Chapter 119: Seeds of Fear

Perhaps, death is not the end of life but the birth of a new life, death is not terrible, it is the heart of man. At the moment of death, his heart betrayed itself, and he fled the fear of death. Maybe he hopes for it, but it's a pity that he can't do it, the paleness around him seems to announce his death, an empty and tasteless life, maybe it's the future, despair fills his life, maybe there is too much loneliness in life, they always come in batches, blooming big flowers in the dark night, like a black mandala in the black swamp, while bewitching and painful, and gushing out endless dark incense, it's a pity that people often choose some ways to release the loneliness that is constantly sublimated, "The bottom of the warbler is slippery, Life is a beautiful landscape painting, life is an interesting landscape, and life is also a melodious symphony, but unfortunately life will have nothing to do with him.

In a person's life, the years are like a river rushing endlessly, and life is like a boat stirring in the river of years, pursuing every ray of light and hope. Thanksgiving for life, thank her for giving herself rich feelings. Joy, anger, sorrow, sorrow, sorrow, free and easy, original, dripping with joy, unrestrained; Laughing with joy, roaring with anger, crying with sorrow, revealing the truest hearts and expressing the most genuine feelings. Perhaps the beauty of life comes from the transience, like fireworks leaving a beautiful trace in an instant; Perhaps the beauty of life is because of helplessness, like the spring flowers and autumn moon in the poignant sigh, deducing "When is the spring flowers and autumn moon, and how much do you know about the past?" Xiaolou had another east wind last night, so the country could not afford to look back at the moonlight. The carved fence jade masonry should still be there, but the face has changed." Life is like this, full of helplessness, maybe this is life.

A grain of sand sees the world, and a flower sees life. What is life for? For a brief moment, like a meteor streaked across the night sky, it came and went in a hurry. The Buddha said: A leaf and a Bodhi, a flower blooms a world. Life is gone with the wind. Having lost his life, how can he talk about the beauty of love and the preciousness of freedom? Without life, all wishes will become phantoms in dreams. Without life, the value and meaning of life would be impossible. Therefore, he is almost qualified to talk about the fact that his life has come to an end, and the so-called examination report is more like an ultimatum for the death penalty, which is suffocating, but there is no escape after all.

Perhaps the withered petals reveal the end of life, and the withered leaves announce the cessation of life; The graceful peony shows the nobility of life, and the flourishing tree highlights the roughness of life. Life not only gives form to living beings, but also gives them incomparable brilliance. However, life is sometimes fragile, but sometimes it is also tenacious, sometimes the sky falls, the world is destroyed, but life will not give up the last glimmer of hope for life, he will use his tenacious perseverance; Fight bravely with death, and use the last residual heat to bloom life. The reason why the tree of life is evergreen and the strength of struggle is inexhaustible is because life still has beautiful dreams and the fire of love, and life blooms again, love is great, and the power of love is endless, so he is willing to run resolutely to this pale sea of suffering for the so-called love, maybe sadness, or perhaps, this is happiness.

Life is like a calm water, drifting with the wind, free, but behind this calm there are waves, it will inadvertently let you bear all the pain and suffering, there is no way to choose, everything can not escape, you can only choose to bear, taste the torment. Sigh for the insignificance of life, sigh for the ruthlessness of nature, sigh for the fragility of life. When we face one camera after another, recording the dying and struggling life, the resonance from the heart, sighing that the beauty of life is difficult to keep. Life is the ups and downs of stumbling, and death is the star of tranquility. To the dust, to the rain and dew, he is a mortal, with his own emotions, a soul, gains and losses, vulnerability and strength. We lament the helplessness of life, helpless life, and full life, maybe this is the meaning of life, the value of life. Some people say that life is helpless, but man will win the day, and he can change. Indeed, perhaps only by fulfilling life can we make up for some regrets and shortcomings, make ourselves happier and less troubled.

It's a pity, he knows that this is impossible, he knows his body too well, the results of the examination will come out soon, Wen Zixin is by his side, he knows that Wen Zixin's hope will be broken after all, but for the hope in Wen Zixin's eyes, he must also persuade himself to go on, even if one day Wen Zixin leaves him, he must overcome the fear in his heart at this moment, face the treatment calmly, cooperate with the doctor, he is very hard to restrain the tremor of his body, which comes from the fear in his heart, He is not afraid of death, but he is afraid that he will become a waste, and he is even more afraid that he will become a waste who cannot take care of himself under the destruction of drugs, especially this waste will appear in front of Wen Zixin, he is afraid, fear fills every cell in his body, and he can't contain it at all.

