The most regrettable thing in life is that I easily gave up what I shouldn't give up and stubbornly insisted on what I shouldn't have. What did Zhen Hua give up? Too much, too much, he gave up a relationship that could have lasted forever, he gave up his right to have children, and these are just the tip of the iceberg, in the more than forty years of his life, he gave up too much, too much, and the things he insisted on seemed so fragile, humble and helpless.

He was alone on the top of the mountain, and drank from early morning till dusk, and only when he had drunk all the crates of wine did he stop drinking, and he drank himself to the fullest, and at last he fell to his knees, drunk like mud.

The past follows the wind, in this night when no one is around, there are too many pictures of people in his mind, but in the end, it is fixed on the picture of Wen Zixin, which is the last picture before his consciousness disappears.

How nice it would be if he could close his eyes just like that, his eyes don't want to open anymore, in the face of this world, he can't do it without worry, but he has done his best, and the rest, he doesn't care, or he doesn't want to care, or rather, he doesn't dare to care, he doesn't dare to face the unknown ending.

Life is originally a rush, twists and turns along the way, constantly crossing, hardships along the way, continuous transcendence, growing and thankful along the way. The glass of wine of life needs to be tasted slowly, you will feel a little bitter in your mouth, but once you swallow it, it will become mellow, and when you drink it, the wine stains in the glass are the remnants of your life left to the world. Who has ever seen someone want to erase the traces of their existence in the world, and Zhen Hua just did it.

He understands that life is a barren journey, and he knows the warmth and coldness of his own life, and the bitterness and happiness in his heart. Not fighting is compassion, not arguing is wisdom, not hearing is purity, not looking is being at ease, not being greedy is generosity, breaking evil is doing good, repentance is repentance, humility is worshipping the Buddha, keeping etiquette is keeping precepts, forgiving is liberation, contentment is letting go, and benefiting others is self-interest. Hope lies in the heart, and he cannot be eternal, the end is already doomed, so why force it, why not disappear.

There have been big ups and downs in life, and he has tried the ups and downs of life, Zhen Hua's life is also complete, and this cliff is like a burial ground specially prepared for him by God, he maintains a kneeling posture, drunk like mud, but he is also bent on seeking death.

It's a pity that the next morning, he still struggled to get up from the ground, his knees were scratched by the rough ground blood, blood soaked the ground, a night of kneeling made his legs numb, difficult to get up, fell again, and relied on the strength of his hands to support his body, and fell down again, this seems to be the old man's punishment for him to leave Zhen Wenxin, repeated I don't know how many times, he finally moved to the car, leaned on the seat, and let out a long sigh.

Now Zhen Hua can't drive a car, his knees are dripping with blood, and the numbness of his legs makes him temporarily disabled. Zhen Hua also seemed to have forgotten why he was so heavily hit inexplicably, and it wasn't until through the car window that he found the broken wine bottle in that place, and the place where he knelt was full of blood on the broken pieces of the wine bottle, but he didn't seem to have any memory at all I don't know how many years the drinking fragment hasn't happened.

Of course, Zhen Hua remembered the last time he had a broken piece, it had been more than 20 years, and the amount of alcohol he had had back then was only the amount of three or four bottles of beer, but on the day he graduated from high school, he drank a full case of wine at the thank-you banquet, and then the next morning, he couldn't remember what happened last night.

According to the fragmentary memories that many people have pieced together, he showed his cowardice on a clear note that night. That night, after eating, they went to KTV, according to the description of their classmates, they never left Wen Zixin's side that night, and they hid behind Wen Zixin with a child's face, and Wen Zixin didn't seem to have a choice.

These are all pieced together by classmates, Zhen Hua naturally doesn't want to believe it, but later, according to Wen Zixin's elaboration, it seems that he is not far from ten, after he got drunk that night, he hid behind Wen Zixin, every time someone wants to toast, he will timidly sneak out a bottle of wine, and then forcibly pour it to himself, and will secretly throw the empty wine bottle far away, as if this is not what he drank.

Zhen Hua thought of that fragment, it was really funny, he didn't know what he did that night, and he didn't know what he did this night, but he showed a cowardly side when he was drunk, and last night's self, looking at the broken wine bottle here, must be impossible to be cowardly, last night's self probably showed a rough side that even he didn't know.

In fact, the real situation is that he didn't say a word last night, his heart was full of repentance, and after drinking a bottle, he slammed the wine bottle to the ground, and the wine bottle with a hardness of about 7 was smashed to pieces, but he didn't open his mouth from beginning to end, just lost himself in the glass after glass of wine, so that he got himself injured, but last night he was quiet and terrible, without any trace of anger, and his expression was extremely flat, but every wine bottle was shattered.

