While communicating, he hesitated. Liu Yiyi reported the situation of the relationship to Qin Yixing, and also reported her hesitant thoughts to Qin Yixing. After a while, the two also met once, at the restaurant, and then went to the hotel. Passion is not so passionate anymore, passion is weathered in time like a rock, but the show is still a show. Liu Yiyi thought that this was already the aftermath of passion, that is to say, fate was coming to an end, and she couldn't be romantic if she wanted to, which seemed hypocritical. It's just a habit, and it happens naturally. Before the performance, Qin Yixing would ask, "You didn't let him take advantage, did you?" Liu Yiyi said: "Didn't you teach me that the more serious I am, the more I have to keep that line?" Qin Yixing said, "Won't he bring it up?" Liu Yiyi said: "Is there such a good man in the world? I can't control the situation with you, I have a way to deal with him. And he said, "Why do you always care about me?" You and your wife, and others, I have to care about you! Qin Yixing said, "Okay, okay." Liu Yiyi said: "Selfish! And he said, "Why am I so discouraged in your presence?" Oh my heart! Oh my heart! She thought that one day she would register with Song Xusheng, and she would no longer be like this, and she would not be sorry for him.

After the performance, Liu Yiyi said: "Seeing that I have been with you for so long, I am used to it in many ways, even what grade of clothes to wear and what cosmetics to use, and these things have to change with him, does he buy dozens of dollars a pair of shoes, and I buy hundreds?" Does he have to count one dollar or two dollars for taking the bus, and I can take a taxi? He is reluctant to eat good food, I eat Western food? It's really not a one-way person, don't force me to follow him! Qin Yixing said: "That's why he's so good to you, that's why you can control the situation." If you don't have both, do you want to eat Western food or do you want to feel safe? Can a woman eat youth rice for twenty years? She always has to find someone who will take care of her own destiny. Liu Yiyi said: "It's okay to think about it." Qin Yixing said: "I don't want to see you toss again, you will die of the heart of marrying a lot of money." Liu Yiyi said: "Who wants to marry a big money?" The middle paragraph still allows people to think about it, which is very realistic. Qin Yixing said: "Your middle style is actually a big one." Liu Yiyi said: "In fact, it doesn't matter what the money is, the important thing is that it is willing in the heart." Decades to come! Day by day! Why can't you just let me find someone who agrees? Qin Yixing said: "Are there any people in your life who you agree with?" That's all there is to life. Every girl is compromising with reality, didn't Miao Xiaohui compromise? Liu Yiyi said: "I have compromised too much, and I really can't get over it in my heart!" Qin Yixing said: "You have to see the situation clearly, there are these people around you, no one, no one!" Liu Yiyi felt that this was true, felt shocked, and frustrated, and struggled to say, "Why is there no one?" When I was in college, how many people wanted to come to me? Aren't they in this world? Qin Yixing shook his head and said, "Say back then, say back then!" If you go on like this, I'm really worried about you. Liu Yiyi chuckled and said, "I think you're worried about yourself." You can rest assured. Am I a stalker? Qin Yixing said: "I'm really worried about you!" Liu Yiyi said with a cry: "I don't feel anything, I have to rely on reason to force myself, such a marriage is married, how will I live in the future?" I'm really miserable! Qin Yixing said: "You know how realistic the reality is!" You still don't give up, you won't be able to marry if you want to marry in a few years, and even Song Xusheng was poached by others. Liu Yiyi said: "Won't it?" I'm staring at him. Qin Yixing said: "Who can keep an eye on whom?" Can he keep an eye on you? He looked at his watch and said, "It's almost eleven o'clock, you call him, if he turns off the phone or doesn't answer, then there is a problem." Liu Yiyi said: "Even he can play missing?" He dialed the number, and after passing, he nodded to Qin Yixing.

After spending a few months in hesitation, Liu Yiyi is twenty-seven years old. This was the upper limit of time she set for herself, but when it really came to this day, she pushed it back by another year. After so many years of intoxication, I have to wake up, and I can't lie to myself anymore. On her birthday, she didn't remind anyone, lamenting that even she had reached an age when it became a sensitive topic that could not be touched upon, and it became a top secret. This made her think that a distant day in her imagination would really come one day.

