Because of that, Lin Kongkong is more like a girl of her age, innocent, cheerful and carefree. Bai Chenfeng never denied that he wanted her to laugh and make her happy.

But when he thought of the blood feud on his body, which was inseparable from her father, and she was obviously towards his father, he couldn't treat her well.

It is precisely because of this that Lin Kongkong left him for three years, so he did not look for her. With his ability, it is still very promising to find someone, although he knows that the place where she is located is a foreign country.

He kept convincing himself with reason, convincing that deep down he had decided to give up on her. Some people say that the woman you love is made of the ribs on a man's body, so when you hurt her, it hurts.

He felt that this was a very reasonable statement, because the more he wanted to forget her, the more he missed her. Thinking of him, he didn't dare to close his eyes and let himself be in the dark, because at that time he would subconsciously look for the people around him.

In order to survive the bitter thoughts, he had another woman. It is said that the best way to forget about one relationship is to start another. When one woman appeared by his side, he found that each one was not what he wanted.

He couldn't help himself from comparing every woman to her. They don't have the clarity of her eyes; Not as well-behaved as her; Not as good as she laughs; Not as aura as she is; It is not foolish to say that we are going to be together forever; You won't call him Xiaobai sweetly and softly......

He didn't know why, his heart, since he could not control himself, thinking about the person he should give up, he blamed himself for this and was very depressed!

A woman who has failed him, a woman who only takes advantage of him, the daughter of an enemy, does not deserve his love at all. Since it is a bad fate, it is good to end it early, not fellow travelers, and forcibly going the same way will only bring harm to each other.

Reason kept telling himself this, but he knew in his heart that he had no feelings for any woman. No matter how good, beautiful, excellent, gentle, and likable the personality of that person is, he still can't like it.

His heart had become like ashes as the woman had left him, and he could no longer find any other meaning in life than revenge. He was like a machine every day, repeating the same life, doing the same things, without joy or sorrow.

When she appeared in front of his eyes like that, he found himself in pain and anger, but more than that, there was joy that he didn't dare to admit. Every cell in his body, like a beast trapped in a cage for a long time, clamored to keep her by his side.

At that time, he was thinking, in this life, no matter whether they love or hate, whether they are in heaven or hell, he wants her to accompany him.

Be sweet together, hurt together, go crazy, go crazy together!

When she was really by his side, he was reluctant to let her suffer a little, especially after he knew the reason why she left back then, and she saved him under Ji Zhongliang.

He secretly swore in his heart that he would never hurt her again in the future, and he would definitely protect her behind him. For the common goal in their hearts, they have gone through thick and thin, and they have been encouraged together.

But it backfired, and the trajectory of life brought them only gradual deviation. They are like two branches branching out from a big tree, even if they have the same root and origin, even if their hearts are still there, they can only drift apart.

"Why did I ask you about it? Don't you even dare to admit that you are the one who doesn't dare to let your mother fall asleep. Bai Jingqi looked at Bai Chenfeng's intertwined fingers and said with a gloomy smile.

Bai Chenfeng gradually pulled his thoughts back to reality from Lin Kongkong, he looked at the person in front of him indifferently, with a gloating look, but his attitude was unprecedentedly firm: "Everything in the past has nothing to do with her!" ”

"Unrelated? How can it be irrelevant? Didn't you save Ji Zhongliang's life for her? Didn't she blame me for killing your mother? ”

"You think I charged you with the crime? Now you stretch out your hands and put them in the sun, and see for yourself whether they are stained with my mother's blood? ”

Bai Jingqi stood up tremblingly and stretched out his hands, but what echoed in his mind was the last glance Kang Junyao looked at him, calm, indifferent, and emotionless......

"As long as you promise not to leave me in the future, I won't kill you." He said so at the time.

"I said, I can completely erase what I saw today from my memory, do you believe it?"

"Don't believe it!"

"Then why did you make me promise not to leave you? Because even if I make a promise, you still won't believe it, will you? She asked rhetorically.

"You ......"

She suddenly smiled, a little desolate, a little regretful: "You are just looking for an excuse, an excuse to kill me, and you yourself say it yourself, it can't make you feel at ease, so you want to hear the words of rejection from my mouth." ”

He closed his eyes in resignation and acquiesced to what she said.

