"After that, whenever I was free, I waited quietly at the racecourse, always hoping that she would show up and that we would have the same pleasant conversation as last time. I must introduce myself to her and tell her sincerely that I like her and love her. ”

When Bai Jingqi said this, his expression gradually became gentle, this cold-blooded, heavy-profit, and fierce man, there should be few warm times in this life, and her memories at this time are undoubtedly beautiful.

This kind of him made Bai Chenfeng feel very strange, although he knew in his heart that he really liked his mother, but he also thought that that kind of liking was just because it was a little special, because she was a little different from other women, and it could not be regarded as love.

But at this moment, he suddenly felt that his previous opinion might be wrong, Bai Jingqi had liked his mother, and even loved him deeply.

Bai Jingqi paused for a moment, and his gentle eyes gradually became cloudy again: "I'm infatuated, do you know how she repays me?" ”

After asking, he seemed to know that he would not answer, so he said to himself again: "She appeared in front of me again, and she was actually a model for Bai Jingyang's sketching." They held hands intimately and told stories I couldn't understand.

I walked up to them stiffly, and she nodded politely at me, treating me like a stranger. It's not a stranger, it's her boyfriend's own brother, respectful and alienated.

But how can the things I believe change from? I never looked back even after hitting the south wall, and it was because of this that I got along with her for the next few years.

Outsiders thought I had robbed my brother of his girlfriend, but they didn't dare to speak out because of my status. In fact, if they knew the truth, they might look down on my actions even more.

I robbed not only my brother's girlfriend, but his wife. Because I refused to give up on her, they got married abroad in a hurry. They thought that I would die and accept the facts.

But those rituals in the eyes of the world are worthless in my eyes. I do things according to my own preferences, and I don't care what others say behind me.

Your mother is a person who would rather bend than bend, coercion and seduction or affectionate entrustment are of no use to her at all, but she has a weakness that she cares too much about Bai Chenyang.

For me, it is simply easy to deal with a literary and artistic young man who is full of romantic art cells. I don't understand why your mother would like a man like that, who can't hold a gun, who can't protect the woman she loves, who has nothing but an overflowing compassion.

I want his life as easily as crushing an ant. I ask your mother if she wants to watch him live or die, or is she going to be with me? Your mother has no choice but to follow me.

I finally married her back home, and that day I saw her in a holy wedding dress, and I felt very happy, happy like I had never been. I think we should be like when we took the oath, and we will never leave and stay with each other for the rest of our lives.

I kept all the darkness in this society behind her, and she was free to pursue what she liked, reading and writing, playing the piano and painting, leaning on the building and listening to the rain......

She likes a poetic life, so I give her a poetic life, and she doesn't like to socialize, so I don't take her out. Although many people say that I am hiding in the golden house on the surface, behind the scenes they say that I am wishful thinking and will not get the hearts of beauties at all.

But I still don't care, I swear with a fiery and sincere heart that I will protect her and make her the happiest woman.

I never doubted that she was the most suitable woman for me, although I knew that she was unhappy with me, and I also knew that she only had Bai Jingyang in her heart, but I was not reconciled! Obviously, I met her first, and I was sincere to her, why was she ignored for life?

In fact, my heart is still hot, but her cold violence makes me cold again and again.

Later, her symptoms of joy became worse and worse, and she couldn't hide it anymore, so she told me that she was pregnant. At that moment, I was very happy, I thought she was a kind-hearted woman, and she liked children so much, when the child was born, she would definitely change her mind.

I waited hard days until you were born, until she and I had a child of our own. She loves you, but she's as cold to me as ever.

I asked her if she could give us a chance to start over for the sake of the children. She said that she and I are people of two worlds, and the feelings she wants are very pure, and I can't give them to her.

I said I could send the children and women abroad, cut ties with them, and never return home.

But she still disagrees, in fact, those so-called words that are not a world are just excuses, she ...... You just don't like me......

I didn't understand what I had done wrong, I was angry, I snubbed her, I locked her in the house and wouldn't let her go out. I don't think anyone can take it like that, and she will beg me not to lock her up like a prisoner.

But in the end, I didn't wait, and then I realized that the only person who could make her choose was Bai Jingyang. No matter how hard I tried, she turned a blind eye, so I started looking for a woman like her.

