325: This Is Me (2)
There are many things in this world that cannot be changed by man, and time is like this. It always makes you lose a lot of things before you know it, and by the time you realize it, it's already too late.
However, if he said that his heart was the same as it was at the beginning, I wonder if she would still believe it?
In short, he believes it, to be more precise, since the fall of the Ji family and Ji Zhongliang was imprisoned, he has been very sure.
Maybe he was lost before, made a wrong choice and missed the road. After that, he would never make the same kind of mistake again, and the two families were entangled with such a deep grudge, and they could no longer affect their feelings in the future.
Thinking of this, his mood just now was a little better, and his anger and resentment gradually dissipated. He began to put himself in her place, putting himself in her shoes.
In fact, at the end of the day, there is nothing wrong with her. The Ji family and the Bai family, Ji Zhongliang and him, are all for their own selfishness. The difference is that one person's selfishness is greed, while another's selfishness is hatred.
Greed makes Ji Zhongliang unscrupulous, even if it is his own daughter. And hatred blinded him, making him think only of revenge and destruction.
After all the wrong things he had done to her, why did he think he was entitled to keep her waiting, to keep her? Especially, there is such a good person around her.
He leaned against the trunk of the tree like this, until the sun gradually sank and the sky reflected a fiery red, and he decided to call Kang Chenyi.
After the phone was dialed, Kang Chenyi's voice was very low, so low that he couldn't hear it clearly.
"You answer the phone in another place." He said coldly.
Kang Chenyi probably went out lightly over there, because Bai Chenfeng heard a slight rustling sound from his mobile phone.
After about thirty or forty seconds, Kang Chenyi's voice came again: "Cousin, you wait for me for a while, I still have some things to deal with here......
"What's so urgent?" He asked knowingly.
Kang Chenyi was not used to lying, and hesitated: "A little private matter." ”
"Does it have anything to do with her?" Bai Chenfeng's eyes became deeper and deeper.
Kang Chenyi knew that Bai Chenfeng had always been keen, and he might have noticed something, but with his understanding of Shen Hao, it was estimated that he would not be able to withstand his interrogation. The thought of the predicament he was about to face made his temples throb.
"I'm asking you......" Bai Chenfeng's voice was obscure, light, long, and irresistible.
She ...... In the hospital. ”
There was a flame suppressed in Bai Chenfeng's chest, and every word of Kang Chenyi was undoubtedly adding fuel to the fire, and it gradually became a prairie fire.
"How is she now? She had an accident, why didn't she tell me in the first place? ”
"It's not that I didn't tell you, but I only found out the problem during today's prenatal checkup. You don't have to worry too much, the situation is not serious, it is too little amniotic fluid, and you can be discharged after rehydration. ”
Bai Chenfeng can be said to know nothing about this, but he knows in his heart that if it weren't for the tricky situation, he wouldn't ask for hospitalization. At this time, there was only worry about Lin Kongkong in his heart, and all the unhappiness in his heart was left behind.
"I don't know much about these women's families, but with you by her side, I ...... Very relieved! How is she now? Would you like to see me? ”
Bai Chenfeng's pause was just right, which was reminiscent, but Kang Chenyi didn't think too much, he was more worried about Lin Kongkong's feelings.
She needs to recuperate now, naturally she wants to be calm, and when they meet, it is destined to be turbulent. He, Kang Chenyi, is really afraid now, afraid that she will hurt herself if she is in a bad mood, and he is also afraid that she will be sad.
"She's still very repulsive to you now, you can't rush everything, take your time!"
Bai Chenfeng's eyes suddenly became pitch black, like a bottomless whirlpool, and his thin lips were also sarcastically hooked, and his tone was not without sarcasm: "Then I have to thank you, for me, for taking care of her." ”
The sarcasm in his words Kang Chenyi was naturally heard, this was the first time Bai Chenfeng had spoken to him with such a hostile attitude.
The personalities of the two of them are very different, one is sharp and arrogant, and the other is suave. Bai Chenfeng has always been cold to people, and he never knows what euphemism is for people and things he doesn't like.
And Kang Chen Yi treats people gently and politely, and at most he just doesn't say anything about what he doesn't like or is not used to, and he never accuses, let alone-for-tat.
At this time, he didn't want to: "I am friends with her, and it is natural to help her, and I don't need you to thank me for her." ”
His words were a little provocative in Bai Chenfeng's ears, his cousin, who has always had a gentle personality, when did he talk to someone like this? He knew him well for so many years. Now, his attitude can only show that he does not approve of his approach.
