Quarrels are quarrels, and after the quarrel, Song Xusheng will occasionally have emotions to provoke Liu Yiyi. Liu Yiyi wanted to refuse, give me leftovers to eat, am I so cheap? But somehow, I still accept it every time, and I still accept it without passion. Not only to accept, but also to cherish. She knew that if she refused, there would be no next time, and Song Xusheng just had a reason to exile herself completely. Is it better to have a turtle than nothing, and to have leftovers than nothing? She couldn't answer herself.

I've ended up here? Liu Yiyi was not convinced. What if you are not convinced? She couldn't find her way. The idea of divorce came to me again and again. Finally, one night, thinking about where Song Xusheng was doing with whom, she couldn't help but say to Qinqin: "Your father doesn't want us anymore, are you doing well with your mother?" Qinqin said, "No, Dad wants me." Liu Yiyi said: "Dad quarrels with Mom every day, and if you don't get together, you won't quarrel." Qinqin said, "I'm afraid." Liu Yiyi said heroically: "What are you afraid of? You also have a mother. But his eyes were moist. Qinqin said: "I'm afraid of your divorce, I don't want you to divorce." Liu Yiyi said: "How do you understand so much? He also said, "Mom has made two mistakes in her life, the first is to find your father, and the second is to give birth to you." Qinqin said, "I want my mother to find my father." Liu Yiyi said: "Mom can still have children with others." Qinqin said, "No, then it's not me." Liu Yiyi smiled and said, "How do you know so much?" Laughing and laughing, suddenly I didn't expect it, my nose was sore, I hugged the qinqin, and I cried bitterly. Qin Qin shouted, "Mommy, Mom! A hand reached up to wipe her tears, and suddenly, she began to cry too.

When Song Xusheng came back, Liu Yiyi said: "You see that your daughter is so sensible!" "I told me what the night was like. Song Xusheng said: "My daughter is a good daughter. And he said, "You want a divorce, that's what you said." What do you really have to do, I can't help it. Liu Yiyi said: "Are men so bad?" Song Xusheng sighed and said: "I'm just too promising, I didn't expect myself to be so promising, I can't help it." Liu Yiyi said: "There are many good men who are promising." Song Xusheng said: "Is it much? Maybe there are a few, or maybe you don't know the truth. The truth of this world has been revealed, it is really incredible, and the sky has been turned upside down. Folding his fingers as he spoke, "Is there still one, two, three, four, or five good men in the world?" Liu Yiyi thought, it used to be said that behind every successful man there is a virtuous woman, but now it will be changed to a sad woman. The mouth said: "There are really a lot, I don't lie to you." Song Xusheng said: "That's because his wife is very good to him, and she has never done anything to be sorry for him." Liu Yiyi said: "Who has treated you badly and done something sorry for you?" Song Xusheng turned his head to look out the window and said, "She doesn't know in her heart? Liu Yiyi wanted to refute, but sighed in her heart and didn't say anything.

I can't go on on this topic, and the more I talk about it, the more embarrassing it becomes. Song Xusheng said: "Women, there are some things that you can't be too persistent, too persistent will hurt your body and hurt your heart." Liu Yiyi said: "There is no such attachment, do women still want to be human beings in this world?" Song Xusheng said: "Then there is no way." He shook his head again and said, "There is no way." Isn't it painful to say that there is such a good view in front of the window, but you don't let the probe look at it? How can a piece of chewing gum, even if it's really sweet, stand up to years of chewing? You can't understand the pain of men. No way, really no way, no way from ancient times to the present. Liu Yiyi said: "Even if there is no way, can't you make some sacrifices for the child?" Song Xusheng said: "This sacrifice has been done by women for thousands of years, and this situation always makes sense, and now it is suddenly asked to be done by men?" Liu Yiyi lowered her head and shook it: "Alas, there is really no way." Song Xusheng said: "Women are not so exciting, it's not her fault, if you are still so persistent, it is her fault." Liu Yiyi said: "It would be inhumane for you to simply say it." And he said, "Is that humane to us?" Song Xusheng said: "So there is no way." And he said, "There are some things that were a way of life for men in ancient times, then a crime, and now they have to be regarded as a way of life. It's a tolerant society now. Liu Yiyi said: "Don't you think it's too immoral to say this? Song Xusheng said: "If morality is too moral, it will be immoral." He also said, "Morality, is it whose own child, who threw it on the ground yesterday when he wanted to, and hugged it in his arms today when he wanted to?" Some people can say these two words, and some people are better not to say them, they are not interesting to say. Liu Yiyi said: "Who is better not to say?" You said! Song Xusheng said: "You still ask me?" He laughed, "She doesn't know yet?" Liu Yiyi said: "Don't forget, you gave birth to a daughter, and you will be a woman in the future, you have maintained a certain principle, that is, to protect her future." You don't want to see others do to her the way you treat me in the future, do you? Song Xusheng was silent for a while and said, "Alas, sleep, sleep." ”

