Ning Xin doesn't remember how she rushed out of the house.

Can't remember the weather that day.

I don't remember running through the streets.

I don't remember how many people I collided with on the sidewalk, or how many cars I stopped while crossing the street.

Nothing to remember.

Later, as night fell, she received a call from the hospital.

When she arrived at the hospital, she didn't know anything about it, but she was stuffed with a lot of lists, saying that the injured were being rescued, and asked her to pay.

Ning Xin only had the word 'payment' in her head.

It seems that she will be fine if she pays the fee.

But when she arrived at the payment window, she found more than 100 yuan on her body, and when she was stared at by the charging nurse with strange eyes, she finally had a perception.

Tears began to flow uncontrollably, and my whole body began to tremble.

I couldn't say a word, and pushed the payment slip into the window vigorously.

In this way, she attracts the attention of the people around her.

But the charging nurse was surprised and shouted to the other nurse in the hall, "Come and comfort the family." ”

Ning Xin was persuaded by the nurse to leave the payment window.

The nurse saw that she was not very old and asked her where her parents were. Or can a relative come and help?

Ning Xin didn't speak, just shook her head.

"Ning Xin?"

Someone called her.

Ning Xin suddenly looked up and saw Sheng Yu's mother standing not far away with a plastic basin containing a new towel.

In a trance, she remembered that Sheng Yu's father was also in this hospital.

Ning Xin immediately stood up and finally spoke: "Auntie." ”

Sheng Yu's mother looked at her in disbelief.

She wore a low ponytail, but it was messy, and her hair was sticking to her neck, as if it had just come out of the water and dried.

And her feet, wearing sandals, were very dirty.

In the end, it was Sheng Yu's mother who helped Ning Xin pay more than 3,000 fees.

She accompanied Ning Xin and waited outside the rescue room.

Because the person who found Ning's mother committing suicide called the police, some police officers asked Ning Xin about the situation.

Sheng Yu's mother also got a general idea of the matter.

Ning's mother was temporarily rescued and admitted to the intensive care unit.

The rescue doctor said to Ning Xin: "Family members should be psychologically prepared. ”

Ning Xin only felt dizzy at that time.

Sheng Yu's mother helped Ning Xin to the chair, and she went to communicate with the doctor: "My child can't accept it, what can you tell me." ”

Actually, the doctor didn't say anything.

It is nothing more than to be mentally prepared, there is not much hope, but if the family does not give up, the hospital will do its best.

Also, prepare money.

Ning Xin actually heard it all, including Sheng Yu's mother's sentence 'my child'.

Ning Xin eased her emotions a little: "Auntie, I still have money, I'll go back and get it now, can you help me... Can you help me look at the dots? ”

When she reached her final request, her voice changed and she choked with tears.

Sheng Yu's mother nodded.

Ning Xin was just about to leave when she was stopped.

Sheng Yu's mother stood about two meters away from Ning Xin, staring at her with a pair of eyes: "Don't call Xiao Yu, he can't help you from such a distance, it will only affect him." ”

Ning Xin paused for a few seconds and nodded.

Ning Xin went back to the rental house and took the cash and bank card from home to the hospital again.

Early the next morning, she paid the fee again.

In the afternoon, the bill came down again.

Ning Xin had no money.

She didn't dare to stay in front of the ward, she was afraid that the nurse would ask her why she hadn't paid yet, and she was even more afraid that she would be notified that she couldn't continue the rescue because she hadn't paid.

The fastest way to get money is not impossible.

Ning Xin participated in a betting match at the Kickboxing Club.

On the day of the competition, it was not too difficult for Ning Xin to win.

When she was raised to declare victory, the crowd cheered for the newcomer.

But she couldn't hear the cheers, and the world seemed to be left with nothing but her gasps.

She won more than 7,000 dollars that day.

She made up the hospital bills.

But she knew she needed more money.

On Friday, Ning Xin once again participated in a betting match at the Kickboxing Club.

In that game, she won more than 10,000 yuan.

On Saturday, Ning Xin received a call from Coach Xu asking her to go to school.

Coach Xu was waiting for her in the coach's office.

He watched her come in, stared at the bandage on her wrist for two seconds, pointed to the photo on the table, and angrily suppressed: "Ning Xin, you explain!" ”

Ning Xin took the photos and looked at them one by one.

