Liu Yiyi didn't want to understand, and she didn't want to understand. A woman, if she wants to understand this, then there is nothing in this world that she cannot understand. On another date, she told Qin Yixing her thoughts, and Qin Yixing said: "Then you want him to change positions, see if he is willing or not." Liu Yiyi said: "There are some things that you really don't dare to think about. Qin Yixing said: "According to your imagination, don't be so rich, who can stand up to thinking about it so carefully, who?" Liu Yiyi said: "Who? Really, who? This year? It's a pity that I'm human, there's no way, if I'm not a human being, I don't think about anything, I'm a human, it's a pity, I'm a human being! Qin Yixing smiled and said, "Yiyi, you should sometimes learn from those stupid girls." Liu Yiyi said: "It's best to learn from animals, a male orangutan defeats his own kind and occupies a group of female orangutans, they have no opinion, stupid girls are too smart." Qin Yixing said: "Now I may only think like this." He also said: "In the final analysis, you still have to find someone, you have to provide for your old age, and it makes no sense whether you are pure or not." Liu Yiyi said: "I used to fantasize that men would change for me, but now I find that it is impossible, impossible." If you weren't his first, why should you assume you're his last? Are you any special character? No. Is there any special power? No. Since it's not, and since it's not, you can't imagine Him changing for you. Silly girls can't see this clearly, they think they are some special person, what kind of special power they have, can let him cut off the past with a knife, is that possible? Qin Yixing was silent, and said for a while: "It's a bit sinister. Liu Yiyi said: "It's not just a little. Qin Yixing said: "Speaking of which, you have to have academic qualifications, you want talents to have talents, you should indeed find a good one." But he's so nice and safe, is that possible? The man has some money, and the money jumps in his purse, sending a mysterious signal, where do you want him to spend it? A friend of mine said, rich and noble can't be adulterous, what do you want to be rich for? Here's what they think. Throughout the ages, emperors and generals have become officials and nobles, who has done it? Only reality can restrain them, but none of you want to accept that reality. Yiyi, you have to think clearly about what you want, and you have to grasp the good things in the world, it's difficult, it's difficult, it's difficult. What girl wouldn't want such a good thing? But if there was no ancient time, will there be one in modern times? It's no longer the era of Mao**. ”

What do you really want? Liu Yiyi lay in bed at night and asked herself again and again. There are four people in the dormitory, only one is named Liu Qin, her boyfriend is stable, she is a classmate in middle school, she is studying for a doctorate at Fudan University, she is a talent, and she is very good to Liu Qin. Several of them envied her, even a little jealous. There is a man named Li Yu, who has been defeated repeatedly, but he has asked Liu Qin all kinds of questions: Shanghai Huahua World is difficult to ensure that it is so pure, why are you so relieved? is the same age, and when the woman is forty-nine years old, there is no more to the woman, what else do men need to do? Wait a minute. These words are caring, but they are also bitterly vicious. Liu Yiyi wouldn't say this, and helped Liu Qin speak, but there was still an itchy pleasure in the place in her heart, which made her realize the horror of human nature. Liu Yiyi is very envious of Liu Qin, after all, there are still people in the world who catch two fish! I originally thought that I didn't dare to say love, since I didn't talk about love, then money was the most important thing. What a practical thing money is! So many female celebrities, hosts, etc., talk about love, fate, love, fate, but their bodies are running to the big money one by one, which is to understand this Tao thoroughly. I know this truth, but once I face it, I still can't let it go. Think about Huang Jian, this night, every night, does it matter what kind of house you live in, or who is the person you sleep next to? No matter how you say it, it matters who the person is. Life is real, but so is the mood of the day. It's not a truth, it's a feeling, and there's no way she can force her feelings.

