In the next few months, Liu Yiyi was active frequently, and where there were outstanding young men, she would appear there, although she was silent, she still jumped up and down. Jumping around also jumped out of a few clues, and there was a little excitement in life. Sometimes sleeping under the covers and texting three people at the same time. Every time she sent a message, she checked the other party's mobile phone number before pressing the button, for fear of making a mistake Zhang San and Li Si. As she replied, she pondered which clues should be focused on, which ones should be spared, and which ones should be abandoned first. I couldn't think clearly, so I asked Qin Yixing to help analyze and discuss. This kind of discussion is generally carried out on Qin Yixing's arm after passion. As the months passed, the threads were interrupted one by one. There is a self-proclaimed deputy director of the National Taxation Bureau, thirty-three years old, Qin Yixing asked someone to investigate, he is a section chief, he is forty years old, he is not one or two years old, he is seven years old. This reminded Liu Yiyi of a male classmate in the same major, who was looking for a girlfriend with great fanfare just after graduate school, and everyone talked about Andy Lau in his thirties and not married in his thirties, he said: "You care about Andy Lau who is so far away, why don't you care about Liang Dongping next to you?" But it wasn't long before his wife came to visit her relatives at the school, much to the surprise of all the female classmates. There was a bank department manager, tall and thin, who was a little tempted at the first glance of Liu Yiyi, and put him at the first place of several clues that day. I've been in contact a few times, and it's a bit of a late meeting. He said that there is such an outstanding girl as Liu Yiyi among the graduate students, who is a fish that has slipped through the net, and Liu Yiyi feels that he is the real fish that slipped through the net. She seemed to have a passion in his passion, and she didn't expect that she would still have passion. But she restrained the passion that did not respond to him, she did not want to succumb to such a temporary passion that was unfounded, irresponsible, and uncommitted, and she was no longer an ignorant girl. Under Qin Yixing's order, Liu Yiyi made it clear to him that his dealings with him were not a joke, he was already twenty-six years old, and he had no room for maneuver anymore, so he couldn't afford to play. The manager said, what age is it, and you still value that piece of paper so much? Love is a process, let's experience the process. Liu Yiyi smiled in her heart, this is a man who is unwilling to be responsible, pretending not to be aware of the existence of responsibility. Liu Yiyi pursued this question relentlessly and said, you have to talk about your conscience! The manager said, I'm afraid of you. He also said that he loved freedom, like a dragon, and had to toss in the rivers, lakes and seas, and could not be kept in a swimming pool. He asked her if she agreed not to interfere with her freedom after marriage, or else she would rather be an unmarried. Then, he disappeared. The other one was a professor in his early forties whom she met on the train, who was very personable. After getting off the train, he took her downstairs to the dormitory and went home. He later called, saying that he loved sports, and invited her to climb mountains, and she wanted to know a few doctors through him, so she agreed. In the corridor by the small lake in the mountains, he suddenly climbed on her shoulder and asked her if he could play this role by himself until no one else appeared. Liu Yiyi didn't move, and suddenly smiled and said, Then you won't introduce your students to me! The professor said, yes, I won't be that good, who will be that good? The other is an engineer from the Highway Bureau, thirty-four years old. Liu Yiyi saw that he was still a duty, and he seemed to be very eager for marriage, so she dared to associate with him. One day he said that he was on a business trip to Shanghai, and he didn't want to take the long distance of roaming, and he might sometimes turn off the phone, and it would be rude to turn on the phone and not pick it up. I also sent her a few messages on the train, and when I arrived in Shanghai, I turned off the phone. Suddenly a few messages came, and the phone was shut down again. Qin Yixing said that there must be something wrong with playing the missing man. Sure enough, when he later learned that his girlfriend was studying in graduate school in Shanghai, he always felt that she would change her mind, and he would be disappointed, so he pulled another line here as a spare tire. Liu Yiyi knew the truth, he said, you see I'm also a little old, if something goes wrong over there, I won't be able to land, can't afford to delay? Liu Yiyi said, it doesn't matter if you delay others, as long as you don't delay yourself. He said, you're still young, aren't you? It's not the time to care so much about a year or two, is it? When I was your age, I wasn't in a hurry at all. Liu Yiyi didn't say anything, it was useless to be angry with such a person. Think about it again, aren't there still people behind you? She recalls the day she went to play a video game with the Engineer, and he won, laughing innocently, and then holding her hand and walking down the street, as if reluctantly. Where is the truth? When you think about it, the excitement of the world for a while is like a bubble, flashing, snapping, and gone. asked her to jump up and down again, and she lost her emotions. Is it free? Freely. But the other party has the freedom to play, and he has no freedom to love him. A man who loves a game, isn't that looking for death? This is the greatest unfreedom of this era of freedom, and the greatest tragedy of a comic society. She was glad that she was not stupid, and Qin Yixing helped her analyze, he could always accurately grasp the direction in other people's language and see where the possible problems were. If you are a little confused, the remaining years of youth will be killed in vain. After experiencing the excitement, Liu Yiyi had some sighs: Although it is an information society, it is not easy for you to figure out a person's most basic information, such as age, position, marriage, or not. There is no fish that slips through the net, and there must be a special reason for the fish that slips through the net, and this special reason is the most difficult for you to accept. No one wants to make themselves bad for the sake of someone else's good. It is almost impossible to perceive the other person's true thoughts.

