The hustle and bustle of the mortal world, the joy and happiness of the world, like a clear stream, in the wind, in front of the eyes, gurgling through, warmth gushing out like a spring, Zhen Hua has no extravagant hopes, he just needs to be silent and don't mourn. A cigarette was put in his mouth again, and the sleepiness swept again, and sure enough, the excitement was only temporary, after here, after a few words, Zhen Hua fell asleep on the bench, and the cigarette was still in his mouth, if it wasn't for Brother Snake to find out in time, maybe the cigarette burned to the cigarette holder, and Zhen Hua would wake up again.

Zhen Hua is a big man, but Brother Snake can not lift it alone, you must know that a man who sleeps deeply, even if Brother Snake is a veteran, he can't bear Zhen Hua's figure being taller than him, and he can't do anything, so Brother Snake just laid him flat on the bench, took a quilt from the room and put it on Zhen Hua's body, swallowed what he didn't finish, and left gloomily.

In fact, he knew that Zhen Hua was on this bench last night and sat quietly all night, otherwise how could he return to the room early this morning, but even if he knew, he still forced Zhen Hua to say this, because this was also out of good intentions, maybe his words could alert Zhen Hua. Over the years, he has run this small inn, and he has seen too many people of all kinds, such as Zhen Hua, and he has also seen too much, so he said this, as for whether Zhen Hua can understand, it is not for him to intervene.

The years have accumulated heartache, too many stories are hidden in the bottom of my heart, and the string of grief is just waiting for someone to pluck, and there must be many out of control. Maybe it's because the ups and downs of the world are too cruel, so the world in the dream is too beautiful, so Zhen Hua at this time is immersed in a dream and can't extricate himself, if he can, Zhen Hua would rather be permanently immersed in a false dream.

The world in the dream is not much different from reality, Wen Zixin is still not his woman, they still maintain an ambiguous relationship as friends, Zhen Wenxin has not stepped into the showbiz, everything is normal, it is just stable, but even so, it is also something that Zhen Hua can hope for, but it is only in a dream. The original life was already the best state of life, but before he was not satisfied, now that he thinks about it, it is really Li Lingzhi, if he can go back to the past, maybe what he needs to do is just maintain normalcy.

Everyone has a hidden space in their hearts, some memories; Everyone has a sweet, private collection that belongs to them. Some feelings are placed in a corner of the heart and will never fade; Some love, sleeping in the years, has always been vivid. It's a pity that liking doesn't mean possession, they used to be just affectionate and courteous, they have never been together, but the sweetness has never been cut by half. It is sad to think that life used to be the best life, but now it is out of control and disgusting.

And in the dream, he just went on with everything as usual, dealing with daily affairs in the company's office, Zhen Wenxin's homework did not need to worry, Wen Zixin's work did not need to care, and he repeated the dull and boring life every day, this is the best life, and now he yearns for that kind of life, what he needs is a real life, not like now, running around, wandering around, without a stable place to live, without a trustworthy friend.

If there is still someone who can arouse Zhen Hua's last "selfishness", that person must be Wen Zixin, if Wen Zixin can persuade him, the moment he learns of his illness, he will enlighten him, so that he will not change in the last days of his life without any changes, and maintain the original peaceful life.

In the dream, he is just working, experiencing the pick-up and drop-off of Zhen Wenxin in the morning, and the heart-to-heart exchange of Wenzixin in the evening, just that, the experience of a whole day, from early morning to sunset, experiencing the life he is already in luxury. Just such a day is a luxury, and he is a dying man and a tangled person with feelings.

So the day in the dream is also a realistic day, and finally the dream is over, he woke up from the bench, holding his sore waist, and had to sigh the ruthlessness of the years, he didn't have this pampered body in the past, but now just because he slept on the bench, his back hurts, it's really sad to think about.

And he sat for a day and a night, and then he also fell asleep for a day and a night, and when he woke up, it happened to be early in the morning, and the sky was so blue, there was not even a trace of floating, as if it had been filtered out of all the variegated colors, and it was shining magnificently, this was the sky of the plateau, and it was also above the land where he was at this time, the sun had not yet risen, but the afterglow had already illuminated the whole sky.

Holding on to his slightly sick body, he walked out of the inn, bought a cigarette at the convenience store, and returned to the inn. The inn is only run by Brother Snake alone, there is no one at the front desk, presumably Brother Snake is still sleeping, Zhen Hua did not disturb Brother Snake, put down two packs of cigarettes on the cabinet at the front desk, and sat on the bench again. At this time, he seemed to have a special emotion for this bench, and he felt that he couldn't move his body, just like a monk who meditated in ancient times, never leaving his futon until he solved his confusion, Zhen Hua felt that he was no different from a monk, except that he was still stained with cigarettes and alcohol, there was no big difference.

