There was no half-point throbbing for the determination at the school gate, Cheng Jianghai seemed to be a pool of stagnant water in his heart, and there was no wave in the ancient well.

Turn a corner from the school gate, and that's Jiuzi Alley.

Alone, he walked forward mechanically, no one would want to accompany him from school, and even his buddies who were playing behind his ass in Liquor Alley avoided him like a plague god.

Of course, there is also the admonition behind the parents.

The companions were far away, which made him even more lonely and lonely, like a lone wolf who was abandoned by the tribe and roamed alone on the Gobi. From time to time, the surroundings are still full of indifferent gossip and disgust and contempt, like a cold wind and frost sword, constantly poking at the heart and digging into the marrow.

"Look, isn't that Cheng Jianghai?"

"Yes, look at it, you don't know how to do it! It's a headache to watch! ”

"Hey, if you don't study well since you were a child, you will ruin your mother and yourself."

"Isn't it! Whoever has such a child in the stall has to admit bad luck! ”

"If my son is like this, he will just sit down and die when he is born, so as not to harm others in the future!"

"Oh, what a sin!"

A sentence of a knife, a knife and a blood, fragments but clearly echoed in the ears.

Cheng Jianghai's already pale cheeks became even more gloomy, he didn't even dare to raise his head to trace the source of these voices, and he even wanted to cover his face so that others would not recognize him. I want to speed up the pace of my feet, but the joints everywhere are like rusted parts, so I don't listen to the call.

After suffering at home, there was no trace of blood on his face.

Tremblingly pushed open the door, turned his head and saw that his sister was massaging her mother's hands and feet, and greeted Cheng Jiangshui in a sad and sad whisper: "Sister, I'm back!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui raised his head slightly, and the fine sweat on his forehead stuck his hair together, looking exhausted. After a long time of massage, the pair of Qianqian Rou Yi has long been sore, and it takes all the strength to hold them together.

At this moment, for Cheng Jianghai's appearance, there was a trace of coldness between her moth eyebrows and teeth, and it was obvious that her resentment towards Cheng Jianghai had not been eliminated: "Let's go do our homework first, I'll finish massaging my mother and then cook!" ”

Looking at his sister's tired and cold expression, Cheng Jianghai took a step forward tremblingly, and said cowardly: "Sister, you teach me, I'll press my mother." ”

Cheng Jiangshui didn't raise his head, and still refused indifferently: "No need, you don't have any energy in your hands, go study!" ”

"Oh!"

Cheng Jianghai lowered his head and answered bitterly. My sister didn't scold, didn't preach, and didn't even have the mind to look at herself.

The once loving eyes, the warm arms, and the heartfelt words dissipated with the fall of the mother. My sister's attitude couldn't help but make Cheng Jianghai feel sad from her heart, and her inner world slipped from pitch black to dead silence.

A suffocating dead silence!

How could Cheng Jiangshui not be moved?

Seeing his younger brother leave in despair, he became like a lonely man who was dying of old age, with a dying breath between few words. The sorrow in her heart was a little stronger, and she didn't know whether she should forgive, whether it was worth forgiving, so she could only sigh melancholy in the sourness.

After massaging his mother, seeing that his father was about to get off work, Cheng Jiangshui wiped the beads of sweat on his forehead with his sleeve, and hurriedly came to the corridor to cook, without even having time to breathe.

What she didn't know was that at this time, Cheng Jianghai, who was full of sorrow, tiptoed to his mother's side, looked at her with teary eyes, and then climbed onto the edge of the bed tremblingly, gently opened his mother's arm, and slowly hid his head in the crook of her arm, just like in the past, lying peacefully in his mother's arms, smelling the familiar smell of his mother's body with nostalgia.

He touched his mother's pale cheek with his trembling hand, and snorted his lips several times, because the tears had already flowed down the bridge of his nose and into his mouth, and they were salty, astringent, and bitter.

"Mom, I miss you! I think about it......"

In the corridor, it was the season to get off work, and her neighbor Jiang Yanmei came back first. Turning the corridor, I saw that Cheng Jiangshui was busy hard, and secretly praised him and stepped forward to greet him: "Jiang Shui, cooking!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui raised his head, hooked the wet hair next to his ears with his fingers, and responded politely: "Oh, it's Aunt Jiang, you're off work!" ”

Jiang Yanmei nodded, glanced at the room, and asked with concern, "How is your mother?" ”

"Oh, that's it!" Cheng Jiangshui replied gloomily.

For the eldest daughter of the Cheng family, the neighbors who know her inside story, which one is not praised. On the proposition of family affection, filial piety and personal future, Cheng Jiangshui chose the former without hesitation, left Longyou and returned to Ganquan, serving his mother inseparably, choosing clearly and moving.

To be filial piety, compared to those mouthful of benevolence and righteousness, it is much more valuable. What's more, in this delicate and feminine body, there is a rare steel and iron bone, Gu Daji is small, and his shoulders are raised.

No wonder everyone commented: The Cheng family has a daughter, which is better than having wealth.

Jiang Yanmei stepped forward and gently patted Cheng Jiangshui's shoulder, the color of praise was overflowing, and she sighed: "It's really hard for you, you can find me if you need anything, you can't help much, it's okay to do a small favor." ”

"Oh, thank you, Aunt Jiang." Cheng Jiangshui nodded elegantly and thanked him.

Jiang Yanmei said with relief: "It's okay, it's all neighbors, and I have a good relationship with your mother." Hey, really, why is this happening? ”

Jiang Yanmei shook her head with emotion, and was about to go home, Cheng Jiangshui suddenly thought of something, and quickly stopped her, a trace of entanglement surged on her face, and she stumbled: "Well, Aunt Jiang, I really want to trouble you with something!" ”

"Oh, you say!"