There are photos of her standing at the door of the entertainment venue in overalls, there are photos of her competing in the ring...

She was reported, reported to work in an entertainment venue, and reported to have participated in an underground fighting gambling competition.

Coach Xu scolded her for being confused and told her that she would face serious punishment.

Ning Xin didn't wait for the result of the punishment for the time being, nor did she wait any longer to urge the payment.

She saw her mother again.

Didn't cry.

She looked at her coldly.

She felt that this person who had no life at all and no temperature at all was not her mother.

Sheng Yu's mother gently hugged Ning Xin and patted her on the back.

Later, Ning Xin fainted.

When she woke up again, she saw the white surroundings, and there were no thoughts in her head.

Then, she smelled the smell of disinfectant water exclusive to the hospital, and also saw Sheng Yu's mother.

So, not a dream.

Everything is real.

Ning Xin was sober and did not have a large amount of emotion.

Sheng Yu's mother bought food for Ning Xin.

Ning Xin said thank you and ate quietly.

Sheng Yu's mother sat next to her, and after seeing that she had eaten about the same, she took out 10,000 yuan from her bag.

Ning Xin didn't understand, pushed it away, and said in a hoarse voice: "Auntie, what are you doing here?" ”

Sheng Yu's mother grabbed Ning Xin's hand and put the money in her palm: "Your mother needs this money for future affairs." ”

Ning Xin's body stiffened.

Sheng Yu's mother withdrew her hand: "If you don't understand anything, you can come to Xiaoyu's father's ward to find me." ”

Ning Xin's fingers moved, slowly pinched the money, and nodded: "I'll pay it back to you." ”

Sheng Yu's mother didn't answer Ning Xin's words and showed her situation: "I only have so much, no matter how much I can't get, his father still needs money, and he can't work for a few months, you know all this." ”

Ning Xin raised her eyes and immediately wanted to return the money.

"You take it." Sheng Yu's mother pushed with her palm, "If you don't take it, how can you do something for your mother?" I won't give it to you, Xiao Yu will give it to you, he is abroad now, and it is the assessment stage, I don't want him to be distracted by your business. ”

Assess?

Ning Xin didn't know anything about the assessment.

But Sheng Yu has always been like this, only showing her the relaxed side.

Ning Xin didn't know what to say, so she could only apologize: "I'm sorry." ”

When it came to Sheng Yu, Sheng Yu's mother couldn't control her emotions: "Ning Xin, you and Xiao Yu have never agreed for so many years, I don't have an opinion on you personally, it's that I see him working hard and motivated, better than so many people, but he still has to live so hard, I feel sorry for him!" I feel sorry for my son!! ”

"You two are not suitable, not because of anything else, just because both of you are difficult, he can't save you!" Sheng Yu's mother stood up, her voice low and hoarse, "You are with him, I really, blame you!" ”

Ning Xin didn't dare to raise her head, and she couldn't even say 'I'm sorry'.

She felt that whatever she said at the moment was a crime.

Sheng Yu's mother has been complaining for many years, and she can't control herself at this moment: "My father and I don't dare to eat, we dare not wear, and we can't stay up when we are sick to go to the hospital. Do you think we want that? We don't want to add to the burden on Xiao Yu, it's hard enough for him to bear one! So, how do you make me identify with you? Why don't I blame you?? ”

Every word was fine, Ning Xin closed her eyes with difficulty and breathed hard.

Sheng Yu's mother rubbed her sore temples: "I don't understand!" You guys, why are you suddenly inseparable!! ”

Ning Xin's heart trembled violently and she opened her eyes.

What she had buried so deeply was suddenly broken, naked, and bloody.

There was no ritual process, and Ning Xin quickly returned to the rental house with her mother's ashes.

That day, she sat on the bed, from the sky to the sky.

Sheng Yu's mother's words swirled in Ning Xin's mind.

She's right.

Sheng Yu worked so hard and was so good.

If it weren't for her.

He's going to be fine.

The family will have a good life.

She dragged him down, it was never him alone, it was their family.

She kept thinking that she would pay it back in the future, and she would pay it back.

She will do everything she has, and she will do everything to pay it back.

Just wait... Wait for her......

Wait until she graduates and becomes a real adult.

She'll try a little harder, a little harder.

