In the end, the company chose to end after half a year of hard support for the Kutang couple. When Tang Yonghao handed over the money from the sale of the company's remaining equipment to Wu Kai, this Changsha man brother had messy hair, sunken eye sockets, burning eyes, and bloodshot eyeballs.

He choked up and said to Wu Kai: "Brother, I'm sorry. We really didn't think about eating more and occupying more. I just wanted to do a good job in the company, but I didn't expect it to be like this, and everyone was implicated. ”

Looking at the man in front of him, Wu Kai's eyes were also red, and he pushed back the money handed over by Tang Yonghao without hesitation. He knew that this money could play a greater role in the hands of Tang Yonghao, who had just experienced this catastrophe, than in his own hands.

What he himself lost was not money, but a believing, a direction, an opportunity to speak out to the world. Only this time, he could only choose to bow to fate, although he was unwilling, although he still wanted to struggle again. But it was clear that fate had blocked all his retreats this time, and he had to return to the starting point once again and set sail again.

"No loss." This is Wu Kai's summary of this enterprise, and I know that what he said about no loss is probably no economic loss.

But it can be seen that this defeat has dealt a big blow to his high enthusiasm, and how strong the flame of the spark was at the beginning, how frustrated he is now. That night, he was very drunk, and his mouth kept muttering: "Why is this happening, obviously everyone can do well when they work together, why did it happen like this just for a little power"

I couldn't bear to tell him that this is the world as it is, and that any emotional or moral restraint is vulnerable in the face of visible interests. After experiencing this failure, Wu Kai was silent for a long time, and when he saw him, his expression was blank and his eyes were wandering.

Maybe in his world, this shouldn't be what human nature is. Wu Kai, who grew up under the traditional education of his parents since he was a child, can be regarded as born under the red flag and grew up in the spring breeze. Coupled with his simple personality and unworldly life trajectory, it is indeed too cruel for him to accept such a cruel side of the world.

We all know that there is a price to grow, but this price is too big for Wu Kai's face, and it almost destroyed the support of all his past beliefs. But at this point, I really can't think of anything I can do for him, except to clink glasses with him again and again. Again and again, he threw his head back into his mouth and swallowed it into his stomach resolutely.

It was as if what we had swallowed was not just the wine, but all the stinging and hurting of the world. In order to get him out of this defeat as soon as possible, I can only keep asking him to drink, so that the alcohol can numb his painful nerves.

At the wine table, two frustrated men poured out each other and encouraged each other. Wu Kai also slowly accepted the reality in my comfort again and again, just like Romain Rolland said, the real warrior is to see the essence of life and still love it.

Obviously, Wu Kai doesn't want to be such a warrior, or that we are not ready to be one. We just work hard and live seriously, but we always fall into the quagmire of life again and again. I finally pulled out this leg, but found that the other leg was stuck in again.

But even so, we still try to move forward and move towards what we think is right. Because we believe in the story that hard work will pay off, and we believe that no matter what we are going through, the future must be bright and the future must be great.

We never stopped, not even hesitated, because there were so many people behind us who loved us and loved us dearly. Their ardent gaze is like a beacon to guide us, and it is also like a source of energy that constantly injects us into it, so that we have enough courage to move forward.

During this time, almost every time he drank, Wu Kai would call his parents, laughing and telling them that he was fine, while drawing energy from his parents to face the predicament again, like a child who had been wronged outside.

Wu Kai's little trick is obviously too immature in front of his parents, who have gone through most of his life and have experienced so many ups and downs. In this way, love filled each other's hearts little by little in Wu Kai's efforts to pretend that I was good, and his parents tried hard to pretend to be very serious and believe that he was very good.

At this time, I seemed to understand how powerful this kind of love of the Chinese, which contains forbearance and restraint and helplessness, and I finally knew why parents can never understand their children's pursuits, and children can never understand why their parents' love is so difficult to understand and accept.

Looking at the changes that have taken place in him, my heart is mixed, and I think most parents in China have experienced such a mental journey. I not only hope that children can grow up carefree, but also want them to mature as soon as possible, so that they can stand at the head of the tide and block the wind and rain alone.

Such a set of irreconcilable contradictions makes us deeply trapped in emotional turmoil and miserable. Some people, after spending their entire lives, cannot get out of such a predicament. Because human maturity needs experience to feed, and experience must be experienced personally, frustration, pain, helplessness, and wandering. Little by little, the water becomes a river, and finally flows to the end of life.

As an audience, the best way for us to participate is to let them experience it for themselves, to bear it, and to feel it. For Wu Kai, I also have the same complicated feelings, since youth can't keep the simplicity and beauty that protects him, and I want him to face life directly.

At this time, I can really feel his inner struggles and contradictions, and I can understand his confusion and capriciousness. Almost every day, new cognitions emerge from the bottom of my heart, and these new cognitions are nourished by the sea of corpses and blood of the old cognitions.

In order to grow these new understandings, we have to personally stifle the things that have been carved into our bones as truths and creeds.

This is not a process that can be achieved overnight, but two beliefs constantly clashing in the heart, tearing each other apart, and influencing themselves alternately. So when the dust settles, you will look back and you will find that you are like a madman in the process.

At this time, Wu Kai confirmed this very well, and his emotions were unstable to the point that he had already begun to regret it halfway through a sentence. Often in the process of self-proof, we pull ourselves into the opposite conclusion. The whole process lasted for quite a long time, and he finally gradually reached a reconciliation with himself.

This is probably the only way to grow, the consequences of failure have long lost the impact on life, but my heart has always been unable to be calm. It takes a lot of effort to convince ourselves to accept it, and when we really accept the result from the bottom of our hearts, growth will come unexpectedly.

