Year after year of waiting, hope to ashes.

The chances of Li Xiulan waking up are already very small. Cheng Jianghe's heart was sour, he seemed to be able to read the bad premonition in his father's heart, took a step forward, rubbed the back of his father's boring hand, and said sadly: "Dad, then take it, as long as my mother can be happy!" ”

He Yi'an also came to his senses, nodded and said, "Yes, then let's take it!" ”

Seeing that the children all agreed to his strange decision, Cheng Jia'an's sad heart was somewhat relieved, but when he was about to say something more, he only heard a 'bang' in the back room, and suddenly there was the sound of the basin falling to the ground, followed by Cheng Jiangshui's hysterical cry.

"Mom, Mom! Don't scare me, don't scare me, wake up, I beg you, wake up......"

Everyone rushed into the inner room in a hurry, only to see Cheng Jiangshui fall into Li Xiulan's arms, shaking her body constantly, hair sliding down the sides of her cheeks, sticking to the crazy rushing tears, completely like crazy, the terrible crying made people's hearts and intestines break.

At this moment, time seemed to freeze together, and a dark and bleak aura enveloped the surroundings, making people shudder. Cheng Jia'an's legs and feet trembled involuntarily, his blood-red eyes burst open, and he stepped forward and exclaimed in pain: "Xiulan! ”

Everyone rushed up in unison, crying out and crying, "Mom! ”

"Jiang ...... Water, river water...... Your mother, she ......," Cheng Jia'an asked sadly.

After a long time, Cheng Jiangshui, who had lost his soul, turned his face, tears of sorrow covered his cheeks, and said sadly: "Dad...... Mother...... Mother...... Let's go! ”

"Mom!"

Under the screams of the crowd, Cheng Jianghai, Cheng Jianghe, and He Yi'an rushed to the bed in misery, pulling their mother's clothes, and crying in grief.

"Mom, don't go, don't go."

"Mom, I beg you, wake up quickly, you can't leave me alone!"

Seven years, a long period of anticipation, all hope has come to naught at this moment.

At that moment, Cheng Jia'an suddenly felt that Li Xiulan had left him, and people and ghosts had different paths.

A lifetime of companionship will eventually come to an end, a sad song will finally end, and a scene of laughter will never be seen.

From then on, at the end of thousands of nights, who can turn a green lantern into a green light for me, and who can lean on the door to accompany me in this fireworks world.

A burst of painful dizziness hit, Cheng Jia'an's fragile nerves could no longer withstand this extreme sadness, his body was shaky, and Xu Dongmei, who was slightly sober on the side, hurriedly stepped forward to support his collapsed body, and exclaimed: "Dad! ”

The people who were immersed in grief came to their senses and carried Cheng Jia'an to the bed with all hands and feet. Cheng Jiangshui pinched the acupoint violently, crying in fear while doing first aid: "Dad, Dad!" Don't do this, don't do this! ”

After a while, Cheng Jia'an woke up leisurely, looked at Cheng Jiangshui with dull eyes, and asked painfully: "Jiangshui, your mother and her...... Really gone? ”

Cheng Jiangshui hung his head in grief, and choked up with endless self-blame: "Dad...... I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of my mother! ”

Listening to her daughter's confirmation again, Cheng Jia'an seemed to have withdrawn all her spirit and became a demented puppet.

He turned his head awkwardly, looked at his wife who was close at hand, stretched out his hand, gently held Li Xiulan's cold hand, and revealed endless sadness in his sad words: "Xiulan, why did you leave like this?" Didn't you tell me in a dream, are you reluctant to leave? You still keep asking me, Jia'an, what's wrong with the children, Jiang Shui and Yi'an agreed, and I also said sorry to the two children, but I didn't do a good job as a mother and delayed. ”

Listening to his father's muttering, like a cold knife tip piercing the heart, Cheng Jiangshui and He Yi'an cried out sadly: "Dad! ”

Cheng Jia'an turned a deaf ear, his cloudy eyes were completely devoid, and he continued to ask his wife in his dream: "What about Jiang He, have you graduated from college, have you looked for a job?" Tell him, don't always be rigid and know how to read and study, and also be active to find a daughter-in-law for your mother. ”

"Dad!" Cheng Jianghe and Xu Dongmei screamed sadly at the same time.

