She choked and pounded my chest with some anger, and then I suddenly realized, looking at the road I was about to walk, and fear welled up in my heart for a while.

I was thinking about things too much just now, and I almost ran a red light, and there were the most cars on this section, so it's no wonder that Sister Shen Lan was scared like this.

I felt a little guilty, and a warmth hit me in my heart, and I couldn't help but hug Sister Shen Lan and said, "Sister, don't worry, I just thought about things too much, so I didn't pay attention, I'm so decent, why commit suicide?" ”

"Yes, Shen Lan, Ye Quinoa is the strongest girl I've ever seen, she won't do such a stupid thing, let's stop standing here stupidly, Ye Quinoa hasn't eaten yet, right? Let's find a place to sit down and have a good talk! ”

I looked up, and then I realized that Jian Yu had come with Shen Lan!

"Eat a fart! The old lady wants to settle accounts with Ji Xizhou! ”

Sister Shen Lan said angrily, rolling up her sleeves as if she couldn't fight with Ji Xizhou.

I was startled, and I hurriedly persuaded her with Jian Yu, who didn't know what was going on, so I went to the café and sat down together.

"Li Ye Quinoa! You tell me honestly, did that bastard of Ji Xizhou lie to you! ”

Shen Lan asked angrily slapping the table.

Her serious gaze made me feel a little weak when I saw it, and I had no doubt that if I admitted it, she would not run to kill Ji Xizhou in the next second.

She has always liked to stand up for me, and she has never seen me bullied since I was a child.

However, I have grown up, and Ji Xizhou is not something she can afford to provoke.

I forced a laugh and said, "What's the matter?" That's just Ji Xizhou's friend, I know all about this, the media likes to scribble like this, don't you know? ”

Sister Shen Lan frowned, and said in disbelief: "What you said is true?" Is it really those media scribbles? ”

"Yes! If you don't believe me, you can ask Jian Yu, right, Jian Yu? ”

I bumped Jian Yu's shoulder, Jian Yu was a little stunned, but he still nodded wrongly.

Sister Shen Lan was relieved at this time, patted her chest and said, "You stupid girl, you really scared me to death!" ”

I laughed and said, "It's you who are too careful, I'm fine, you see, I'm not good?" ”

Sister Shen Lan was a little embarrassed by what I said, coughed and raised her eyebrows: "I'm not worried about you yet?" ”

I smiled and threw myself into Shen Lan's arms, lying in her arms like when I was a child, but my heart was dripping with pain.

No matter what, I can't let Sister Shen Lan worry about me.

She used to be the one who guarded me, and now I want to be there for her in the little time I have left.

It's just that I'm most worried about Sister Shenlan's happiness.

She can't live a lifetime alone, I'm not here in the future, she's really a cocoon! My gaze was a little long, cold; fell on Jian Yu, who didn't say a word, but one popped up in his heart

Incredible idea.

Why are Jian Yu and Sister Shen Lan so close?

"By the way, it's your birthday in two days, are you going to spend it with Ji Xizhou, or what?"

Sister Shen Lan took a sip of coffee and asked.

I shook my head, "Huh? I don't know, maybe I'll spend it with him. ”

Speaking of my birthday, I almost forgot that I had a birthday.

Sister Shen Lan smiled knowingly, hugged my shoulders and said, "No matter what, my sister will still prepare a birthday gift for you!" ”

I tugged at the corners of my lips, my thoughts flying away.

Regarding the birthday, perhaps, Ji Xizhou doesn't remember it anymore, right?

I still remember that when I celebrated my birthday last year, it was the first salary I got, and I happily shared this matter with Ji Xizhou, and stupidly sent him a postcard, now it seems that these things may be insignificant in his heart, right?

I went home with Sister Shen Lan in a daze, looked at the interface of my mobile phone without any message, and smiled desolately.

At this time, he should be by Song Zhen's side

？ Maybe, Song Zhen is nestled in his arms, talking about longing and reluctance, as for me, even if I feel guilty, I can't save such a man's heart, right?

If you lose, you lose, I admit it.

After washing up, I was about to take a break, but Ji's mother called me unexpectedly.

"Quinoa, can you come over now? Ji Xizhou, he ......"

Ji's mother's voice was full of unprecedented anxiety, as well as hesitation to stop talking.

As soon as I heard Ji Xizhou's name, I couldn't help but feel nervous, and hurriedly asked, "Mom, what did you say?" What happened to Ji Xizhou? ”

"This kid, I don't know what's going on, after coming back from outside, he locked himself in his room and didn't come out, and he didn't even move for a whole day! Don't listen to what you say! ”

"Mom knows that those remarks outside are very bad for you, but Ji Xizhou likes you, Mom can see that he listens to you so much, can you come and see him?"

I was stunned and nervous.

Ji Xizhou: What's going on? Isn't he supposed to take care of Song Zhen in the hospital? Could it be that Song Zhen's condition has deteriorated?

My mind is in a mess and complicated, without further ado, what if he Ji Xizhou really does something stupid?

Even if I am jealous and hateful in my heart, I still hope that Ji Xizhou can be well for the rest of his life, and he is not so wrong......

"Mom, don't worry, I'll come here."

I quickly hung up the phone, quickly packed myself up, and hurried over.