Liu Yiyi asked Miao Xiaohui about Huang Jian, and Miao Xiaohui said, "He flowers? Are you so afraid of his flowers? Pinching his business, go to the court to get a divorce and divide half of his property! Liu Yiyi said: "It's true, it's true." "I feel that Miao Xiaohui doesn't understand herself, and she is a little estranged. When I asked Qin Yixing again, Qin Yixing said: "You won't die if you try it, don't make some conclusions too early." After listening to Qin Yixing's words, Liu Yiyi decided to give it another try, so that she had been in contact with Huang Jian for a while. At Huang Jian's strong request, Liu Yiyi went to his house again. As soon as she entered the door, Huang Jian picked her up and licked her tongue all over her face. Liu Yiyi said: "I'm going to watch TV!" "Earned it and turned on the TV. Huang Jian said: "I went to the kitchen and got a kitchen knife to cut off the TV. Liu Yiyi said: "Then you cut it!" Huang Jian said: "Don't you think there are some things that are more fun than watching TV? The word "play" made Liu Yiyi very uncomfortable, and said, "You can also watch TV." Huang Jian said: "What can prove that you are my girlfriend?" Liu Yiyi said: "Time." The more Huang Jian couldn't wait, the more insecure Liu Yiyi became. Huang Jian said: "Then let me be close and close, you can always do it!" Without waiting for her to answer, he picked her up and put his hand into her clothes. Liu Yiyi pressed her hand hard and said, "Don't, don't." Huang Jian said, "Why can't you let me go in and visit?" Liu Yiyi said, "I don't know you yet." Huang Jian said: "Doesn't it give you a chance to have a deeper and more comprehensive understanding?" He said with his right index finger stretched out and made an ambiguous motion, "To understand comprehensively, to understand deeply, it is useless to just talk about it, foreigners should try to feel before getting married." Liu Yiyi said: "Why are men in such a hurry? Huang Jian said, "Who called me a normal man?" Do you want me to be abnormal? Liu Yiyi dragged his hand out of the collar of his shirt and said, "How do you look like a veteran!" Huang Jian said: "I'm also a little old, I'm a complete novice, how is it possible?" Unless I'm not physically normal. And he said, "Are you a novice?" It's good, it's not good. Liu Yiyi said: "Why is it not good? Blame. Huang Jian said: "Too tired. And he said, "That was a cruel test of my patience." Liu Yiyi said: "Why can't you be a little patient?" ”

Later, Huang Jian suggested that she go to his residence and not go; Do you want to go to the hotel to find a room to rest, and don't go. Several times like this, one day when eating in a restaurant, Huang Jian said: "It seems that we have no fate. Liu Yiyi said: "Does it have to be like that to be fate?" Huang Jian said: "Did I say that I have to be like that?" Liu Yiyi thought, what does it mean to go to the hotel to find a room to rest? Just thinking about it, Huang Jian said: "One person sleeping is called rest, and two people resting is called sleeping." Liu Yiyi said: "You think wrong, and I think wrong." Huang Jian said: "People who think like this must be people with considerable experience." Liu Yiyi got angry and said, "You like to think and think." Huang Jian immediately said: "Just as you can do what you like." And he said, "You can do it, but I can't even think about it." He stretched out the word "do" and smiled mockingly. Liu Yiyi was angry and left with her bag on her back, Huang Jian grabbed her and said, "Okay, okay." After talking for a while, Huang Jian once again asked Liu Yiyi to go to his residence. Liu Yiyi said: "Don't keep asking the same question! Huang Jian said, "Why don't you go?" Liu Yiyi said: "Why do you have to go?" Huang Jian said: "Find a girlfriend, she doesn't dare to come to my room, is this called a girlfriend?" Liu Yiyi thought about this anyway, so she said: "I don't want to go, I don't feel safe." Huang Jian looked at her face, as if studying a mathematical problem, and said for a long time: "A sense of security? You're embarrassed to mention the word 'security' to me! Are you someone who needs security, you? Do you dare to say that you are a person with no experience? Does security still mean anything to you? He still looked at her as if she had words carved into her face, and everything was clear. Liu Yiyi was stunned, and it took a long time to come to her senses, as if she had just understood his words, and said: "Whether you have experience or not is my own business." Huang Jian said: "If you don't talk to me about friends, it's your own business, and since you talk about it, it's not your own business." Liu Yiyi immediately stood up and said, "Then let my business be my own business!" He grabbed his bag and rushed out. Huang Jian followed behind and said: "I don't care about her, just pretend to be a fool, she still has to worry about me." Are you worthy of a sense of security? Liu Yiyi didn't answer, and quickly rushed onto the sidewalk and walked forward quickly. Huang Jian followed closely behind and said: "Miss, I advise you to say a word, don't easily mention the word 'sense of security' to men in the future, who have you dedicated your youth to, you go to him to ask for a sense of security, that is right, only he has the obligation to take this responsibility to you." Wandering in other people's places, wandering for so long, dedicating the essence of life to him, and running to me to have a sense of security, is there a reason for this? There is a truth in everything in the world, and no one can give for nothing and get it for nothing, this is the truth. Am I a fool? Do you think I'm like a fool? Liu Yiyi's mind buzzed, as if there were countless flies flying densely in it, and after walking a distance, she suddenly woke up and said, "Don't follow me, follow me again and I'm going to call 110." Huang Jian stopped and threw a sentence behind her: "Miss, think about my words, what is the truth?" This is the truth. ”