And now he is lying weakly on the back chair, there is no first aid kit in his car, his knee is still bleeding, he can only tear his clothes to do a little simple treatment, but it doesn't have much effect, the current situation has to call an ambulance, he may need to stay in the hospital for a long time.

But now he can't even do the most basic self-help, this is a mountainous area, there is no signal at all, and this time when he goes out, he doesn't bring a satellite phone, and there is no food and drinking water here at all, it won't be long before the symptoms of excessive blood loss, hunger, and dehydration will break out, and even if he still has nostalgia for this world, it is useless, and a person in this situation should definitely die.

He thought about seeking death, but he didn't expect that the idea of getting drunk last night came true early the next morning, the blood on his knees was still flowing, it seemed that some glass shards had pierced into the flesh, and the simple treatment couldn't stop the bleeding at all, and all he could do now seemed to be lying in the car and waiting for death, even if he wanted to struggle, but the most basic thing he needed to drive out of here, to a place with a signal, and call an ambulance, and now if he wanted to leave, all he could rely on was this car, It's a pity that his legs are already numb, how can he still move?

So all he could do was wait, wait for the moment when he died, and he couldn't do anything else. He was thirsty, and when he woke up, his throat was so dry that it was going to burn. He was very hungry, and yesterday he drank all day except for breakfast, and today he has not eaten a drop of rice. However, this is not comparable to the prostration caused by excessive blood loss. He knew that his life was being lost, the real loss, he was going to really face death, but he didn't have the slightest fear, he was already able to face death calmly, even at this time, he could only smile helplessly.

Lie down quietly, there are still a few boxes of cigarettes left in the storage box that have not been opened, thinking that I don't have much time left, and there is no point in quitting smoking, just indulge it, the weak body seems to be unable to tear even the packaging of the cigarette, and it is difficult to hold the cigarette in his mouth, but the lighter began to oppose him again, tried a few times, couldn't hit, tried several times, and finally lit the cigarette, took a deep breath, and spit out a rich smoke.

Originally, this cliff was, the distant mountains are continuous, just like a long dragon flying to the sky, the mountains overlap, the peaks are accumulated, like waves rushing, the waves are empty, like a fairyland, but Zhen Hua stayed here for one night, but it was a mess, broken wine bottles all over the ground, cigarettes and banknotes burned into dust, mixed with his bloodstains, this kind of scene does not seem to be made by a person at all, as if there was a scuffle, extremely bloody, extremely violent, but who would have thought that this was just a person who did it very calmly after drinking?

Zhen Hua's fatigue has begun to intensify, and he can't do anything, he can only smoke cigarettes one after another, maybe he is still unwilling, but he also let go, what he can't get should be relieved, and what can't be guarded should be relieved, he is unwilling, if he has a longer lifespan, maybe everything can be achieved, but he also understands that he is destined to be like this, so he will no longer force it, just let the last few cigarettes give himself a ride.

Zhen Hua one after another, his weak body seemed to have regained some vitality under the stimulation of cigarettes, but Zhen Hua didn't plan to do anything, opened all the cigarette packages, and kept pulling out cigarettes from the cigarette case, from one cigarette in the first three minutes, to one in the next tens of seconds, he was like a cigarette selling machine, frantically swallowing clouds and spitting fog, lying weakly, waiting for death to come.

Maybe it was because he was facing death, so he was not afraid, he knew, the time was almost up, calmly watching the things in front of him gradually become blurred, the cigarette in his mouth had burned to the point that only the filter was left, the cigarette ash fell on his clothes, he tried hard to spit out the filter, took out the last cigarette from the cigarette case with difficulty, put it to his mouth with all his last strength, and lit it.

The cigarette burned with his breath, and his eyes were closed, and he fell into a state of shock, which is the so-called suspended animation, but if he is not treated, then the suspended death will become real death, but now he has no conditions for treatment, and in this wilderness, he has no hope.

It's a pity that miracles often happen in times of despair, and at this time, a helicopter landed steadily next to Zhen Hua, and the strong air wave blew away the cigarette in Zhen Hua's mouth, and at the same time blew away the ashes, and the dying Zhen Hua was also picked up by the people who came down from the helicopter.

Zhen Hua was lifted onto the helicopter and rushed to the hospital as fast as possible, while the person who arrived by helicopter was washing his face with tears at this time.