After arriving at Ji's house, Ji's mother was sitting in the living room munching melon seeds and sipping fragrant tea, and she almost didn't notice that I came in.

Is this Ji's mother who is worried about her son?

"Mom?"

I shouted tentatively and looked around, there was no one except Ji's mother.

A sly light flashed in Ji's mother's eyes, she immediately made a nervous look, pulled me upstairs and said, "You are here, I am not at all steady, good boy, go and see, what is wrong with Ji Xizhou!"

I nodded hurriedly, secretly blaming myself for being too careful, Mother Ji doesn't look like she's pretending at all, what's wrong with Ji Xizhou? I stood at the door, knocked on the door, took a deep breath and said, "Ji Xizhou, are you inside?" ”

There was not a single movement inside.

I'm a little blindsided, what's going on? Are you really in a mood to be autistic?

I twisted my brows, couldn't help but knocked on the door again, and persuaded helplessly: "Ji Xizhou, if you are inside, just open the door, if there is anything to be solved, you can say it, even if I can't help you, you can listen to it!"

However, there was still no movement inside.

I really doubt that Ji Xizhou is in it or not! I slammed the door with some annoyance, and scolded: "Ji Xizhou! You come out for me! What's the that can't be solved together? You stuff yourself in it, do you think you can fix things! ”

"Are you so cowardly!"

"Yes."

Suddenly, a pair of hands caught me by surprise, and a burst of laughter burst out from my chest, which shocked my back numb, and I trembled in fright, and almost screamed, but as soon as I heard this sound, I couldn't help but freeze.

Ji Xizhou! Wait a minute! What's going on? Isn't he supposed to be in the room?

How did it end up behind me?

I watched in shock at the smile on his face, and a wave of anger from being deceived erupted from my chest!

How? It's not enough for one person to deceive me, now I have to form a group to deceive!

"Release!"

I broke free of Ji Xizhou's hand fiercely, but Ji Xizhou's hand seemed to be imprisoned, and it couldn't be broken at all, but it became tighter and tighter!

"I don't let go, I let go, are you going to leave my side again?"

Ji Xizhou rested his head on my neck, and there was even a hint of grievance in his tone.

Grievance? I wronged you bad old man! This is coming back from outside, just from Song Zhen, right? Nephrite is warm and fragrant here, and deceitful over there.

Ji Xizhou, what do you think of me! Accompany the wine lady!

The grievances, resentment, and sadness of these days have exploded in such a hypocritical instant, I couldn't control my emotions at all, and in front of Ji Xizhou, I cried out of sight.

Why do you do this to me? I've worked hard to live a love life without you, and I've set a deadline for myself, why do I have to break into my heart again and again like this, turning my planned life upside down!

"Quinoa, you ......"

Ji Xizhou let go of me at a loss, his eyes full of distress and unspeakable discomfort.

I bit my lip, tears welled up in my eyelashes, and I was a little embarrassed: "Ji Xizhou, what do you still want?" Isn't it fun to lie to me? ”

Ji Xizhou frowned and explained in a deep voice: "I didn't mean to lie to you. ”

I chuckled, "No? If not, why trick me?

Isn't it to see that I'm nervous for you, like a fool, and it gives you a sense of accomplishment?

I've been circling around you like a fool all day, and you're happy, aren't you? Ji Xizhou, why can't you just let me go?

Ji Xizhou's eyes as deep as the sea darkened, and he pursed his lips without saying a word.

The atmosphere seemed to freeze at this moment, my heart couldn't stop throbbing, and tears fell down, I knew it was useless, but I really couldn't control my vulnerability.

Why, Song Zhen can be nervous with a gesture of covering his chest, even if I have so many tears in front of him, it seems so hypocritical.

"Ye Quinoa, feelings are a very complicated thing."

I cried and was stunned, what did he mean?

"However, I want to make it easy with you."

He smiled softly, gently and delicately wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and gently hugged me into his arms.

"Trust me, we'll be together."

Together? How to be together? Isn't my affair with Song Zhen messy enough? Is it really necessary to choose between me and Song Zhen? I can't stand the double grind of hope and disappointment, and I can't stand deception and hatred.

Every day, as soon as I open my eyes, all I think about is the days of my crucifixion in Singapore, and the time when I almost died, I am only 22 years old, but I already feel that I have seen through the world.

Ji Xizhou, Ji Xizhou, do you know that I really don't dare to have any extravagant expectations for you?

"Okay, okay, you little couple, if you have anything to say, don't be ashamed to stand at the door."

Mother Ji covered her mouth and said with a snicker, squeezing her eyebrows, I couldn't help but feel a little ashamed when I saw it.

Ji Xizhou lifted his lips, and there was a starry smile in his eyes.

He moistened his throat and said, "Got it, Mom, you go down first, I still have something to talk about with Quinoa." ”

Mother Ji couldn't close her mouth with a smile, glanced at Ji Xizhou, and smiled at me meaningfully, before twisting her waist and going down.

I can't figure it out, what is this pulling me in for?

It's a big night, and besides, I didn't promise him that I would forgive him!

I stared at him with puffed out eyes, and my steps froze.

What good can you do when you enter a room? I didn't say I wanted to dedicate myself to him now!