Since birth, he has had incurable congenital heart disease, and has experienced countless ghost gates, and even doctors say that a child like him will not live to be twenty-five even if he grows up.

So since Chen Shaohua can remember, he has often seen his mother crying alone.

And heart disease, sometimes in the middle of the night, is even more common, that is, after he is ten years old, the condition gradually stabilizes, but his physical condition is still precarious.

And when he first met Xia Lichen, he was just ten years old.

probably hoped that he could be happier, so his parents sent him to his cousin Chen Jiawen's house during this holiday, and it was here that he met the person he loved the most in his life.

Probably because he has been at home for a long time due to illness since he was a child, even if his cousin always tries his best to make him happy and take him out to play, he is still timid.

"Why are you here alone? Go to my house for dinner, my mother's cooking is exceptional! ”

It was such a simple sentence that he finally noticed this, the cousin's neighbor's child.

She would take her to their house, show him cartoons he had never seen before, and say she wanted to be good friends with her.

Because of this, the short week at his cousin's house was the most special and happiest time he can remember, and it was something he will never forget.

It's a pity that their separation was not good, because at that time, he had a heart attack, and before he fell into a coma, he only remembered that the girl kept crying with her immature little hands, and at the same time learning to press his heart like in the TV series.

Memories are beautiful, so after that year, he has never been able to forget, the girl named Xia Lichen, even if he was only ten years old at that time.

Although he waited for him to grow up in the future, he also went to ask his cousin about the girl's family, but he only heard from his cousin that there was some accident in her family, and her parents died in that accident, leaving only the brother and sister to rely on each other and then moved away.

Since then, for a long time, he has completely cut off contact with her, but every time he has a heart attack and feels that he will definitely die this time, his mind will finally flash her face from time to time.

It wasn't until that feeling became stronger and stronger, and his longing became an unspeakable secret, that he realized that he had fallen in love with the girl who remembered his brother......

When he reached high school, he became more and more free, so he always liked to play with his cousin Chen Shaohua, and even liked to ride a motorcycle around.

When he saw her again, she was in her third year of high school, and she was actually a student at his cousin's school, he was so happy, because it was also the third year of high school, that he could finally have more time with his cousin because of his stable health.

It's a pity that she has long forgotten herself, even if she has remembered her for so many years, he even has to watch his cousin just pick her up on the motorcycle like that.

He was depressed for a long time that night, but after all, he still didn't do anything, even if he had assumed, maybe she and her cousin had long liked each other, and even if he was barely stable in such a situation, it would be difficult to live to twenty-five, so what else could he hope for?

The turning point was already in college, and what surprised him again was that she who used to seem to have a good relationship with her cousin now seemed to have become an enemy, and her cousin actually liked someone else.

After getting such an answer, Chen Shaohua fell into it again, as if the emotions that had been pent up for many years had completely become concrete after Xia Lichen appeared.

wants to be with her, wants to spend a happy life with her, wants to be her husband, these thoughts are even more crazy to take root in his heart.

Finally, he found a chance, although she had long forgotten who she was, but he didn't care, he just wanted to grasp the future.

Except for the conversation at the beginning was not good, everything he said to Xia Lichen later was sincere, God knows how happy he was when he heard her say that she was willing!

And for the next two years, he seemed to have been living in a sweet dream, if it weren't for his own congenital heart disease reminding him all the time that some things were destined to be irreversible, he would rather exchange everything for ......

Because of the aggravation of his condition, during the vacation of his sophomore year, he had to go to the hospital to recuperate, but it was said that he was recuperating, but in fact, the medicine he had to take every day and the needles on his body were simply countless.

His parents were even more emaciated than before, and he could even clearly see the gray hairs on their heads.

In order to prevent her from worrying, he kept it a secret from her throughout the holiday, only saying that he was going to another place, and the two kept in correspondence from time to time.

It was the first time that two people who had never had an argument almost quarreled, but he didn't regret it, because it was because he was full of guilt for her feelings.