In the past few months, she has kept in touch with Song Xusheng, not too cold, not too hot, and looking around to see where there are better and better. What is excellent, she seems to understand very well, but she does not understand. Her parents were so anxious that they didn't have any other ideas, and whenever she proposed a candidate, they would say "yes" in unison. This made her feel pitiful for them, and she never reported anything again. She believes in Qin Yixing's words, being good to herself is the biggest benefit, but she secretly hopes that better ones will also be good to her. This hope was not realized, and the people she contacted were either impure in motives, or the emotional background was too complicated, which made her afraid. There is a bank manager in her thirties, who is excellent in all aspects, and after a few days of contact, he asks her if she is a "girl", which means that he hopes that she is not, and that he can advance and retreat freely without taking responsibility. His principle is not to associate with "girls". Liu Yiyi knew that she couldn't afford to play, and her first step was to figure out the nature of this relationship. Before the matter is determined, you can't easily let the other party get your way. Qin Yixing said that the more serious you are, the more conservative you must be, and you have to leave a thought for the other party, and you can see it at a glance at a glance, which will only make the other party feel bored. But in his opinion, people nowadays eat and drink well, eat and drink well, and entertainment is good, and things in bed are the best entertainment. Sex is sex, the feeling that belongs to the body, has nothing to do with everything else, responsibility, tomorrow, or even the feeling of the heart. Therefore, there is no need to be deeply involved in each other's lives, let alone entangled, everyone is relaxed and free, this is the pure love that shakes off all external impurities. Why think so far? Man lives to live, not to prepare for life. He told Liu Yiyi that this is his true thoughts on life, and I don't want to lie to you. If you feel it for a day, stay together for a day, don't be entangled if you don't feel it a day, modern people should have a modern concept of love. He expresses his cruelty very poetically, and can only deceive the little girl. Twenty-seven-year-old Liu Yiyi knew how terrifying and cruel this was, and what an embarrassing situation she would put herself in. All he needed was an object of desire, but she couldn't see herself that way. There are many such people in Lucheng, who have fallen in love, are always in love, and realize the dream of having a group of wives and concubines under the banner of love. As for what kind of harm this will bring to others, that is not a matter for him to consider. They sell cruelty in the name of love and express all kinds of truths around their own desires, which is more terrible than Manager Xue, who is at least willing to make amends to the girl. Can such a person be a husband? If Liu Yiyi had illusions before, why couldn't he change his mind and win him over? Now she knows that such an expectation is unacceptable, and she can't imagine what he will change for herself, who will become a Buddha for whom? She was terrified of his unfathomable experience, and she must not follow him, it was a dead end. Liu Yiyi didn't want to play this kind of game with him, only those girls who were innocent in every man's arms were qualified to play, and they had become cold-blooded people. With the idea of "not playing with you", she categorically cut off contact with him. Liu Yiyi has no regrets when she is separated, and she doesn't care if she doesn't belong to herself.

In May, Liu Yiyi successfully passed the thesis defense, and before that, she had found a job in the Zhongshan Road Business Department of Galaxy Securities as a manager of the account department. Her supervisor wanted to contact her to go to Shanghai University of Finance and Economics for a doctorate, and she asked Qin Yixing's opinion, and Qin Yixing said, "Do you really want to be single? Song Xusheng said: "Since the day you received the PhD notice, I didn't dare to meet you." I didn't think about finding a female master, let alone a female doctor. I'm just an undergraduate, you really want me to be afraid of you! In this way, Liu Yiyi gave up her desire to take a doctorate, and wondered why a man who studied for a doctorate added points to love, but women who lost points? She is not convinced, but she has to accept it if she is not convinced, this is the reality.

