts are extreme and stubborn, she is an elder in the end, and she has broken her heart for her mother and us juniors in this life. Right now...... Even if you have a grudge against her, don't openly confront her. If you can listen to what she says, you can listen to it, if you can't listen to it, just find a few random words and perfunctory, okay? ”

"I understand what my cousin said," Jin'er shook her head slightly, and said, "But, I'll be tired too!" You're right, I couldn't help myself from the beginning, how big of a difference is it to suffer more than one day of grievances and less to receive one day of grievances?

But did my cousin ever think about it...... Even if you can get used to some things, you can do them day after day, and if you bear them year after year, there will be a day when you are overwhelmed. My aunt is indeed not easy, and she is getting older, as a junior, I should follow her wishes and make her as comfortable as possible. But...... I can't do it! ”

"You have been smart and sensible since you were a child, and I believe you can get your past self back." I couldn't bear to look at her pear blossom with rain, so I moved my head away, "Everything you did to the queen mother was very good before, and when I was not by the queen mother's side, you took care of the queen mother instead of me." ”

After that, I relentlessly said, "Since I was able to do it before, I will definitely be able to do it in the future." ”

"In my cousin's eyes, I'm just the well-behaved and sensible girl in your young memory, your cousin! But...... I've grown up, I'm a woman. I also have sensitive and vulnerable moments.

It's been more than ten years! Even if I am not emotional to him when I follow the emperor, I will be sad when my hands are stained with blood and I have lost one fetus after another. You only see the loveliness when I obey you, but you never think that in the cold and biting night, countless unborn fetuses come to me in my dreams to ask for my life! ”

"If you want to achieve great things, you shouldn't be limited to these small sections!" Woman, really still a woman" Who has not paved the road under their feet with corpse after corpse? Who has not had blood on his hands? In whose dreams, there have never been a few dead souls shouting for their lives! ”

I asked Jin'er word by word, "You have gone from Concubine Hua to Concubine Hua to Concubine An Guifei now, such a long road, haven't you killed people because of your selfishness?" Hearing that Qingcang was enthroned as the emperor by Prince Liwei, is the road under his feet clean?

If you hadn't killed anyone, what you've done over the years would have been exposed. Before the great cause, you have already sacrificed! If the road under Qingcang's feet was clean, my uncle would not have died, and I would not have fallen to this point today!

You have grown up, and you are no longer the innocent girl you were back then. You don't have to cry in front of me about the helplessness you woke up from your dreams. There is no need to shout about how much you have paid for the great cause. Because you know better than anyone that this is the path we are taking! Once you start, don't go back! ”

"I know!" Xu is my tone was too cold and serious, and Jin'er, who had always been demure and decent, was now a little crazy, and shouted at me, "I know that there is no possibility of turning back, and I also know that the dirty blood on my hands will not be washed clean for the rest of my life!"

But I have been paying for the great cause since I was a child, like a puppet with no thought at all, with no merit and hard work. Why doesn't my aunt even give me a child! ”

"What do you want your child to do!" I stared at Jin'er and asked, "You know that if I want to successfully seize the throne, I can't leave any of my blood!" Even if you do have a child, he will not be able to live at the last moment. The queen mother refuses to help you, because she is afraid that you will have feelings after you have a child! ”

"I'm lonely...... I'm lonely......" Jin'er cried and shook her head, not taking my words to heart at all, "My aunt worships the Buddha in Mount Emei all the year round, and my cousin rarely enters the palace to see me." Although I am respected by the emperor, I am a lord with no actual grace.

finally got married to one or two sisters, but in the end, because of the great cause, one was forced into the cold palace behind my back, and finally died in vain. One of them, though he was in the back of the throne, became an enemy with me.

The women in the palace felt that the hours after dark were particularly difficult, and I felt that even the blue sky and the day passed so slowly. I saw that Qing'er had a child, Tian Xiuyi had a child, and even Lin, who had asthma, also had a child.

