Although the temperature outside was still very high, compared to the almost airless air in his room just now, Yan Xiao suddenly felt that the outside was extremely fresh.

It wasn't very late, less than ten o'clock.

Yan Xiao left the community and wanted to go farther, not for why, maybe to stay away from the place that made him sad, or to make him regret it.

The second thought came to her and was immediately despised by her, and if he didn't leave the room, he wouldn't have known that she wasn't there, and there was no revenge.

She shook her head, as if trying to banish the emotions from her head.

She didn't want to think about it so much, she just wanted to forget what she had just felt until all the things on her mind had been resolved.

After walking for a long time, she didn't know that the muffled thunder she heard at her house just now was not her hallucination, and a lightning bolt suddenly split from the sky in the distance.

Wouldn't it be too unfair to God why it rains every time he leaves his house at night?

She suddenly regretted that she really shouldn't have been so impulsive before leaving, at least she took her mobile phone, and now she only had five yuan to rummage through her body, plus two crumpled fives.

I can't even buy an umbrella...

The relationship is facing a break, and the current situation is also in an embarrassment, but Yan Xiao's unexpected mood doesn't seem to be so bad.

There is also the mind to complain about himself.

The calm before the storm was short-lived, and she soon felt a bean-sized raindrop hit her arm.

According to experience, this kind of rain with a long foreplay is generally a torrential rain, and it will crackle and fall down in two or three minutes, but according to experience, this kind of rain should not last long.

She turned into a nearby 711 supermarket, and as soon as she entered, it began to rain heavily, and huge raindrops hit the ground, and the weather was suddenly cold.

This kind of supermarket is open 24 hours a day, and when Yan Xiao went in, the clerk was taking a nap, heard the sound, and said a word to Yan Xiao.

Yan Xiao suddenly felt that this sentence of "coming" was particularly healing, as if you had just been abandoned, and when you thought you were in a mess, a stranger suddenly appeared, and you still didn't care about anything, didn't ask or doubt, and greeted you so cordially and familiarly.

The greeting that he usually ignores suddenly became heavy now, and Yan Xiao nodded with a smile in response: "Hello." ”

She didn't know how obvious the swollen marks of crying were in her eyes now.

The clerk probably didn't expect to receive a response, so he was stunned for a moment, and then smiled at Yan Xiao.

Working in a supermarket, he has long seen all kinds of people, he saw that the girl was still dressed very thin and casual, and her eyes were swollen, and he knew that she had quarreled with her family or boyfriend and ran away from home...

After all, he stayed out of the matter and continued his work, collecting the last few skewers of sausages and oden.

Yan Xiao noticed the lonely skewers of oden, and suddenly said, "That, I want it." ”

Anyway, the money she brought was only enough to buy these, and she also had a hot brain and didn't want to waste it.

The clerk was stunned for a moment again, seeing that Yan Xiao was serious, and began to pay for it, so he smiled and helped her put a few strings of oden into the cup.

Sitting in the glass window, Yan Xiao eats oden facing outside and watches the rain at night.

Occasionally, a car drove by, and under the high beams, the raindrops were very clear, densely turned, and the light took shape.

The oden has been soaked for a long time, and it has become a little hard, but it is very delicious, and she actually thinks it is much better than usual, and she has never found it before...

Like in Wong Kar-wai's movie, some people like to eat canned pineapples that are about to expire on the last day, and it turns out that some people like to eat oden that is about to expire.

The rainy night in the city center was unexpectedly calm.

Yan Xiao sat in the floor-to-ceiling glass window, and saw the vegetable market man who had just gotten off work outside, sitting on a tricycle, the man pedaling, and the son sitting behind with an umbrella, an umbrella was almost all covered on top of her husband's head, not letting him get wet, and her back was full of water traces.

Yan Xiao was fascinated, and his eyes suddenly became sour.

She suddenly felt that those self-righteous affections could not compare to such blandness.

The authorities may have become accustomed to it, but the onlookers are moved.

