Ganquan No. 2 Middle School.

The campus is still a scene of heartless jubilation, and Cheng Jianghai is still in that taciturn state.

Today, as soon as he confided in his father what he had been thinking about for a long time, he was resolutely opposed, which made him very discouraged.

How far he can read books, he still has a good idea in his heart, God didn't give that brain, no matter how hard you work and how diligent you are, it's in vain. After class, he hid in the woods again, holding the enemy-like books, and he couldn't concentrate when he wanted to study.

At this time, a classmate ran over and said breathlessly, "Cheng Jianghai, why are you here?" Mr. Wu asked you to go to the office. ”

"Oh!" Cheng Jianghai raised his head and asked tremblingly, "Did you say anything?" ”

"I don't know, anyway, Mr. Wu's face is not good-looking, you should be careful!" The classmate said seriously.

"Oh! I know! Cheng Jianghai nodded gloomily.

With a nervous footstep, Cheng Jianghai came to Mr. Wu's office. He actually knows the reason why the teacher is looking for him. You can't hide, and now you can only suppress your inner turmoil and walk in.

Looking at Cheng Jianghai's languishing and frowning appearance, Mr. Wu frowned: "Cheng Jianghai, do you know what to do with you?" ”

Cheng Jianghai nodded slowly: "Uh, I know!" ”

The sluggish tone made Mr. Wu feel a little angry, and blamed: "Why haven't you handed it in yet?" It's been a week since the volunteer questionnaire was sent, and the whole class is missing you! ”

Cheng Jianghai drooped his head, twisted his face, and replied hesitantly: "I...... I haven't discussed it with my family yet! ”

Teacher Wu frowned and asked in surprise, "What! It's been so long, and parents still haven't had a clear attitude? ”

Cheng Jianghai hurriedly shook his head, and said with a pale face: "Uh, no, no, no!" It's me...... It's that I didn't! ”

Looking at Cheng Jianghai's tangled face, Mr. Wu couldn't see through his inner thoughts, so he softened his tone and asked patiently: "Jiang Hai, what is the reason?" No matter how much I ask you, you won't say! As I said, you still have a lot of potential. As a teacher, I hope that you can continue to go to high school, even if you can't get into college in the future, but there is still a lot of hope for a junior college, why can't you make up your mind? ”

Cheng Jianghai bit his lip, the corners of his mouth twitched several times, and then he muttered: "Teacher, I know you are doing it for my good, but I still want to go directly to a vocational school." ”

"You...... Is it because of family difficulties? Teacher Wu frowned tentatively.

"Hmm!" Cheng Jianghai was silent for a while before making an inaudible sound.

In an instant, Mr. Wu understood everything, and some things are not transferred by human will. But as a teacher, she still has to make the truth clear, and she doesn't want her students to have regrets.

"Hey, Jiang Hai, although I don't know what the specific difficulty is? But the teacher still hopes that you will have a better future. You have to think about it, vocational school and high school are two completely different life paths. In this case, I will give you another day to discuss it with my family and ask my parents to sign the volunteer form as soon as possible and hand it to me. ”

Cheng Jianghai responded softly, and turned his head out of the office with a lot of concern, leaving Mr. Wu shaking his head helplessly and bitterly.

In the afternoon, Cheng Jianghai returned home with a depressed face, and saw that his sister was cooking, so he stepped forward and whispered hello: "Sister, I'm back!" ”

"Jiang Hai is back, let's do our homework in the first house, and we'll eat when Dad comes back." Cheng Jiangshui was a little busy, and he didn't notice that Cheng Jianghai's expression was inappropriate.

Cheng Jianghai tugged at the corners of his mouth, wanting to say something, but he still held back, lowered his head and agreed softly: "Oh, I know!" ”

After entering the house, Cheng Jianghai put down his schoolbag, and then came to Li Xiulan's sickbed, looking for the hot water bottle beside his mother, and felt that the water temperature was a little low, so he took it to the stove to refill the hot water one by one, and carefully stuffed it back into his mother's bed again.

When everything was done, he sat alone on the small bench, staring at the empty cabinet in front of him with his chin in his hands.

It was supposed to be the place where the TV set was placed, but it had been empty for a long time......

Cheng Jiangshui, who was busy, turned his head and entered the house, and when he saw Cheng Jianghai habitually in a daze on the side, his heart couldn't help but tremble, frowned and stepped forward, squatted down and asked softly: "Jianghai, Jianghai, what's wrong?" I'm in a daze again. ”

Cheng Jianghai lowered his head and glanced at his sister a few times with apprehensive eyes, and then he mustered up his courage and said in a whisper: "Sister, I'm ...... I have something to tell you! ”

"If there's something, then you can say it."

Cheng Jiangshui hurriedly took a bench and sat down opposite, looking forward to it with a serene face, quietly waiting for Cheng Jianghai's next words.

As a doctor, she will also be more or less exposed to some knowledge of mental health. My brother's state of mental depression has been maintained for a long time, and it is really not what he should have at his age. Long-term repression is likely to lead to the occurrence of many mental illnesses, even schizophrenia.

Whenever I look at this Cheng Jianghai, who has been active by nature since he was a child, since he received the most violent blow to his heart, he has become depressed and silent, in fact, Cheng Jiangshui's heart is also full of colic.

Do you really want to blame all the blame on Cheng Jianghai, who was young at the time?

What can a child with a big fart understand at that time!

