He was born with no love,

There is no place in the world for lovesickness.

Li Xiulan is gone, for her, it may be a transcendent relief after endless pain and torture, but for those who love her deeply, it is a ruthless desperate blow, and the impact on the family is amazing, especially the changes of Cheng Jia'an and Cheng Jianghai.

Since Li Xiulan fell down that year, Cheng Jia'an has been frustrated, and he spends every day in a state of worry.

For an old man in his fifties, the depressed heart is the shackles after the years have solidified, and the originally healthy body has become decayed and decayed in the accumulation of sorrow and layers.

The death of his wife is more like digging out all his spirit, some signs of old age slowly emerge, and the spirit is often in a trance, often dementia and stunned, and occasionally the mouth is nervously babbling some unbelievable words, and even thinking that his wife is still alive.

That mental state was like a nightmare, and it was worrying.

And Cheng Jianghai has just taken the steps of repentance and remedy with action, and the death of his mother has brought all his wishes to an abrupt end, which has undoubtedly become the biggest regret and sorrow in his life.

After Cheng Jia'an's illness became prominent, the heavy responsibility of taking care of his father was under his extreme guilt, and he tried to persuade his sister Cheng Jiangshui to take the initiative to provoke it.

In Cheng Jianghai's eyes, my sister's life is really not easy, I met such a bad brother, in order to take care of my mother, I didn't get married, even if I got married repeatedly, the children didn't dare to ask for it, and the work was even more than 7 years, taking care of my mother without regrets, and the youth all the way looked bleak.

Now that you finally have the ability to take care of your family, you should take the initiative to take care of everything.

Relieve the burden of her hard-working sister, relieve her worries for her sick father, try her best to make up for the guilt and regret in her heart, and repay the kindness of her nurturing and teaching.

Cheng Jiangshui seems to be able to understand this guilty brother's desire and urgency to make up for his sins, and he has indeed taken too much care of He Yi'an's emotions over the years, so he agreed with Cheng Jianghai's idea.

Since then, Cheng Jianghai has accompanied Cheng Jia'an to stay in the old house.

Although Cheng Jiangshui and Cheng Jianghe also come to take care of their father from time to time, the basic daily care is taken care of by Cheng Jianghai, an old man who no one expected, and he is meticulous to the extreme.

Compared with those fucking years, Cheng Jianghai's earth-shaking changes made many elders in the yard who watched him grow up also sigh.

It was late at night, and the heavy snow outside had subdued its might, the whining north wind had stopped roaring, and the ground seemed to be sprinkled with crystal clear grains of salt, silently glowing in the moonlight, but the weather became colder.

Cheng Jianghai woke up with urine, groping for the convenience of going out, passing through Cheng Jia'an's bedroom, but by the starlight, he inadvertently saw Cheng Jia'an sitting on the bed stupidly, staring at the corner where his wife had slept with godless eyes, and there were faint tears flickering in the corners of his eyes, which frightened Cheng Jianghai, and asked in a panic.

"Dad...... Dad, what's wrong with you? Why haven't you slept yet? ”

Cheng Jia'an muttered: "Jiang Hai, is it snowing?" ”

Cheng Jianghai frowned and replied softly, "Dad, the snow has already stopped." ”

"Oh, the snow has stopped?"

Cheng Jia'an slowly turned his head, looked at the dark night sky outside the window, and said leisurely: "Then you go and get a hot water bottle for your mother, it's cold in the house, and your mother can't stand the cold." ”

Cheng Jianghai's heart trembled, and bursts of sourness came up, and he called out sadly: "Dad, you ......"

Seeing that Cheng Jianghai was indifferent, Cheng Jia'an said with a little blame: "Why don't you go yet?" ”

Cheng Jianghai drooped his head, but his heart was like a knife, and he worked hard for a long time before he choked up and made a voice: "Dad, Mom has been gone for a long time......"

The corners of Cheng Jia'an's mouth twitched slightly, touching the cold and empty bed beside him, and muttering to himself stupidly: "Oh, I forgot about it and left...... Let's go...... Why don't you just say a word and leave? ”

Looking at his father's confused appearance, Cheng Jianghai burst into tears, rubbed his father's back tremblingly, endured the unspeakable sadness, and comforted: "Dad, don't be like this, Mom is gone, but we are still there, don't think so much, go to sleep." ”

Cheng Jia'an nodded unconsciously, and Cheng Jianghai hurriedly helped him lie down again. Cheng Jia'an was still muttering something in his mouth, but his voice was too small to hear clearly, and he slowly closed his eyes in muttering to himself for a while.

