The knife around his neck was suddenly removed, and the murder was solved. For Zhen'er, luck came so suddenly, but she didn't even care about rejoicing for herself, because Zhen'er's focus was firmly locked on the words "revolution/martyr".

The most fearful thing still happened, Zhen'er's heart was so distressed, as if she had also been attacked by artillery fire, she almost trembled and asked: "My comrades, he, who are they, who have become martyrs?" ”

The middle-aged cadre frowned slightly, as if he wanted to say, this is a confidential matter, you shouldn't ask, and you don't have the authority to ask.

But Zhen'er has been waiting for many years, and these days he has been mentally devastated, and his nerves really can't hold it anymore, so he cried out in the office with a "wow", tearing his heart and lungs without pretense, and stumbling and saying: "I, I've waited for so many years, and I'm not afraid to kill my head, just to ...... Why are they gone, tell me, who sacrificed/sacrificed, we are all comrades-in-arms who have experienced countless lives and deaths together!"

"Do you know this comrade? In the demon cave, there is really only such a support, or you can't live......"

This intense and sincere emotion made the middle-aged cadre seem to be infected, and there was some compassion in his voice, and after a while, he sighed and said: "Okay, Comrade Cheng Zhen'er, don't be so sad. The comrade who wrote the report himself had a serious heart and lung disease, and every day he lived was a day of pain. It was not easy for her to persevere. After a pause, he became serious again, and said: "I have already violated discipline by saying this, don't ask anything else, I won't say anything else if I ask." ”

Zhen'er was stunned, and forgot about everything else for a while, knowing that what this person said was Meng Ying.

is obviously the most emotionally complicated comrade, but he saved her at the most dangerous time. And the young little sister has become a martyr, turned into dust, and all grievances have become dust. So that she didn't even have any hope, and there was nowhere to say "thank you".

Thinking of this, she cried again, but it was silent, but the tears fell to the ground, for the hard-working little sister, for her youth with no regrets and other comrades-in-arms who could never see again, and even more unspeakable guilt in the depths of her heart.

As for what the guilt is, I'm afraid Zhen'er himself can't say clearly.

What the middle-aged cadre said was true. Soon, Cheng Zhen'er was reinstated to work, because this time Qingsuan was too expanded, and the people who stayed behind were no longer easy to be suspected. Otherwise, how to restore the production and construction of socialism/socialism. As a result, she was not only safe, but also quickly upgraded to a higher level, and her living conditions were improved.

However, Cheng Zhener became more and more silent, and only occasionally saw her colleagues' children playing in the compound after school, and she would be quiet for a while. She thought she was really starting to get old.

After all, after the New Year, I will be thirty years old.

A few years later, the eldest sister, who specializes in women's work, found an afternoon to talk to her again, it was winter, the goose feathers were snowing outside the window, and the world seemed to be still in the northeast. Zhen'er didn't have time to miss her poor but happy year, because the eldest sister was originally chatting, chatting and chatting to make her a matchmaker again, this time introducing a widower with a child, a demobilized cadre, and a manager of a regional department store. The eldest sister said apologetically: "Sister, really, the eldest sister has no ability, I know that you have not been married yet, so I have wronged you too much." But the unmarried people I found were disabled veterans. I have investigated, although this man has been married, he has good principles and integrity, and his comrades have a good evaluation of him. He was also our own comrade in front of him, a hygienist, but unfortunately he encountered a remnant soldier in 48. He also waited for his child to go to school before he wanted to find it again. Just by this, you can also see that it is a heart. ”

The eldest sister originally thought that Cheng Zhen'er would politely refuse or consider it, but she didn't expect that this time she agreed very happily, and just said lightly: "It doesn't matter, what's wrong with getting married?" I'm also in my thirties, do you still think I'm a little girl? It's going to be a minute, maybe it's good for everyone. ”

Her youth and passion have long been exhausted, and she doesn't dare to ask for love anymore, she is not worthy. But it seems that there is also a lack of mental strength to live alone in this vast world, and it is really good to have some sustenance, even if it is improvised.

At least that's what Cheng Zhen'er thinks.

And so, that's it. Her husband is very nostalgic for the original war years, and occasionally reminisces with the bride about the loess slopes and simple villagers in northern Shaanxi, and also wants to hear her history, and all he gets is silence.

Zhen'er really doesn't know what to say, what is secret is confidential, not to mention that it is also her deepest wound, it is finally scabbed, how do you want to be uncovered again?

But her husband couldn't understand it, and felt that his wife didn't pay attention to him and was angry, and he couldn't quarrel after a few fights. Because Zhen'er can sit on the sofa and knit sweaters for the child, listen to him get angry, and don't say a word. At that time, everyone lived in a tube building, and when he was so loud, the superior leaders came to persuade him, thinking that he was bullying Xiao Cheng, and kept talking about him.

He can't say anything about his suffering, so he has to forget about his indignation, the marriage is over, so make do with it, how can he leave? This was the majority of the minds of those of that era.

Zhen'er didn't think there was anything wrong with making do like this, the memories were getting farther and farther away, life was getting calmer and calmer, and the only regret was that she couldn't give birth. But because of the blessing in disguise, her stepson had a very good relationship with her, and after the old husband died in the eighties, she also went to her stepson's house for a period of time to take care of the children.

Later, everyone's life got better and better, and she went back to the place where Lunan had worked for half her life, reading books, planting flowers, and the days passed without panic.

She didn't know how she could live like this, but she actually survived her stepson and daughter-in-law and lived to the new century. Their little granddaughter is engaged in artistic creation, because she was raised, the grandparents and grandchildren are deeply affectionate, and after many things were decrypted, I heard about the nature of my grandmother's work in her early years, and I also brought her a few TV discs to watch, which was very much in love with the old man.

She thought that she was bored anyway, so she used the TV at home to play - she was an old cadre and was well paid. Unexpectedly, one of these films is "Secret Calculation".

She adjusted the player with her aging hands, watched it for a day and a night, and the unfamiliar actor seemed to take her back to the familiar years, and suddenly her eyes, which had been dry for decades, moistened, making her cry again, crying until she sat on the ground.

The next day, neighbors found that Cheng Zhen'er, a retired cadre, had passed away at the age of 85.

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