The first time she received a salary, more than 2,000 yuan, Liu Yiyi was in a very good mood, it was not that she had never seen so much money, but it was the first time she had earned so much money. Excited, she wanted to call Qin Yixing to tell her, and then she thought, will he afford this money? I told Song Xusheng. Song Xusheng said on the phone: "There are really so many? And he said, "Very good, you." "The tone is a bit lazy. Liu Yiyi said: "I still have to invite you at night." Song Xusheng said: "If you want to please, I please." Liu Yiyi realized that she was too excited, and Song Xusheng's salary was only more than 1,000. She said, "What do you want to do so much?" ”

Now Liu Yiyi has no other ideas, and she is no longer looking for new clues. The person who wants to marry is not Song Xusheng, but also Song Xusheng. But she was still waiting, waiting for what, I don't know, it seemed to be waiting for the twenty-eight year old deadline set for herself. One day in October, Song Xusheng's mother was critically ill with rheumatic heart disease, so Song Xusheng said hello to Liu Yiyi and went back. The next day, I called and hoped that she would play the role of a daughter-in-law in the past and give the dying person a little last comfort. Liu Yiyi agreed without hesitation, with a noble sense of dedication. After agreeing, he hesitated, did he go? I'm not really his person. In the end, I took a taxi to the long-distance bus station. At the bus station, she called Qin Yixing, and Qin Yixing said, "Does he have so many places to live at home?" He may want you to be with him. Liu Yiyi said: "Is this how you arranged it?" Qin Yixing said, "You still have to buy some gifts." Liu Yiyi said: "If I go to be a good person, do you want me to post it upside down?" Qin Yixing said: "This is the least politeness, but also to grab things to do, and kiss hot spots." Liu Yiyi said: "How can I be so good? I'm not in the mood and I don't have any money. Qin Yixing said: "I'll reimburse you when I come back." Liu Yiyi bought a lot of things in the small shop opposite the station, only a few dozen yuan. Song Xusheng picked her up in the county seat, took a minibus for another hour, and got off the bus for four or five miles. The last two miles is the ridge road, it had just rained the day before, Liu Yiyi was wearing high heels, stepped on the ridge and fell crookedly, almost fell into the field several times, and said angrily: "I don't want to go." Song Xusheng said: "I can't help it, I'll carry you." Liu Yiyi lay on his back and said, "I'll fall." Song Xusheng said: "I have been walking for almost 30 years. Liu Yiyi said: "Will you people here laugh at you when they see it?" Song Xusheng said: "Do you think that the wind outside the highway can't blow in?" It's more open than Lucheng. There is nothing immoral about going out to be a young lady, but it is immoral to only care about making money for yourself, and not taking the daughters of relatives and friends out to earn money. If you look at which house is new, you will know that this family has a daughter. When I saw my dilapidated house, I knew that I was raising my son. ”

When he was almost home, Song Xusheng put Liu Yiyi down. A child stood at the door of a dilapidated adobe house with his fingers sucking, looked at Song Xusheng and said, "Uncle is back." "Run inside and report the news. Liu Yiyi entered the house and saw that there were pieces of bamboo exposed on the wall, the windows were covered with plastic paper, and the hall only had a water tank and a dining table. There is a woman who is lighting a fire under the stove, and she is Song Xusheng's sister-in-law. The sister-in-law said, "Coming? He stood up and made a cup of tea, and went to light the fire again. Song Xusheng said: "In the past few years, the money given to them has been lost for medical treatment. Liu Yiyi said, "Yes." Song Xusheng said: "My mother is in the back room." Liu Yiyi said, "Yes." And he went with him. The walls were blackened earthen walls, a bed resting against the wall, and the wood was cracked. Song Xusheng said: "Mom, Liu Yiyi is here." His mother's eyes seemed to be open, and one hand groped for it. Song Xusheng said: "She can't see clearly, she wants to touch your hand." Liu Yiyi said, "Yes." "Just sit down on the edge of the bed and put one hand next to the dry hand. The old man trembled and said, "Hello, so is my cub." I want to drink your wine, can I still drink it? Song Xusheng said: "I have already negotiated with Liu Yiyi, and I am about to do wine." The old man asked Liu Yiyi: "When, can I still wait?" Liu Yiyi said, "Yes." Song Xusheng said: "Prepare for next month." The old man asked Song Xusheng to get oranges to eat, and Song Xusheng shouted a few times before he went, bringing a bamboo basket with some oranges the size of a ping-pong ball. The old man urged repeatedly: "Eat, eat." Liu Yiyi snorted, picked up one and pinched it in her hand, looked at the patient's deflated face, and thought, when this matter is over, Song Xusheng can breathe a sigh of relief.