My heart is itching! I want a child to be with me...... I want to go through what a mother should go through. Even if this kid ...... This child is not my flesh and blood, and I don't mind. ”

After that, Jin'er suddenly smiled at me, and her tone was slightly excited, "Cousin, do you know? That kid of Tian Xiuyi was really making a fuss. Every time Tian Xiuyi brought her over, I felt that time passed very quickly.

Although the child was spoiled by Tian Xiuyi and arrogant, but if he is a boy in the end, he should be cute. ”

"The fourth prince is not yours, and you can't get the third prince either." When I saw Jin'er like this, I knew that she had the idea of the third prince in her heart, so I reminded her, "Now that you are competing with Qing'er, although I don't want you to fight openly and secretly, I also have to remind you that you should cultivate your own power."

Tian Xiuyi's grace in recent years has been good, and she is the biological mother of the third prince. Holding her in your hands will be of great benefit to you and to our great cause. If you want to do something to her because of the third prince, I advise you to think twice. ”

After that, I added another sentence, "Whether it is the third prince or the fourth prince, I will not let it go in the end." So, even if you get custody, it's all for nothing. Since this is the case, it is better to cultivate the sweet cultivator with your heart.

Although she is not from a high background, she is not very smart. Fortunately, she trusts you very much and respects you for so many years. In the future, wherever she can be useful, you don't need to bother with your brains. ”

"Heh......" Jin'er sneered when she heard this, "Sure enough!" Sure enough, it was my aunt's son, and he said exactly the same thing as my aunt. The great cause of the mouth, the chess pieces of the mouth, it is really chilling to listen to.

I'm your cousin, I've been in the Forbidden City for so many years. How did you...... Can't you think about it for me? ”

"I said, as long as we succeed in our great cause, I will allow you and the queen mother whatever you want." I glanced at Jin'er and said very seriously, "Why do you bother to turn your horns at this time." ”

"I can give me anything I want, huh?" Jin'er was slightly at a loss, "Huh...... All right! I'll give me whatever I want...... That's nice. ”

Speaking of this, she raised her eyes and looked at me, "However, I have been waiting for this great cause for more than ten years. Whether it can be done or not, you don't count, I don't count. It's not that I don't believe in your abilities, but in many cases, the quality of luck is also closely related to success or failure.

I have exhausted my youth for this great cause, and I don't want any fame or status anymore. Just want to ...... I just want my cousin to honor my promise for the sake of me for so many years. ”

I listened and frowned slightly, "What do you want?" ”

"To have a child." She looked at me very calmly.

"Isn't what I just told you clear enough?" I asked.

"I've listened to what you just said," Jin'er smiled and said, "So, I don't have any hope for the three princes and the four princes anymore." ”

After speaking, she picked up the wine glass in her hand and got up, and walked towards me, "I want one now...... A child of their own. ”

"If you want to give it to you, you have been pregnant no less than ten times over the years." I sat up straight and replied lightly.

"Don't say he won't give, even if he does, I don't want it." Jin'er's voice was very soft and soft, "What I want is your child." ”

When I heard this, I was shocked, "What did you say?" ”

"Cousin, give me a child." Jin'er just looked at me like that, very calmly, "Since in the end, the emperor's children have to die, I don't bother with the custody of any children." I just want a child that belongs to you and belongs to me now.

If the great deed is achieved after many years, this child will be your eldest son or eldest daughter. If...... If we are unlucky, then he will also be a treasure in this palace. ”

After that, Jin'er said again, "Don't worry, whether it's a boy or a girl, I like it." As long as you're willing to give it to me...... I'm going to ......."

"You're crazy!" I interrupted Jin'er's words, and could no longer be as vague as in the past, "Do you know what an unreasonable request you made!" ”

"Unreasonable?" Jin'er seemed to have thought that I would reject her, and she was not annoyed. It's just that the desolation in his eyes is getting deeper and deeper, and his tone is becoming more and more sad: "You don't let me succeed the emperor's child, and you want me to work hard for you with all my heart." Asking you for a child doesn't seem like an exaggeration. ”