Regarding Manager Xue's suggestion, Liu Yiyi thought about it in her heart for a week, and the conclusion was unacceptable. When she came to this conclusion, she hated herself a little, and felt that she had become bad, and that such a simple question had tormented herself so painfully. After the decision, there is a little regret, an opportunity, a dream life, shining brightly, calling you in front of your eyes. It only takes one thought to get close to it, and everything in the dream is realized, but it is rejected by itself. With this painful conclusion, Liu Yiyi felt that she was still a good girl, not a bad girl. A girl, if she wants to be bad, how can she be bad? She can't steal and rob, she can only have that bit of badness.

Liu Yiyi's pain was to prove to herself that Manager Xue's words could not be established. She kept those words in her heart and thought about them repeatedly, trying to refute them sentence by sentence, but it was very difficult. This sense of powerlessness made her despair, and she doubted several times that her choice was unjustified. She hated her posture of riding on the wall, but the more she hated it, the more she wanted to prove that those words were wrong, and the more she wanted to prove it, the more difficult it was to prove it, as if those words were tumblers that couldn't be kicked down. She didn't understand and couldn't figure out why some girls were young and beautiful but wanted to be second wives, and couldn't they find a man seriously? But now I am only one step away from my second wife, and I understand what I don't understand, and I understand what I can't figure out. Manager Xue is not so unacceptable, although he has a family, and maybe other women, which makes her swallow it when she thinks about it, but he is not so difficult to accept! Liu Yiyi weighed it repeatedly in her heart, and when her head hurt, she simply stopped thinking about it, and she didn't need so many reasons to refuse, the only reason was that she didn't have a heartfelt passion for him. She has no other faith, love is her only faith. Without this faith, anything can be done, and that's terrible, it's terrible. In the name of faith, that's the reason. Even in this market era, this account should be calculated in this way. Liu Yiyi finally gave herself an explanation.

Liu Yiyi found an opportunity to call Manager Xue, told her thoughts, and finally said, "I'm afraid that my family will scold me." Manager Xue said a few times, Liu Yiyi wanted to seize the moment of silence and put down the phone, Manager Xue said: "Yiyi, let me ask you a question, do you think you are very beautiful?" Besides, a girl's youth has a price, where does she go to reflect this value? Liu Yiyi snorted, and Manager Xue said: "It's so beautiful, only one person appreciates it in your life, is it worthy of this beauty?" Aren't you aggrieved? Isn't it okay to have one more person to appreciate? Liu Yiyi was almost moved by what he said, and said in a panic: "I'm afraid of my parents." After saying that, he hung up the phone immediately. There was another call immediately, Liu Yiyi stood, one hand pressed on the red telephone, the bell jingled, she gasped, the hand trembled slightly, and the sweat on her forehead also oozed out. The bell stopped, and she sighed with relief.

Liu Yiyi didn't tell Miao Xiaohui about this, and no one said anything. I went the first time, and I went the second time, hesitated, wavered, and was very dishonorable. At the end of the week, Wen Ya said: "Sister Li of Avon Company called and told us to go tomorrow, and we all went. Liu Yiyi said: "I may not be able to go." Wen Ya said, "I also named you." Liu Yiyi thought to herself, she couldn't go, and said, "I have something tomorrow, something." I want to make up a story, but I don't want to lie, "There's something, there's really something." The next night they came back from the mall, Liu Yiyi asked, "How many sets have been launched?" Has the money been sent? Has anyone come to see you and entertain you? Miao Xiaohui said: "Manager Xue came, and left in a few minutes." Liu Yiyi was afraid that she would notice something, so she didn't ask again, thinking that she didn't go today, and Manager Xue should understand. Manager Xue is not the kind of person who stalks, and Liu Yiyi is still very sure of this.

The incident passed like this, and Liu Yiyi's heart calmed down. This calmness made her feel that she had made the right choice. But some of Manager Xue's words still sank into her heart, the beauty of women is for men to taste, youth is valuable, but it can't be deposited in the bank, this is all true. She became more and more aware of the passion in her heart, and she didn't want to hide it from herself anymore.