Out of the house, Song Xusheng said: "I shouldn't have called you here, I can't help her." And he said, "You may be discouraged when you see this." Liu Yiyi said, "I want to go to the toilet." Song Xusheng sighed in embarrassment, but still took her there. Liu Yiyi saw that there was a large dung tank in the chaimen, and two wooden planks were resting on it, and as soon as the person approached, a swarm of flies buzzed and flew up. Liu Yiyi caught a glimpse of maggots wriggling in the dung tank, took a few steps back, and said, "How can this be solved?" Song Xusheng took her to a room again, brought a plastic basin from the outside and said, "You can't use my basin, basin, basin?" Liu Yiyi said: "My whole body is itchy, and there are insects crawling everywhere." And he said, "Is there a late train now?" I have to go to work tomorrow, and you send me to the county seat. Song Xusheng said: "Please have a meal, I will send you to the town for one night after eating, and go back together tomorrow morning, where is the car back to Lucheng now?" For dinner, Liu Yiyi only drank a few mouthfuls of soup and sandwiched two chopsticks and vegetables. While his sister-in-law went to pack the meal, Song Xusheng said, "You eat more, okay?" Later, people will say that you are not in good health. Liu Yiyi said: "If you eat the contents of my stomach again, it will be pushed out." After eating, Liu Yiyi said, "Hurry up and send me away, I'll be relieved later," he opened his hands and gestured, "Tuba." Song Xusheng said: "Basin...... Basin. Seeing Liu Yiyi shaking her head vigorously, she said again: "That's good, good." He went into the back room and said a few words to his mother, and then called Liu Yiyi in. Liu Yiyi saw the withered hand groping repeatedly on the edge of the bed, so she stretched out her hand. The old man kept saying that he wanted to eat and drink, and he wanted to eat and drink. Liu Yiyi kept saying, "Okay, it's soon, it's fast." He called "Mom" a few more times, and then came out.

When he went out, Song Xusheng said: "If you call her a few times, she will be completely relieved." He also said, "Yiyi, I have wronged you, don't come next time." Walking to the ridge, Song Xusheng said, "I'll carry you." Liu Yiyi said: "I can walk by myself." Song Xusheng said, "Let me carry it." Blocking her path in front, he bent down and put his hands behind his back, "Let me carry it, let me carry it." Liu Yiyi let him carry it. Song Xusheng said: "Walking on the country road, the blue sky and the sunset are in the chest, now it's right, take a look, take a look." I like to sing this song when I first enter college, but why are all the young people here running out, and they don't want to take the country road to watch the blue sky and sunset? Liu Yiyi said: "It can suffocate people to death, and the blue sky and sunset!" I'm really going to suffocate. Song Xusheng quickened his pace and said, "It's fast, it's fast." ”

After staying in the town, Liu Yiyi came out after going to the toilet and said, "I'm finally relieved." Song Xusheng didn't speak, Liu Yiyi didn't speak, and the atmosphere was very dull. After a long time, Song Xusheng said: "You are still relieved when you go back to Lucheng, I don't dare to think about some things, I am already very grateful to you." Liu Yiyi was silent for a moment and said: "If you are poor, you think about change, why don't you think about change?" How did the intransmissible become? Who but you wouldn't want to change your fate? If you think about it, it's been six years since you graduated from college. Sticking out his fingers, he gestured, "Six years!" What is the concept of six years? Song Xusheng said: "You see that I have offended the director of the room, and I will not be involved in any projects that I have to think about." In my business, I can't draw anything out of thin air. If I want to beg him, how can I swallow it? Liu Yiyi said: "There are only a few earthen walls at home that you can swallow, what else can't you swallow?" Song Xusheng said, "I'm sorry for you, so I'm ...... Thankfully, nothing has happened to us yet. Seeing that Liu Yiyi was silent, she said, "Tomorrow morning, I'll go back to accompany my mother for one night." "Gently close the door and go. It was almost eleven o'clock, and he came back and said, "Don't worry, come and have a look." Liu Yiyi exclaimed: "Look at you! This body of mud! Song Xusheng smiled and said, "It was dark, and I fell into the field." Liu Yiyi wanted to find something to wipe him off, and he said, "Maybe I'll have to fall." I'll be back later. After talking until more than twelve o'clock, Song Xusheng went back again.