"Bai Jingqi, I tried to accept you, but you kept saying that you loved me, but you never made any changes for me. As always, you believe in power, kill like hemp, and show mercy everywhere...... We are fundamentally people of two worlds. If there is a future life, I will never meet you again......"

Her words ended with the sound of gunshots, no screams, no fear, only a pair of eyes that did not close. Like a butterfly with folded wings, lying on the cold ground, looking forward to it, but unable to stir its beautiful wings anymore.

He knew that she had unfulfilled wishes, and there were many, many of them, such as accompanying the child to grow up and being with Bai Jingyang for a long time...... But a butterfly with broken wings, apart from death is the best destination, what else is there?

He didn't dare to look at the eyes that stared at him, he was afraid of seeing the outright hatred in them, so he could only help her close them with trembling hands.

Bai Jingqi suddenly felt very weak, his tall body slowly slid to the ground, he tied his hands tightly on his head, buried his head in his knees, and cried like a child.

This is the first time he has cried since Kang Junyao's death, he never dared to think about what she looked like when she died, and every time he thought about it, he would have a splitting headache.

When he misses her, he thinks about their first meeting, and thinks about the few days when they were together and were still harmonious. The more time passed, the more he discovered that they were precious, because they were things that he could not get, no matter how much money he had, no matter how much power he had.

As the years passed, the experiences became richer. He found that life is a process of gradual loss, because what he gains is often not what he wants, what he loses, but he never forgets it.

Because I have seen a lot, I don't feel strange anymore. What I once liked, in the end, found to be meaningless. The less strange it is, the more boring life becomes.

He had thought more than once that if time could be reversed, he would never choose to end her life again. But he will still imprison her by his side, but he will try to become the person she likes.

She likes to be able to draw, so he will learn it; She likes the kind, and he never does anything bad again; She loves to travel, and he accompanies her all over the world......

It's a pity that he understood too late, and he could only learn the kind of thinking that he despised the most, and pinned his hopes on the next life. But her last words were that if there was an afterlife, she didn't want to meet him again.

In her eyes, her nightmare began when she met him.

Bai Jingqi's current pain, Bai Chenfeng understands. When Lin Kongkong left, when he said that he had broken up, every time he thought of her, he couldn't control the pain all over his body.

The pain comes from the bones, which is unbearable, and there is no way to restrain it, so I want to cry loudly like a child, regardless of the image.

There is no shame in crying! Because tears are used to vent his emotions, but he doesn't know why he just can't cry.

It was only later, not long ago, that he figured this out. After crying, it's time to let go of venting, he has always wanted to leave himself an excuse that he can never forget.

It's not so much that Bai Jingqi is crying, it's better to say that he is screaming, like a trapped beast has found the only breakthrough to vent.

In the eyes of people, only women cry, men just cry, most of them are silent, and a heart-rending person like him has never seen it.

His cry was helpless, sad, and regretful, and they all said that the prodigal son would not change his money, but Bai Chenfeng did not sympathize with him at all. Because of the deep blood feud between them, and because of a wicked person like him, he deserves such retribution.

"You're acting for me like this now?" Bai Chenfeng asked coldly.

Bai Jingqi didn't react, still immersed in his own world.

"I advise you to save it! No matter how sad you are now, I will not forgive you, let alone let you go! ”

"Why do you think I'm acting?"

"With what I know of you, how can you have a conscience at such a point of madness? You're undoubtedly coming up with the emotion card right now, and let me give you a way out......"

"I'm mad, then you're hard-hearted, and you think I'm going to point to you and sympathize with me?" Bai Jingqi's mood gradually stabilized.

"Of course you don't want my sympathy, you just want me to see how bad your life is now, you want me to think that you are better off than dead, so living is your punishment." After Bai Chenfeng said this long list of words, he looked at Bai Jingqi quietly.

"It's okay no matter what you think, it's easy to die, and you won't be afraid of anything after death, but it's a relief for me."

His attitude was very calm, so that Bai Chenfeng couldn't figure out his true thoughts. It's just that he is very sure in his heart, no matter what unexpected things Bai Jingqi does, he will not give him another chance to live.

To be merciful to one's enemies is to be cruel to oneself. Such a big trouble, when he did not have his own power, eliminated was naturally the best way.