Cheng Jia'an still didn't stop: "And Jiang Hai, it's time to be older, this child has been a skin since he was a child, but I know that this child is a conscience, I know the child I gave birth to, and I can win glory for our faces in the future." ”

With a pop, Cheng Jianghai knelt directly on the ground, his bloodshot eyes were bloodshot mixed with tears, and he cried out silently: "Dad, Mom!" ”

Cheng Jia'an was unmoved, his trembling lips trembled and reproduced Li Xiulan's gentle nagging, with a strong unwillingness and attachment in the world: "Also, Xiumei, what happened to Dashi and Guoqiang?" Is life still hard? I can't rest assured that you, I always smoke, how many years have I quit, why can't I quit, just quit quickly, we still have to live well, I haven't had enough with you in my life......"

"Xiulan, I remember everything! I listen to you, I will quit I, we all have to live well, I haven't had enough of you in my life! Let's all say it well, no one is allowed to leave anyone, but why are you dishonest today...... You're gone, what can I do with this old man! ”

The endless cry is like a pair of infatuated hands, trying to hold on to the flower of life that will eventually pass away, but the fact that the piano is broken and scattered is in front of you.

With Cheng Jia'an's terrible scream, even with the last trace of extravagant hope disappeared with the wind, and he fainted again. The crowd roared and shouted, turning into a mournful song, drifting into the dark night sky with the wind and snow whistling outside the window......

On Chinese New Year's Eve this year, Li Xiulan, who had been in the hospital bed for seven years, finally passed away. left her lover who was with her, let go of the children she cherished, and brought all the love, all the pain, and all the pain to another world.

Her departure may have been due to the endless torture of illness and exhaustion of giving up on herself. Or maybe her heart is full of endless attachment, but she doesn't want to be a drag on the whole family, so she resolutely chooses to leave, and does what a mother can do in the end to the extreme.

Once upon a time, in this family, the mother was like a needle in the sea, her stubbornness, her perseverance, her gentleness, and her love were rooted in the depths of every child's mind and became an immortal sculpture.

Her death caused an important pillar of the family to collapse, the candlelight that lit the warmth in the hearts of the children was suddenly extinguished, and the bleak afterglow turned into eternal night.

At that moment, for the children, there was the despair of the sky falling, the dazed Zhang Huang, and the desolation of having nowhere to stay. For Cheng Jia'an, the eternal grief and loneliness of heaven and man made him enter old age in an instant from middle age......

The snow-capped Gobi Desert, a bleak white, and a sad cold, made the heartbroken people even more sad about their mother's departure.

The bonfire burning in front of the grave could not dispel the coldness in my heart. Cheng Jia'an groped for a family photo, and there was no Li Xiulan on it, only everyone's strong smiles, and the regret was fixed in every square inch.

Cheng Jia'an gently threw the photo into the fire, muttering sadly.

"Xiulan, this is the family photo you have in mind, let's take a good look. You're walking too fast, otherwise, you're up there! What a pity, the children have grown up, you should take a good look. ”

Cheng Jiangshui, who was full of pale cheeks, gently supported his father, cold tears hung on his cold cheeks, choked and said with relief: "Dad, you have to be good!" Mommy is gone, you can't do anything more! ”

"Dad!" Everyone stepped forward, their eyes full of painful worry.

Cheng Jia'an let out a sad sigh: "Hey, I know, I know." It's just that your mother's departure is like sucking my backbone away......"

A gust of cold wind, tears solidified on his cheeks, turning into crystal ice beads, Cheng Jiangshui sobbed: "Dad, don't be like this, Mom Quanxia also thinks that you can be well!" ”

Cheng Jianghe took a step forward, tremblingly hugged Cheng Jia'an, and whimpered: "Dad, Mom is gone, and we are gone, you have to take care." ”

Grief-stricken Cheng Jianghai also came up and begged sadly: "Dad, you're fine, I beg you!" ”

He Yi'an, who was on the side, comforted: "Dad, don't be too sad, your body can't bear it!" ”

Cheng Jia'an looked at the worried faces of the children, and a burst of uncontrollable pain surged in his heart, and he waved his hand gloomily: "I know, I know." Come on, kowtow to your mother, and we'll send her ...... together."

In the cold snow, Cheng Jia'an trembled and groped for the tombstone, and the children of the family knelt down in front of their mother's tombstone in misery, facing the biting wind knife in the wilderness, and kowtowed their heads in unison......

In the lonely and desolate Gobi cemetery, the figure of the mother's voice floated in my mind, and the terrible north wind swept the sand and gravel on the ground, making bursts of rattling sounds, intertwined with the whimpering whistling sounds, like playing a sad lament, resounding in the depths of everyone's heart.

"You leave quietly, step by step with a lonely back. I want to be with you, tell you how much I love you in my heart, the flowers bloom quietly, and I want to tell you more in the night when I suddenly miss you, in fact, you have always been my miracle.

Give me all your love and give me the world, and since then I don't know the pain and joy in your heart, I want to be close to you, and tell you that I have always understood you......"