We didn't say a word until we sent her downstairs to her house. Thinking about the way she had just turned away, and that weird smile, my heart had fallen to the bottom.

can only secretly scold himself in his heart that he is a pig, and the consequence of being in a hurry is to pass by the fate that he finally met?

I was unwilling, I didn't know what else to say at this time, I just silently watched her hurrying in front.

Her steps were unhurried and firm, but I didn't have any skills such as mind reading, and I couldn't read any valuable information from her current movements.

When I got downstairs, I just turned around and said goodbye, and went into the door of the black hole without leaving any information.

I stayed quietly downstairs for a long time, until the light in her room dimmed, and then I turned away in disappointment.

I tried my best to recall every detail of what happened today, but I couldn't find the slightest sweetness anyway, and my heart was full of loss and bitterness.

I couldn't have dreamed how all this had happened in just a few hours. The first time I held her hand, the feeling of electric shock was still there, but why did it take so little while to get things like this.

I walked down the street in despair, looking at the couples who passed by from time to time, and my heart was mixed.

I have fantasized more than once that one day I will hold hands with Yaoyao like this, walk through the streets and alleys of Shenzhen, and engrave our happiness into the streets and alleys here.

But all of this had just come to an end, and I didn't even know what I was doing wrong.

Is it just because I'm too anxious to confess? After carefully tasting what she just said in her heart for a long time, I really couldn't understand which word was wrong that would make her react so violently.

I'd love to ask her why, but I don't think she'll give me that chance again.

I bumped into her from the door of the Internet café again, and I went through the bits and pieces of the separation just now, and my nose unconsciously became sour.

My eyes were also swollen uncomfortably, as if a huge energy was about to erupt from my eyes, and I inhaled heavily, trying to suppress this emotion.

Unfortunately, in the end, I failed, and big tears dripped down the corners of my face to the ground. It smashed on the static bricks on the ground, and it was torn apart, just like my heart at this time.

I reached out and slapped myself twice on the face, trying to force back the tears that burst into my eyes. It's a pity that it's still in vain, how pleasant I have been with Yaoyao these days, how much my heart hurts at this time.

Seeing that the tears couldn't be stopped, I no longer controlled my emotions, let the tears keep flowing, and vented the emotions in my heart to my heart's content.

In order to avoid being noticed by passers-by, I simply sat down on the grass in the green belt by the roadside, pulled out the crumpled cigarette in my bag and lit it.

Looking at the smoke like the little affection that has just sprouted between us, a little bit of it is floating in the air, I can't help but feel sad from my heart, and the tears are even more surging.

I didn't wipe the tears from my face, and let them escape from my body, taking away the little happiness that had just swelled up in my heart.

Until I smoked a full pack of cigarettes, I didn't know if the sadness in my heart had been numb, or if the tears had dried up. Anyway, there were no more tears in my eyes, and my eyes were dry and uncomfortable.

I don't have to think I've guessed how horrible my eyes are at this time, but fortunately they are eyes, and the darkness hides my grief.

I got up and went back to the dormitory, and I didn't take a shower and lay down on the bed. Probably tired from crying, or maybe it was excessive sadness, as soon as I lay down on the bed, I fell asleep in a daze.

In the dream that night, all the shadows of Yaoyao were running, wearing a lilac dress, running in the spring sun. I tried desperately to catch up with her, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't catch up with her.

When I woke up from my dream in the middle of the night with a sad face, the pillow was already wet, and needless to say, I cried sadly again in the dream.

took out my mobile phone and looked at Li Shiyao's three words lying quietly in the address book, I put my finger on the broadcast number button several times, but finally I didn't have the courage to press it.

I could only put down my phone helplessly, quietly looked at the board on the top bunk, and fell asleep again when sleepiness hit again.

After repeating this several times, when I was woken up by the alarm clock on my phone, a thick sense of exhaustion wrapped my whole body tightly.

I tried a few times to open my eyes, but unfortunately it didn't work, and I didn't sleep for a few hours after the night. In addition, I shed a night of tears last night, and my eyes were swollen like peaches, so it was strange to be able to open them.