Seeing that his father's forgetfulness symptoms were becoming more and more obvious, Cheng Jianghai was extremely sad. Worried about his father's safety, he brought the quilt from his bed, quietly lay down on Cheng Jia'an's side, stretched out his hand, and gently wiped away the tears left in the corners of his father's eyes, but his own tears couldn't stop flowing......

The sky was bright, Cheng Jianghai quickly got up, and looked at Cheng Jia'an, who was still asleep, and relaxed slightly. I tiptoed out of the house and started making breakfast. In the past, those labor services that belonged to my sister were basically picked up by Cheng Jianghai alone.

But after a while, Cheng Jiangshui rushed home in a panic.

Cheng Jianghai, who was standing outside the door, asked in surprise, "Sister, why are you here?" ”

Cheng Jiangshui shook the snowflakes on his scarf, and said worriedly: "I'm really not worried about Dad's mental state, come and have a look." ”

Cheng Jianghai pursed his lips, snorted for a long time, and said sadly: "Sister, Dad was confused again last night. ”

"Ahh That...... And now? Cheng Jiangshui looked a little flustered.

"I slept staring at it for a while, and I guess I haven't woken up yet!"

Cheng Jianghai raised his head, looked at Cheng Jiangshui with a worried brow, and said, "Sister, you said that Mom has been gone for a while, but Dad still can't slow down, what should I do?" ”

Cheng Jiangshui's clean and elegant cheeks were also frowned upon, and he sighed faintly: "Hey, it will always pass, you should watch it tightly these days, accompany your father more, don't let him stay alone, he will be cranky." ”

Cheng Jianghai nodded sadly: "I know, I rushed back as soon as I got off work during this time, and I didn't dare to go anywhere!" ”

"Well, I'll go see Dad first."

Cheng Jiangshui entered the house, but saw that Cheng Jia'an had already gotten up and was getting dressed, Cheng Jiangshui stepped forward in surprise and asked, "Dad, why are you getting up so early, don't sleep more?" ”

After a night of confusion, Cheng Jia'an, who got up early, looked sluggish, listened to his daughter's question, shook his head gently, and said depressedly: "No, I have to go to work!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui's eyes sank slightly, full of worry, and stepped forward and persuaded softly: "Dad, don't forget it, your spirit is not good, don't go today." ”

Cheng Jia'an slowly sat on the edge of the bed and sighed softly: "Hey, how can you do it without working with money, you have to find something to do, otherwise your heart will always be empty." ”

The depressive atmosphere spread, and the sorrow in his heart became a little stronger, Cheng Jiangshui asked in a hoarse voice, "Dad, what ...... Can you do that? ”

Cheng Jia'an lowered his head, patted his aching knee, lifted his spirits a little, and persuaded his daughter in turn: "It's okay, it's okay!" Jiang Shui, you don't have to run this way anymore if you're fine...... Your mother is no longer here, so you don't have to run around to do the work, take care of your own home, you are not young anymore. ”

"Well, I know how." Cheng Jiangshui nodded in response, pursed his lips tightly, and looked at his father uneasily: "I...... I'm worried about you! ”

Cheng Jia'an turned his head to look at the corner of the bed, his eyes froze, he was speechless for a long time, and then a sigh sounded: "Hey, there's nothing to worry about, people are gone, this day has to go down, isn't there still Jiang Hai here, it's okay!" ”

The father and daughter talked to each other, silent from time to time, and their sad breath condensed on the cold window, turning into ice flowers. Jiang Hai, who was making breakfast, walked in, looked at Cheng Jia'an, who was dressed neatly, and asked hesitantly, "Dad, why are you up?" ”

Cheng Jiangshui frowned, and said a little helplessly: "Dad wants to go to work?" ”

Last night's scene was still lingering in his mind, Cheng Jianghai frowned, his cheeks were full of worry, and he stepped forward to persuade him: "Dad, forget it, I didn't rest well last night, or I will ask Uncle Lu to help you ask for leave." ”

Cheng Jia'an waved his hand lightly and said lightly: "I don't have anything to ask for any leave, okay, go to work after breakfast, leave me alone." Jiang Shui, you should hurry up and find a job, don't delay any longer. ”

"Alas, I know......" Cheng Jiangshui nodded sadly.

Cheng Jia'an's stubbornness can't be stopped by anyone, and even his daughter Cheng Jiangshui can't change what he decides.

Maybe Cheng Jia'an is right, when people are gone, this lonely and bleak day will have to live, even if it is to survive. Cheng Jia'an also has to watch the children get married and start a business for Li Xiulan, but his wife's last fetters.

As he said, in such days, if you don't find something to do, you will be relieved of the growing boredom in your heart, and I am afraid that you will suffocate yourself to death. Therefore, even if you are not in good spirits, you must keep working.

To live is to be bitter, but no matter how bitter it is, you have to live.