In those youthful years, we will inevitably have all kinds of expectations and longings for life.

Especially me, I have actually thought a lot about life, about growth, about the future, about life and love. I have thought a lot about it, but I can't always find the right direction.

In fact, on the night before the college entrance examination, Wu Kai and I had a discussion about life, but at that time, our understanding of the world was still blank.

So what we called a discussion at that time was not so much a discussion as it was imagination, and we made a hypothesis about the future with our pitiful knowledge.

It's just clear that so far, Wu Kai has basically realized his original plan for his future, and I'm still looking for my own direction.

In my social life for more than a year, I have gained some new understanding and views on life, society, growth, and the future.

Naturally, I also had some new ideas, and I carefully organized my own language, and first fixed the core ideas I wanted to express.

At that time, it seemed to me that people lived a lifetime and asked for a lot, a lot of money, fame, status, and love.

As far as I am concerned, what I want most is to prove myself to the world and prove that I made the right choice.

I want others to see that even if I choose a different path, I can still go to the end of success.

"We came to this world once, of course, to make a vigorous impact, leave our own mark in this world, work hard, and strive for success"

I threw out my opinion first, in fact, in the past year or so, I have also wavered, questioned, and even thought of giving up.

My mother has also persuaded me more than once to let me go to Zhejiang to be with them, and the family can take care of them together.

I was alone, and they felt a little indebted, so they always hinted consciously or unconsciously that they wanted me to take better care of me in the past.

Only, I knew that I had no way back, and I chose a long and lonely journey of self-growth. I had to go on my own, self-motivated, and forge ahead.

"So what makes a success?" Wu Kai asked me.

"Success, success ......" Wu Kai's words suddenly made me speechless. I tried to think about it for a long time, but I didn't think about how to tell him what success was.

yes, what is success, I've been terrified for more than a year. I can't see the direction clearly, and I don't know where to go.

Despite the guidance given to me by Dad Wu, I often wonder if I am doing the right thing.

Especially when Wu Kai mentioned this issue at this time, it made me have to think more carefully. Our pursuit of success has always remained the same, but what are we pursuing?

For a moment, I didn't know how to speak, and the two of us fell into a deathly silence at the same time.

In my head, all the thoughts and thoughts that I had thought about in my heart countless times came to my heart.

Although there is a lot of thinking, there are not many things that really form thoughts. The future has always been a field that I don't dare to touch.

I know that I have a responsibility to change the fate of my family, I know that there are many eyes behind me, and I know that there will be more people and things that I need to be responsible for in the future.

I knew I needed an answer, an answer to be responsible for the future, but I never really calmed down and thought about it.

In fact, the answer has always been in my heart, but I have never faced it squarely, just like the problem has always existed, but I have never made up my mind to face it.

I bit my lip tightly and struggled in my heart for a long time before I slowly said, "I don't know how others define success, for me, success is to overcome myself." ”

I have always known my problems, and I have never been able to face the fears, panics, anxieties, and helplessness that haunt me all the time.

"What I want to succeed is that one day, I can calmly face my true heart and overcome the cowardly self in my heart."

The cigarette in my hand continued to burn, and in the slowly rising smoke, I seemed to see the timid self. I saw my hesitation, hesitation, hesitation and cowardice in the face of difficulties again and again.

"That's why I'm so scared, afraid that one day I won't be able to give her a bright future, afraid that my cowardice and selfishness will hurt her."

I brought the conversation back to Wu Kai's original question, and I think this was the answer he wanted. As a brother, after knowing how I feel about my love with Yaoyao, he should want to comfort me at this time.

The source of my fear is the answer he wants to know, and the reason why he asked me about the meaning of life is probably because he hopes that through the search for the meaning of life, I can find the confidence to be brave.

Sure enough, he was the same as I thought, as soon as my voice fell, Wu Kai's face showed a clear expression. Then he patted me on the shoulder and said, "Did you tell her this?" ”

After listening to his words, I was stunned again, of course I wouldn't tell Yaoyao about my anxieties, I was worried enough, how could I transmit this emotion to her again?

Seeing my expression, Wu Kai naturally had already guessed the result, so he asked again, "Actually, have you ever thought about what she really needs?" ”

Obviously, Yaoyao and I haven't discussed this issue, we are just thinking about each other in the way we understand, and we are doing what we think is better for each other.

"Do you know why I've never been in love?" Wu Kai continued to ask.

"Don't talk about your little mess, I don't know, don't you know yourself?" As soon as I thought of Wu Kai's performance when he saw the girl, I said angrily.

"Harm, I...."He was about to retort, but suddenly stopped talking again and said, "That's probably one thing." ”

"On the one hand, what other reasons do you have?" Hearing him say this, I couldn't help but ask curiously.

"Like you, afraid, afraid that you can't give the other party happiness, afraid that you will become a burden to the other party." Wu Kai said dejectedly.

Seeing him take the blame on himself and use himself to show up, I was trying to stop him. But he didn't give me a chance, and continued: "You know me, my brain is sometimes not very useful, but the girls who like me are very good. So I was scared, afraid that being with them would drag them down, so naturally I chose to be alone. ”

When he said this, his eyes suddenly lit up, and then he straightened up and said, "I actually want to fall in love very much, and I want to find a girl who can make me fearless and indomitable for her." Two people work hard together, to fight, at our age, if you don't work hard, do you have to wait until you are old and can't work hard? ”

When he said this, he paused for a moment, and then said firmly again, "If I meet someone I like now, I will definitely pursue her without hesitation." No matter what the future holds, as long as she wants to, I will work with her to manage our own relationship. Work hard together for our future, grow and progress together. ”

I don't know if he was trying to comfort me or if he had really made that decision, but his words clearly gave me a better choice.

