282:Don't Forget or Remember (2)
Lin Kongkong's words were undoubtedly shocking to Bai Chenfeng, he thought that she just cared about that incident, and he refused to forgive him in his heart, but he didn't expect that she would want to get rid of him like this.
His love became a burden in her eyes and became worthless, and she even did not hesitate to torture herself to achieve the purpose of indirectly hurting him.
He held a sincere heart in front of her, but she twisted it into slag, and she had already decided in her heart that he had planned that incident.
Also! This matter originally involved him and Ji Zhongliang, and he was the final beneficiary. said that it had nothing to do with him, he couldn't even convince himself, how could he convince others?
"Is it that if I let you go, you won't torture yourself anymore?" He stared at Lin Kongkong's face tightly, not wanting to miss the slightest expression of her.
Lin Kongkong opened his eyes very calmly, looked at him very calmly, and said very calmly: "Yes......"
Bai Chenfeng only felt as if a sharp dagger had pierced into his heart, spinning fiercely in his heart. Reaching out to touch her face, she turned her head sideways to avoid it, and he was furious: "Don't you think! I'm not going to let go, absolutely not! β
Lin Kongkong lowered his eyes, and his expression was very obscure: "If you don't let it go, you won't let it go, anyway, I'm used to being a puppet who can't be autonomous." I used to listen to my mother, then I listened to my father, but now I listen to you, and I have never been able to do my own business, and I can't ...... myself."
Her sentence "I can't help myself" evokes a lot of bad memories of Bai Chenfeng, all of which are about her. Over the years, she has been sandwiched between Ji Zhongliang and him, and her life has really not been good.
Although Ji Zhongliang's coercive methods were very powerful, she did not do anything to be sorry for him except for pretending to be Ji Mengmeng. On the contrary, it was he who failed her a lot.
Now she asked him to let her go, let her go......
Since then, there has been no involvement at all. How could she do that? How can it be so cruel?
"Misty ......"
"I said I was Lin Kongkong, please don't call me that in the future, it will only make me feel sarcastic and ...... Disgusting! β
The cruel words came out of her mouth, but her eyes were as clear and clean as ever, but they lost their brilliance, like a dusty pearl of the night, and the rest was only hazy and sad.
Bai Chenfeng was in great pain, and her slender fingers trembled and stroked her eyelids, trying to brush away the sadness in her eyes for her. In the end, it stopped.
He closed his eyes and remembered what had happened recently, and in a place he couldn't see, it seemed that a pair of black hands were devouring him, and he had already felt the menacing presence of the other party.
And he didn't want to resist, and he didn't have the energy to resist. So much so that he has always been perceptive, but he has no clue at all, because he is absent-minded. There was only one her left in his eyes, and she made him unable to do anything with confidence.
The next step may be dangerous, he may encounter challenges that he has never had before, and he will be distracted by taking her with him, and he is afraid that he will drag her down.
It's okay to let it go, if that's what she wants, why give it to her? As long as she is safe and happy, what can't he do?
"Okay, I promise to let you go......"
His voice sounded in Lin Kongkong's ears, as if it had come from a long distance away, with bursts of roar and echo.
She really wanted to get out of her current life, and she really wanted to hear him agree, but when this moment really came, her heart still couldn't control a throbbing.
It's like something that I have cherished for a long time, which has lost its original appearance after years of corrosion. What brought her was no longer security and dependence, only endless pain.
She endured the pain and cut it off, separating it from herself. But in the process, she found that it had grown together with herself, and she could only tear it desperately, leaving behind a blur of flesh and blood.
It hurts a little, but it's better than leaving it on your body and bleeding and pus until it rots.
The pain in his heart, and the feeling of finally being able to break free from the cage, made Lin Kongkong feel a lot more energetic all of a sudden.
"Can I touch them?" He looked at her bulging belly and said, his dark pupils tinged with a dullness she couldn't understand.
"There's no need, this is my child, and I have nothing to do with you in the future." She refused with a pale face, but she was more determined than she had ever been!
"Of course they have something to do with me." He was equally adamant: "I can agree to your request to stay away from you, but you can't deny that this is also my child." β
Lin Kongkong didn't want to continue arguing with him on this issue, so he had to take a step back: "I admit that it's your child, but they are still in my belly now, and I refuse your contact." β
"The last time, I promise it's the last time, and if you don't want to see me in the future, I won't be in your life." After Bai Chenfeng finished speaking, he found that she was still indifferent, so he said again: "Just treat it as the last transaction between us, and after that, I will give you freedom......"
