Miao Xiaohui's words gave Liu Yiyi a great shock. It turned out that she thought that she and Qin Yixing, although they couldn't see the sunshine and had no promise of prospects, there was always an emotional identity, a kind of longing, and a warm vein. Of course, there is also physical communication, and there are also some responsibilities of Qin Yixing to her. Liu Yiyi felt that this was enough, how much more could she ask for? There is loneliness, there is painful waiting, this is the price that has to be paid. What's more, the wait is not endless, and the loneliness can always be alleviated in time. That's enough, how much more can you ask for? But now, Miao Xiaohui let her see that her youth can't bear fruit. Even if the flowers bloom brilliantly, they will not bear fruit. If the flowers could bloom forever, then we have to think, but this is impossible. She remembered Ah Yu, who met by chance on the street not long ago, and she hadn't seen her for a year, a woman who was almost thirty years old, and her face was a little vicissitudes. There will be a day when the splendor will wither, silently, but lonely, and tragic. On that day, where will Qin Yixing be? Every man goes about his own life. Perhaps, there will be other girls around him, and God has given men this opportunity. God, you're not fair, you're not fair! She comforted herself by saying that as long as she had it. But can this deceive yourself and deceive time? Youth is gone, it's true, brilliant flowers don't bear fruit, it's also true.

Thinking like this, Liu Yiyi felt that it was a mistake for her to follow Qin Yixing, and she saw the overall situation clearly. But it is difficult to correct this mistake. When I think about it, if there is no such person in my life, my heart is empty. Understanding this, Liu Yiyi looked back and thought that Miao Xiaohui was right, it was right to ask Qin Yixing to pay more. This idea had been spinning in her mind for more than a month, and she couldn't say anything, she didn't want to spoil the mood between the two. Miao Xiaohui saw her and asked her if she had taken any steps. Liu Yi was hesitant, as if she had made a mistake. Miao Xiaohui said: "Yiyi, are you really a lover? What era is it? Alas, Yiyi, Yiyi. ”

One afternoon, Qin Yixing came to Kangding, didn't say a few words, for some reason, Liu Yiyi had a feeling of wanting to cry, and hurriedly covered her eyes, this cover inspired sadness, and tears really flowed down. A ray of light passed through her heart, were these tears premeditated? I don't know. Qin Yixing found out, touched her face and said, "What's wrong?" What's wrong with it? Liu Yiyi said: "Not much." Qin Yixing said: "There is always one." He picked her up and hugged her, took her hand away, licked her tears with his tongue, and then and again, and said, "Salty." Liu Yiyi closed her eyes and hugged his neck and said, "What do you say?" Qin Yixing said: "What should I do?" Liu Yiyi said, "We." Qin Yixing said: "What are we doing?" Liu Yiyi said: "We will follow." Qin Yixing said: "What's next?" Liu Yiyi said: "We will follow." Qin Yixing said: "In the future, it will be the same as before, isn't it?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't see the future. Qin Yixing said: "The process is the future, isn't this good?" And he said, "Don't love so much, and don't let me love so much, because it is a pleasant thing, but when it is heavy, it will not be pleasant." Liu Yiyi suddenly understood that his dedication and commitment are limited, so his affection is also limited. What Miao Xiaohui said makes sense. I am intoxicated in poetry, and I really take my own golden years to set the edge of other people's happiness. She said, "It's good, that's your good." What about me? ”

Qin Yixing's arm relaxed a little, hugged her tightly again, and said, "I have done everything I can do for you." "This is the truth, and it is also the truth. Liu Yiyi felt that at a critical moment, she had to have the courage to say what she should say. She almost struggled and said, "Can't you do more?" Qin Yixing's arms were even more relaxed, Liu Yiyi wanted to get out of his arms, and moved his body slightly, thinking that Qin Yixing would hug him tightly again, but he didn't react, waited for a few seconds, and moved his body again, Qin Yixing's arms were even more relaxed, just hugging her weakly. Liu Yiyi was very disappointed, no longer moved his body, waiting for him to hug himself hard again, but he didn't move. She felt embarrassed as she waited and said, "I'm going to boil some water." "Stand up and boil water in an electric heating cup. Qin Yixing's eyes followed her actions and said, "Do you want me to divorce?" Liu Yiyi didn't have the courage to turn the conversation to the expected track, and said, "Are you that good?" ”