As he said, at our age, if we don't work hard, do we have to wait until we are old to work hard?

As for these panics, anxieties, and helplessness in my heart, I think that in the face of growth and progress, they are all just mud pills.

If the process is destined to be painful, then let it be the cornerstone of happiness, and only by swallowing these bitter fruits can we consolidate the great prospects for the future.

At this moment, the fire of hope ignited in my heart, and my fighting spirit was high. I hugged him gratefully, and then relieved all the emotions in my heart.

At this time, the door was gently pushed open, and Father Wu walked in with applause. Then he smiled and said to us, "I didn't mean to listen to you, I came in to call you to dinner." ”

In fact, even if he doesn't explain, these are no longer important, and Wu Kai and I have already reconciled with ourselves at this time. The shackles of those students in my heart have also been shattered by us, my expression is relaxed, and my mood is also a lot more relaxed.

We looked at each other and smiled, and then said in unison, "It's okay, it's not important." ”

Father Wu wanted to say something, but Mother Wu's voice had already come from the kitchen: "Xiaoyuan, Kai Kai has come out to eat." Lao Wu, didn't you go to ask them to eat, why haven't you come out for so long? ”

The three of us laughed "haha", and then hurriedly went out to the kitchen to help Wu's mother bring a meal to the table.

After eating, Dad Wu made a cup of tea, and then called me and Wu Kai to his study.

It was a sunny afternoon, and two young people listened carefully to the earnest teachings of an elder. It's about life, it's about growing up, it's about love, it's about marriage, it's about the future.

That afternoon, Father Wu talked to us all afternoon, and he spoke in a calm and eloquent tone.

Wu Kai and I listened to it like a dream, and many of the views we have insisted on for a long time have been broken, and many of the knots in our hearts that have been depressed for a long time have been untied.

At the beginning of the lantern, Dad Wu drank the last sip of tea and concluded: "In fact, in this life, the most important thing is to have the ability to make yourself happy, to have a full personality, to stick to your bottom line, and to bring the value that this world should have." ”

After speaking, he looked out the window with empty eyes, and some ethereal emotions were slowly rising in his eyes.

Looking at the sadness that gradually rose on Father Wu's face, Wu Kai and I looked at each other, but we suddenly had no idea.

Dad Wu has been crisscrossing the rivers and lakes for more than 20 years, and his experience and his heritage are not something that the two of us can get a glimpse of.

And at this time, his melancholy is also not something we can help him resolve with words, and even I think it is superfluous for us to open up at this time.

This man who is as resolute as steel, this man with profound knowledge, lofty ideals and noble soul, his confusion certainly does not need the help of our two hairy boys.

The three of us sat around the desk like this, Dad Wu looked out the window in distraction, while Wu Kai and I looked at him intently.

Gradually, a mist rose in my eyes, my nose became sore, and a tear flowed down. The figure looking sideways out the window reminded me of my father.

On this starry and moon-lit night, I wonder if he is looking at the same sky as me at this time, and whether he will be as melancholy as Dad Wu?

Wu Kai also had a lonely expression, it was obvious that at this moment, he understood his old father and felt the depression emanating from him.

I don't know what made Dad Wu suddenly fall into this emotion, I guess Wu Kai is also unclear, but we are all following his emotions at the moment and falling into deep sadness together.

At that time, we still couldn't understand the crisis faced by a middle-aged man with a successful career, and we couldn't understand the responsibility on his shoulders.

I can't understand his depression and hesitation in the face of an aging body, unsustainable energy, and endless pressure.

I can't understand the operation, management, market, capital, cost, profit. These things he had at his fingertips, such as how the ability to make fingers in his arms and fingers were integrated into his blood and bones bit by bit.

Of course, it is impossible for us to understand his helplessness and grievances when he put down his whip and plunged into the business world.

I think when he picked up the book and stood on the three-foot podium, it should be the happiest and proudest moment of his life.

has been studying hard for more than ten years, in order to continue the literati bloodline of his family;

In order to cultivate the literati's lofty and arrogant arrogance;

In order to spread and inherit his own integrity and bones;

In order to teach their knowledge and skills to more children, so that the peach and plum fragrance of the world.

After twenty years of ups and downs, he became a successful businessman. With achievements that others envy, he has flowers, applause and spotlight everywhere he goes.

However, I guess he would like to hear the children's reading aloud in the early morning, to see the children running on the playground during recess, and to read the children's "running accounts" written with immature strokes in the dim light.

Because these are the meanings of life that he values more, these are the ways he prefers to fulfill the value of life, and these are the life stages that he is more looking forward to realizing.

I don't know if what he thinks of when he is in the bright lights is "the joy of feasting, not silk and bamboo, among the shooters, the game wins".

I don't know if there are thousands of glasses of wine and few confidants to accompany me when the guests and friends are noisy, and whether there are friends who are on the side according to the wine papers.

What I do know is that at this time, he is no longer the chairman who strategizes and decides the accounts.

He is just a middle-aged man who meets by fate and misses his ideals.

He's just the literati who would rather lock himself in his office and read a book than go out to socialize.

He's just that straightforward, simple and straightforward heroic man who doesn't want to be false and wronged with others.

He was just a lonely soul sitting alone in front of the window at this time, silently sad.

All the passionate passion of youth has faded, and what remains is calmness and calmness nourished in the depths of the soul.

There are no edges and sharpness, no and wheat, some are humble, some are gentle, some are about to collapse, some are not changed, and some are the building is pouring into the heart.

When I saw Dad Wu at some time, I suddenly had a direction of growth in my heart, isn't this the self I want to become?

Father Wu was still sitting still, Wu Kai's expression changed from sad to calm, and I was burning a fire in my eyes at this time, a fire of hope that was enough to melt all hardships and hardships.