Chapter 118: Admission
So going around and around, Zhen Hua still returned here, he had thought that he would not set foot here again in his lifetime, and he would not see Wenzixin again, but unfortunately these were broken, and what broke these seemed to be something called love, he didn't dare to violate the interference of this power, on the contrary, he enjoyed it, maybe he didn't know it, people who were bound by love were happy, even if there was an abyss ahead, he would jump down without hesitation, because the person behind him was the person he loved the most. When love comes, of course, it is also happy. However, this kind of happiness has to be paid, and it is also necessary to learn to accept disappointment, pain and parting, and from then on, life is no longer pure. The fire of love should not be rekindled. If it is rekindled, those beautiful memories of the past will also be gone. If they had not been reunited, perhaps he would have died with deep thoughts of remembrance until his flesh decayed; However, at this moment, he can only run to the sea of suffering for love. All the good days are long gone.
They didn't go home, Zhen Hua's home has been destroyed by himself, Zhen Wenxin has been ruined, and the existence of his home has also been destroyed, all of which he did, and he had to do it, maybe he regretted it at the moment, but do these matter? The answer is no, Zhen Wenxin is his daughter, the daughter he has raised for seventeen years, although there is no blood relationship, but she is already a real father and daughter, but Zhen Wenxin still has no blood relationship with him after all, there is no blood connection, and the relationship is still a little weaker after all, so he can't take care of the dying of people, leaving an inheritance, which is regarded as the last compensation for Zhen Wenxin, he can ensure that Zhen Wenxin is rich and noble for a lifetime, but it is limited to this, the existence of the family, he is destined not to give Zhen Wenxin, So he didn't think about this home anymore, a house with no people, Zhen Hua has a lot, and that so-called home has become one of the many empty houses, there is no need anymore, and his heart is no longer in that home.
So there is actually only one destination for them, and when they got off the plane, they were waiting in the parking lot of the airport directly, and Wen Zixin was also afraid of suddenly changing his attention, so before taking Zhen Hua on the plane, he contacted the doctor, and Zhen Hua had no possibility of escaping at all. When Zhen Hua saw the ambulance, he also glanced at Wen Zi's heart, and thought, why make such a fuss? I've already come back, how can I run, and I don't seem to need an ambulance now, I can go to the hospital, but Wen Zixin is so troubled, it is estimated that there will be a lot of news about the illness of the CEO of Zhen's Group, maybe the stock price will fluctuate a little, and the public relations team needs to be dispatched to refute the rumors, but since this is Wen Zixin's group, he has no choice, maybe as long as Wen Zixin is in this way, he will rest assured.
In fact, Zhen Hua guessed correctly, if Zhen Hua hadn't gotten into the ambulance in front of her, the stone in her heart would not have been put down. thought that love could overcome everything, but who knew that she was sometimes powerless. I thought that love could fill the regrets of life, but it was love that created more regrets. The clouds and sunny days are short, and they are constantly repeated in a love. If you change a person, it won't be evergreen. So what she wants to keep is the person in front of her, love, which should be willing to be bland, but not bland; should be willing to be ordinary, but it is not ordinary. No longer think about the past, no longer obsessed with the past. Who is waiting for whom hopelessly, and who is leaving whom behind? Who is clinging to loneliness for whom, and who is relegating to nothingness? The heartbroken ruler can't measure the distance of lovesickness, and the corners of her mouth move slightly, dotted in the night sky of her thoughts, and ordinary days, people who love each other will not end because of a breakup. People who love each other will grow together in the twists and turns of the relationship. As long as you go through a twist and turn and get through it, love will grow a little more, and then go through a twist and turn and get through it, so everyone learns to cherish each other. went all the way like this, the two understood each other's goodness, and their love became deeper and deeper, and they loved each other deeply and would not be separated again.
How much helplessness is hidden in the heart, how much melancholy turns into speechlessness, and in the end, the past has become a scar in the bottom of the heart, only I know. Encounters are always caught off guard, parting is premeditated for a long time, they have to get used to anyone's hot and cold, and look down on anyone's drifting away. On the road of life, there is never a regret medicine to buy. They can't go back to the past, so they should grasp the present and not let their future selves regret the present. Maybe that's the case, so they all pay silently for each other, but no one thought that they have become slaves of love, maybe they were not willing to do this, but unfortunately, when Zhen Hua stepped into the ambulance, both of them had no way back, they could only pray, the condition was still under control, if it backfired, then in addition to meeting the feelings of loss and unwillingness in despair, they could only hesitate on the delivery line of parting ways.