So the two discussed the topic of divorce, and Qin Yixing said a series of reasons, in short, they couldn't leave. Qin Yixing said: "When are you leaving, I won't keep you, I don't want to delay you." Do you have good boys around you? I'm relieved that someone will take on your fate. She said, "Thank you for your concern." He also said, "If you have any ideas, you can say it directly, and you are still under such a beautiful banner." Who held you accountable for what? Man. "It means to retreat and advance. Qin Yixing said, "Then what do you call me?" The one who left you, did not leave your heart, and it is useless. I didn't come to you because of a lack of women. Besides, you don't have any decent men in your life. Liu Yiyi said: "My life is so closed, and you don't allow me to contact others, how do I know if they are presentable?" Qin Yixing said: "If you want to go so much, you can go, a man like me doesn't need to share anything with others." The two of them talked a little unpleasantly this afternoon, but in the end, before Qin Yixing left, they still completed the established procedure of "come on". After completion, Liu Yiyi felt inseparable again. She needs him, and he needs her. In that case, there will always be a reason to come together.

Liu Yiyi hesitated for another month or two. She feels unfair, what she pays is youth, and she only has this capital in her life. But what did he give? But she knew he didn't think so, he felt like he had given a lot, enough. The feelings of the two of them are very far apart, always far away, and they both feel that they are giving more than they get. Liu Yiyi felt that kind of game again, since it was a game, she had to do it, there was no way to do it. The way to shoot can be very gentle, very weak, but you still have to make a move.

Before the May Day Golden Week, Qin Yixing said that he was going to Hangzhou on a business trip. Liu Yiyi said: "Take me there, you promised to take me out to play for more than a year." Qin Yixing said: "I went with my colleagues, where did I hide you?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't care, I'm going, I'm going to go." You owe me. He helped Qin Yixing's shoulder and shook it desperately, "You see that everyone else is going out on vacation, and I am here alone, you have pity on me." He said: "Actually, what is there to see in Hangzhou, Chinese cities are almost the same." She said, "Aren't Chinese women the same?" What are you looking for me for? He smiled and said, "The little bit of difference actually feels a lot, you don't understand us." She said, "Since you know a lot about that, you can understand me." I'm going. Qin Yixing said: "Next time, next time, definitely, next time." I owe you again, and I always owe you. Liu Yiyi said: "Then you store this time here and return it to me next time, and you will calculate the interest." ”

Qin Yixing left, and Liu Yiyi suddenly felt that something was wrong. There was nothing to prompt her, and she suddenly felt that something was wrong, like two wires that had not been put together, misplaced. This feeling made her very uncomfortable, and after enduring it for two days, she called Qin Yixing's house, her heart was beating, thinking that if Zhou Shan took it, she would say that she would find Manager Miao. But no one answered, and when I hit dinner, no one answered. Liu Yiyi sent a text message to Qin Yixing and asked him how things were going. Qin Yixing replied that it was almost. In the evening, Qin Yixing called from the hotel again, and Liu Yiyi said, "Have you finished your trip to the West Lake?" Qin Yixing laughed twice and said, "Of course, the West Lake is to swim." Did you hang out today? Didn't have dinner? The book I showed you a few days ago......" Liu Yiyi interrupted, "I'm so angry that I can still eat dinner?" Unless I'm a fool! I'm a fool anyway, and others can lie to me as much as they want. Have fun. "Hung up the phone. Qin Yixing called again, but he didn't answer, and he didn't answer again. When the bell rang seven or eight times, Liu Yiyi answered it and preemptively said, "I'm talking to my boyfriend, don't make noise." He hung up the phone again. She was unbalanced in her heart, strongly unbalanced. How do you get your balance back? Perhaps, Miao Xiaohui was right, only to tell him a few more drops of blood. In the next few days, no matter how Qin Yixing called and sent a letter, she would not answer or reply. She didn't know if she really planned to break up this time, and she didn't know what she would do when Qin Yixing came back.