Two days before May Day, Fan Ji came from Beijing to see Miao Xiaohui, and Miao Xiaohui shouted "Fan Ji Fan Ji" in the dormitory. Liu Yiyi said: "Fan Ji, look, you are here, Xiaohui's tongue is big. They went outside, and Wu An'an muttered, "The cat's name is Chun." Liu Yiyi pretended not to hear. In the evening, Miao Xiaohui asked Liu Yiyi to go to dinner together, she held Fan Ji with one hand and Liu Yiyi's hand with the other. After eating, I went to the dance hall to dance, and after dancing, Miao Xiaohui said: "In the past two days, you will help me answer the roll call of class, and when others ask, you will say that I went to my aunt's house." Liu Yiyi squeezed her hand and said, "Be careful." ”

When the lights were about to go out at night, Wen Ya asked, "Why hasn't Miao Xiaohui come back yet?" He smirked as he frowned. Yi Fan said: "This is normal. Liu Yiyi said: "Miao Xiaohui said that she went to her aunt's house. Wu Anan pouted and made a look of disbelief. At this time, the student officer brought two class cadres to check the room, and Liu Yiyi said: "Miao Xiaohui said that she went to her aunt's house. The secretary still wrote down Miao Xiaohui's name and left. After May Day, the department posted a notice that Miao Xiaohui and three other female classmates did not return to bed and were criticized. When reading the bulletin, Liu Yiyi had two senior boys in front of him discussing, and one said: "Now the people who run out at night are all girls, and they don't ask what they are doing when they go to the department, they just turn a blind eye." Another said, "As long as there is no violation of family planning." One said, "Girls who are a little bit of a level have their eyes looking out and looking down on us." Those bosses are something, they really don't like dirty. Another said, "If you have money, you are clean, ugly is beautiful, and the old man is a handsome young man." Besides, how clean do you think they are, she looks down on me, and I think she's dirty. They turned around, saw Liu Yiyi, and smiled at each other.

Miao Xiaohui said: "Yiyi, you see that my life is hard, I was arrested the first time I went out." I think it was Wu An'an who reported it, is it such a coincidence? Why are you jealous of me? Sooner or later an old virgin. You see I'm not choking her next time. Liu Yiyi said: "She doesn't know if you don't go back, she will report?" Miao Xiaohui said: "Then I can only swallow this bad breath?" Where to set a fire and burn down a few of his buildings, my heart is balanced. He chuckled, "Ah, whatever those boys think of me, I'm not going to pay attention to them anyway." He shook his hair freely and smiled again. Liu Yiyi thought that if this matter was spread on herself, she would be so ashamed, looking at Miao Xiaohui, her hair would be over, and she would live a really chic life.

For several weekends in a row, Miao Xiaohui went to her hometown to play, came back very late, but didn't say anything after coming back. Liu Yiyi felt very strange, she usually had a lot to say when she came back, and besides, she hadn't been to her hometown for several weeks in a row. Thinking that she answered the phone recently, she couldn't hear who the other party was, and what she was talking about, which was even more weird. Since she didn't say it, Liu Yiyi didn't ask, and instinctively felt that Miao Xiaohui had a new situation. Did she have a new boyfriend? That won't happen, she and Fan Ji have both developed.

