How much Liu Yiyi wants to be younger and prettier, even if it is a little, a little. A girl, what's the big deal in her life? What is the pain of life? That's the big thing, that's the pain. She felt that the struggle against the years had begun to enter the cruel stage, and it was not too late, she was not yet thirty years old, and by the time she realized that it was too late, it would be really too late. She has to look in front of the mirror for a long time every day, paying attention to every subtle change in her face, and lying on the bed and touching her body to see if there is an extra piece of fat somewhere. She was not convinced in her heart, why should women be under so much pressure? But she knows that if she is not convinced, she can only be convinced, dare to give up the struggle? Qin Yixing once told himself the secret about men: men's passion is first of all a signal from the body, not reason. Succumbing to this passion, they will become very tolerant and generous. Since men look at women with such eyes and experience women with such a mentality, there is no way for women not to look at themselves in this way. Why should you see yourself through a man's eyes? Their eyes are keen, they can see every bit clearly, and the experience is real. The feeling generated by this gaze is a powerful force, which is decisive for the fate of a woman. You can't change the world, you can only change yourself.

Jumping and exercising three times a week, thunder can't move. And hair, and clothes, shoes, and so on. She wants to do the best in every detail, for a woman, the happiness of life, the essence of life, where is it in these subtleties? The monthly expenses are used to fight against time. What is the reason for fighting, Liu Yiyi said to others that it was for herself, but she knew in her heart that it was for the feelings of men, especially for the feelings of a particular man. Women all over the world want to do this, are they an exception? Sometimes she thinks that these investments are to be recovered, from a particular man. Therefore, it seems logical to marry a rich man to ensure that this expensive struggle can last for a long time. Isn't it a chicken-and-egg to win an expensive struggle to gain the heart of a particular man, and to gain the heart of that man in order to sustain a long-term struggle? This strange circle has encircled so many girls, is he like them? Liu Yiyi asked herself 100,000 whys, and finally found that she was still stuck in the same place: what should be done must be done, that is, to fight against time with all her might.

Liu Yiyi spent more than 100 yuan to make a new hairstyle and permed her hair. After doing it, I looked in the mirror for a long time, stroked and stroked my hand, and there was no unexpected surprise promised by the hairstylist, not even as before. The hairstylist stood in the back and said, "It really worked, it added charm, and it was foreign again." This made Liu Yiyi feel a little more at ease. She went to ask her classmates, and they all said it was okay, but no one was as amazing as she hoped. From their demeanor, she knew that this hairstyle had failed, and her heart ached for more than a hundred dollars. If you want to straighten it, you have to spend money. She called Qin Yixing, and Qin Yixing said, "Ah, why didn't you ask me earlier?" The perm is not good and looks mature. As soon as she heard the word "mature", Liu Yiyi's heart sank. She said, "Where are you?" Come and help me see, I don't believe what they say. Qin Yixing drove to the school at night to pick up Liu Yiyi, looked at her hair and said, "It's not that bad." Liu Yiyi said: "My hair is my life, I will straighten it tomorrow." Qin Yixing parked the car in a secluded place, and Liu Yi was lying on his lap. Qin Yixing patted her on the back, and groped on her with his other hand: "How are you and Song Xusheng?" Liu Yiyi said: "That's it." Qin Yixing said: "What is that?" How far has it progressed? Liu Yiyi said: "That's like that, how long has it been?" Qin Yixing said: "What era is it now, a few days is enough to complete a complete process from acquaintance to breakup, there are many links in between, not the era when we were in college." Hearing the word "link", Liu Yiyi understood and said: "You can think whatever you want, I will tell you that there is no progress." Qin Yixing said: "Then let's sit in the back, it's inconvenient in front." Liu Yiyi thought for a moment in her heart and said, "Here? Not good. Qin Yixing said: "It's not the first time it's bad. Liu Yiyi said: "Forget it, it's not safe today." Qin Yixing said: "Then forget it." You'd better talk to Song Xusheng well. It's already very rare to have a man who is wholeheartedly good to you. Liu Yiyi straightened up and said, "I don't think anyone is good, I just think you're good, I don't want to make do with anyone except you." There are two major pains of being a woman, being loved by someone you don't love, and not being loved by someone you love, both of which I have caught up. Why am I so miserable? Why don't I be your lover for life? If you don't want me, I'll stay by myself and punish myself for my loneliness. I don't want you to get a divorce, that's a pipe dream. You see I'm so cheap, I'm really hopeless, you pity me. Qin Yixing said: "Don't say that, if you say this, I'm afraid of you." Liu Yiyi said: "If I don't add any burden to you, I will graduate in a few months, and I won't rely on you financially, isn't this okay?" You just promised me! Qin Yixing said: "How can I have Song Xusheng good?" He's young, and I'm getting worse and worse in the past two years, don't you think? Besides, he's single-minded. Liu Yiyi said: "Why do you want to belittle yourself? Aren't you single-minded? Qin Yixing laughed twice and said, "Yes, too." It's always a bit distracting, isn't it? There's also a piano, isn't it? Only Song Xusheng is single-minded. Liu Yiyi said fiercely: "Song Xusheng is so good, why don't you marry Qinqin, the age distance between him and Qinqin is not as ...... as you and me" Liu Yiyi snapped on the face, she didn't react and said: "Are you beating me?" Qin Yixing immediately hugged her and said, "No, no." I wanted to gag your mouth, my hand was reaching out too quickly. Let me see. He turned on the headlights and looked at her face. Liu Yiyi said: "You are beating me." Qin Yixing said, "No." Liu Yiyi said: "Yes." Qin Yixing said: "It's not." Liu Yiyi said: "There is a fever on my face." Qin Yixing said: "It's too stuffy in the car." "Roll down the window and touch her face. Liu Yiyi sighed and said, "Alas, there are more important people in your heart." ”