Since I couldn't get out of bed, I asked Chen Kun to help me ask for leave and slept in the dormitory all day. That day, I had a lot of thoughts, but I didn't seem to think about anything. It's hard for the brain to organize a decent line of thought, it's messy, it's whimsical.

The good news is that after this day's rest, my two eyes that were swollen like peaches are finally back to normal, and I can finally go to work normally.

Over the next week, I tried to send Yaoyao a few messages, but to no avail. It made me more sure of my judgment, and the budding love ended hastily.

Love is gone, life has to go on, and I can only work hard to numb myself. Just like in the mold factory, I worked hard during the day, and when I returned to the dormitory at night, I either fell asleep or devoured books desperately.

I hope that this can drive the shadow carved into my heart out of my mind, but it always backfires. The more I tried to forget, the clearer her appearance became in my mind.

The bits and pieces after getting to know her are like a movie, playing out in my mind all the time. Her frequent smiles and smiles all seemed to have some kind of magic that deeply attracted my thoughts.

I tried to go to her more than once, but I was ultimately denied by myself, and since she already had her choice, I chose not to bother her.

It's just that it was too cruel for me to make this decision, and I was immersed in missing her every day, and I could only rely on those pitiful memories and the few words she sent me on my phone to sustenance all my thoughts.

Life is going by in a mess, and the overtime that I hated very much in the past has become my biggest help at this time. Because only when you are working, can you have a moment of relaxation and save yourself from your thoughts.

Chen Kun and Li Xiuying both discovered my abnormality, but I couldn't share my thoughts with them at this time, so I could only lick my wounds alone.

Hopefully, time will heal my heartbreak and heal that great rift. Chen Kun saw that I didn't want to share, so he could only accompany me quietly, and pulled me to the Internet café to play games.

Or take me to be a light bulb for him and Li Xiuying, and watch the two of them love and love in front of me, you and me. But my heart is very calm, and the once extremely enviable scene can't stir up the slightest wave in my heart at this time.

Time passed little by little, and the messages sent were never replied to.

I have to go over the "date" every day, hoping to find clues in my memories, but no matter how I try to deduce it, I can't figure out what I did wrong.

And why did she suddenly decide to disappear from my world, disappearing so completely, so simply, that she didn't even leave me a chance to explain.

Like a child lost in the night, not knowing where to find the exit, the darkness of the night around me gave me a great sense of oppression. I'm on a rampage in such a world until I'm bruised all over my body.

Time has not been able to heal my emotional wounds, but has made me miss her more and more intensely, and I can no longer control my heart.

Every day, before going to bed and after waking up, I look through my phone for the first time to see if there is any message she has replied to me.

The message was also sent from once a few days to several times a day, and I wrote all my thoughts about her into the text, hoping that she on the other side of the screen could understand my mood at this moment.

In the blink of an eye, a month passed, and in just one month, I almost reached the point where I didn't think about tea and dinner, and I lost ten pounds.

I hated myself for being cowardly, and I thought more than once if I could be braver. Go directly to her and tell her what I miss, maybe things will turn around?

But again and again I don't know what I think, since she doesn't even reply to the message, what difference will it make if I say it newly?

I wander over and over again on the same roads we have walked, remembering the moments that have happened here that we have been.

Search for her figure in the crowd of hard-working dignitaries, hoping that an unexpected encounter can reopen the fate between us.

In Shenzhen in March, the night is still very cold, and my lonely figure seems even more lonely.

Every time I walked downstairs to her, I would look up at the window that had given me infinite hope, hoping to see her from the window.

Unfortunately, fate seemed to have done something against me, and although I spent a lot of time waiting downstairs, she didn't show up once.

Despair spread in my heart little by little, and I couldn't control my anxious emotions, and my addiction to cigarettes grew day by day. It seems that only smoking can temporarily forget the endless pain and thoughts, and can allow me to return to my own world for a short time.

I also tried to convince myself that for a girl I had only known for three days, the emotion in my heart was definitely not love. But whenever I think of her, the tranquility and stability she brings me, and the puff and puff of the restless heart seem to be difficult to yield.

