Huo Jianxi didn't have much free time, and in the early morning of that day, when the two were still asleep, he was woken up by the phone call from the military region. said that some intelligence soldiers were assigned from above, and let him rob people, and he must be the best.

He was probably a little helpless, frowning and rubbing his temples fiercely, and after a while, he thought of her by his side, pulled the quilt for her, and said in a calm voice: "I'm going to go to another place, the road is far away, this turn and turn, it will take about a week, you obediently wait for me at home." ”

Ouyang Qianxia only felt embarrassed, and she couldn't say awkward in her heart, after all, she was the one who said categorically that she wanted to divorce, and now she is the one who walks with him, which makes her a little embarrassed.

Huo Jianxi thinks that they are normal together, and the only thing that is reluctant is that their relationship has just broken the ice, and he is gone at this time, I am afraid that when he comes back, everything will return to the original point.

"Shallow, you move back! I'll have someone pack your bags for you, okay? ”

Ouyang Qianxia shook his head and refused: "It's more convenient to live in the hospital and commute to work, and take care of the patient......"

"Enough!" He scolded, he thought they could start over, but he didn't think that as soon as she came to her senses, everything was back to square one.

Ouyang Qianxia looked at his cold eyebrows and closed her eyes slightly, she felt so tired, she wanted to stay at home for a day like this, not working or contacting anyone.

"Wait for me to come back, go out and go through the remarriage procedures!"

"Why does it have to be me? Isn't Cao Ying very good? ”

Huo Jianxi's forehead was bruised, and he gritted his teeth and said, "Are you willing to be angry with me?" What does it have to do with me whether Cao Ying is good or not? ”

Ouyang Qianxia thought of the situation when she met them in the supermarket that day, Cao Ying had a gentle smile on her face, and the feeling similar to jealousy in her heart was slowly spreading.

Right! The radiant woman, with red makeup, was only willing to show that expression when she was around him. To put it bluntly, didn't he ever be special to her? I am like this now, is it just breaking off the good marriage of others?

Thinking of this, she felt like she was falling into an ice cave, and she felt a chill from head to toe. What she thought would never change has already quietly changed.

The only one who is still standing still is her.

Maybe she really shouldn't have lost herself, didn't she tell herself? No matter how much you miss it, no matter how reluctant you are, you have to keep it in your heart and never show it, especially in front of him.

"The person Cao Ying likes is you, this matter has nothing to do with you, could it be that it has something to do with me?" She questioned in a calm voice.

"What do you mean?" His voice became colder and colder, and his eyes were like the surface of a frozen lake, without emotion.

"It's literal." She lowered her head, not daring to look at him.

"Ouyang Qianxia, you look at me." His voice was getting colder and colder, which showed that his emotions were at their limit.

Ouyang Qianxia found that he didn't dare to look at him, and being a thief was probably like that. Under his gaze, she felt that she had nothing to hide, like a thorn in her back. I simply lay down, and some of them pulled the quilt and covered themselves tightly.

Huo Jianxi's eyes locked tightly on the quilt, as if he wanted to poke it out of a hole, but he stared there for a long time, and he didn't see any movement from the people in the quilt. He sighed helplessly, and while buttoning up his military uniform, he said, "You sleep for a while, I'll be back in a week, and we'll talk about it again." ”

Ouyang Qianxia didn't speak or move, she was completely pretending to be asleep, but her heart was not as calm as it appeared to be, the waves were turbulent, and she poked her head out of the quilt after listening to him pack up and go out.

After that, everything was very uneasy, she didn't go to work, she stayed at home, and cleaned up inside and out, up and down, several times.

She looked at this spotless home, thinking of the days when they lived here, she only felt that the years were like water, and the past seemed to have only happened yesterday, but when she thought about it, it was a long time ago.

After that, it was the day she had surgery. Any surgery needs to be sterilized before it begins, and this process is normal for her, but at this moment, she has a lot of disgust in her heart.

The thought of being so red. Bare. The naked one is dissected, and when something that is important and important to a woman is removed, she feels very cold.

It was the feeling of being thrown into the icy lake of the cold winter moon, trembling from the inside out. The nurse also discovered her abnormality, Director Ouyang, the number one surgeon in this hospital, who has done countless major surgeries and rescued patients on the front line of life and death, is he afraid of surgery?

"Director Ouyang, are you okay? Do you want...... Take a break first? The little nurse was a little incoherent when she spoke, Ouyang Qianxia had a cold temperament, and the whole hospital was famous, and he was a little afraid of a new little person.

"It's okay, you can go ahead!" Ouyang Qianxia comforted.

