Chapter 85: Happiness
"Not leaving? Planning to starve to death in the mountains? ”
Zhen Hua is also extremely embarrassed, and he also understands that Lu Jing is the same at this time, if he can hold Lu Jing's hand at this time, then they will inevitably come together again, but his choice is to destroy the current atmosphere, because they are indeed facing a realistic difficulty, they are trapped in the mountains, they need to call for help, this situation has happened last night, but Zhen Hua chose to rest temporarily, but it does not mean that the difficulties in front of them will end after resting, they did not find effective rescue, They are still trapped in the mountains, with only a car without gasoline and no cell phones with no signal, so they can only walk down the mountain to find rescue.
And this kind of realistic problem pulled Lu Jing out of the illusion at once, so what Lu Jing did last night seemed to be just in vain, and it didn't affect the slightest, of course, this is not the truth, this is just the fact that Zhen Hua wants her to think, but he was really affected, disturbed his state of mind, and he couldn't face Lu Jing with a normal attitude, but he knew that he had to be calm now, and he had to show the same appearance as usual, otherwise he didn't dare to imagine the consequences, recalling Lu Jing's stalkered appearance back then, couldn't help but tremble, he didn't want to face Lu Jing like that again.
For that kind of Lu Jing, Zhen Hua's emotions can already be interpreted by horror. He is a cold person, for many people he is a snow-capped mountain frozen for thousands of years, but no one has explored, only one person has studied it deeply over the years and uncovered the scene under the snow-capped mountain, it is a volcano that may erupt at any time, and the fiery feelings are enough to melt, and the person who can withstand such feelings is not the one who explores, that person is undoubtedly Lu Jing, so she knows how hot Zhen Hua's feelings are, and she will turn into ashes if she is not careful, but she still went without hesitation, And she did melt the iceberg, but she couldn't stand the blazing, maybe the blazing for her was only warm in front of Wen Zixin, but it was the case, what if she saw it? Her melting of the glacier is only ushering in the next layer of suffering.
So she doesn't need to do anything at this time, at this time she disturbed Zhen Hua's state of mind, the rhythm of the relationship is already in her hands, she doesn't need to do anything, as long as she follows Zhen Hua's side, Zhen Hua's heart is chaotic, even if Zhen Hua deliberately destroys this embarrassing and ambiguous atmosphere, but it is undeniable that even if this is the case, it can't change anything, and the already chaotic state of mind can't be changed, but unfortunately Lu Jing doesn't know this, she just followed in a panic and walked beside Zhen Hua, But there is always a sense of shame about cheating, maybe it's an illusion.
The path follows the valley and winds through the pine forest, winding like a light-colored ribbon around the emerald mountains. A rugged stone staircase road winds up, and on both sides of the stone steps stand pines and cypresses, with lush branches and leaves, which appear and disappear in the river. I don't know when it was repaired, but now it's dilapidated, and the two of them strolling through it, there seems to be an indescribable pleasure, maybe it's because of the environment, some of the embarrassment that should exist is gone, and they don't seem to be seeking rescue, more like a leisurely walk.
Nature in passion, send a brilliant time, extraordinary momentum, elongate the lens, heavy ink, deep hit the hearts of the people, send a magnificent ode, praise it for its silent generosity. In the sublime and ordinary, there is a majestic momentum, and the bold words are between the world and the world. The brilliant life, scorching and dazzling, makes people think about it. The spring water is tinkling, the breeze is like water, the white clouds are dotted, and the blue sky is like washing. In the dream of Jiangnan, affectionate and unlimited, Jiangnan style, green mountains and green, poetry and flowers, love to think of Jiangnan. The summer scenery is always green, the flowers are pink and gorgeous, the apricot blossoms are red, the peach blossoms are beautiful, a branch of incense petals spit poetry, a little love flower heart, a little homesickness, countless expectations, countless wishes, after a storm to witness the Jiangnan willow.
Maybe it's just a reverie in the artistic conception, but the mountains and water go hand in hand, allowing the soul to hone, reincarnate, and encounter in the wind and sand of the years. "Why do you have to keep moving?" Mountain asked. "Isn't it worth your fertile land? Isn't it worth facing a thousand setbacks? Isn't all kinds of pain worth your way through? The water did not answer, but still magnified the pain, rolled up a thousand waves, flooded the village, and was hideous.
This may be cruel, there are always two sides to things, some people see beauty, some people see cruelty, so there is no right or wrong, it's just a personal choice, some things don't need to be said, just know it in their hearts, just like they are at this time, walking in the woods, even if it is a difficult situation, but there is no trace of embarrassment, as if a natural thing.
