I don't know if it's an illusion, or if the crowd really aroused her desire to protect, I feel that Yaoyao, who is in front of me, is a bit like the old hen who protects her cubs at this time.

At the moment, I was so moved that I didn't know what to do, so I let her pull me through the crowd.

Her thin body seemed to grow taller, as if it contained a huge amount of energy, and her body was shrouded in a layer of light.

I enjoyed the feeling of being cared for and protected by her, and I always wished I was the one who took care of and protected her.

But when she really blocked me from the moment, I realized that I could also feel so fulfilled when she protected me.

It was not easy to pass through the dense crowd, and the city of Shenzhen has its special magical appearance. During the rush hour, there are people everywhere, but once it's time to go to work, there are few pedestrians on the road.

Similarly, in a place with a dense number of factories, there are many people, and once you get to a place where there are no factories, you will even wonder if you are still in Shenzhen.

Passing through the crowd, we were all greatly relieved, and it was indeed not an easy task to shuttle back and forth in so many people.

In June, Shenzhen had already begun to show her enthusiasm, and I was already sweating at this time, let alone Yaoyao.

As soon as the flow of people loosened, her speed slowed down significantly, and I leaned forward and wrapped my arms around her waist.

The sun is slanting to the west, and the pedestrians who are in a hurry just raise their eyes and glance at us when they pass by, and then continue to bury their heads in the road.

There is their unfinished work ahead, the eager eyes of their families, their unfulfilled wishes, and the distant places they have not yet arrived.

And Yaoyao and I are snuggling closely, slowly walking on our road of happiness, step by step, firm and calm.

Before we knew it, we were at the entrance of the small park that we had been to many times before. Yaoyao almost didn't hesitate to pull me in, found a stone bench and sat down.

I sat down next to her in a chair, the stool still a little warm from the sun that had been scorched all day. When Yaoyao sat on it, her brows furrowed visibly.

"Isn't it too hot, why don't you sit somewhere else?"

"No, it's okay, it's not very hot."

Yaoyao rejected my proposal, and I didn't insist, the stone bench was not particularly hot, and my body had already adapted to it after a short while.

"Do you know why I always come to this Malatang?"

Yaoyao suddenly spoke, her eyes were misty, and her eyes were looking at the sky. I followed her line of sight, and it was a terrible sight.

I've lost count of how long it's been since I've looked up at the sky, and I don't know how many landscapes I've missed.

I saw that the sky at this time was full of white clouds, like marshmallows abandoned by the naughty little master in the sky, one by one they were arranged and extended to the sky.

The setting sun set the last bits of gold on the edges of these clouds, staining the entire sky the color of the sun.

From near to far, the color deepens little by little, until the heavens and the earth are merged into one. I couldn't help but be a little intoxicated by the sight, but I always turned a blind eye to such a beautiful view.

Yaoyao also stared at the sky intently, and the golden light hit her body, forming a golden halo on her.

The beauty complements each other, but Yaoyao is in it and doesn't notice it, just quietly looking at the sky.

"Shall I tell you their story?"

Yaoyao, who was in a trance, suddenly spoke again, her voice was ethereal, her tone was indifferent, and she couldn't hear her emotions at this time.

Surely you haven't looked at the proprietress carefully, she's actually very pretty, but now she's hiding herself for herself. ’

The boss used to be very rich and powerful, and she has always lived a worry-free life. ’

Later, the boss was deceived into gambling in Macau, lost all the family property, and their son committed suicide because he couldn't stand the blow. ’

I didn't expect that there would be such a story on the boss and the hostess. Looking at the boss's honest and introverted appearance, I thought he had always been like this.

The boss couldn't stand the blow and almost couldn't think about it several times, but the boss lady stayed with him and helped him stand up again. ’

Look at the way they look now, two people quietly running this little shop, busy every day.

Yes, they won't be as rich as they used to be, but I can tell they're happy now. ’

Their youngest child was born last year and is now just half a year old. I went with my uncle to participate in the full moon wine, and the boss smiled very real and happy at that time. ’

"Do you know them?"

"He used to be the boss of my little uncle, and my little uncle worked in his company as soon as he graduated."

"Oh, no wonder. Why haven't I heard from you? I thought you were always thinking about eating because their spicy hot was delicious. ”

"Don't you like to eat? Every time you come over, you eat more than anyone else, right? ”

Being debunked by Yaoyao of course, my old face turned red. Maybe it's because I haven't been materially satisfied since I was a child, so I've always had a very poor control over my desires.

No matter what kind of desire I have, I try to satisfy myself to the greatest extent, so it also creates my selfish personality. will only blindly satisfy yourself, it is difficult to empathize, and it is even more difficult to empathize.

So Yaoyao's words embarrassed me and blamed myself, I couldn't find a crack to get into. Luckily, she was leaning on my shoulder and couldn't see my expression, otherwise I would have been ashamed.

"In fact, every time I want to come and see them, I feel very down-to-earth when I see them doing well."

"When my uncle told me about them, I was sad for a long time. It's hard to imagine what they went through during that time. ”

"The happiness of the past was taken away almost overnight, but they still chose to start over. Their little shop was opened for him at the expense of his uncle and a few of his former colleagues. ”

I didn't expect that there are so many stories in this, and it seems that this boss is also a person with a story. Otherwise, in this indifferent society, how could the employees help him start over.