Song Xusheng soon fell asleep. Lying in the darkness with her limbs outstretched, Liu Yiyi thought that she had failed to the end as a woman. Is this failure a personal tragedy, or is it a tragedy of an era? If it is a tragedy of the times, I can still find a little balance in my heart, anyway, there is no way, and it is not that I have no way alone, so I have to admit it. Thinking of the word "recognized", her heart hurt like being bitten off a piece of meat by a dog, she is also a person, this person only has a lifetime, how can she be willing, how can she let it go? Happiness is simple and simple, the smell of firewood, rice, oil and salt, and a man who loves himself intimately and lovingly, he has everything. But this pitiful ideal is as slim as taking a staircase to heaven. Alas, men always have new passions, and successful men have the opportunity to fulfill them. Perhaps, they should be understood. But who understands women? A man's passion comes at the cost of a woman's life. He is no longer wonderful, he can't stimulate his passion, and he has to suppress his passion, is this that he is not interesting, inhumane, and makes them embarrassed? Passion will always fade, youth will always be lost, the only way out for women is to establish family affection with all sincerity, manage family affection as a lifelong career, replace passion with family affection, and circle passion. Otherwise, the girls outside are so young and open, how can they be their opponents? Family affection is established bit by bit in time, and I have time and opportunity, but I can't establish it, which is my biggest failure as a person. Alas, family affection is actually very easy, and it is precisely because of it that there are so many successful women in this world. It's because I'm too careless, I don't believe in love, and I don't fall in love with this man, marriage is just an emotional endgame, how can I have all my sincerity? Alas, today, the harmony of marriage has gradually changed from a convention to a special case. Alas, it is actually logical that I have fallen to this point today! Alas, in this society that pursues harmony, the harmony between men and women is becoming more and more elusive. Alas, to this day I have no choice but to hold out any hope, and therefore do not regard tragedy as a tragedy, although this is the greatest tragedy of this era, but it can make myself settle down and live. Chinese women have been like this for thousands of years, and they can't get by for decades? Alas.

The conversation that night seemed to have reached a tacit understanding, and Song Xusheng no longer shied away from anything. When the phone is charging, or when taking a shower, it is placed on the table, and when you want to go out, you can say "something", and you don't have to explain anything. Liu Yiyi doesn't look at her phone, it doesn't make sense to look at it, it's nothing more than those clichés; I didn't ask him where he went, and it didn't make sense to ask, and after a while, I asked Qinqin to call him back, and she was angry with the girl outside. One day she couldn't bear it anymore and said to Song Xusheng: "I will do what you do, don't think that only men have plays." What I did, that's learning from you. Song Xusheng said: "Be careful, don't let me know, I won't wear a hat of a certain color." So what's the point of this home? Liu Yiyi said: "Does it make sense to me?" Song Xusheng said: "It's meaningless, so why pinch this?" ”

Then a quarrel broke out, and all hurtful words were said, and the more painful the other party stabbed, the more enjoyable and happy it became. Song Xusheng said: "A woman like you is not only not worthy of being cherished by a man like me, but also not worthy of being cherished by any man. Liu Yiyi said: "I want you to cherish, you are the Qianlong Emperor?" Only those women in massage parlors deserve to be cherished. Song Xusheng said: "You have such high requirements for me, you have to look in the mirror yourself, and you feel cruel at a glance," he said, pointing with his hand, "The mirror is there." Liu Yiyi said: "If I don't give birth to the Song family, I won't be what I am now, who begged me to give birth back then?" Song Xusheng said: "You have to think about what you mean to me? I complain all day long, I support my family, I still have to listen to this complaint, I am full and panicked? Liu Yiyi shouted: "You have great significance to me, I can't live without you!" Song Xusheng also shouted: "Roaring lion, roaring lion in Hedong!" What man would love a roaring lion? Speaking of this, Liu Yiyi felt hopeless. There is no **, there is no family affection, that is, the spirit and the flesh are in vain, and only children can establish mutual meaning. These are two circles, and only the child is left in the intersecting part. The thought of divorce flashed in her heart again, and she said, "Then what are you still pinching together?" Song Xusheng said: "Did I say I want to pinch it?" And said: "If you don't pinch you, let Qinqin follow me, I don't want Qinqin to be with my stepfather, who knows who it is?" What if it's a pervert? I'm not at ease! Liu Yiyi said: "Then I want her to be with her stepmother!" I'm relieved! Song Xusheng shook his head and said, "It's a pity that Qinqin is a girl, and it's easy to arrange it if it's a boy." ”