When she told Qin Yixing about this, Liu Yiyi was still angry and accusing at first, and when she talked about "youth", she suddenly cried for some reason. Qin Yixing gritted his teeth and said, "Basically, it's just a scumbag!" Liu Yi stopped crying and said, "Do you men really think that twenty-six years old is a bit old?" Qin Yixing said: "Who the flies and farts!" He also said, "But you have to hurry up, otherwise the good ones will be taken away by the little girl." Liu Yiyi said: "He said that I am not worthy of talking about the word 'sense of security', and even I believe it a little." I really don't know how to face the world. Qin Yixing said: "Who said? Nonsense! Liu Yiyi said: "Who can give me a sense of security? I can't really think of it. Even you won't give it to me. Qin Yixing said: "Let's not talk about me, my situation, right?" I already knew, huh? Alas, if only I hadn't gotten married. You should find a home as soon as possible. Liu Yiyi said: "I originally thought, I don't want to think about anything, just close my eyes and get married, even my family said don't choose." Listen, don't pick! Miserable. But who told me to have these two eyes? I can't close it if I want to! I really regret that I missed the best time. Qin Yixing said, "You're not saying that I'm delaying you, are you?" I've never stood in your way. I just want to cling to you, who will take care of you if you have nowhere to go? You have no one to take care of, so I'll take care of you for the time being. And he said, "Find someone to take care of you." ”

Liu Yiyi wanted to cry. At the end of the day, men are always selfish. Liu Yiyi doesn't hate him, she understands him, she only hates herself. I was wrong, although it was so natural, so smooth, like the Lujiang River flowing into the Yangtze River into the sea, but I was still wrong. There is really no way, even if you go back in time and start all over again, I'm afraid it will still be wrong. That mistake is simply a justifiable mistake, a human mistake. To say that it is wrong is to say that it is the result of things. Perhaps, the road started wrong, and the result was still wrong. Liu Yiyi suddenly smiled, if the whole world is wrong, and human beings use half of their wisdom and financial resources to explore how to make cutting-edge weapons to kill people more effectively, what is their own mistake? This kind of laughter is introspective, and it has the meaning of sudden enlightenment. Qin Yixing said, "What are you laughing at? Liu Yiyi said: "I laugh at myself, laugh at all the people, laugh at the world, this human being." Hey! Ha ha! Hey! Liu Yiyi laughed maliciously, a little desolate, a little terrifying. Qin Yixing looked at her, his eyes were a little unfamiliar, and then, he also laughed strangely.

