Volume 2 The Truth of Suffering Section 1 The Suffering of the Eldest Sister

The eldest sister's illness has caused her to suffer from phosphorus injuries all over her body, but God still won't let her go. Could it be that this is "the heavens will descend on the people, and they must first suffer their minds, strain their muscles and bones, starve their bodies and skins, empty their bodies, and act chaotically." Is this a test of Heaven having a great task to be entrusted to her? The heavier the task, the tougher the test. Because the eldest sister is a cardiogenic cerebral infarction, the eldest sister's rehabilitation doctor repeatedly advised her to have heart surgery as soon as possible, otherwise there will be a possibility of a second stroke, and the second stroke will be even more difficult to recover. It's just that the local hospital where the eldest sister is located does not have the conditions for heart surgery, so she decided to go back to her hometown for surgery, and it happened that when the eldest sister went home, I was still in Shandong, and I couldn't pick her up, so I wanted to contact her car, but she said that she was completely fine, and she could go back by herself, so I had to tell her to pay attention to safety, and wait for me to come back and then operate.

My eldest sister promised me to meet me before the surgery. But after the eldest sister was admitted to the hospital, it may be that the doctor felt that the eldest sister's condition was very serious, and quickly arranged surgery after giving two critical illness notices. I had just returned home from Shandong at that time, and I was going to see my eldest sister, but my eldest sister probably thought that I had just returned home and had a lot of things to do, so she found various reasons: "I am a very mature minor operation, and the hospital does not allow anyone to visit during the epidemic." "Don't let me go back and forth. And I was also persuaded by her. Jingran really didn't go to see her, but she herself, but she prepared a Dragon Boat Festival gift for my parents before the operation, for fear that she would have an accident, God knows, she was a major operation, fortunately, the eldest sister handed over the mobile phone to the second sister-in-law before entering the operating room, and I have been learning about the progress of the eldest sister's operation through the second sister-in-law. The whole operation lasted for eight hours, and when I came out of the operating room, my second sister-in-law took a small video and sent it to me. The eldest sister's whole face was pale, and she still had a tube in her mouth, and she felt like she would leave me at any time. I wanted to cry out loud, but I couldn't do anything about it. Tossing and turning in bed and unable to sleep. Self-blame, chagrin.

The eldest sister once said: "If you can see the Buddha's light on the golden top of Emei Mountain, it will be effective if you make a wish." "In order to seek peace of mind, I decided to go to Emei Mountain, got up in the early morning and drove to Emei Mountain, entered the first pillar of incense, and asked the master to open the chain I bought for my eldest sister, and then went to face the Buddha and made a wish: "May the eldest sister be safe and secure and recover soon." Later, the eldest sister said that it was on this night that she almost went, saliva blocked the breathing tube, and she couldn't call for help with a tube in her mouth, and at the last moment she saved herself with her foot. I don't know if the Buddha heard my wish.

After the operation, the eldest sister went directly into the intensive care unit, and no one was allowed to visit the intensive care unit, and I could not use a mobile phone, and I could still only learn about the eldest sister's situation through the second sister-in-law. On the fourth day after the operation, the eldest sister finally returned to the general ward, I sent a video connection to the eldest sister for the first time, and I couldn't help it anymore when I saw the eldest sister full of tubes, I felt that the eldest sister seemed to have left me, and now God gave her back to me, I couldn't help but cry like rain, and the eldest sister also gestured vigorously, following the appearance of no one, showing that she was really fine. Later, for a long time, I thought that if something really happened to my eldest sister that night, I guess I would never forgive myself for the rest of my life. No matter how lightly my eldest sister describes her surgery, I should have seen her, even if it was rushing in with a knife! I started to arrange my own affairs, and I wanted to see my sister as soon as possible, but I couldn't see it with my own eyes, and I was always uneasy. If you can't accompany her to the hospital, then go and pick her up and discharge her. But two days later, the eldest sister told me that she was going to be discharged from the hospital. He also took a picture of his injury to me and said it was completely healed.

Oh my God, it was a surgical wound about 40-50 cm long, the entire chest cavity was cut, all the sternum was severed, it hurt to think about it, but she was going to be discharged, I suggested that she stay for a few more days, but she said that the doctor discharged her from the hospital, and did not let her live, I can't help but think, other people's hospitalization is for treatment, is she going to the hospital for a trip? Such a major operation can be done in three to five days.

I didn't care about what I was doing, so I had to pick up my sister from the hospital, but by the time I arrived by car, my eldest sister had already returned home. I had to go to my house to see her. The eldest sister looks really fine, and her spirit is very good, but the blood on her face is very poor, I heard her say that it is estimated that three-quarters of the blood on her body has been replaced, and after the operation, the blood transfusion alone has been transfused for a day and a night, fortunately, the eldest sister's physique is good, and she has survived all the hardships. My sister has been living in the second brother's house after the operation, although the second brother and sister-in-law are not at home, and they have always been very good to her, but the eldest sister may still feel that it is not good to live in the second brother's house all the time, and a few days after being discharged from the hospital, she began to run around and buy a house. This vitality is stronger than Kailash's state of trekking, is this the more courageous the more you fight? This should be the truest portrayal of the endless joy of fighting with the sky, no matter how big things are, she can't be defeated. In my sister's eyes, it should be that in addition to life and death, the rest is a trivial matter.