They have been living together for so long, and it would be too hypocritical to say that they are afraid of any contact now. Lin Kongkong just didn't want to entangle with him anymore. But when it came to this, she had no reason to refuse, so she could reply coldly: "Okay." β
Bai Chenfeng walked slowly to her side, as if his steps were slower, he would have the opportunity to look at her for a while. But this short road will eventually have an end, no matter how reluctant he is.
His skeletal hand was attached to her lower abdomen, and his slender fingers trembled slightly, which showed his excitement at this time.
He never dared to think about what kind of intention she had in mind to keep them when she found out that she was pregnant after they broke up. should be uncomplaining, even if it is an unwed mother; Even if it will be looked down upon by the world; Even if the man she loves is engaged and has a fiancΓ©e who is rightfully named.
It was he who personally twisted her true heart to pieces, made her disheartened, and pushed them to a desperate situation.
Hatred, really, is not a good thing!
The two little dots in it seem to feel the despair of their father and mother, and they are restless and restless. He clearly felt their movements, the child she conceived for him, their blood and bones. Life goes on, life goes on and on, and as long as the child is born, they can no longer tell each other apart.
Lin Kongkong watched his movements coldly, she didn't understand why after he did the most cruel thing, he could still pretend as if nothing had happened, a look of affection and reluctance. If you really like it that much, why be so ruthless? Since you have already done it ruthlessly, why bother to be pretentious at this moment?
Bai Chenfeng saw the mockery in her eyes, and he didn't defend himself. He cherished this short time and didn't want to quarrel with her again.
The two of them fell silent, time seemed to stand still, and she and he maintained this position, motionless.
After a long time, Lin Kongkong hooked the corners of his lips, but he didn't smile. The emaciated cheeks and dim gaze have made her lose her aura and demeanor in the past, but it is a scene that Bai Chenfeng will never forget for the rest of her life.
In the days to come, her appearance at this time often appeared in his dreams. Every time he stretched out his hands and tried to hug her into his arms, but in the end it only hurt to the bone.
The hand of the son, you will be a lifetime of wind and frost;
The eyes of the kiss cover you for a lifetime;
The face of the touching son, comfort your sorrow for a lifetime;
Know my intentions, caress your neck, and accept everything you have in this life;
Pour my heart, hold Eryu's hand, and give you the deep love of this life.
This is a portrayal of their love in the middle of their lives, and his expectations for the future, which he has written countless times, but never shown to her. He knew that she hated him, so he didn't want to explain, since they couldn't be together, let her hate it all the time.
The most shallow hatred is also the deepest love, he wants her to never forget!
"Now...... Can I go? β
Bai Chenfeng reluctantly withdrew his hand and asked cautiously, "Then where are you going?" β
"It's none of your business."
"Of course, I have to keep you safe and settle everything for you."
Lin Kongkong hooked the corners of his lips sarcastically: "I said we have nothing to do anymore." β
Bai Chenfeng's eyes were dark and deep, and his voice returned to its usual coldness: "This is also my condition, if you don't agree, then don't go!" β
Lin Kongkong's chest rose and fell slightly, and he glared at him for a while, but to no avail. Well, under the eaves, she had to bow her head, and she looked away resignedly.
"I'm going home......"
"Home?"
"I'm going back to City A."
City A and City S are far apart, and he can't see her secretly if he wants to, but after thinking about it, the farther away she is, the safer she is. It doesn't matter if you go to City A, Chen Yi can also help take care of it, so he doesn't have to worry about it all the time.
"Okay, I'll settle someone to pack your bags for you."
"No need, there's nothing I'm going to take with me here, I'll clean up my stuff myself."
After Lin Kongkong finished speaking, he entered the bedroom, just simply packed up some daily necessities, as well as a change of clothes, with a big belly, and his actions were quite neat.
Bai Chenfeng watched the whole process silently, and it wasn't until she packed up that he stepped forward to take her suitcase.
"Ji Zhai, I bought it, since you want to go back to City A, let's still live there! It's quiet and perfect for keeping a baby. β
Lin Kongkong was obviously stunned when he heard his words: "When did it happen?" β
Bai Chenfeng naturally wouldn't tell her that when they returned to the Ji Mansion, he saw her so sad, so he moved his mind to redeem the house for her. He just said casually: "A long time ago, the location there was good, and it was used for investment, and now it should be my apology to you!" β
"In your eyes, there are only commodities, so you are not afraid that I will hurt the scene?"
"Of course, don't forget, I'm a businessman, and it's normal to talk about business. As for the touch wounds, will you? β
"Of course not!"
"Then I'll be relieved."
"I accepted your gift, after all...... This is what you owe me. β
Bai Chenfeng lowered his head and smiled lonely, what he owed her, if only it was really a house that could be paid off. He will re-pursue her after paying it off and start over with her.