Eyes, eyebrows, hair, nose, lips, body shape, and even voice, as long as there is a trace of resemblance, I will try to get it. No matter how cold or complicated the family background is, as long as you spend more money and thoughts, there is no difficulty.

From beginning to end, all I could get was her, and at first I would feel a little fresh, and I passed the time, and the longer it was, the more boring it became.

We grew more and more estranged, often not seeing each other for months, and I even chose to forget about her. I've been busy outside, and the inner house needs someone to take care of it, so I chose the one that has been with me the longest.

I also know that a woman has a small heart, and she may have problems for your mother. Actually, I'm happy to see it, because I think she should think of my role when she can't live and is ostracized everywhere, and I think she can take the initiative to come to me.

I knew it was naïve, naïve, but I wanted her to bow her head in front of me. A person who is so weak on the outside, but proud and stubborn.

I sent someone to keep a close watch on her, and she somehow slipped out. But she didn't have time to take you away, and you became my only sustenance, I think she loves you so much, she will come back one day.

I waited, day after day, and I didn't get anything. I was disheartened and accepted the facts, thinking that maybe we really didn't fit in, not people of the same world......"

Bai Chenfeng had rare patience to listen to him talk about this long list of past events, but these were not what he wanted to hear the most. What he wanted to hear was what he thought when he poisoned his mother. Does he still have the courage to face this fact?

"Nothing you say is what I want to hear."

"What you want to hear is not what I want to remember."

Bai Chenfeng smiled sarcastically: "Do you also have something that you are afraid to remember?" ”

Bai Jingqi has experienced a lot of things over the years, so he doesn't care about Bai Chenfeng's attitude towards him, and still says very calmly: "Of course, even if there is no conscience and no matter how many evil things are done, there are always a few people that he doesn't dare to think about or dream. ”

"I don't dare to think about it because I feel guilty."

"It's not guilt, it's just that I don't dare to face it, it's not you who don't dare to face it, I'm not your mother, it's the fact that she has passed away."

Bai Chenfeng clenched his fists tightly, and he found that no matter how much he restrained himself, he couldn't restrain himself. Unfortunately, there was no machine that could turn back time, and he would never be able to go back in time and stop them while they pointed the butcher's knife at their mother.

Bai Jingqi looked at Bai Chenfeng's cold eyebrows, and what was surging in them was bloodlust and powerlessness, these two complex emotions were mixed together, making him look extremely hideous.

"If you really care about her so much, if you really like her so much, why did you make that decision in the first place? She is so young, how can you bear it, and how can you have the right to deprive her of life? ”

"I don't want to!" Bai Jingqi roared: "Although I hate her, I never thought of killing her, and no one wants her to live more than me." ”

"Heh......" Bai Chenfeng smiled sarcastically, "You are really good at talking!" You said you want her to live, you have to make one thing clear, people, you killed, no one is more qualified to say this than you......"

"I have! Because I was also deceived by Ji Zhongliang and made an insincere decision. Are you asking yourself what you are accusing now? Who was the one who killed your mother? ”

"You and Ji Zhongliang are both, I won't let either of them go."

"Hahaha!" Bai Jingqi laughed wildly, with a sarcastic and hideous expression: "It's so funny, are you telling jokes yourself?" You say that Ji Zhongliang and I are murderers, you hate us to the bone, and you want to crush us to ashes. But think about what you have done, although Ji Zhongliang is in a cage, he has saved his life. Ji Zhongliang's daughter still lives in Ji Mansion and is being raised by you. Should you be included among the people who say you are sorry for your mother? ”

This matter has always been entangled in Bai Chenfeng's life, on the one hand, he can't let go of Lin Kongkong, and on the other hand, he feels guilty because he likes the enemy's daughter.

He once extended his anger to Lin Kongkong, especially when they disagreed slightly, he snubbed her in every way.

At that time she probably knew what was going on in his heart, and was always as docile as a sheep in front of him. The more docile she was, the more she obeyed him, the more he felt that she felt guilty, and the more cold he became to her.

She doesn't participate in his business, only quietly accompanies him, it seems that with him, there is the whole world. Sometimes seeing her so quiet that it is almost non-existent, he will miss her old chatter, always having the appearance of endless conversation.