A drop in the ocean shows that life is fragile. Life is impermanent, time is ruthless, and an inconspicuous mistake can make people fail; Life is weak, struggling in the ups and downs of the lifeline, working hard, in the face of disasters, he can do too little, lamenting the fragility and impermanence of life, is his voice from the bottom of his heart, the world is impermanent, life can not resist adversity. Life is like a calm water, drifting with the wind, free, but behind this calm there are waves, it will inadvertently let people bear all the pain and suffering, there is no way to choose, everything can not escape, can only choose to bear, taste the torment. Maybe the only way to forget is to forget, if you can't have it, then forgetting is the best choice. Human life is short and fragile, and life cannot carry too much load; You have to learn to forget, to forget what you shouldn't remember, to forget everything that doesn't belong to you, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, all you can do is appreciate it for a short time. Life cannot be perfect, and a life with regrets is the real life.

The only thing that is eternal and unchanging in the world is impermanence. Many people, no matter how much effort they put in and how much effort they expend, even if they can be owned, are temporary. In an impermanent world, you must have a normal state of mind to keep up with the pace of happiness. He lost very completely, he only loved one woman in this life, but he just had, he was about to face loss, he pursued the footsteps of happiness, but did not expect that the journey of life came to an end, sad, but not really, the road of life, said long or not long and short, only pain, happiness, crying, laughing, can really show the true charm of life. The experiences of life are like different landscapes, and they bring different feelings to life. Life is experience, and happiness is always on the way.

Maybe he is happy, at least at this moment, it is true, accompanied by love, and the wind and rain and suffering are magnificent. Love each other, share weal and woe, share joys and sorrows, go through ups and downs together, and finally usher in the bright sunshine, it can not be said that it is the power of companionship, he is still staying here, in fact, it is because of the company of Wen Zixin, maybe those smiling eyes scattered with the wind, like the love poems of lonely poets, paragraph by paragraph, staggered into rows. The lonely bell rings all night long, those like flowers, finally invincible to the decadence cut by time, looking up at the sun with sad eyes, seeing that the years are not dead, and the years are exhausted.

In this quiet day, I met the most beautiful her in this life, and I regretted that I didn't cherish it enough, if I had the opportunity in this life, I would live up to her, and I just wanted to accompany her to old age after ups and downs. In this life, I will always meet someone by chance, and I will be amazed by my youth; The president accompanies one person, gentle with the vicissitudes of life. Beware of the slight movement, the love is also far away, and if you want to start all over again, things have long been wrong; Beware of the flattening of the heart, the roots of love are gradually growing, and the waves are not alarmed, and the water has melted. At the beginning of the ignorance, I don't understand the cold and warm customs, and I know that the sky is high and the clouds are light. May the hand of the king, listen to the morning bell and dusk drum, watch the sunset and the moonrise, enjoy the quiet time, and don't go through the year. It feels desolate. The white horse passes through the gap not time, but emotion, between the staggered in a hurry, touring the past and present of the morning and twilight, and between raising and lowering his eyes, he can think of the moment when the fireworks fell, the fragrance that permeated the lake, and the clear eyes that stare at him, the smell of meteors.

Perhaps at this time, he has already looked down on the vicissitudes of the world, and his heart is safe and sound. Life, in the final analysis, is the mood that lives. People are tired because there are too many things that can affect their mood. The change of weather, the warmth of people's feelings, and different scenery will affect his mood. Look down, the sky is nothing more than cloudy and sunny, people are just gathered and scattered, and the earth is only high and low. The vicissitudes of life, the heart is not frightened, and the nature is stable; Freedom with fate, not sad or joyful, it is a sunny day. Everything arises from fate and is born from thoughts. If you are attached to something or something, you will suffer from gains and losses, and troubles will follow. If you can see everything and have no obstacles, you will have no fear. Life is often afraid of what comes, when you look down on gains and losses, meaningless success or failure, but smooth sailing, difficulties become auspicious. The most precious thing in life is to have a normal heart, stay away from turbidity, calm as water, not confused by the five colors of the world, and not fascinated by the flavors of life.

Life is like a train to the grave, there will be many stops on the way, it is difficult for someone to accompany you from beginning to end, when the person who accompanies you wants to get off the train, even if you are reluctant, you should be grateful, and then wave goodbye. His car is about to come to the end, maybe everything doesn't matter, for the sake of the people next to him, he will endure it silently, live for another person, maybe it is also the beginning of his new life.

An old man in a white coat announced his illness to Zhen Hua, and there was not much difference. The doctor's suggestion to be admitted to the hospital for treatment immediately, the condition is still under control, Zhen Hua smiled bitterly, pecked Wen Zixin's face, and followed the old man to go through the hospitalization procedures, he knew that he was going to face, after all, he couldn't escape, instead of being half pushed by Wen Zixin to go through the hospitalization procedures, it was better to simply be a little more simple, actively cooperate with the doctor, put his position right, at least maintain a good attitude on the surface, Wen Zixin can also feel at ease, fear is buried in the bottom of his heart, for this love, He knows what he's giving for.