I was in constant fear all day long, and I also attracted Wu Kai's attention, after asking me for a month in a row was rejected by me for various reasons.

Wu Kai Shi Ran stood in front of me, looking at Wu Kai who rushed to the door of my dormitory, I suddenly felt as if I had found a support.

With the help of two beers, I was able to put everything together in one go, and I didn't even hold back any fantasies about my future and her.

Wu Kai listened to ghost stories with relish as if he had listened to them in class, and commented from time to time. For his way of finding pleasure in my pain, I was sparsely eyed, but helpless.

I couldn't find anyone to share my thoughts with but him, and if it hadn't been for that, I would have rushed up and beaten him to a pig's head.

When I tried my best to explain all the details of our relationship, Wu Kai smiled at me. Then he patted me on the shoulder and said, "Don't worry, your love can't run, it's wrapped up in buddy." ”

I didn't feel the warmth I should have for his comfort, but I was very unhappy with his rash promise. I thought he would understand what I was feeling, if not empathize, but at least feel sorry for me.

It's just that the evil smile that lifted his mouth at this time, where there is a little sadness in it, not only is it not uncomfortable, but it makes me feel that he is gloating.

Seeing that I glared at him angrily, and his eyes were about to erupt with flames, Wu Kai finally restrained his smile.

Then he said to me: "You believe buddy once, this girl definitely has a good impression of you, as for why she ignored you for a month." You can see what my attitude was towards the girls who pursued me, and you will know. ”

I looked at him puzzled, and secretly thought in my heart, "What else can you do, it's not because you don't dare to talk to girls, otherwise you might do something about it." ”

It's just that at this time, looking at his serious expression, it seems that he really has some experience, and I am also sick and rushed to the doctor, so I can only believe that he is barefoot.

"You confessed too quickly, so that she thought you were a prodigal son, that's one thing."

After speaking, he pretended to be deep and stopped, I was waiting for his second and third, and this girl actually had no intention of continuing.

I said angrily: "What's the bad fart, don't force me to beat you, I don't want to beat you once or twice." ”

Seeing that I was really angry, he continued: "If she is really as good as you describe, then she must be surrounded by a bunch of suitors at all times. And she probably doesn't have a good impression of these people, so you hit the muzzle of the gun so badly that she thinks of you and the other suitors as the same kind of people. Who would believe that only knowing each other for three days is really in love with herself, with her conditions, eighty percent think that you are lost in the heart. ”

As soon as he said this, it dawned on me that the truth might have been true. It's just that now that the wood is in the boat, I don't know what I should do to save it.

Wu Kai had that cheap expression on his face again, this time I didn't plan to put up with him anymore, and slapped him his fat buttocks. Then the eyes warned him once, and now he was no longer deep.

"Everything has to be seen in two, and it might be a good thing that she ignores you, just so you can calm down. Seriously confirm that you are not because of lust and greed for the beauty of other girls. ”

Listening to his tone, it didn't look like he was helping me with advice, but like he was coming to beat the water dogs. The more I thought about it, the more angry I became, if the anger in my eyes could be warm, Wu Kai at this time should have become a piece of human-shaped coke.

"Listen to your tone, the girl is definitely not the kind of casual person. If you just want to have fun, stop it before it's too late, and don't spoil a good girl. But if you really want to have a good result with him, then you can use your sincerity and time to impress her. Let her feel your sincerity and believe that you really love her and not just want to sleep with her. ”

Seeing Wu Kai's rare seriousness, I also seemed to start to grasp something slowly, this fleeting inspiration made my heart, which had sunk to the bottom, begin to float little by little.

Wu Kai's analysis, I seem to have suddenly opened a channel to Yaoyao's heart. Maybe Wu Kai is right, my hasty confession really doesn't sound like a good person.

And her previous experience did not allow her to easily accept such a sloppy confession. Now that I know the crux of the problem, I naturally have a decision.

picked up the wine glass on the table and touched it with Wu Kai and then drank it all, swept away the decline of a month, and secretly made up his mind in his heart to let Yaoyao see a sincere, warm, and dedicated me.