Because he never told her about congenital heart disease, it was a fluke, and he was too greedy for her tenderness, so he was reluctant to let go.

I wanted to say I'm sorry, but at that time she quickly escaped from the ward, and her pale hand hung down weakly, maybe this was his fate......

was redeemed again, it was already two days later, after he experienced rescue again, the first time he woke up, she was with him.

She sobbed and said sorry to herself, that she shouldn't be impulsive, that she shouldn't lose her temper with him, and that she would never leave him again.

It was also then that he suddenly realized that she also loved him so much, but ...... His timidity and deliberate concealment are no longer worthy of such deep love.

During that time, she has always been inseparable from him, and will encourage him every day, there will be a day when he will get better, so he who has no hope for surgery has gradually developed hope to live.

But that's what he originally intended! It's just that his condition is too complicated, and even if he has a suitable heart source, the doctor will have little hope of survival.

He would try to reach her hair with his hands full of needles as she fell asleep beside him, and even wept secretly at midnight when he thought that if he died, he would never see her again.

So he made a decision, that is, to try to fake her death, temporarily cut off her thoughts.

It would be foolish to know this method, but he couldn't bear her to be sad for herself, so this method was obviously the best outcome.

If she does die, then she can forget about starting a new life, and if she does, she will come back to reunite with her when she recovers.

The most important thing is that he has been delaying her for a long time, so even if it hurts outside, he has to do it.

Life abroad was not comfortable, especially after hearing her parents say that after learning that she was "dead", she fainted sadly several times.

"Shaohua, since you have already chosen this, then you have to work hard to live! This way you can go back to see Li Chen sooner, right? Even if there is a real accident...... That's not in vain for you to get to know each other. ”

His mother encouraged him like this, so this was the only belief he had to live in the operating room.

He wants to see Li Chen again, and he wants to propose to her in person, they are a destined couple! Not even death can separate them.

However, during the operation, the risk naturally appeared, and the whole operation lasted eight hours, and his parents almost lost their heads overnight outside the ward, and finally waited for the good news that he was still alive.

But is it good to be alive? Because after he woke up, his relationship with his parents became more and more strained, because before he fully recovered, they always forced himself to believe that he had loved a girl who had no impression in his head.

Even though there were photos and videos, he still couldn't remember anything, he only remembered that he had never had any girlfriends before the operation, and he never brought her home.

So in his opinion, his parents' behavior is simply not wanting him to recuperate his body after surgery.

At this time, his parents' business partner, the youngest daughter of the Situ family, appeared in front of him, because she was studying abroad.

For this girl, he couldn't say how much he liked it at first, but in order to resist his parents' behavior, he naturally became boyfriend and girlfriend with each other.

Sure enough, this result led to his previous relationship with his parents getting worse and worse.

"What the hell are you running away from? These videos and photos are real, and we didn't lie to you! ”

His father's questioning and his mother's crying echoed in his ears, and he was irritable.

It's not that he deliberately acted with his parents, but every time he saw those photos, he would have a very strange but indescribable feeling.

If you have to define it, he defines those emotions as the opposite, and thinks that even if he really loses a certain memory, what if he can't be sure, that girl was arranged for him by his parents before.

After four years abroad, he finally returned to China, and he didn't have any idea about marriage, but his family's current precarious business did improve because of the Situ family.

Then marry this woman, he thought like this, whether he was in love for Situ Ruo or not, but even he couldn't tell.

It was just at a dinner party, miraculously, that the woman in the picture appeared in front of him again, and it looked like she was clutching madly.

Even after that, I went to his house, cried very sadly and kept calling my name, but I didn't like these very much, I just felt very inexplicable.

After all, no one can accept the love of a stranger casually, let alone every time he approaches her, the discomfort in his heart will continue to increase.

"Shaohua, you will definitely regret it!"

It was a sentence she had said to herself later, and he didn't care about it at the time, but it was only tomorrow that his heart suddenly returned to dull pain......