Liu Yiyi felt hopeless again. I used to be desperate for love, but I thought that I wouldn't talk about love, but find someone who feels better and better, and there will be no problem. Now it seems that this request is a kind of luxury. No outstanding young man is waiting for him, falling from the sky when he needs it. How easy it is to take a ladle of water in the middle of the sea, and what a difficult problem! She is clearly aware of the situation in front of her, she can't talk about love, she can't even talk about feelings, she can only greatly lower her horizons, probably that person, it's good. Liu Yiyi said "miserable" in her heart and wanted to cry. When I thought of the word "crying", I had a cruel sobriety, and now I want to cry, then there are still people who listen, at least Qin Yixing will listen, in a few years, I can't really cry, who will I cry to?

"The good days of my life are almost over, and I suspect that from now on it will be my emotional garbage time. It's so long, I can't think of it! One day on the pillow, Liu Yiyi said to Qin Yixing. Qin Yixing said: "It should be that a good day is about to begin." Liu Yiyi said: "Do you really think so? Qin Yixing was silent, and said for a long time: "Am I really that good?" Liu Yiyi said: "With them, what I think about is how to escape from the scene, and I feel relaxed when I escape." With you, I was thinking about how to prolong the time, but unfortunately you never gave me enough time to enjoy it. I don't want to fall in love, you don't force me to fall in love, I'll talk to you if I want to talk, I don't know how to live without you. Qin Yixing said, "How can that be done?" Liu Yiyi said: "Why not, a year is a year." Qin Yixing said: "What will I do in the future?" You are a woman. Liu Yiyi said: "What will I do in the future?" Don't worry about it. Then he said, "I am a woman, and if I were not a woman, it would be completely different, what am I anxious about?" If you leave it there for a few more years, it will become more and more exciting, just like the older the wine, the more fragrant it becomes. Do you know how pretty men in their early thirties are now? The oppression of time on us is actually the oppression of men on us, which is too cruel. Our tragedy is simply set a long time ago, natural, inescapable, and today it is not much better than feudal society. Qin Yixing stroked her face and said, "Don't say it so tragically. Alas, woman, alas, woman, but my daughter will also be a woman in the future. ”

Next, the two began to perform a passionate program. After lingering for a while, the emotions were there, and just as he was about to enter the state, Qin Yixing's mobile phone rang. Qin Yixing said: "I forgot to turn it to mute, it really ruined my mood." "I looked at the caller number, hesitated, but still answered. When talking about something, he loudly scolded the person for being "brainless" and "thinking with his upper body in the future" and so on. When he put down his mobile phone, Liu Yiyi said, "Why are you scolding the people in your unit like this?" Qin Yixing said: "Who told him not to look at the time?" Liu Yiyi said: "How does he know what you are doing?" Qin Yixing said: "So he should be scolded." Speaking of which, Liu Yiyi knew that the other party was Xiaotao, the famous host of Satellite TV, and the idol of many girls. This made her feel that she usually looked down on Qin Yixing, he was really a character! Liu Yiyi said: "You even dare to be murderous? Qin Yixing said: "Who is not murderous?" And he said, "Don't look at him so beautiful outside, if you say pinch him to death, he will pinch him to death." Some female hosts have backers on them, so we really can't help her. Xiaotao, pinching him to death is just a sentence. There are 10,000 reasons. Liu Yiyi said: "A lot of girls will hate you, you bully their idols." Qin Yixing smiled and said: "Everyone on satellite TV knows that he thinks with his lower body. And he said, "Calling him revenge for those girls, there are too many girls who have been destroyed by him." Someone has counted that in the past seven years he has been in satellite TV, there have been no less than 50 girls, all of whom are the flowers of the motherland! He said on TV that he was a happy bachelor, and he was really happy as a bachelor! Liu Yiyi said: "Fifty? Some don't necessarily actually do anything. Qin Yixing said: "If he doesn't do anything, will he deal with them?" How good patience does he have? You still want to pinch and hold it, you won't see him next time, anyway, there are many beauties in the queue behind. He's really the fifth diamond king, followed by a large group, all suffering from hydrocephalus, and it's really better to marry him than to marry a piece of wood, unless you think he's a duck. Liu Yiyi said: "No, the girl is not so cheap." Qin Yixing said: "Then how noble do you think they are?" Liu Yiyi was stunned for a moment, and Qin Yixing said, "They, I said them." ”

