Yaoyao in my arms was very sad, and I was also like a knife, what should have been a sweet and happy love made me talk in a mess.

At this moment, I realized that love was not as easy as I imagined. As Yaoyao said, love is never a one-person thing, and the future requires the two of us to work together.

Not only did my way of doing everything not make Yaoyao feel relaxed, but it made her lack of participation and made her feel that I was excluded from my world.

What makes me even more unsettling is that I haven't felt that there is anything wrong with this, and I still think that it is for her good.

We all fell silent, I gently patted Yaoyao's back, and her emotions calmed down a little bit.

When she finally stopped sobbing, I mustered up the courage to whisper to her.

"I always thought I was protecting you, but I didn't expect it to make you so sad."

"That's my problem, I didn't want to exclude you from my world, I wanted to open up to you. But I'm also afraid that you will see the cowardice in my heart, see my unbearability, and I want to show you a better version of myself. ”

"It's like when you were worried about me and other boys at the beginning, just because you approached you because of your appearance, and you didn't dare to accept me."

"I'm also afraid that I'll back down when you see someone as timid, selfish, and vulnerable. So I've always told myself to be brave, to be strong, to be strong enough in front of you. ”

"This may be the careful thinking of our boys, using arrogance to cover up selfishness, and self-confidence to cover up inferiority."

"It's really not that we reject you, we just want to express our love in our own way, and we want to protect our beloved in our own way."

"I told you that I had won the whole world by knowing you, so I didn't have the energy and heart to think about anything else."

"I just want to prove to you, to the world, to prove that I have the power to give you happiness, to prove that your choice is right."

"It's just that I didn't think that this way of mine would cause you trouble and cause harm. I've always wanted to protect you from others hurting you, but I didn't expect that in the end, it was myself who hurt you the most. ”

"Yaoyao, I'm sorry! I shouldn't be so self-righteous, I shouldn't be so selfish, I will definitely learn from the pain in the future and change my ways. ”

"Poof", Yaoyao, who was crying like a little cat just now, suddenly laughed, and then stared at my face seriously, looking at each other, the flame of love burning.

Yaoyao's cold face was close to my face, and the next second, she kissed me on the lips. Warm, unrestrained, deep and meaningful, passionate and deep kisses like firewood, unwilling to stop for a long time.

The second we separated, a trace of blush appeared on our faces, which were still gloomy just now.

A happy smile bloomed on our faces, and I knew that the barrier that had been holding us back was gone.

It wasn't until this moment that we really stepped into each other's world and truly became lovers.

Time flies.

Looking back, in that dark time, I stood alone and walked around. Yaoyao has been wandering outside my heart, looking at my lonely figure, secretly sad.

She wants to walk in with me, she wants to help me, she wants to be with me. But my self-esteem has been hiding, and I have been struggling.

I thought to myself that as long as I went through that period of hardship, as long as I got through that period of embarrassment. I can stand proudly in front of her, and I can tell her out loud that the happiness you want will be fulfilled by buddies from now on.

What I don't know is that what she wants is never my giving, what she wants is companionship, waiting. It is the support in the wind and rain, the stay in the dark, the expectation in despair, and the certainty before the arrival of the future.

At that age when love first blossomed, we all imagined love to be pure and beautiful. The imaginary love is so white that it can't tolerate a trace of flaws, and it's so perfect that it can't tolerate a trace of regret.

We all want to present the best of ourselves to each other, and we all want to be the best and unreserved. We are reckless, we are unscrupulous, we give it our all.

We resolutely ran forward, never stopping and never looking back.

In that kind of love, there are only princesses and princes, only sunshine and rainbows, only countless lovesickness and endless heartfelt complaints.

We ignore the black-bellied queen, we forget the wind and rain, we just enjoy the moment.

Later, later, we grew up. We have experienced the pain of separation, and we have tasted the bitterness of misunderstanding. We stand out from the wind and rain, we help each other, we support each other, and we wait together.