The atmosphere is a bit awkward. Qin Yixing said, "Why don't I send you back?" Liu Yiyi said: "Miao Xiaohui said that she wanted to introduce me to one, it was his husband's friend, and the size was still a piece, a little smaller than his husband's, and she might not introduce it to me when it was older." Qin Yixing said: "Yiyi, don't toss, what do you think is a good thing?" The beauties around you are like clouds, after thousands of mountains and rivers, what are you doing to play a fraction of a tenths of a role? Liu Yiyi said: "There was really a day when I grabbed his handle and divided half of his property, and it was not in vain." Qin Yixing said: "It's too naïve to think. He can become a model, and he is not such a simple person. Can you grab his handle? He's going to get you in turn! Qin Yixing talked about Amei, a female host in the station. Amei married a really big money, and within two years, her husband completely lost interest in her. A more youthful beauty is at his fingertips, why should he stay with her? Amei is used to being praised by the audience, entertainment and handsome guys in the stage, the stars, the moon, the princess, and the queen, how can she bear this kind of neglect? I couldn't bear it anymore and moved the idea of divorce. Amei is not a simple person, she invited someone to follow her, secretly took photos, and sued the court to apply for divorce. The divorce lawsuit lasted for more than half a year, and Amei endured not to associate with other men at first, for fear of being caught in turn, but then she couldn't bear it anymore, and secretly flown to Hainan with her former boyfriend, thinking about the end of the world. Less than half an hour after she bought her ticket, the person sent by her husband to keep an eye on him bought a ticket for the same flight. The end result is to send a little money to let Ah Mei walk, and all illusions are shattered. After speaking, Qin Yixing said: "She is still Amei, she is not simple, and there are people to help her." If it's you, I'm afraid you won't be able to send it away. Liu Yiyi shook her head and said, "I'm really not as good as her." Qin Yixing said: "Amei is not smart, why do you have a house and a car and go to find such a big money?" She can't eat a cow in one meal, and if she can really eat it, she can afford to eat it. Liu Yiyi said: "She is Amei, she has everything, she shouldn't gamble." I don't have anything, shouldn't I gamble? Qin Yixing laughed twice and said, "I really want to bet on you, the chances of winning are very small." Amei tossed this time, four years have passed, she is so badly injured, her popularity on TV has greatly decreased, and her youth is only a small tail. Liu Yiyi was silent for a long time and said, "Okay." Qin Yixing sent Liu Yiyi back to school, and the two calmly touched their lips and broke up.