The distance between the two cities is two or three hundred kilometers, in the days to come, I will drive to my sister's house to accompany her when I have time, her state is getting better and better, my sister who insists on walking training every day, walking on the hemiplegic side is much better, but after the operation, the hand can not be forced, the hand on the affected side can not be exercised, and the shoulder on the affected side is seriously dislocated, but I have never heard her talk about unfair fate and bad luck, never complain about life, this should be how to practice an attitude to life, not only not decadent, but also take advantage of the sick break to continue to learn new things, I'm waiting to do a lot of work after I recover.

On the bookshelf of the eldest sister's house, there are all kinds of books, philosophy, Chinese and foreign history, law, accounting, architecture, novels, poetry, prose, and many books have made notes, which shows that they have been read carefully, no wonder she knows a little bit about everything every time she chats, her hobbies are too wide, but speaking of this, she also has her own shortcomings, she will watch the news every day, and will also buy a bag of peanuts and two cans of beer to sit on the living room floor to watch the football game, but if you talk to her about a popular star, her answer can make you hold your breath for three seconds." He's not a relative of mine, I haven't seen him, and I don't know him well." The health is a little better, she tossed up to visit my parents again, she went for the first time, and her health is not good, I am really afraid that something will happen to her on the road, how can I explain to my second brother and godfather and godmother? I repeatedly told her to go and tell me that I would pick her up and go home with her, but she always answered well, and then, probably afraid of delaying my work, went on her own.

When I heard her say that she was on the way to my house, I was scared, my home is in the township, the location is not accurate, the road is difficult to walk, and it is far away from the city, her body is really worrying! Fortunately, my cousin was at home on vacation that day, so I had to grab her bag and ask her to pick up my eldest sister at the station, and I slowly rushed home.

Fortunately, there was no danger, my cousin successfully picked up the eldest sister and sent her to my house safely, and I let go of my hanging heart. When I went home to see my eldest sister, she still looked innocent, I don't want to delay your work and love! Look, haven't I come home safely? I recorded the track, next time I will definitely be able to find the way by myself, and I look quite capable, which makes me angry. She dared to do this for the first time, this is all recorded tracks, and I don't know if I don't come next time.

I had to warn her solemnly: "The next time you run like this person, you are not allowed to call me if you get lost on the way, you deserve to drown in the field, and I don't care if you are deceived and taken away." I'm so angry. She didn't walk well on the flat road every morning when she walked and trained, and she had to go to the riverside stone steps to challenge herself, and she didn't know how many falls she had, anyway, when she wore short clothes in the summer, she didn't get better from the elbow and knee injuries. What should I do with such a sister?

Seeing that I was really angry, my sister bowed her head and admitted her mistake, rest assured, next time I want to come, I will tell you two months in advance, and I will take you a ride. If I make any more decisions, you will cut off my robe. As he spoke, he also made a robe-cutting motion. What can I do? This is my sister! It's quick to admit her mistake, but whether she will do it again is only clear to herself.

Later, I quit my job to start a business, my sister returned to Zhejiang to work, we are getting busier and busier, sometimes busy for a few days without contact, slowly, we rarely have each other's news, sometimes occasionally chatting, it seems that I don't know where to start, and there is no time to talk about for half a day. I know that we are not only far apart, but also far away in our hearts, but fortunately we still remember each other in our hearts. Afraid of disturbing my work, my eldest sister sometimes knows about my current situation through my parents, and I can also learn about her current situation through my second brother and sister-in-law. The eldest sister is recovering well and has started to work on the project, which is a practical opportunity she has always wanted, and it seems that she is a big step closer to her goal. No matter where I am, I will find a way to send blessings to my eldest sister every year on her birthday.

My birthday is no longer just a gift from my eldest sister, she will rush back to accompany me for my birthday no matter how busy she is.

Later, we didn't even have occasional contact, and we didn't even know when the other party changed their contact information, and we gradually lost news of each other. To this day, I don't know where my sister is, and although I have kept her original number, the phone has never rang. Maybe she's busy, she's a very self-disciplined person, and she won't let anything disrupt her life. I just hope she's healthy and safe.

This story has been told for too long, I took a sip of tea: "Delay the classmates, that's all for the story of Monsoon and Amei I know, they have lost contact now, but from the conclusion of quantum mechanics, they are good friends and sisters, even if they don't contact each other for a long time, they will remember each other, therefore, they will definitely receive each other's signals again, and they will definitely see each other again." ”