A few days later, Qin Yixing came and knocked on the door outside. Liu Yiyi calculated that he should come, and had already bolted the door, so that he couldn't open it. Qin Yixing began to knock gently, and the more he knocked, the heavier it became, but Liu Yiyi just ignored it. Qin Yixing kicked a few times, and Liu Yiyi had no choice but to open the door. Qin Yixing said, "Why don't you open the door?" Liu Yiyi held up a newspaper and looked at it, covered her face, and said, "What are you still doing here?" Qin Yixing said, "Why can't I come?" Strange question. Liu Yiyi said: "I know he can come, who pays the rent?" He can't come? It's time for me to go. Qin Yixing said: "I know she has long wanted to leave." Liu Yiyi said: "Who has long wanted to leave? Qin Yixing said: "Who just said that they were leaving? Liu Yiyi said: "Who said she wanted to leave a long time ago?" Qin Yixing said: "Don't want to go? All right. Liu Yiyi stomped her foot and said, "Who doesn't want to go?" Qin Yixing smiled, bent down to look under the bed and said, "I've been waiting outside for so long to open the door, and the next door has come out to see the excitement when they hear the sound." Liu Yiyi said: "How did I have time to hide a person under the bed for so long?" Qin Yixing said: "You are not so stupid, there is really someone waiting for me to see?" Liu Yiyi said: "Who has someone?" Qin Yixing said: "Who said it just now?" Liu Yiyi said: "I just want someone who can walk with me in the sun and accompany me during the Golden Week, but unfortunately I don't have this person." You went with your wife and children, do you know how I've been spending the past few days? I've been a local rat for more than a year, and I haven't seen the light of day these days. Qin Yixing said: "You go to play with others, and I don't tie you." Liu Yiyi said: "They all traveled with their boyfriends, who do you want me to find?" Who's going to come to me again? ”

Qin Yixing pondered for a while and said, "Pitiful, pitiful. You'd better get a boyfriend. Liu Yiyi said: "I will leave by myself, I don't need you to rush." Qin Yixing said: "This is what you said yourself." Liu Yiyi said: "I said that I was angry, and you said that you really drove me." Qin Yixing said: "It's wrong for me to open my mouth, I want you to find it, I don't want you to look for it, it's wrong left and right." Pull the drawer, "Is there any tape?" Come and shut my mouth. He took out his phone and dialed the number. Liu Yiyi heard her mobile phone ringing, and when she saw it, the caller number was Qin Yixing's. She said, "What? Qin Yixing said: "Don't do anything." She said, "Check again to see if I'm on mute, if any other man has called me, don't you know?" Don't use your wife against me the way she did to you. Qin Yixing said: "Try it once in a while, don't be angry." And he said, "I'm not in the mood for her, and I won't check it." He picked up the flower quilt and sniffed it: "It seems to have the breath of another man." Liu Yiyi said, "Unless he's you." Somehow, the two reconciled again, and did what they had to do. Before doing it, Qin Yixing said: "I've been suffocated in the past few days. Liu Yiyi said: "You won't tell me that you sleep on the sofa in the hotel, right?" Qin Yixing said: "With my ten-year-old daughter." Liu Yiyi put her arms around him and said, "You are so good to your wife, and you should be so good to me, this is not too much to ask, right?" If you owe me again, you will pay me back! Qin Yixing said: "Return, return, return." ”