How many winds and rains, how many laughs and tears, how many rights and wrongs, how many sweets and bitters have been tasted. He is silent, and he uses silence as an excuse for refusal; He giggles, and he also uses giggles as a reason to give up. Don't say some things, and the other party won't understand them; Don't think about some things, and the other party will still be sad if you think about them. It's not sad that you think about the past, it's not that you don't despair before you know to look back, if you can, please take all his memories with you, leave an empty shell, and wait for death to come. And now, it has become, there was once a smile in his life, but in the end it dissipated like a mist, and that smile became a turbulent river buried deep in his heart, unable to swim across, and the sound of the river became his desperate song every day and night. Because hope comes from despair, and struggle begins with sorrow, as a poet said: those who are touched by hunger must digest well, those who are touched by urgency must be efficient, and those who are touched by crisis must move forward quickly.
Zhen Hua has given up all hopes, it can be said that all thoughts are lost, and he doesn't want to struggle at all. When he arrived at the hospital, he was sent for examination, these related examinations, he had experienced it once, but he didn't think that there would be any changes this time, at most it was just the result of a deterioration of his condition, he had already looked down, maybe the doctor could really curb the spread of cancer cells, but it was limited to that, cancer could not be cured, what the hospital could do, and he could think of it, so this so-called examination was actually ineffective, except for bringing him despair again, making him emphasize his identity all the time, is a cancer patient.
In fact, all people are sentient beings in a hurry, and no one's joy can last long, and no matter how tightly they hold their hands, they will end the song. Life is originally a sin, and the painful person is just self-satisfied; Happy people are only happy in suffering. Only when you have really cried, you have been tired of despair, you have been heartbroken, and you have regretted your words without words, and this life can be considered complete. The thousands of scenery on the side of the road, the sun is shining and the flowers are beautiful, and the haze is full of withering and zeroing is also beautiful. The prosperous world has isolated him, and what he needs to face in the future is endless paleness, monotonous whiteness, boring whiteness, and hopeless whiteness, and the most exhausting thing is often not the distance of the road, but the depression in his heart; The most decadent thing is often not the bumpy future, but the loss of self-confidence; The most painful thing is often not the misfortune of life, but the dashing of hope; The most desperate thing is often not the blow of frustration, but the death of the soul. Perhaps his pale can only be weak.
There are many subtle and beautiful things in the world, which always make him sad in his heart, and he has ups and downs, and the vicissitudes of life, even if they are swept by the wind and waves, can not be worried. Self-defeating, this is a poisonous snake that forever corrodes and gnaws away the mind, it sucks the fresh blood of the soul and infuses it with the poisonous juice of misanthropy and despair. No amount of words can tell the bitterness in my heart, no amount of laughter can hide the pain in my heart, no matter how many love words can not continue to write my heart, no matter how good I am, I can't resist the habits of time. Maybe time is doomed, his time has come to a standstill, the so-called struggle is nothing but futility, baptized by despair again and again, in fact, what he gets is only a soulless body.
Zhen Hua had such a fear, he saw how his father was tortured to death back then, he knew that he was going to go through this, the emotion of fear was impossible to change, he wanted to overcome it, but the fear that came from the depths of his heart could not be easily eliminated, that kind of uneasy insecurity, emptiness, and fear all came from insufficient time and confusion about the road ahead, just like living in a cellar. It's dark, smells bad, and is full of germs, but I just don't want to go out. Constantly emphasizing the difficulty of getting out, constantly tossing and working hard inside the cellar, but even the slightest light at the exit is terrifying. In fact, the place of fear is the place where you really want to go. Perhaps only by facing the fear in his heart, not to hide and cover up, what he worries and is uneasy will not be solved because of his own hiding, on the contrary, it will be magnified even more, and in the end he will be hurt even more. Time will help him solve problems, and it will also accumulate problems for you, when everything is unreliable, there is no other way but to be cruel to yourself and suffer early. Emotional procrastination, only worse. Now that he has arrived, since he has already checked, then the despair again is actually just a disguise of the last fear, and even more so a cover up of the last fear, and overcoming the fear is only done in the face of fear, he must go through it, otherwise until death, he will only live in the shadow of his father's death, and die with fear.
Accompanied by the doctor and Wen Zixin, he completed one examination after another, although the results would not be much different, but he knew that Wen Zixin beside him was particularly concerned, even if he knew that the result was impossible to change, but he saw the expectation in Wen Zixin's eyes, maybe this is hope, and what he lacks, if he has hope, maybe the vitality will be added to it, but he is already in despair, and the action of struggling in despair may be sad, but it is the last hope of sound, If he didn't struggle, then his end would be nothing more than a dead word.