Song Xusheng called: "When do you have time?" Liu Yiyi said: "I don't dare to see you." "The tongue rolled and sprinkled, as if it had a lump of sugar. Song Xusheng said: "Did you do something bad? Liu Yiyi said, "Yes." Song Xusheng hurriedly said: "What did you do, you said!" Liu Yiyi said: "People don't dare to say it." Song Xusheng said, "Where are you?" Liu Yiyi said, "I'm in the dormitory." Song Xusheng said, "Then I'll come over." "Liu Yiyi didn't let him go to the dormitory before, the reason was that he didn't know what was going on, and the city was full of wind and rain, which was not good. Seeing that Liu Yiyi was silent, Song Xusheng said, "I'm really here." Liu Yiyi said: "Don't be angry when you come!" ”

Song Xu rose downstairs in the dormitory, and didn't dare to come up, so he called his mobile phone below. Liu Yiyi said: "I still want someone to pick it up!" Song Xusheng said excitedly: "Okay." And he went upstairs. Entering the dormitory, Song Xusheng nodded at everyone: "Hello, hello, hello." He stopped talking, and stood there at a loss. Liu Yiyi said: "This is Song Xusheng, what I told you, the one from the Chemical Research Institute." Several girls looked at him, Song Xusheng blinked, and motioned with his hand to ask Liu Yiyi to go out. Liu Qin said: "Yiyi, we all went to study on our own. Liu Yiyi said: "Let's go out, and talk better under the moon before the flower." ”

Walking on campus, Song Xusheng said, "What happened? Liu Yiyi said, "Didn't you see it? Song Xusheng said, "I saw you." Liu Yiyi said: "That's not? "Cover your hair with your hands," you see people's hair. Song Xusheng ripped her hand off, "What's wrong with the hair?" What's wrong? Is it a wig? It doesn't matter if it's a wig, as long as it's you. Liu Yiyi was greatly moved and said, "Who has a wig!" Don't you think people's hair is not good-looking? Song Xusheng pulled her under the street lamp, looked left and right, and said, "Nothing!" Liu Yiyi said: "Your eyes are still not eyeballs?" People have a perm, and the effect is not good. Song Xusheng looked at it carefully again and said, "It's really hot." Who says it's bad? Who's talking nonsense? I'll just look at it. Liu Yiyi said: "You can take a closer look." Song Xusheng said: "What else do you want me to think?" It's just good. Liu Yiyi said: "Okay? That's good. Let's not stand under the lamp, let's go under the tree. ”

Looking around, I couldn't find a quiet place, on the grass, under the big trees, there were couples everywhere. Song Xusheng said: "Others are sitting here, and we are also sitting here, what are we afraid of." Liu Yiyi ignored him, took his hand, and finally found a quiet place under the eaves of the faculty dormitory. Liu Yiyi said: "Is my hair really good-looking? Song Xusheng said: "People are also good-looking." Liu Yiyi suddenly hugged his waist and said, "Song Xusheng!" Song Xusheng opened his two hands, at a loss, and said, "What's wrong?" What's wrong with you? Liu Yiyi said: "I'm cold." Song Xusheng gently hugged her hands and said, "Is it still cold?" Liu Yiyi said, "Have you had dinner?" Song Xusheng said, "I ate it." Suddenly he realized, hugged her tighter and said, "I ate, you see, I ate." Liu Yiyi said: "Flatten me." Song Xusheng said, "Press you into my body." Liu Yiyi tilted her head up, and Song Xusheng said, "Then I'll be like this." He leaned his head down, and the tip of his tongue tentatively touched her lips. Liu Yiyi put her arms around his neck and pulled his head down hard. At this moment, she remembered Xia Weikai, in the woods by the river, her first kiss. That was more than six years ago.