The atmosphere was a little wrong, Qin Yixing said a yellow joke and wanted to turn it around, Liu Yiyi smiled reluctantly, and was silent again. Qin Yixing said: "I've come here, why don't you come like that?" "I started tossing. Tossing and seeing Liu Yiyi crying, he said, "What's the matter?" Liu Yiyi said: "I'm afraid I won't be able to see you in the future." Qin Yixing said: "How, how, maybe." After comforting Liu Yiyi for a few words, he said, "I'm really leaving." He walked to the door, and Liu Yiyi said, "Just left?" Qin Yixing said: "I left gently, just as I came gently." He stood up again and said, "Military band, play the national anthem!" ”

After Qin Yixing left, Liu Yiyi was in a daze on the balcony. The spring sun shone on the orange grove, and she remembered that it was the fourth time she had seen the orange trees bloom and fall. The vines grew vigorously in the spring rains, completely covering the orange trees, but under the wide leaves, there were still a few small white flowers struggling to bloom, with a pitiful expression. The last red orange of the last year, knotted in the treetops, emerges from the dense vine leaves, hanging there alone, twinkling in the waning sun. Liu Yiyi had already noticed the red orange, and every time she entered the house, she had to open the curtains to see if it was still there, and she was also moved by the vitality of the red orange. After a winter, another spring, it is still so red, so dazzling, like a soldier holding his position, declaring a kind of arrogance. Liu Yiyi knew in her heart that no matter how tenacious and arrogant it was, it couldn't resist time. Tomorrow, maybe today, it will fall into the grass, change color, rot, and come to naught.

Liu Yiyi stared at the red orange, thinking about more than three years, four springs, and it had passed. The days of the past are so clear, yet so far away. Clarity is the clarity of the distance, and the remoteness is the clarity of the distance, both of which have a sense of separation. The sun is still the same sun as it was a few years ago, and are people still the same people as they were a few years ago? Don't dare to say, at least, the men don't think so. Qin Yixing is not bad, but he still consumes his most precious time, and then, throws himself back to time. In this relationship, he was almost unscathed, and himself, the most precious youth, was lost. It's not fair, but there's no way around it. A woman, love is her faith, her life, her greatest thought in the world, but there is no living space for faith in this world, and all people have joined a chorus, body, body, body. Sadly, so many girls are also singing, body, body, body. Feelings are nothing more than physical sensations. For girls, the body is really not a safe survival resource, and what man would treat the body that is no longer young as a body? There is no freedom in love, because women will grow old. If we can't trust unchecked power, how can we trust unchecked bodies? In this world where the body is the first value, a woman will gradually lose her resource value from a certain point on, so why should she survive in this world? Who can escape that bleak prospect? Although, there are still people, there are some women, they grasp love and transform love into family affection. This is the only way out, but this road is getting harder and harder. If you can't talk about love in the first place, where do you cultivate family affection? As a result, both of them fell short one after the other. The world is too dangerous for women. How sad it is that the body comes first! The body, the body, in the chorus of people, quietly places the woman's foreground in the dark and damp corners of time, and there is little escape.

Liu Yiyi was startled in her contemplation, and her ears caught a slight muffled sound, which she should say, felt by her heart. She looked up and saw that the last red orange had disappeared from the treetops. Liu Yiyi suddenly felt a chill and swam from her heart to her limbs. It was an absolute, bone-chilling chill.