Bai Chenfeng finally decided to tell Lin Kongkong the news. Kang Chenyi has no better way, because this kind of thing can't be hidden, even if it is hidden, it is useless, she will know sooner or later, if she can't send Li Shunjuan on the last journey, it should be the regret of her life.

There are always many times between lovers when outsiders can't get involved, whether it's joy or pain. Just like at this time, Kang Chenyi knew that she would be sad, but he couldn't comfort her, and he didn't even have the qualifications to be a bystander when she was sad. Even if you see her, you can only see her from afar.

He is very envious of his cousin, he met her at such a young age, and occupies the right time, place, and people, so their relationship is indispensable, which cuts off all possibilities for other people in their lives. This solid relationship has no gap that can accommodate others.

Thinking of this, his thin lips drew a sarcastic arc and chuckled self-deprecatingly. Kang Chen Yi, Kang Chen Yi! Everyone is the eldest son of the Kang family, and he is unparalleled in the world. In fact, how do you care about the prejudices of the world? And how can you take these words of praise to heart?

What you want is to be able to dye with the girl in your heart, full of light ink and books; Listen, the drizzle falls outside the house; Look, in front of the breeze and moon window. It's just the wish of this little party, it's just the woman who makes him fall in love, but it's ...... Just a her......

But the more you want, the more you can't get it, and if you can't get it, you can't say it, this bitter fruit is really only for him to taste. He didn't want her to know, because he didn't want her to hesitate, feel guilty, and suffer because of him.

As long as she is well, what can he not do for her?

When Bai Chenfeng came out of the study and returned to the bedroom, Lin Kongkong was covered with a thin quilt, lying flat on the bed with his eyes closed. The cheeks like mutton fat and white jade were peaceful and peaceful, and the long black hair was like a waterfall, flowing down from the bed, and the posture was beautiful and peaceful.

seemed to be sleeping, and felt that Bai Chenfeng took her into her arms, and this slight movement made her wake up instantly.

"Xiaobai, are you back?" She had a slightly sleepy voice and a thick nasal voice.

"Uh-huh......" he replied with a random scale, reaching out and hugging her tighter.

Lin Kongkong felt that he was a little different from usual, so he asked softly, "What?" What happened? ”

"Nothing ......"

"Little White ......"

Bai Chenfeng sighed and leaned his cheek close to her: "Don't speak, let me hug you quietly for a while." ”

Lin Kongkong saw his rare fragile appearance, so he obediently stopped talking, only softened his body and was held by him.

The sullen pain in Bai Chenfeng's heart was a wave of twisting waves, and he had already decided to tell her, but now he didn't know how to speak. The big hand subconsciously protected her lower abdomen, which was now slightly raised, and through the thin fabric, he could clearly feel the breath of new life.

She is the woman he loves, and she will be his future wife, and he is willing to taste any pain in this world for her, but there are some that he can't replace, and she must experience it herself.

"Li Jue informed you to attend Li Shunjuan's funeral tomorrow."

Lin Kongkong's originally soft body suddenly stiffened, she opened a pair of clear eyes, and looked back at him in disbelief: "How can it be so fast, obviously I only met her yesterday, it can't be so fast." ”

"Maybe she's been waiting for you all along, but now, she's seen you, so ......"

Lin Kongkong shook his head, his voice a little hoarse: "But I still have something to say to her, I haven't told her yet, I don't blame her ......"

Bai Chenfeng didn't know what Li Shunjuan said to her in the ward that day, but she was in a very bad mental state after she came out that day. Now hearing her say this, he feels that Li Shunjuan may be ashamed of her. But as far as she knows, Li Shunjuan has always been very good to her and has always regarded her as her own, is it because of the grievances of the previous generation?

It is rumored in City A that her biological mother is Ji Zhongliang's lover raised outside, which is nothing new among wealthy families, but this lover is very low-key, and everyone has almost never seen it, and it has never even appeared in City A. Judging from Lin Kongkong's reaction to being tied up and Ji Zhongliang, his love for his daughter is obvious. And he doesn't seem to pay much attention to Mrs. Ji, probably a typical example of a business marriage and a husband and wife sleeping in the same bed!

It is basically certain that the woman Ji Zhongliang really loves is likely to be Lin Kongkong's mother, and it is not difficult to guess why they are not together. With Ji Zhongliang's identity, marriage must not be autonomous, and it is all traded as a bargaining chip. The person Ji Zhongliang fell in love with was not from a wealthy family, so he could only be secretly raised outside.

Li Shunjuan's mother's family is not small, otherwise it would be impossible to marry the Ji family, and it is not difficult to check the individual, probably in the middle, Li Shunjuan has also played a role and done some things, so she will feel ashamed of Lin Kongkong.

He knew that Lin Kongkong was kind in nature and didn't like to hold grudges against others, so he felt a little guilty for not being able to tell her before Li Shunjuan's death that he didn't blame her. Although they are not related by blood, they are also a mother and daughter after all, and Li Shunjuan is also affectionate and friendly to her, and it is inevitable that she will be sad.