The little nurse hesitated for a moment and continued to bury herself in her work, but she was still pushed onto the operating table, and all she could see was the dark green cloth and the white banner lamp above her head.

She only felt that she would soon become bloody, and from then on, she was not even a real woman, only mutilated.

A feeling of nausea welled up in her, and no matter how much she suppressed, she staggered out of bed and stumbled to the bathroom. The legs are weak to the point of weakness, and every step is like stepping on cotton.

She had already washed her stomach, so she didn't vomit anything, just retching. After retching, she felt very uncomfortable, and her hands were on the sink, and tears kept falling.

She looked up at herself in the mirror, her face was emaciated, her face was pale, and her eyes were dull, was this the medical school flower that was once chased by many people?

No, Ouyang Qianxia was always in high spirits at that time, and no one or anything could destroy her optimism about life. She is so proud, what she is looking for is the value of human life, and she will definitely not be like now, and she can't find the center of gravity at all.

She was so exhausted that she forgot that there was still a group of people waiting for her in the operating room, so she went to the locker room to change her clothes, flagged down a taxi, and went home.

The house was empty, and there was no sign of him, but it seemed that only here could give her some security. She went to the cloakroom, which was full of his clothes and shoes, he was used to military life, relatively light, and did not have many clothes.

But she had bought every dress for him, and every shirt she had carefully ironed with an iron. Since they divorced and she moved to the hospital dormitory, he never seemed to have a new shirt.

Ouyang Qianxia was suddenly very sad, the kind of sadness that was completely uncontrollable. She thought of him, of the first time they met, of his proposal, of his promise of their wedding, of the divorce, of the day he said to let her wait for him......

She had the most enviable relationship in the world, but she lost the right to have it. Yes, whether she wants to admit it or not, she doesn't deserve to be with him anymore.

She had always thought that as long as he could do well, there was nothing she couldn't do. But now that she thinks about it, in the future, she will have to drag a crippled body, far away from his life, so what is the point of her living?

If life is so painful and she has to endure so much torture, then why should she still live? Maybe it's over and it won't be painful......

The cloakroom was fixed in the fixed place, and the scissors she usually used to modify clothes, she reached out and gently picked it up.

The texture of the metal brought a biting coldness, and she kept shaking, but she still stretched out her right hand and placed the scissors on her wrist.

Tears flowed abruptly, she closed her eyes tiredly, her left hand slipped, cutting through the thin layer of skin, and the blood, drop by drop, slowly slipped down.

She looked at it calmly, without the slightest panic and fear, she only felt that she was finally freed, and the past few months that had been deeply troubled by all this made her unable to eat, life was better than death, and now, she was finally free.

She sat calmly on the ground, her heart was unprecedentedly quiet, her consciousness gradually became unclear, her eyelids became heavier and heavier, and she wanted to sleep for a while.

His eyes gradually cleared up in his mind, and he said, "Shallow, don't cry, in the future, I will take care of you." ”

She suddenly woke up from her daze, and suddenly found that she still had something to say to him, and she had to say goodbye to him, otherwise he wouldn't be able to let go, and she wouldn't feel at ease when she left.

She dialed the number she knew by heart, and his voice came, some surprise, some surprise, and even some incredulity: "Shallow?" ”

Her originally dry eyes suddenly gathered tears again, staring at the front with misty and sad eyes, although everywhere her eyes went, it was a blur, she still tried to keep it open, and her voice was difficult: "Jianxi...... Sorry ......"

He paused and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"I can't wait for you...... Cao Ying is very good...... Promise me...... Resume...... Okay? ”

Huo Jianxi was still in a different place, and he was talking to the chief because of the intelligence officer, so he couldn't answer the phone, but he was whispering behind someone's back. Now when I heard her voice and the words she spoke, a sense of foreboding quickly coalesced in my heart.

"What's wrong with you? No nonsense...... I'll go back now. ”

Ouyang Qianxia's black hair was already wet with tears, half of it was attached to her face, she closed her eyes, and transparent tears slowly overflowed, sliding down her face, and the phone slipped to the ground uncontrollably, making a crisp sound.

Huo Jianxi's eyes on the other end of the phone were already scarlet, and he repeated anxiously: "Shallow!" Shallow! ”

Only the air replied to him, and in silence, he, who had won the first prize in shooting in the military region, trembled uncontrollably with his always steady hands.

He narrowed his eyes, tightened his chin, forced himself to keep his head clear, and after hanging up the phone, he immediately dialed Huo Jianyuan's phone again, and his tone was calm: "Jian Yuan, something may have happened to Qianqian, no matter what method you use, find her as quickly as possible!" ”