This incident made Liu Yiyi change her mind, she is so innocent, is Qin Yixing innocent? Miao Xiaohui is right, you can't be so good at being a woman, that's stupid! I have suffered so many grievances, and I should make up for it. After hesitating for a few more days, Liu Yiyi thought, I can't hesitate anymore, it's September in a blink of an eye, and Qin Yixing has to pay the tuition fee for graduate school, and the two times are too close, that's not good. Qin Yixing came again that night, and seeing that Liu Yiyi was in a bad mood, he asked, "What's the matter?" What mistake did I make that made me think," I patted my head vigorously, "why can't I remember?" Liu Yiyi grabbed his hand and said, "Why are you beating yourself so hard?" Who says you made a mistake? Qin Yixing said, "Didn't I make a mistake?" As soon as I see that your face is not right, I have to check what I am wrong. Liu Yiyi reluctantly smiled and said, "It's not your fault." Qin Yixing said, "Then why are you unhappy?" Liu Yiyi said: "I'm in a bad mood myself, it's none of your business." Qin Yixing said, "What's wrong with you?" Liu Yiyi said: "Don't ask. Qin Yixing said: "My dear is in a bad mood, how can I not ask?" Liu Yiyi said: "Am I really your dear?" Qin Yixing said: "You are not who deserves to be in that Lucheng?" "Pick up Liu Yiyi and hug it tightly. Liu Yiyi buried her face in his neck and sobbed softly. Qin Yixing said: "Why are you crying again? Liu Yiyi said: "I'm in a bad mood." Qin Yixing said, "What's wrong with you?" Liu Yiyi said: "Don't ask. Qin Yixing said, "Why did you come back again?" Say it! Liu Yiyi said: "Do you really want me to say? Qin Yixing patted the table and said, "Say." Liu Yiyi said: "Look at your courageous appearance, very manly, I like to see you standing on the sky." Qin Yixing said: "Praise me later, you say it first." Liu Yiyi said: "That's what you forced me to say." Our house, I told you, do you remember? Our house should have been renovated a long time ago, with water seeping on the walls, large stains, and green moss growing inside, but there was no rain. She stopped, looked at Qin Yixing's face, and couldn't see anything, "I called back a few days ago, my mother said that the house can't be lived, the situation of our family, you know, she asked me if there is a way, what can I do?" Seeing that Qin Yixing was silent, he said, "If I say it or not, you must say it." "She's telling the truth, it's been a long time coming. After a while, Qin Yixing said, "How much does it cost?" Liu Yiyi said: "My mother said that it would cost at least 20,000 yuan." He also said, "It's only my fault, I read to the end of my family." ”

Qin Yixing held his head with both hands, was silent under the lamp, and said after a while, "Do you know how much 20,000 yuan is?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't know, I haven't counted so much money." Qin Yixing said: "Do you have 20,000 yuan a year when you go to work?" Liu Yiyi said: "Almost." No. Qin Yixing said: "I am also a somewhat famous reporter, I go to the unit for an interview, ordinary people, the unit sends 100, and I send 200." He gestured with two fingers, "I rely on this money to support you." Do you see me wearing designer clothes? No. Have you ever been to a hotel? Unless someone else treats you. Liu Yiyi said: "You don't care about this matter, let them go, who calls them incapable." His heart suddenly softened and he said, "When you washed my hair that day, I looked down and saw that your shoes were cracked, and my heart ached." You don't have to worry about it. Qin Yixing said: "Twenty thousand, try it." Liu Yiyi said: "You still don't care, really, you don't care." ”

The next morning, Qin Yixing sent 20,000 yuan. Liu Yiyi said: "You really brought it, tell you to leave it alone." Then he counted out five thousand and handed it back, "You go and buy some good clothes and leather shoes, and let me see them." Qin Yixing said that there was something wrong and left in a hurry. Liu Yiyi regretted it a little, after all, it was 5,000 yuan, and if she was ruthless, she would take it. She went to the bank, remitted the money home, and called the magnetic card again, asking her father to pick up the money. Dad asked where the money came from, and she said, "I didn't steal it anyway." I pulled out the magnetic card and held it in the palm of my hand, and I sweated. She wanted to talk to someone, but she couldn't think of anyone. Others are busy at work and after work, and in another year or two, Miao Xiaohui and they are all busy with their children, so they will really be lonely. Liu Yiyi walked slowly in the sun, she looked up at the sky, looked at the clouds, and her heart was very empty, it was empty in material sense. She thought, Qin Yixing is good, but no matter how good it is, sooner or later it will be a difference. At most, at most, at most, with him for another year, for a year, this is the limit. Liu Yiyi set a timetable for herself.