At this time, the door rang, and Aunt Su came in with Qinqin. Qin Qin shouted at the door: "Daddy, Daddy! Song Xusheng immediately stopped talking, and Liu Yiyi stopped making a sound. Qinqin came in and found that the atmosphere was not right and said, "Dad, what's wrong with your mother today?" Song Xusheng said: "It's nothing. Qin Qin said, "Mom, what's wrong with you, Dad?" Liu Yiyi said: "It's nothing." The last time I quarreled, Qin Qin held a magazine in the middle and said, "Mom and Dad, don't quarrel." The two reached a tacit understanding that they should not quarrel in front of Qinqin. Qinqin led Song Xu to the living room, and Liu Yiyi leaned on the bed, her chest was very tight. "Howling Lion", she thought, was I like this before? A woman is a fawn when she gets love, and a roaring lion when she loses love. If you don't roar a few more times, you'll suffocate to death. Alas, Song Xusheng's posture of quarreling is different from before, arguing to the death, it seems that he doesn't want to maintain this family. Is the girl outside forcing him to divorce? Thinking of this, Liu Yiyi smiled in her heart, does the monkey have a watermelon in his hand? Make your spring dreams! You have to accompany you when I'm finished, seeing how many years of youth you have, I'll drag you to death.

Qin Qin called in the living room: "Daddy, Daddy! I saw a real pig today, fatter than you. Song Xusheng laughed and said, "Is it white?" Qin Qin said, "It's pink, and it's like you." You call a few times to see which one looks like some. Song Xusheng screamed a few times, and Qin Qin said: "It seems that this is exactly what it is called." Dad, why do you call it so similar? Song Xusheng said: "When my father was a child, the outside of the house was a place to feed pigs. Qinqin said: "Pigs are all treasures, guess what is most useful on the pigs?" Song Xusheng guessed that pork could be eaten, pig skin could be used to make shoes, and pig tails could be used to chase flies, but none of them were right. Song Xusheng said: "I can't guess. Qinqin twisted his ears and sang "Song of the Pig": "Your ears are fat and big, and you don't know if I'm calling you stupid." Then he said, "Daddy Pig, you told you that you still can't guess?" Song Xusheng guessed a few more times, but still didn't guess, and said, "Where did you tell me?" Qin Qin clapped her hands happily and said, "Daddy Pig, the name of the pig is the most useful and can be scolded!" Song Xusheng also clapped his hands and said: "Yes, yes, why am I so stupid that I can't make brain teasers?" Qinqin said, "Because you are a pig!" Song Xusheng clapped his hands and laughed and said, "Why is my Qinqin so smart? Qinqin brought a bunch of photo albums, sat on Song Xusheng and said, "Here are all people who love me and people I love." I'll talk to you when I'm done. Song Xusheng suddenly shouted: "Stand up, get out of the way, Dad is going to fart!" Instead, Qinqin stuck tighter on Song Xusheng and said, "Dad, you are so honest!" Song Xusheng hugged Qinqin a few times, kissed her face desperately and said, "My cub, my cub, my good cub!" ”

Seeing this scene, Liu Yiyi thought that she couldn't get a divorce, and the divorce was too miserable, and her childhood dream was shattered. Besides, she was pampered, she ate milk in the morning, or fresh milk, and went out without eating her schoolbag, Song Xusheng chased to the door with half a bowl of milk and said: "Good cub, good cub, drink this little milk." She got angry and said, "Every day I drink milk like urine!" "I left without looking back. How could such a delicate woman live with another man? Yes, the qin is the most important, the most important, the most important. Song Xusheng is unwilling to sacrifice, Qinqin can't be sacrificed, the only thing that can be sacrificed is himself. Unwilling, unwilling! It's so unfair, why? Is it just because she's a woman? Isn't your whole life a whole life? However, if you are unwilling, what can you do?