Now what she is most worried about is that Cheng Jianghai refuses to confide in her heart, the more she doesn't say it, the more she won't say it, which will fall into an unsolvable circle of death, and the consequences will be unimaginable.

Now that he can recognize himself and take the initiative to speak, Cheng Jiangshui will be able to put his mind at ease, and of course he must be a perfect listener.

Looking at his sister's gentle and encouraging look, Cheng Jianghai trembled and took out a volunteer form from his schoolbag and handed it to his sister.

Cheng Jiangshui took it and looked at it carefully: "Eh, the high school entrance examination volunteer questionnaire, this is ......"

"It's been sent down for a week, and it needs to be signed by parents!" Cheng Jianghai drooped his head, his face was depressed.

Perhaps guessing the source of his brother's sorrow, Cheng Jiangshui looked at him with pity and said softly: "I heard from my father, do you want to go to a vocational school?" ”

"Well, I thought so, but Dad didn't agree."

Cheng Jiangshui reached out and touched Cheng Jianghai's lowered head, and said with a hint of apology: "My sister has been a little busy lately and has neglected you, I should have talked to you earlier." Sister doesn't agree with this, you should be like Jiang He, and you will be admitted to university in the future. ”

In Cheng Jiangshui's heart, of course she hopes that Cheng Jianghai can be like Cheng Jianghe, be admitted to university and walk out of a different path from herself. Even if he is a little tired, he has to take on the responsibility of the eldest daughter like a mother and give Cheng Jianghai a whole day. At least this can also comfort his heart and reduce Cheng Jianghai's guilt caused by committing unforgivable mistakes.

Cheng Jianghai cried with a sad face, and said tremblingly: "Sister, I know how much ability I can have, I am afraid that you will be disappointed, so I tried all my strength to learn, but I still can't afford to learn it." It's really not realistic for me to go to university. Instead of spending money on high school, I would go to a vocational school and learn some skills so that I could come out and work earlier in the future. ”

Cheng Jiangshui was very pleased with Cheng Jianghai's thoughts, but for the sake of his younger brother's future, he still adhered to his original intention and patiently persuaded: "Jianghai, I know, you want to go out to work early to earn money and help your sister treat your mother." But how can my sister let you pick up this burden? You're still young. Mom's illness is with my sister, my father, and your brother-in-law, these are not issues for you to consider. ”

Cheng Jianghai's eyes were a little red and swollen, and he didn't dare to look up at his sister's eyes, so he hung his head and muttered, "Sister, I'm stupid but I'm not stupid." I know that you went to wash people's bottles secretly, I know that my father's cigarettes have been replaced with self-rolled cigarettes, I know that my brother-in-law's money is handed over to you every month to buy medicine for my mother, and I also know that my brother went to work as a tutor for others in college and earned his own tuition, I know all of this......"

Listening to his younger brother's weeping words, he even knew about secretly washing the bottle, which couldn't help but make Cheng Jiangshui panic: "Jiang Hai, you!" ”

Cheng Jianghai raised his head tremblingly, tears were already hanging all over his cheeks, and his hoarse words were filled with deep sadness, crying: "Sister, everyone in this family is paying. But what about me? I can't do anything but watch. I am the one who caused the trouble, but the sin is borne by you, and my heart ...... I'm so uncomfortable......"

Seeing his younger brother crying sadly, Cheng Jiangshui's heart swelled with endless sourness, even he couldn't control the sorrow in his heart, stretched out his hand and wiped his tears for his younger brother tremblingly, and choked up: "Jiang Hai, everything is over, don't blame yourself anymore, Mom is happy to see that you can change it." ”

Cheng Jianghai couldn't stop crying, as if he had opened his long-suppressed heart defense, and said bitterly: "Sister, how can I not blame myself? I'm the one who ruined this home...... A few years before Mom's accident, if it weren't for you, if it weren't for you, if it weren't for you, you could still protect me, I thought...... I'm going crazy! ”

Cheng Jiangshui's tears suddenly couldn't be stopped anymore, like a pearl with a broken thread, hugging Cheng Jianghai's head, the sisters and brothers hugged each other and cried: "No, no, Jiang Hai will have a sister by his side whenever he wants, and his sister will not give up Jiang Hai." ”

Cheng Jianghai's sad crying was sad, and his words of sorrow and prayer were heartbreaking: "Sister, you can help me, knowing that you are not the material for the university entrance examination, you have to go to high school hard." Not to mention the family's money, I can't pass the exam in the end, I ...... I don't even know how to get into this house, how to face my mother. ”

After holding his younger brother and crying for a long time, Cheng Jiangshui left his body, wiped the tears on his face, and sobbed: "Jiang Hai, do you really think so?" Don't go to university? ”

"Well, no test!"

Cheng Jianghai's cheeks were full of tears, but at this moment, he was more firm than he had ever been. This young and old face, which was unfortunately forced out, deeply touched Cheng Jiangshui's heart.

Who said that the younger brother was young and ignorant? Who can be sure that their insistence will be right?

At this moment, Cheng Jiangshui suddenly discovered that this little snot that had been sticky by his side since he was a child finally had a day to grow up.

"My sister is both relieved and sad in her heart, Jiang Hai, you have really grown up and become sensible." Cheng Jiangshui's cheeks with rain showed a little joy and a little sadness, and said softly: "This matter, my sister can help you, this is also the first time my sister has helped you against her will, my sister really doesn't want you to give up like this." ”

Cheng Jianghai wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and said loudly: "Sister, this is not giving up, I have my own ideals!" ”

"Jiang Hai!"