She suddenly remembered Huo Zexi.

I had been controlling myself not to think about tonight's events, and then I suddenly remembered that those grievances and grievances seemed to be partially diluted by this heavy rain.

She likes herself at this time, she can be moved by a little thing, she can be quiet and watch a rain.

No uncontrollable doubt and jealousy, no self-loathing.

Calm down and trace back to the source, she knows that the source of the quarrel is because she is close to pathological feeling and lack of confidence, but those things that accumulate in her heart will always erupt, not today, but also in the days to come, she is very external, and she will not bear all her personality alone in order to protect the overall situation.

In fact, in today's quarrel, she could see that he was very angry, and even lost his usual composure and calmness, and in the end, she didn't care about anything, what she cared about was that when she broke up, he didn't say a word.

No one will budge.

When she finished eating, it was already eleven o'clock, and the rain showed no signs of stopping.

She was in a daze for a while, it was already half past eleven, and the rain showed no signs of stopping.

She was completely gone, it was close to twelve o'clock, and the rain showed no signs of stopping.

…

Miscalculation!

This rain is estimated to take the next night...

I knew that I had just asked the clerk to borrow an umbrella and left.

Yan Xiao finally ran out of patience, stood up and turned around, but saw the clerk sitting on a chair sleeping, and suddenly felt a little at a loss, if he woke him up now to borrow an umbrella, would it seem too presumptuous?

But she kept waiting, and the time was getting later and later, and she became more and more panicked...

Yan Xiao walked over cautiously, and was about to call the clerk softly, but he saw the glass door at the door suddenly open.

There are still people who come to the supermarket in the middle of the night in the middle of the night?

Yan Xiao subconsciously turned his head curiously, but after seeing it clearly, he was stunned.

Huo Zexi stood by the door, didn't walk in completely, the light was a little dim, half of his face was buried in the dark, the shadow outlined the outline, and he couldn't see his expression.

The figure is slender, silent and stable, as if it is enough to support the turbulent night sky behind it.

Obviously she hadn't seen her for two hours, but Yan Xiao felt that it had been a long time, so long that she didn't know how to speak or how to face it.

The emotions in his eyes were exhausted, Huo Zexi looked away, "Don't you want to go?" ”

The voice was cold and warm, Yan Xiao suddenly wanted to cry when he heard it, but he still came to her.

She didn't speak, walked over, Huo Zexi deliberately didn't look at her, and handed over another umbrella.

Yan Xiao noticed that he had obviously opened an umbrella, but there were water marks all over his body.

It's at least two bus stops away from home, and she doesn't have a cell phone and doesn't come here often, how did he find it?

Yan Xiao wanted to look up and ask him, but saw that his expression was very cold, and there was a little bit of tiredness, and he couldn't say anything at once.

Each of them has an umbrella and pulls a long distance in between.

In silence, only the sound of rain on the ground remained.

didn't walk for a while, Yan Xiao's skirt corner was beaten, she was stunned, and suddenly couldn't help her sour.

How long did it take him to get her through?

Walking downstairs, Yan Xiao was silent, looking at his back walking in front all the way.

After going home, there were no extra words, Huo Zexi didn't look at her from beginning to end, closed the door and went into the bedroom after taking a shower.

Yan Xiao slept on it, her face buried in the pillow, and her heart was unspeakably uncomfortable.

I feel guilty, and I'm more afraid, she's so ignorant, and she also mentioned breaking up, will he just ignore her like this, will he really leave...

Finally unable to take it anymore, she lifted her wet face from the pillow and walked out of the room.

Pushing open the door of Huo Zexi's room, he was already asleep, there was a faint dim light inside, and he liked to leave a lamp when he slept.

The light was very dim, and he could barely see the room, Yan Xiao stood by the door, and before he could speak, he had already begun to choke.