Bai Chenfeng found that Lin Kongkong's things were being lost one by one, less and less, her home was gone, her father was in prison, her stepmother was dead, and now it seemed that there was nothing but him. While he felt pity in his heart, he also felt that he should treat her more kindly.

"Mengmeng, life and death are fateful, none of us can force it, look at some ......"

Lin Kongkong closed his eyelids slightly, hiding his tired look. She knew that the woman who really loved her had died, and in the future, she really didn't have a mother. No one will cook a sumptuous meal for her when she comes home; No one will buy her new clothes when the seasons change; will hide from her father and let her do what she likes......

She was very sad and wanted to cry, but she had no tears and couldn't cry anymore, but she felt that her eyes were very dry.

"I knew she was suffering from that kind of condition, and sooner or later she would have this day, and she was mentally prepared, but I didn't expect it to be so soon. If I knew...... I'm going to tell her that I don't blame her, and my mother doesn't blame her. For all these years, my mother never told me about those old days......"

Bai Chenfeng knew that he was not wrong in his speculation, it was indeed like this, as long as he found the crux of the problem, he would have a way to deal with it, and after thinking about the wording, he said to her in a gentle tone: "It's all old things, she feels guilty, and it's also because I'm sorry for your mother, you don't have a burden in your heart because of this matter, and she doesn't need your forgiveness, because you are not a party." ”

"But I can see that she wants me to forgive, or maybe she has transferred all her apologies to my mother."

Bai Chenfeng didn't comfort people, but patiently reasoned with her: "These things have cause and effect, and they have nothing to do with you, it's just that you had a hard childhood, and she may be the culprit of this matter." I think all she wants is for you not to hold a grudge against her, and you've already shown it with your actions, and that's enough. ”

Lin Kongkong looked at his patient persuasion, and his heart instantly felt like someone had been stuffed into cotton, soft and soft: "Xiaobai, you don't have to persuade me, I know that I will be fine." ”

"You're fine now, but you're always cranky, how can I not worry?"

Lin Kongkong approached him and grabbed his neck with both hands: "I didn't think about it, but her departure still had some impact on me, no matter how strong the psychological construction is, it is always life and death, and it is unbearable." ”

"But I only allow you to be sad for a short time, there are different kinds of life and death in this world every day, and the reality is so cruel."

"I understand......" Lin Kongkong nodded and pulled out of his arms, "Xiaobai, my mother gave me some things yesterday, and I haven't had time to look ......at them yet."

"Okay." Bai Chenfeng got up, took the file bag on the bedside table and handed it to her: "Is this it?" ”

"Hmmm......"

"That'...... I'll go out first, you can be quiet for a while, don't look too long, I'll be back later. ”

"Okay."

After Bai Chenfeng went out, Lin Kongkong took out the diary that Li Shunjuan gave her and opened it, and a letter fell out of it, she opened it hesitantly, and there were no superfluous words written on it, only a poem:

The bright moon shines on the tall buildings, and the streamer is hovering.

There are sorrowful women, lamenting and mourning.

Who is the one who sighs? Yan is a wife.

The monarch has been traveling for more than ten years, and the lonely concubine often lives alone.

If you clear the road dust, the concubine is like turbid cement.

The ups and downs are different, when will the rendezvous be harmonious?

May it be the southwest wind and pass away into the arms of the king.

If Jun Huailiang doesn't open it, what should the concubine do?

This poem Lin Kongkong knows that it is Cao Zhi's "Seven Mourning Poems", Cao Zhi is naturally not a deep resentful woman, and what he wants to express is not the meaning of resentment. It's just that if a woman writes it, the meaning is probably clear.

Sighing about the world, complaining about the husband, infatuating with the wrong payment, the difference between the clouds and mud, but passing into the arms of the king.

This poem is really the truest portrayal of the stepmother's life, falling in love with a man who doesn't love herself, keeping a marriage that exists in name only, how sad is her life?

Since this poem is placed in an envelope, it proves that it was written as an epistle, but it did not write anything else, so was it left for my father? After all, husband and wife, even if there has never been love between them, as the stepmother said, just her wishful unrequited love, but there will be some other feelings! In the decades when the day and night are relatively opposed, there will always be some emotions that outsiders do not know, which is human instinct.

Lin Kongkong knew that this letter was going to be delivered to his father, and his father must have been extremely sad when he learned the news. She sighed, folded the letter in her hand, put it back in the envelope, and looked at it blankly for a moment.

I suddenly felt that my father was also a little pitiful, and my mother passed away that year, and it hit him very hard. Now that he is over half a hundred years old, and he is in prison, and now his wife is gone, and he is now truly nothing. But fortunately, he still has her, they are each other's only relatives, and they can support the rest of their lives together.