Bai Chenfeng's hand holding the phone became tighter and tighter: "She is my wife who has not passed through the door, and she is also my child in her belly, do you think I am qualified to thank you for her?" ”
"Even if the two of you are husband and wife, they are two separate individuals, independent people, and there must be appropriate space. I helped her not only because of your relationship, but also because I saw her as a friend. ”
"Then ask yourself now, are you really doing this today just because of your friend's righteousness?"
Kang Chenyi was silent when asked, he always adhered to the style of a gentleman in his life and work, that is, he was kind and frank. He never does anything that violates his conscience, nor does he do anything that is not disgraceful, so it is not his style to deal with things in his way of doing things.
He was born in a scholarly family, and has been influenced by traditional Chinese culture and etiquette since he was a child, so he is naturally a traditional conservative type, but he is not old-fashioned. Liking someone is not a bad thing in his eyes, although the person he likes is a little special, and it doesn't prevent him from liking her.
He never put his family background, origin, reputation, wealth, and background ...... These things outside the body are used as criteria for choosing a mate. The person he Kang Chenyi wants to marry in the future must be his beloved, otherwise he would rather not marry.
He ignores the worldly manners, which does not mean that he has no moral bottom line in doing things. If Lin Kongkong was happy, he would definitely not destroy her happiness, her marriage, and her family because of his own selfishness.
However, if the person she loves not only fails to give her this, but also hurts her, then he will not sit idly by.
The woman he Kang Chenyi fell in love with must be pure and kind at heart, she deserves to be cared for, and she deserves to be happy.
"Of course, I treat her well not only because of my friend's righteousness, but also because I like her."
Bai Chenfeng narrowed his eyes slightly, retracted the cold light inside, and asked coldly, "Then what is your purpose?" ”
Regarding Bai Chenfeng's aggressiveness, Kang Chenyi was not afraid at all, and he was still more calm in his heart. Perhaps at one point he thought they were the most suitable because they loved each other deeply.
But Lin Kongkong was hurt because of this feeling, and he saw it in his eyes. Therefore, now he thinks that the love is deep and shallow, and it is better not to love each other.
If Lin Kongkong really couldn't forget the hurt caused to her by the previous events, couldn't forgive Bai Chenfeng, and couldn't start a new life, then he didn't want them to continue to entangle.
"My purpose is to make her happy."
"Make her happy? Is it me, or are you? ”
"I respect her choice."
Bai Chenfeng was so angry that his eyebrows and eyes changed color, and he asked sharply: "I handed her over to you at the beginning, how did you accept me?" ”
"At first, I thought she was throwing a tantrum, but after a while, it would be fine when her anger subsided. But that's not the case, and the damage you have done to her is far beyond our imagination. ”
"Enough! This is between me and her, and I don't need you to judge! ”
Kang Chenyi's mildness does not mean that he has no temper, and he is also angry about this unpleasant conversation: "Cousin, why do you think she should be yours?" Is it because you're engaged, or because she has your children? ”
"Isn't that enough?"
"Not enough! You and Bai Ting are also engaged, and as for children, it can't be a reason for two people to be together. Because your child did not come to this world because of love, maybe it was an accident, maybe it was a mistake, maybe it was just a thought of hers. Should she pay for it in her life? ”
"You are talking nonsense, who said that our children were not born out of love, and who said that their arrival was an accident?"
"Isn't it? Do you know when she got pregnant? All the misfortunes she has experienced, do you dare to say that they have nothing to do with you, they are all due to Ji Zhongliang? ”
Bai Chenfeng suddenly had nothing to say, because he knew that what Kang Chenyi said was the truth, and he replied weakly: "When she left the child, it should be because she has love in her heart......"
"Is it because she loves you that you deserve all this? The family is in decline, her father is in prison, her stepmother is dead, and an unmarried woman wants to be an unmarried mother, how many accusations and blank eyes will she suffer? Do you know that I haven't seen her really smile since she went back to City A. She is so young, so good, I don't know how many times she cried when she was carrying people......"
"Don't talk about it......" Bai Chenfeng said in a low voice, the phone slipped to the ground, he held on to the wall with one hand, slowly leaned his whole body on it, and closed his eyes.
What reverberated in my mind was what she used to be, she was very well-behaved, very gentle, very smiling, and always with crooked eyebrows. Sometimes it's like a fart, no matter how you shake it off, you can't get rid of it, so you follow him playfully and call him "Xiaobai" naughtily......
Later, she smiled less, always with sorrow between her eyebrows and eyes, and when facing him, she was always cautious and walking on thin ice. Pale, weak, desperate, tearful, and indifferent have become the truest portrayal of her life.
Such a fresh, such beautiful girl, buried by his hatred.
Bai Chenfeng's heart seemed to be strangled by something, and a huge wound was strangled, the blood was wanton, and the pain was intense. He reached out and clutched his chest fiercely, trying to suppress the uncomfortable feeling back, but the result was still getting worse.