But it is also the case, if the mind is not pretentious, it is natural joy, like water without stirring, and the nature is transparent and clear. The meditative mind is like a jar of muddy water, and the more one ignores or disturbs it, the more impurities will settle to the bottom of the jar, and the natural and pure nature of the water will be revealed. The same is true of the nature of the heart. Leave it to its own devices, and if you leave it unaltered, you can find the true nature of joy and clarity. Unconsciously, Zhen Hua's way of meditation is already very suitable for Buddhist meditation, of course, if another Zen room and a wooden fish are arranged, then Zhen Hua will really embark on the road to Elysium in the mystery of Buddhism.

What he feels and understands comes from life, but unfortunately now he has no feelings, only reminiscence, remembering the life he once had, and getting tired of his current self, is this what he wants? No, all he wants is a calm heart, with his own eyes, his own heart, in the last time, to see clearly the world he is in, for his own life, for his own existence, without regrets.

There are too many helplessness, and there are too many excuses, so he chose the way of meditation, maybe only when his heart is ethereal and his heart is empty, and when there is no distraction, he can understand what he really wants, a calm heart, is the premise of what he wants, but now he can't do this, he understands his situation, understands his heart, so he smokes helplessly, maybe because of his own incompetence.

Memory is the most beautiful and illusory flower, it only appears in the deepest part of the human heart, it can make the corners of your mouth reveal a faint smile, but also make your tears flow inadvertently. It is to turn what we have one after another into what we once had, not that we don't cherish it, but that some things have been done, and they are irretrievable; Some words come out, and they can't be taken back; Some people miss it, and it is destined to become only a memory. Wen Zixin is a memory that he can't forget, but life is an excuse for him to not be able to recover his memories, so what can he do? If you can't see through life and death, you will still fall into it after all.

If you want to live comfortably, happily, and chicly, you must learn to be content and learn to be at peace with what happens. Happiness can only be doubled by knowing how to share, and a good life should be full of expectations, surprises and gratitude. In many cases, it is not that there is no shortage of methods, but that there is a lack of determination and courage to move forward. If you are timid at the beginning of the matter, and look forward and backward when the matter is going, it is impossible to make a difference, but Zhen Hua has just responded to these two points, and perhaps only with the courage to move forward can be so, everything is possible.

It's a pity that this can only be a heart knot after all, buried in the bottom of his heart, not daring to have the slightest slackness, he has not let go of his liking for Wenzixin for a moment over the years, but he can't get it, and he can't forget it, he has been in this contradiction all these years, if such a change doesn't happen, maybe he can still reconcile this contradiction by himself, but now he can't, the loss of life has made him lose the ability to reconcile contradictions, so he has become what he is today, but even if he understands this, But how did he overcome his fear of death? Even if he understood everything, it was something that everyone was afraid to face, so how could he be an exception?

If at the end of life, there are no more hateful people in life except for the people you care about, and when the end of your life is, many people have no way of knowing and can't be sure, but Zhen Hua knows how ridiculous this is.

Zhen Hua lit a cigarette just now, and Brother Snake also walked behind him.

"Buddhism says that the past is just a memory, the future is also unknown, life is only in the present, and those who can control the present are the ones who have life. Therefore, in order for us to have a wonderful life, please remember to let go of the people or things we care about and make the present moment happier. ”

Zhen Hua was really taken aback, a person suddenly appeared behind him, and said a bunch of inexplicable words, anyone would be startled, and it was also when Zhen Hua's mind was the most chaotic, and his heart was almost about to jump out, of course, the most important thing was that the person who came out behind him was Brother Snake, a person who had only known each other for two days, but he always played the identity of chicken soup for the soul.

"Brother Snake, you're really scaring me, I don't understand what you said, let's smoke a cigarette first."

Brother Snake took the cigarette, lit it, spit out a puff of smoke, and sat next to Zhen Hua.

"In life, there are always some things that we can only appreciate, far away, and in the end, we can't get close, and finally, choose to walk away. There are always some feelings that we can only experience, silently, and in the end, we can't accept them, and finally, choose to leave. On the road of reincarnation, choose to be connected with fate and give up to be related to life. Life is to choose to move towards a new life, to be liberated from giving up, and then to move on. ”

After saying this, Brother Snake left on his own, he didn't want to hear Zhen Hua's reply, and he didn't need any reply, two sentences of Buddhism were enough, he didn't know Zhen Hua's experience, but after all, he couldn't escape these two mantras, the rest was up to Zhen Hua to understand, what he did was enough.