With such an in-depth exchange, we got along significantly easier in the days that followed.

I don't need to deliberately maintain my posture anymore, I can show Yaoyao my truth to my heart's content. She also unreservedly helped me to overcome, gave me support and encouragement.

I comfort me when I'm sad, spur me when I'm slacking, alert me when I'm cocking, and encourage me when I'm frustrated.

Sometimes I wonder if she's my girlfriend or an angel sent from heaven to save me.

I wandered in the ocean of happiness she weaved for me, sailed away, and went straight to the other side of happiness.

We run together in a happy time, casual and flamboyant, without any care.

It's just a pity that happy times always pass very quickly, and the time to test us soon will come.

The first exam of my self-examination came as scheduled, and I was full of confidence and applied for four subjects in one go. A few days before the exam, I fell asleep with a book in my arms every day, and then woke up from the pile of books.

Yaoyao is more conservative and only applied for two subjects, so she copes more easily. I also used all the spare time to protect me, washing clothes, cooking, and cleaning up the housework of the two families.

Looking at her busy figure every day, I always have the illusion that everything in front of me is so unreal.

The night before the exam, I couldn't sleep nervously, so I ran to the toilet with her on my back and smoked several cigarettes.

She was ruthlessly pulled out of the toilet and pushed to the bed again and again, and finally after I don't know how many times, I fell asleep in her arms.

By the time I woke up, she was already busy in the kitchen. Looking at her in a hurry in the rising mist, her heart was suddenly filled with happiness.

I tiptoed up behind her hand and put my hand around her. She angrily slapped my dishonest "groping pig hands" and kicked me out of the kitchen.

She brought me a rich breakfast and prepared two eggs for each of us.

It reminds me of when I was a child, my mother would boil two eggs for my sister and me before every exam, superstitious that I would score 100 points.

But I have a strong taste and have no interest in this boiled egg at all. Under Yaoyao's coercion and temptation, I finally swallowed two eggs.

While I was cleaning up the table, Yaoyao was busy again, and carefully checked the things that the two of us were going to use for the exam.

After cleaning up the table, I couldn't help but stretch out my "salty pig hand" to her, and naturally I was inevitably cleaned up by her.

I artificially delayed the time to go out for fifteen minutes, so that Yaoyao didn't pay attention to me all the way.

When we hurried to the examination room, we almost missed the time to enter the examination room, and on the way to the exam classroom, Yaoyao was counted again.

After two years, when I returned to the examination room now, I couldn't help but sigh. Once upon a time, I sat in the exam room like I do today, and my heart was like water.

In the examination room, which was regarded as a fate-changing life test by all Chinese people, I slept very soundly and sweetly.

When everyone was writing hard for their future and destiny, I went to have tea and talk with Zhou Gong and his old man.

And this time my heart was no longer like water, my heart was beating like an engine that had been stepped on the accelerator, and the sweat in my palms made me unable to hold the pen for a while.

After two years, I am no longer the sharp-edged young man. In the past two years, I have seen the cruelty and ruthlessness of society, and I have also understood that knowledge changes destiny is not an empty phrase.

This time, I'm going to use my own efforts to realign with the ship of destiny that I've deviated. The high concentration made me tired for a while. Coupled with yesterday's intermittent sleep, my eyelids felt as heavy as lead.

My thigh was bruised by my pinching, but I didn't feel any pain. I didn't dare to ignore a word, a word, or a punctuation, and I completed the answer sheet carefully.

When the bell rang, I was relieved and solemnly handed over the answer sheet to the invigilator.

By the time I walked out of the exam room with the crowd, my clothes were soaked with sweat.

I felt that the opportunity I had lost was once again in my hands, and this time, I didn't dare to act rashly.

Because I'm no longer alone, I'm a little worried and responsible. I, with Yaoyao and our future.

From a distance, I saw Yaoyao waving to me in the crowd, her eyes full of anticipation. I walked briskly towards her, and she didn't hesitate to break through the crowd and give me a big hug.

