When I opened my eyes, it was dark and I couldn't see anything. Where am I?

A place quickly came to mind, could this be the Hades Hall in the underworld? I want to ask Lord Yama if it's black and white impermanence or something, or XXX, where is this?

Is it really Hades? As soon as I opened my mouth, I was in pain, my bones seemed to be falling apart, and I didn't make a sound at all, my mouth was open, and there was no sound, what was the situation?

I tried to look up and get up, but the pain in my body made my brain go silent for a moment, and I passed out again without knowing anything.

I don't know how long it has been, I don't know how many days have passed, when I opened my eyes again, my eyes were still dark, I couldn't see anything clearly, but it wasn't as dark as last time, and I felt a little blurry in a trance, and I could vaguely see the slightest ray of light, and the darkness accepted the light, and there was brightness.

Following the direction of the light coming in, I turned my head to look at the bright place, and sure enough, it was the sun, it was the sun shining on the earth, and occasionally I saw the wind blowing the weeds, the grass swaying in the wind, and I was a little happy in my heart, I was not in the underworld, I was in the world, I, I, I was still alive!

I was glad that I was still alive, and then sadness came to my heart, am I not on the top of the mountain? How could it fall off?

I vaguely remember that I was on the top of the mountain, all the past came to my heart, I was forty years old, I originally had a complete home, wife and son, parents, and grandparents, I am the eldest son and eldest grandson of the family, although the life is not rich, but it is less than the above, more than the bottom.

Probably the life of the old peasants in the countryside is about the same. It is also a comparison, whose baby has bought a building in the city, whose child has bought a car again, whose son has arranged a job, who can earn how much money can he make, who has built a new house, whose family has married a new daughter-in-law, whose girl has married well, whose family has built a courtyard wall, changed a new gate, whose child is filial, whose doll has been admitted to a good school...... Wait, comparisons are everywhere, it's not that people in the city can compare with people in the countryside than people in the countryside, people's hearts and human nature are like this, parents are short, and people are terrible!

In the year she left, everything changed for me, it turned out to be a little proud day, and suddenly it changed completely, she left me, no matter how I begged her to stay, she still walked into the arms of another man without looking back, I still remember that I tried very hard to keep her, for the sake of my son's face, don't divorce, my son is only more than ten years old, and he still needs his mother's care, but she still resolutely does not stay, I knelt in front of her and begged her not to go, but she avoided it.

I have let go of my dignity as a man, but she still wants to divorce. I said the most spineless thing, if one day you want to come back, and I haven't found anyone yet, the door of my house is always open for you, what did she say?

She said that even if she asked for food in the future, she would not come to my doorstep. When she said such things, she took my heart and trampled it on the ground.

After that, we went through the divorce procedures, and I didn't force anything to stay, because I had already knelt down, and the good words were thorough, and the small things were all said, but they couldn't save her heart, such a ruthless person, let her go if she wanted to go!