Life will get better little by little.

She will be able to repay it little by little.

But these thoughts now seem to be just a disguise for selfishness and shamelessness.

The fact is that she tied the family to the abyss and suffered with her.

After dawn, Ning Xin received a call from Coach Xu, and the school punished her and she was expelled from school.

When Ning Xin called Boss Qian and said that she wanted to participate in the gambling competition, she thought that this kind of result would occur, but at that time, she was uneasy with a fluke mentality.

And now, when this result comes out, she actually has a feeling that everything is over.

Probably because the struggle was too tiring.

She doesn't have a mother anymore.

There is no future left.

She no longer even has the qualifications to stand by Sheng Yu's side.

Ning Xin picked up the suicide note.

The clear notes are like a knife carved in the heart.

- If it weren't for me, you would be very good with Sheng Yu, his mother wouldn't dislike you, and you wouldn't have to go to work in that kind of place.

- The root of everything is me.

Wrong.

Ning Xin felt that her mother was wrong.

The root of all grief is not the mother.

It's her.

That day, Ning Xin called Boss Qian and said that he wanted to bet with Xue Hong in the next game.

Xue Hong is a perennial winning general of the club.

Ning Xin has been working part-time there for more than two years, and every time Xue Hong competes, she can't help but watch the battle and marvel at her combat effectiveness.

Boss Qian received a call from Ning Xin, puzzled and surprised, but also showed full interest.

He asked, "You know the rules, right?" ”

Ning Xin paused for two seconds, and then seemed to answer the question: "I want a lot of money." ”

Boss Qian smiled on the phone: "It's not easy? ”

Boss Qian made a big show and used the game between Ning Xin and Xue Hong as a gimmick.

Before the start of the game, Boss Qian found Ning Xin and pointed his finger at her with a cigarette butt: "I have only one request for you, don't be knocked out too quickly." ”

Ning Xin didn't say anything.

Boss Qian took two steps, felt that something was wrong with her, and turned his head to remind: "If it doesn't work, signal immediately, don't work hard." ”

Ning Xin nodded.

There were a lot of people that night.

Since the beginning of the game, Ning Xin has not been Xue Hong's opponent.

She was kicked down by Xue Hong's high whip legs, and was hugged by Xue Hong, falling to the ground over and over again.

After a jump kick by Xue Hong, Ning Xin lay in the ring and couldn't get up.

Boss Qian motioned to Ning Xin to admit defeat next to him, but was covered by the deafening cries of the entire field.

Xue Hong looked at Ning Xin with disdain, and arrogantly persuaded her: "You better clean the venue well!" Little sister! ”

Ning Xin didn't admit defeat and stood up again.

She has watched Xue Hong's many competitions, and she knows her.

She just wants her to underestimate the enemy.

In the second half, Ning Xin took advantage of Xue Hong's light enemy to find the right time, and smashed Xue Hong to the ground with the help of the power of the ring rope, and then immediately locked her.

But her strength is not as strong as Xue Hong.

Xue Hong forcibly pulled Ning Xin's arm away.

Ning Xin's right forearm felt like a bone crack, but she didn't let go, and quickly adjusted her posture to lock Xue Hong more ruthlessly.

She knew that to win, she only had one chance.

Finally, Xue Hong raised her hand to admit defeat.

Xue Hong pointed at Ning Xin and gritted her teeth: "I remember you!" ”

Ning Xin didn't answer.

Boss Qian ran to the stage and commanded people: "Come and take a look." ”

The medical staff was about to look at Ning Xin's hand, but Ning Xin sat up with difficulty and pushed away: "No." ”

Boss Qian approached, squatted down, and reminded in a heavy tone: "Your hands! ”

Ning Xin raised his right arm: "I can move." ”

Boss Qian pointed at Ning Xin with his index finger: "Don't mess around with me, I won't take my life here!" ”

"I didn't want to leave my life here." Ning Xin's broken hair was soaked with sweat, and her eyes couldn't reach the bottom of her eyes with a smile.

She didn't want to leave her life here.

She's going to take her mom home.

With Daddy.

Only before that, she should pay back the money she owes.

Although she felt that it was not enough to just repay the money, it was not enough to repay it even for a lifetime.

But she tried.

I tried my last time.

So, I hope that the person she loves will accept and forgive her.