It was as if I hadn't just taken an exam, but had just returned from a bloody battle.

"How's it going, did you do well in the exam?"

"It's easier than the college entrance examination, and the questions are basically at present, so it shouldn't be a big problem."

"yes, I think it's pretty simple, too. In fact, the self-examination is not the accumulation of knowledge, but the ability to learn by yourself, and I believe that you will have a good result. Let's go, I'll treat you to dinner. ”

"Why are you so happy?"

"Of course I'm happy to take the exam with you, and I feel like I'm a classmate with you."

Not to mention, let Yaoyao say this, I also feel this way. Although the two of them usually read and study together, after all, it is at home, and there is no learning atmosphere in school.

But this will be different, although there are strangers who pass by and do not know each other. But being on campus really made me feel a little bookish.

And Yaoyao next to me is not my classmate, does this make up for the regret of not being able to talk about a crazy campus love in school back then?

Only this time, we don't have to worry about the teachers chasing and intercepting us, and we don't have to hide behind the shade of the tree to pull down our little hands.

We can hug tightly in the crowd openly, and we can kiss unscrupulously in the eyes of the people next to us.

This feeling of rebellion is so refreshing.

Since I still have exams in the afternoon, we simply had a little food. I wanted Yaoyao to go home first, and I would go back after the afternoon exam.

As a result, she refused to live or die, saying that she would accompany me to go home after the exam. There was no way, her stubbornness made me sink into the sand countless times, and the result this time was the same, ending in a fiasco.

I turned back to the examination room step by step, looking at Yaoyao who was standing alone outside the examination room and waving to me frequently. My eyes moistened unconsciously, and an inexplicable sadness welled up in my heart.

If there was a person like Yaoyao outside the examination room during the college entrance examination that year, he was looking forward to it. I guess I must not have been able to sleep well that night, and I must not have given up so resolutely.

It's a pity that the past can't be traced, I can only cherish the present and work hard to take every step in the future. Taking a deep breath, I waved my hand to Yaoyao, and like an expeditionary warrior, I stepped into the door of the examination room.

This time, I had a concern in my heart, and I wrote like a god. There have been countless days of reading with Yaoyao at night, all of which have come to mind like movies, and memories are as clear as computers.

At this moment, I was worried about Yaoyao outside the examination room, and I think she was also worried about me sitting in the examination room.

Without the slightest pause, I completed the exam almost in one go, and checked it hastily. After looking at the time, it was time to hand in the papers, and I didn't hesitate to get up.

Leaving the examination room under the incredible gaze of everyone, I felt as if I was in the middle of a battlefield full of flames.

In the rain of bullets, I moved forward alone without hesitation. Just for the little man who was looking forward to it at the door, for the thin figure who was waiting alone.

At this moment, nothing can stop me from moving forward, nothing can resist my determination to see her sooner.

I didn't hesitate, I didn't hesitate, I trotted all the way out of the exam room. There is my lover who is looking far away, waiting for me to appear.

From a distance, I saw Yaoyao holding a large bouquet of flowers standing in the sun, and when she saw me come out, her calm eyes showed a hint of joy.

I rushed to Yaoyao's side in three steps and two steps, and she immediately stuffed the flowers in her hand into my arms.

My nose was sore, and my eyes instantly became foggy, and I took the flower she handed me and took her into my arms.

My Yaoyao is always moving and surprising me again and again in her own way. Let me have enough support and strength to move forward, so that I can be fearless on the road of growth.

"Why did you submit the paper so long in advance, have you answered all the questions, have you checked it well?"

I'm still immersed in what she touched me, but she was worried about my exams.

"Don't worry, the questions have been answered and carefully checked. I didn't want you to wait here alone for too long, so I checked and handed in the paper without problems. ”

"How do you feel, can you pass the test?"

"Don't worry, 100 percent, it's covered."

"That's great, that's going to reward you. Say, what do you want to eat at night, I invite you. ”

"Let's go eat Malatang, let's go!"

"Well, okay, come up with me!"