Although Wu Kai gradually came out of the haze of defeat, it was obvious that his new understanding of human nature made him obviously have a lot more mustard when getting along with people. Even when facing me, he began to have reservations and restraints, and I didn't know how to get rid of his mustard. can only let him grow in Wu Kai's heart, maybe this is also a protective color for self-growth.

I'm not sure if everyone has to go through this kind of setback on the road to growth, but this kind of setback is really beneficial for growth, at least in Wu Kai I see introspection, forbearance, and maturity. I saw a lot of things like "You Can't Change the World, Change Yourself" and "If You Are Not Brave, Who Will Be Strong for You" in his bachelor dormitory...... of the book.

In his words, when you fail, it means that your ability is not enough, so he needs to precipitate, he needs to learn, and he needs to understand the rules of this world. When he said these words to me with a sincere face, I looked at the dust on the plastic envelopes that wrapped the books on the shelves, and I was impressed by his conclusions.

Although the "If You Are Not Brave, Who Will Be Strong for You" placed at his bedside has been dusted, his thinking has not stopped, and his perception of the world has undergone some changes that I can't explain. Time slowly took away the pain caused by failure, and also healed the rift in his heart, and he gradually learned to live with the cruel reality.

In the face of human nature, he began to understand, accept, and become calm, although he still maintained a distance from people in his heart, but he was more deeply integrated into the world.

Seeing that the light in Wu Kai's eyes began to focus little by little, his eyes began to become resolute, and my hanging heart began to fall back into practice little by little. After experiencing such a twist and turn, Wu Kai began to think about life, although his thinking was often a bit naïve, but at least he received the gift of life.

It's just that looking back now, Wu Kai didn't see these books if he hadn't experienced these painful tortures. Instead, he seriously grew up according to the life trajectory he designed for himself at the beginning, and I think his life journey may be a lot smoother.

In the process of in-depth communication with the truths in these books, the impact of the last defeat gradually faded, and I vaguely felt that Wu Kai's quiet heart began to be restless little by little. Just like me in the ten-person dormitory of the mold factory, once I planted that seed in my heart, even if it was a bad fruit. After all, it is difficult to resist it being reborn again in my heart and taking root again.

Wu Kai is like this, and I am not the same?

Probably the biggest lie in the story of growing up is that hard work pays off. We have received such an education since childhood, and we all firmly believe in this truth, believing that as long as we are willing to work hard, we will definitely reach the end we yearn for.

Our parents and teachers had to carefully weave such a lie for us in order to make us spend more time on studying. And to confirm their views, we have been immersed in all kinds of inspirational stories since childhood. Without exception, in the end, they all arrived at the other side of success after many hardships.

When we entered the society with the best vision of the world, a child who had been carefully cared for by the elders of the family for more than ten years suddenly faced the most real appearance of the world. All kinds of realities are coming, and the world that was once incomparably beautiful in the mouths of the elders suddenly becomes hideous, with teeth and claws.

Time was pulled back to the winter day when I was 19 years old, and in the month after leaving the mold factory, I almost walked all over the streets and alleys of Shenzhen. At that time, Shenzhen was full of all kinds of Hong Kong-funded and Taiwan-funded processing factories. Relying on domestic cheap labor and a complete supply chain system, it undertakes the assembly and production of various products all over the world.

I naively thought that with so many factories and so many laborers, I must have a good market for me, who is obviously over-energetic. However, when I was looking for a job, I ran into a wall for pretty much the same reason. A direct one will tell me directly from Sichuan, we don't want it. There are also tactful ones that will let you leave a phone call, go home and wait for notices.

At that time, I naively thought that I could really wait for the notification, but after waiting for the notification countless times, I finally knew that I probably couldn't wait for the notification. This sudden situation caught me off guard, and I began to drum when I looked at the two bills lying alone in my wallet. I also began to secretly regret my impulsiveness, regretting that I didn't seriously understand the outside world, so I left my job hastily.

However, there is no turning back from the bow, and there is no point in regretting it. I just had to continue to wake up early every day and go out and look for opportunities. If you happened to be in Shenzhen at that time, then you could see a lonely teenager on the streets of Shenzhen almost every day, walking in the streets and alleys of Shenzhen with resolute steps.

His eyes fluttered, looking around, sometimes his eyes were delighted, and sometimes his face was as heavy as frost. In that month's time, I even felt that I had walked all the roads in my life, although each road failed to become my end, and every road seemed to have no end. But I still have to keep moving forward on the road, because I believe that hard work pays off, and I believe that as long as I keep going, I will definitely find a job.

A month flies by because money is spent quickly. A month is also a long time, because almost every day I go out with confidence and then come back with my tired body. My spirit was constantly torn apart in this ups and downs, and I gradually lost patience.

Wu Kai was also very anxious when he saw my state, and finally had to ask his parents for help again, with their help. I finally settled down in a factory that made computer peripherals, and on the day I successfully joined the company, I suppressed my excitement and repeatedly said thank you to Dad Wu, who sent me over.

I don't think anyone can understand that feeling, like a rootless duckweed finally finding a piece of land to take root. Like a dandelion floating in the air, it finally returned to the embrace of the earth.

After Dad Wu left, I stood on the overpass on the road, looking at the world of traffic under the bridge, reminiscing about what I had experienced in the past month. Unconsciously his nose was sore, and tears slipped down the corners of his eyes.

In the past month, all the grievances, all the cold eyes and rejections, all the unknowns and timidity, finally found an outlet for catharsis at this moment. Tears kept pouring out as if they didn't want money, and I didn't wipe them to let them flow to my heart's content. I think I've been forcibly suppressed in the bottom of my heart, and they also need an outlet for catharsis.