Cheng Jiangshui bit his red lips lightly, with a little embarrassment between his eyebrows, and said faintly: "I'm not familiar with Ganquan either, Aunt Jiang, can you help me inquire where temporary workers are needed!" Well, it's better to be closer, the kind that you can do and pay for it! ”

"What are you?" Jiang Yanmei's eyes narrowed in surprise.

Cheng Jiangshui looked at Jiang Yanmei with burning eyes, and said without hesitation: "I want to find some work to do in the spare time of taking care of my mother, and I can also subsidize the family." ”

Jiang Yanmei hesitated for a long time, and then said worriedly: "But this kind of work is generally selling coolies, can you do it as a girl?" ”

Cheng Jiangshui smiled indifferently and said confidently: "It's okay, I can do it, I have the strength!" ”

Looking at Cheng Jiangshui's determined appearance, Jiang Yanmei couldn't help but sigh again: "Hey, your mother really gave birth to a good daughter." Yes! I'll ask you about it. ”

"Alas, thank you Aunt Jiang then!" Cheng Jiangshui thanked him happily, and then emphasized: "Uh...... Aunt Jiang, don't let my dad know about this. Well, I'm afraid he'll think too much. ”

Jiang Yanmei nodded knowingly, and agreed gently: "Alas, I know." ”

With emotion, Jiang Yanmei left. Cheng Jiangshui continued to cook with his head down, like a tireless machine. After a while, Cheng Jia'an also got off work, his mental state was obviously not good, and when he saw his daughter's busy figure, the bitterness in his heart rose again and again.

"Jiang Shui!"

"Dad, you're back!" Cheng Jiangshui wiped his hands on the apron, hurriedly took the bag in Cheng Jia'an's hand, and responded crisply.

"Alas, it's back!" Cheng Jiaxin looked at his daughter with pain, and asked gloomily, "How is your mother today?" ”

"It's okay." Hanging his father's bag behind the door, Cheng Jiangshui took out the medicine list from his jacket pocket and handed it to Cheng Jia'an: "By the way, Dad, I bought some of Mom's medicines first, do you have anything to add?" ”

Cheng Jia'an squinted his eyes and browsed, then raised his head in astonishment and asked, "This!" Why are there so many medicines, this money ......"

Cheng Jiangshui smiled faintly, without the slightest concealment: "You forget, I have also worked for a few years, and I have saved them." ”

Cheng Jia'an's fingers trembled slightly, and he said in surprise: "Did you take out all the money to buy medicine?" ”

"Damn's illness has to be maintained by these medicines, and I can't buy it."

Cheng Jiangshui nodded and said earnestly: "Dad, I was right to stay." In the morning, I hung up water for my mother and massaged and defecated, all of which require some nursing skills, which is not something that anyone can do. ”

Cheng Jia'an nodded gloomily, and didn't know how to respond to his daughter's words, so he thought for a while and said, "Jiang Shui, it's time for you to be this family!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui blinked suspiciously, watched his father turn around and fumbled through the cabinet in a corner for a long time, and took out a passbook and handed it to himself.

Cheng Jiangshui didn't dare to take it immediately, and asked hesitantly, "Dad, who are you?" ”

"This is our passbook, I'll hand it over to you in the future."

Cheng Jia'an explained gently, with a strong memory and nostalgia in his eyes, sighed sadly, and said with emotion: "Hey, think about it, your mother taught you how to manage the accounts back then, and handed over all the financial power of the family to you, it seems that she thought of such a day...... Look at how wise your mother was back then. ”

"Dad!"

Recalling the warmth of the moment in the group, it seemed that in the blink of an eye, it was the vicissitudes of life, things were wrong, one point of sweetness and nine points of sadness, which made Cheng Jiangshui choked up.

Cheng Jia'an's vicissitudes of life were also misty in his eyes, but he forcibly suppressed them in front of his daughter. At this moment, completely entrusting her with the family's finances is not only an absolute trust, but also an absolute burden.

The heart that was already guilty about his daughter became heavier: "Jiang Shui, don't blame Dad for putting the burden of the family on you again, Dad has no choice, he wronged you!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui's starry eyes, his curved eyelashes were full of tears, but his face was tenacious: "Dad, I'm not wronged, I believe that one day my mother will get better." ”

Cheng Jia'an touched Cheng Jiangshui's head with pity, just like in her childhood, love and guilt were written on her cheeks, followed her daughter's unwavering tone, and sighed: "Hey, it's going to be good, it's going to be good!" Let's go, let's go see your mother. ”

Cheng Jiangshui stepped forward and took his father's arm, and Shi Shiran came to the back room, but was surprised by the scene in front of him.

I saw that Cheng Jianghai was curled up in Li Xiulan's arms at this moment, holding his mother's shirt tightly with one hand, and holding half of his mother's cheek with the other hand, hiding his head deep in his mother's arm, but his sad face was peaceful, and he had already fallen asleep.

It's just that under the closed eyes, the eyelashes are still trembling slightly, and it seems that he is still immersed in a nightmare that he can't extricate himself, maybe because he can get a moment of peace of mind by hiding in his mother's arms, only the remaining tears in the corners of his eyes seem to tell endless regret and sadness.

The two froze in place on the spot, silent for a long time, but their hearts were like knives. Cheng Jiangshui choked back tears, his red lips opened lightly, and he choked up: "Dad, Jiang Hai seems to have really changed!" ”

Cheng Jia'an felt a burst of pain in his head, and lamented sadly: "Hey! ”

I knew why I had to do it in the first place! Where in this world to find regret medicine!

The young man didn't know the taste of sorrow, but now he knows the taste of sorrow.

It is difficult to return to the east, and the white horse has no return.