Liu Haiyan has no scruples and recounts her past:

Now that I think about it, I may have matured early then, and even though we both are focused on studying, sometimes I can't help but want to be with you. My menarche came relatively early, before I was 12 years old. But I don't know anything about sex.

When I was in junior high school, a boy wrote me a note, saying that I had already reconciled with you and ignored the other male classmates. They wrote me a note is something that can't be said, I know this, and I'm happy to say they like me, and it's better for others to say they like you than to hate you.

But I didn't dare to go on a date with other boys, I was a good girl in the eyes of my parents and teachers, and I also learned a little bit about how girls should behave when they are older. What's more, don't I have you by my side?

But apart from encouraging me to study hard, you didn't even touch my hand except for talking about some uncertain futures, and apart from letting others bully me. Sometimes, how I want you to touch my hand.

When I was seventeen, a boy who was a year older than me chased me. At that time, I was already sensible, and when I was sensible, I also knew how to be shy, as if a girl was not a girl if she was not shy, so I was shy, and for this reason the boy chased me for several months.

I didn't dare tell you that I was afraid you would be angry, but ...... I really can't control myself.

He got my first time, and now I think about it. It is precisely because of this that I was not admitted to university later, and I left your sight. It was the summer vacation of my sophomore year of high school, and one day he came to my house on his bicycle, and at that time there was no phone or pager, and he didn't know if there was anyone in my house, so he waited outside my house like a fool.

From 9 a.m. to 1 p.m., he said that his parents were not at home and asked me to come to his house to watch the video. At that time, I had only seen videos in the video hall in the town, and it was too enjoyable to watch a video for a few cents, so such an opportunity was rare. Besides, I can't bear to refuse him when I think of him waiting for me for four hours on such a hot day.

I sat on the back of his bike and thought to myself, how good it would be for you to carry me.

His home environment is very comfortable, better than you and me. The VCR was in his parents' room, and it seemed that he had already prepared it, and at the push of a button, the picture came. He told me not to be nervous, and said that I hadn't seen it, just grab his hand, and touch my hand as he spoke. I wish it was you who touched my hand, but it wasn't, disappointed and disappointed, and couldn't help but be excited.

Of course I knew what he was going to do, and I was scared in my heart, and I thought it was good, a feeling of heat, but my hands were cold. I knew I couldn't keep it, and I started to tremble, but I didn't want to turn him down.

I was also curious, very curious to know how such a thing could be done between men and women. He got up and closed the curtains, and I was nervous enough to stand up. He took advantage of the situation to push me to the bedside and took off my clothes. I was scared and excited, and I cooperated with him numbly, it really hurt! But I still have a fluttering feeling, and suddenly I feel that this is the kind of feeling that I can often find on my own, but it is magnified and real than the feeling I find myself.

When we got dressed silently, he didn't say a word, panicked. I didn't dare to look at him, but I thought a little happily and a little sadly, I was already a woman. At that moment, even I didn't believe it really happened. At the same time, I'm a little scared to see you.