Originally, he was not asleep, Huo Zexi heard her sound of opening the door, and heard suppressed sobs, was silent for a moment, and asked, "What are you crying for?" ”

Yan Xiao couldn't speak clearly, and he choked when he spoke, and asked for a long time: "You, do you don't want me anymore?" ”

The room was very quiet, Yan Xiao's choking sound was particularly obvious, and in the dark, he didn't speak.

didn't get a response, Yan Xiao stood there cautiously, not daring to take a step closer, and she was reluctant to leave, she didn't want to cry at all, but she couldn't help crying.

Huo Zexi got up and sat on the side, Yan Xiao only saw his back in the dim light.

His voice was calm, and he said slowly, "The one who is leaving, isn't it?" ”

Yan Xiao wanted to say sorry, but suddenly remembered something, and changed his words: "Then can you forgive me?" ”

He put his hand on his forehead and spoke for a long time, his voice revealing tiredness: "It's late now, I'm tired, and I want to rest." ”

From beginning to end, he didn't even want to look at her in the eye.

Yan Xiao's heart was down, if he couldn't make it clear tonight, maybe he wouldn't have a chance again.

Thinking about it, she took another deep breath to calm her mind, and said in as calm a tone as possible:

"I've been uncontrollably suspicious every day lately, knowing that it's just my conjecture, but the more I let myself not think about it, the more I remember, I don't dare tell anyone, but..."

As she spoke, she suddenly choked up, and her voice was filled with a forbearant cry: "But I'm really tired, I don't feel like myself anymore... I don't want to do that at all, you say, am I sick? “

After she finished speaking, she covered her eyes and couldn't speak.

Uncontrollably suspicious, suffering from gains and losses, which she had never been in before, she felt that she was really sick.

After listening to her, after a long time, Huo Zexi's back moved slightly, looked at her sideways, and his voice was slow: "Come here." ”

Yan Xiao walked over and sat next to him, her face was full of tears, Huo Zexi raised his hand to help her wipe her tears, but took it back, just looked at her, "Why didn't you tell me before?" ”

"I'm afraid..."

"Afraid of what?"

I'm afraid that you think I'm troublesome, I'm afraid you'll get back together with Wei Xinzhu, I'm afraid...

Yan Xiao didn't say anything in the end, just shook his head, "Is it okay for you to accompany me to see a psychiatrist?" ”

Huo Zexi didn't know how sad she was when she suspected that she had a mental illness, and what she was hiding in her heart was.

His eyes were quiet, and after listening to her, he sighed, and finally took her into his arms, "Don't think about it, you're good..."

Yan Xiao couldn't hold back any longer, hugged him and cried, was hugged by him, and lay in his arms.

Her face was still wet, and Huo Ze separated the hair that was stuck to her face: "You ran out like this before, do you know how worried I am?" It's so late, it's still raining heavily, and I can't find you anywhere..."Yan Xiao looked up at him, his eyebrows were slightly wrinkled, and she asked, "You have been looking for me for a long time?" ”

"For a long time."

Yan Xiao felt guilty and couldn't speak, he helped her wipe the tears on her face, and there was pity in his eyes that he couldn't hide: "Don't do this again in the future." ”

The light in the room was dim, Yan Xiao looked at him, half of his face was hidden in the shadows, and the shadow of his eyelashes was cast under his eyes, which looked gentle and real.

Yan Xiao was silent for a while, and then spoke up: "I have a lot of shortcomings, I often speak without my brain, and I don't do things too carefully, it's easy for others to hate me, I know all of them, and I'm slowly reflecting on them." ”

Huo Zexi paused for a moment and said, "That's your character, not a shortcoming. ”

"I'm still suspicious, I'm always suspicious of you." Yan Xiao's voice became smaller as he spoke.

"Yan Xiao..."He suddenly called her in a low voice, and Yan Xiao raised his eyes, "Huh?" ”

"You know, a lot of times I treat you like a child, not because I think you're naïve..."

He looked at her gently and quietly, and spoke word by word, with the utmost seriousness.

Yan Xiao lay in the crook of his arm, listening in silence.

"This is how I love you," he said. ”