One day on the seventh floor of the library, Miao Xiaohui and Liu Yi leaned on the glass window to talk. Miao Xiaohui said: "You said that if you study sports, I'm afraid there will be no development in the future, right?" Liu Yiyi said: "Do you still want to take Fan Ji off?" You're all so good. Miao Xiaohui said: "I didn't think we were that good. Liu Yiyi was surprised and said, "It's not so good, then you, then you...... Then haven't you and him both developed? Miao Xiaohui said: "I've been thinking recently, Fan Ji can't be a sports star, I've been with him all my life, how can he be promising?" Then I'm not a flower, a fresh and fresh flower, stuck in cow? Liu Yiyi twisted her face and said, "Look at how fresh this fresh flower is." He let go of his hand and said, "It's so fresh." Miao Xiaohui touched her face, touched Liu Yiyi's face and said, "Don't you think you're particularly beautiful?" Liu Yiyi grinned and said: "The leprosy shell feels that I am very beautiful." Miao Xiaohui said: "Sometimes I think it's a pity that there is only one person to appreciate such a beautiful youth." I feel wronged for myself. Liu Yiyi felt familiar with this and said, "You are angry with me, you still have someone who appreciates you, what about me?" Miao Xiaohui said: "So many people are rushing to appreciate you, but you don't want others to appreciate it." Liu Yiyi said: "Then do you still want two people to come...... Come...... Come and admire you? Miao Xiaohui smiled and said, "You always like to say things through." With Fan Ji, I'm really a little unwilling, except for the tall point, there is nothing, I'm afraid I will be a physical education teacher in the future, how can I follow him? I'm hot-headed, think about it calmly. People live to be worthy of themselves, and how can they be worthy of themselves if they follow people who have nothing? After all, we are girls, girls are only a few years, and some people at the age of thirty still say that you are a girl? Liu Yiyi said: "Don't scare me, I didn't think about such a terrible question." Miao Xiaohui said: "God is too cruel to women, and we feel the pressure of time when we are so young, which is too unfair." If you want to be worthy of yourself and realize the value of youth, you can't go to those boys to realize it, developing countries are poor and white. Youth is so beautiful, but it can't be deposited in the bank to preserve its value. Youth is valuable, and I don't want to waste quality resources. We who study accounting should calculate this account, this is a big account! Liu Yiyi's heart jumped, didn't this what Manager Xue said to herself last month? She had a very strong urge to wonder if it was a chance coincidence, or if there was a special connection between them? The words rolled to his tongue and were swallowed back. If that's the case, she rejected him, and she accepted him, can she accept this fact? Even though they are good friends, they are embarrassed to pierce this layer of paper, too embarrassing. Liu Yiyi's throat stretched a few times, made a strange sound, and held back. She said, "Xiaohui, have you heard others talk about me recently?" Miao Xiaohui said: "No, why did you suddenly ask this?" Liu Yiyi looked at her demeanor and knew that even if she had a relationship with Manager Xue, she would not know her own business. She said: "I'm not as bold as you, you're so bold that you dare to want a few people to appreciate you." Miao Xiaohui said: "I closed the door at home, didn't wear anything, looked at myself in the dressing mirror, the more I looked at it, the more I liked it, the more I liked it, the more unwilling I became, how could there be only one person to appreciate it?" The memories of the future are very monotonous. Thinking about it like this, my heart fluttered. Liu Yiyi said: "You float, aren't you afraid that Fan Ji will kill you?" Do you really like him? Miao Xiaohui turned her head up and down, left and right: "I don't know myself, he is not the best in the world." Liu Yiyi said: "You have to be careful, some people are not well-intentioned." Miao Xiaohui said, "I know." But if you want a man to have such a good heart, it's impossible, he's a man, what does a man think all day long? It's not a very noble mood, is it? You can't help but deal with them. Speaking of which, I feel very pitiful. What do they imagine I am? Liu Yiyi said: "Your own dress is so advanced, your navel eyes are flashing, you are very wild, and you don't want to be pitiful, how can it be possible to ask others to appreciate you with such elegant eyes?" I didn't even dare to wear the pants you bought with me last time, I didn't want others to appreciate me so much. He pointed at Miao Xiaohui's nose and said, "You just want others to appreciate your wildness, wildness." She suddenly realized that she should give her a friend's advice, "It's too dangerous, especially those rich men, successful people, who think all day long about living to be worthy of themselves, right to you, he doesn't want to, it's too dangerous." A trace of surprise flashed across Miao Xiaohui's face, and immediately disappeared again, saying: "It's really unfair to women, you can only be wonderful for so many years, proud for so many years, then you have to hurry up and be wonderful, proud and proud, otherwise you won't think about it." Have you ever come across one of those lately...... Those, dangerous people? Liu Yiyi smiled and covered up: "I'm not wild, no one appreciates, next time I also show off that low-waisted jeans, I can't let the opportunity to show off be monopolized by you alone, right?" ”

Liu Yiyi was very relieved, feeling that she had said everything to her friends, and it was her business whether it was useful or not. One evening a few days later, Liu Yiyi went to the library and asked Miao Xiaohui if she would go, but Miao Xiaohui said no. Liu Yiyi turned to a small shop to buy a hairpin, picked a favorite one for a while, and came out to see that it seemed to be Miao Xiaohui dozens of meters ahead. She wanted to run over to scare her, but when she got closer, she saw a car behind her coming up and stopped in front of Miao Xiaohui. Miao Xiaohui was still walking leisurely, and suddenly the front door of the car opened, and Miao Xiaohui flashed in as soon as she turned around. Before Liu Yiyi could react, the car started again. Only then did she notice that this was Manager Xue's car, and her heart sank. She entered the library in a daze, and sat there thinking that everything Manager Xue said to herself had told Miao Xiaohui, maybe it was in the room of Lanyuan, and I don't know how many women he had told him. All he wants is a girl, anyone can do it, just be young and beautiful, talk about what kind of eyes, ridiculous, ridiculous. These people don't have the patience to play emotional games seriously, so many gentle words are smokescreens, and the focus of their hearts is bed, bed, bed. Terrible, terrible. Thinking so, Liu Yiyi stomped on the ground a few times with her foot, and the girl reading a book next to her looked at her in surprise. She avoided that gaze, buried her head in the crook of her arm, and a word popped into her mind: foot pig. She remembered that when she was a child, she saw someone driving the breeding pig to breed, and several children followed behind and shouted "foot pig, foot pig", and now she remembered Manager Xue, and somehow remembered that a certain eye-catching organ on the pig's body was swaying from side to side. She frowned in disgust and shook her head, trying to shake off the memory.

Miao Xiaohui did not go to bed that night. After turning off the lights, Wen Ya said, "Maybe Fan Ji is here again." "No one talked. Liu Yiyi tossed and turned, sleepless all night.