For anyone, difficulties must exist, they just had a trivial accident, and they didn't lose anything, in fact, they are already lucky, and they themselves have experienced too much, so it's not a big deal, they go down the mountain to ask for help, it's not a primeval forest, there will be no tigers and poisonous snakes, even if it is a primitive ecological forest, Lu Jing has also walked through, it's not difficult, they are like walking in ordinary life, walking slowly, there are no words in the whole process, but everyone knows, After last night, the relationship has gone further.
Sure enough, Lu Jing tried to hold Zhen Hua's hand, Zhen Hua just stiffened his body, but he finally accepted it and did not shake it off, and Lu Jing was also happy in his heart. In fact, many times, Zhen Hua doesn't know how to refuse, only Lu Jing knows this, but he just has the persistence in his heart, but he doesn't know how to refuse, maybe he is afraid, afraid of hurting others, and even more afraid of hurting Lu Jing again, so he didn't refuse, and not refusing means accepting, for Lu Jing, this is almost a fantasy thing.
In fact, many years ago, they were also like now, walking hand in hand on the quiet path, at that time Lu Jing didn't know that Zhen Hua married herself for another purpose, at that time, what she felt was real happiness, maybe because of Zhen Hua's acting skills, Zhen Hua may be a natural actor, interpreting the role of her boyfriend to the fullest, even if it is a trivial thing, she can also be meticulous, what Lu Jing felt at that time was true love, but she didn't know, That's just Zhen Hua's habit of taking care of Wen Zixin, and she is just a substitute for feelings.
In fact, she single-handedly destroyed their marriage back then, if she could have been innocent and didn't explore Zhen Hua's heart, she would naturally not have found the existence of Wen Zixin, they had almost never seen Wen Zixin at that time, Wen Zixin was too busy at that time, so there were almost no footprints of Wen Zixin in their lives, if she didn't find out, she wouldn't have found out at all, in fact, the person Zhen Hua loved has always been Wen Zixin, what she has inherited is Zhen Hua's love for another woman, if she can always be loved stupidly, Without exposing this false relationship, maybe she could have been immersed in this false relationship for the rest of her life, even if it was not real, but she was happy.
Maybe she can do it now, she has been pretending to be stupid and maintaining a false love, but back then, she was so stubborn, and her strong possessiveness made her force Zhen Hua to make a choice, of course, she didn't say it bluntly, but expressed her meaning in daily life, Zhen Hua is not a fool, she did it too obviously back then, Zhen Hua also made her own choice in an instant, and then she left, this walk is seventeen years, maybe now she has some regrets, But maybe the choice was the right one, otherwise what was the use of her immersing herself in falsehood?
Now she is indeed holding Zhen Hua's hand, and Zhen Hua's heart can only be her. The current Zhen Hua was forcibly possessed by her, but Wen Zixin was no longer in Zhen Hua's choice, so what she could feel now was real feelings, not feelings as a substitute, Zhen Hua accepted her, there was no Wen Zixin's intervention between her and Zhen Hua, Zhen Hua at this moment really belonged to her, that would be enough, isn't that what she asked for, she did it at the moment.
Happiness is actually very simple, as simple as a sentence, a look, a greeting, an achievement, a pleasant place, and life will be full of flowers. It's hard to get, and sometimes it's so easy. Happiness is within reach, and if you are not careful, you will be out of sight. Happiness may last a lifetime, but it may only be for a moment. In fact, it doesn't matter anymore, even if it's the latter, a moment of real happiness is enough, if it's a lifetime, maybe she won't want anything else in this life.
Now it seems to be standing at an embarrassing intersection where there is no connection, what I have lost is the joy of swaggering and deception, and what I have not gained is the sophistication and calmness of the pen to go to the end of the world. Happiness is actually very simple, although it is ordinary, it has a quiet and distant mellow fragrance; It is like a ray of sunshine, although rare, but it has colorful beauty. She didn't need much, but after she got it, she had such a huge sense of happiness.
Maybe this is the bitterness and happiness, after waiting for so many years, but it is not as good as the progress of one night, she may not be able to imagine, let alone forgive herself for those gratuitous reserves, well, if she knew this earlier, why did she do this? Why does she need to spend seventeen years to precipitate herself, now she is an old man, but after all, she is bitter and sweet, if she sees her expression at this time, she may be surprised, this kind of bitter and smiling expression, if there is no precipitation of the years, it should be impossible, but Zhen Hua did not see it, otherwise it may be another scene.
Maybe this is not a real sense of love, but love on the left, sympathy on the right, walking on both sides of life, sowing seeds at any time, blooming at any time, this path is long, embellished with the fragrance of flowers, so that the pedestrians who wear branches and leaves, stepping on thorns, do not feel pain, there are tears to fall, but not sad, blend with each other, even if the original intention is not so, but after all, it is still the same, because happiness is to do the things you like with the people you like, in the places you like, whether it is love or quarrel, in order to live happily, you should believe in the possibility of happiness.