"You know what? I especially envy them for what they are now, ordinary, stable, real, working together, facing together, and supporting each other. ”

"I hope that we can face life together, work hard to grow together, and support each other like them in the future."

Speaking of this, Yaoyao's eyes have bloomed with a little bit of essence, and it seems that she is full of expectations for the future. Listening to her expectations for the future, I naturally wanted to express my determination.

"Yes, we will, we will be like them. No, we will be happier than them. ”

"Really? I hope so! ”

Yaoyao's expression suddenly dimmed, and her tone instantly became cold. I don't know why she suddenly did this, I just felt my heart sink.

I ripped her face and looked at her carefully, trying to see some clues in her expression. But I didn't see anything but loss.

"What's wrong with you, why are you suddenly unhappy?"

"You're by my side right now, but I think I'm so far away from you."

Her tone was still as cold as water, her expression was becoming more and more lonely, and I could even see tears in her eyes.

Her sudden depression made me panic for a while, and I quickly said, "Haven't I been by your side all the time?" Why do you think I'm so far away from you? ”

"I don't know, I just feel like there's something between us. Although you are always happy in front of me, I can always see melancholy in your eyes. ”

Melancholy, this is the first time I've heard someone describe me like that. I thought carefully about what made Yaoyao misunderstand me so much, making him think that there was melancholy in my eyes.

"Although you try your best to hide yourself, you feel that you are not happy when you are with me."

"You're talking nonsense, I'm happy every minute I spend with you."

"You listen to me, I don't mean to accuse you. You did have a good time, and you did a good job of hiding your depression. ”

After Yaoyao finished speaking, she touched my face, then held my cheek, and said seriously.

"But I still see your panic in your eyes, your caution and retreat."

"I'm trying to get into your world, but I feel like you've been pushing me away, and you've been closing yourself in your heart, so I can't get closer."

"I couldn't find you for a few hours yesterday, and I was so scared, afraid that you would disappear from my world. I'm afraid you're uncomfortable alone, but I'm not by your side. ”

"I know you've always cared about our backgrounds, but that's not something we can choose from. No one wants to have a bad growth environment, but it is this environment that has made us who we are today. “

"I know you've been trying to shake off the effects of the past on you, and you've been trying to break free from your shackles."

"I've seen all of this, and I want to help you share it. But you've been on your own, and you don't even want me to see your scars. ”

"You've always wanted to show me a perfect version of yourself, but isn't it because of these scars and past that you're a complete you?"

"Whether it's good or bad, it's all real you, these are the reasons I like you."

"I have never asked you to be a perfect person, you will have your own confusion, you will have your own weaknesses, you will have your own pain."

"You're not superhuman, you can't do everything on your own. I just hope that when you need it, you can think of me as soon as possible, and you can let me accompany you. ”

"Even if I can't help you much, at least let me know what you're going through and keep me by your side."

"Since we're together, there's something we need to deal with together. I don't want you to feel like you're a human being when you're going through this, and you're going to make me feel useless. ”

"I am your girlfriend, and I will be your wife and the mother of your children in the future. We still have a long way to go together, and I hope to be able to walk with you. ”

"But you have always taken all the responsibility on yourself, and you have to face everything alone."

"It's going to be very hard for you to do this, I want you to trust me, so that I can face it with you."

"Xiao Yuan, you promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you will let me know. Whether you need my help or not, you must have me by your side. Even if I can't help, you'll let me go with you, okay? ”

I didn't expect that Yaoyao had already seen through all my disguises. I didn't expect that my self-righteous protection had caused her so much trouble.

I always thought that growing up was my own business, and only by making myself strong could I better protect the people around me.

So I have always kept my own soldiers and horses in my heart, and I have always hidden my cowardice and vulnerability.

I've been selfishly thinking about making myself good, becoming worthy of her, so that I can look at her at the same level.

What I didn't expect was that all of my actions would become a reason to hurt her, and I didn't expect that she had already planned me into her life.

Her words exploded in my heart like thunder, tearing a long crack in my hard protective shell.

My almost instinctive self-preservation became the biggest obstacle between us at this moment, and it became my merciless injury to her.

Although I have fantasized about our future countless times, I never seem to have taken her into account for her feelings, but am selfishly presupposing our future in my own way.

I've always imagined her as someone who needs to be protected and cared for, but I never thought that we were going to go to the future together.

If she hadn't reminded me, I wouldn't have even realized that it was still just me in my heart.

At this time, cold sweat was already breaking out on my head, and all these thoughts that I had ignored were like a leather whip on my soul, whipping my soul one by one.

Each thrashing made my soul tremble and make me feel a wave of fear. If Yaoyao hadn't told me this today, how far would I have gone on this wrong path?

If I have been stubbornly moving forward and working hard in my current way, then where will our future go?

I don't dare to think about it anymore, because the answer has already been revealed, and this answer will most likely become my lifelong regret.

At this moment, I seemed to really understand what love is, and I finally understood how dangerous my past thoughts were.

It was also at this moment that my heart suddenly opened up, and all the gloom that had shrouded me in the past was swept away.

At this moment, I felt as if I heard the voice of a new soul breaking out of its shell, and I also felt as if I had been reborn.

I finally broke through the confinement I had imposed on myself, broke the cage I had drawn, and at this moment I had a new purpose and direction.