After Qin Yixing left, Liu Yiyi suddenly remembered that she hadn't performed passionately today. This is unusual and a red flag. She regretted that the malicious smile had affected his mood. His own destiny hangs in the air, and he is the rope that holds this destiny together. If there is no more Qin Yixing in his life, then there is really nothing.

Liu Yiyi was very uneasy and felt abandoned. He doesn't need me anymore! The thought made her feel empty. Gotta verify it as soon as possible, as soon as possible. The next day, Liu Yiyi sent a message to Qin Yixing at school, I miss you, I miss you. Said to wait for him in Kangding in the afternoon. After meeting him, Qin Yixing said, "What's the matter?" Liu Yiyi said: "I miss you, isn't this the most important thing?" Qin Yixing said: "Miss me? He smiled weirdly. Miss you", these two words Liu Yiyi didn't know that they had been sent hundreds or thousands of times in the message in the past few years, and when they came out of her mouth today, it suddenly became a hint. She was a little ashamed, and immediately said firmly: "Miss you, don't let me think?" Qin Yixing said: "Didn't it make you think about it for a few years?" Liu Yiyi said: "Then do you miss me too?" Qin Yixing said: "Yes, who said I don't want to?" Liu Yiyi said: "I still asked for it." You deceive me with kindness! And he said, "Did you think in the past or now?" Qin Yixing said: "I want to do it all." Liu Yiyi said: "I also think about it now, why don't I feel it?" He also said, "Seeing my classmate go to the post office to pick up the package from my boyfriend, I was so happy that I was jealous." When you send me a package, it will also make me happy once, just once. Qin Yixing said: "If you want to talk about packages, a hundred of them have been given to you in the past few years." Liu Yiyi said: "It's romantic." Qin Yixing said: "The mood is played!" Then he said, "I'll tell you a story about a guy who has been married for a few years and has no passion, and wants to play with his wife, and says, "I'll come in through the window tonight, and we'll make love again." Let me tell you first, don't shout to catch the hooligans, the neighbors will laugh when they hear it. When I really went to the window at night, my wife couldn't help but laugh halfway through it. The man jumped off the ground and stomped his feet and said, "It's out of mood, it's out of mood, it's not going to be done!" Liu Yiyi rolled on the bed with a smile and said, "Later, you will also go through the window!" ”

Qin Yixing stood up and went to the bathroom to fetch water, plugged in the electricity and said, "I'm thirsty." Then he muttered and said, "Can I ask you a question?" Liu Yiyi said: "What questions haven't you asked me?" Can you ask a question? Hey, ha! Qin Yixing said, "Then I'll ask." After a pause, "You have been in contact with Huang Jian for a period of time, do you have any special contact with him?" Liu Yiyi was stunned for a moment, and immediately understood: "What do you think of me!" Others don't know about me, don't you know either? Qin Yixing said: "Alas, I may be a little selfish. Alas, who can tell people like Huang Jian? I don't want to have anything to do with him. Who knows what he can't see? Liu Yiyi felt that the blood in her veins coagulated, and immediately flowed rapidly, burning her whole body, as if it was not blood, but gasoline. She said, "Since you are so afraid of him, how can you push me on him?" Qin Yixing said: "I haven't seen it again, how do I know?" It's still up to you. You said perfume or something, I just thought that this kind of person hugs left and right every day, and he hugs it? Liu Yiyi felt that he was reasonable, and calmed down and said: "So I am out of danger." I originally wanted to close my eyes and forget it, just think that this body is another Liu Yiyi. It seems that this eye still can't be closed, not only can't it be closed, but it has to be opened round. Qin Yixing stood up, pulled Liu Yiyi up from the chair with both hands and said, "Then believe you, believe that you can't do it?" Let's come, come on. I really like that. Liu Yiyi said: "Then you go through the window." ”