In her life, Siyan has only kissed two people, that is, Guan Zhong and An Bang. But when I kissed them, I had a different feeling. When I kissed with Guan Zhong, I always forgot about myself in that wonderful feeling.

Because, at that moment, Siyan didn't need to think of herself. She understood that it was a kiss, a kiss without any meaning, and a kiss without any purpose. That kiss is a kind of affection, a kind of excitement, and a kind of affection under a specific situation.

It's like a person who wants to take a sip of water. Whether the water is hot or cold, sweet or bitter, as long as it is water, as long as it can satisfy one's hunger and thirst at that moment, satisfy one's desires.

But when kissing with Anbang, it's very different. At that moment, Si Yan was very sober, and even, trying to feel the skill of his kiss, the taste of the kiss, and the desire for the kiss. Siyan is very passive and very cooperative.

When Anbang stopped kissing Siyan, he remembered what had just happened? In fact, in this process, Siyan wanted to be gentle. But Siyan didn't know that she was already very gentle, and her gentleness made Anbang feel like a puddle of water.

In fact, when the two of them kissed, they were not committed enough. Anbang kissed and thought: This woman, from now on, will be her other half, what can she bring to herself?

Siyan is also thinking: I am about to live with this man who is still a little strange for the rest of my life, are I ready? Ke Siyan knew that no matter how she prepared, it would be a reality.

When Guan Zhong and Siyan were two people, in the evening of early autumn. In a small dormitory, when I forgot myself, the world, and time. The kiss was very long. It seems that with this kiss, the relationship between them can be clarified; With this kiss, you can explain what exactly fate is.

Guan Zhong kissed Siyan's soft lips tightly, feeling the warmth in the softness. Her lips, in Guan Zhong's deep kisses again and again, felt the power in his life, and also felt the sweeping waves. and the succumb to life pushed out of the waves, as well as the unwillingness to fate

When the tip of Guan Zhong's tongue passed through Siyan's teeth and touched the tip of her tongue. Siyan felt a huge wave rushing towards her. At this moment, the soul was swept up by the great wave. Siyan felt her soul go away little by little.

Perhaps, both of them knew that the world that belonged to them was only one night. A person wants this kiss to become a mark in life. A person wants to make this kiss a piece of gold in memory.

It wasn't until the sound of footsteps, approaching from a distance, that they were pulled back into reality. They didn't know if the footsteps had come to their room, until the footsteps slid past the door of their room, and they smiled at each other.

Siyan knew that in her life, there was only this one night that could give Guan Zhong. Therefore, she didn't want anyone to disturb their two-person world. I don't want any voice to affect their mood.

When Guan Zhong wanted to hug Siyan again, Siyan grabbed his hand. Siyan said: Let's go outside for a walk!

Guan Zhong said: Okay.

When they went outside, it was not yet dark. But, the sun has already set. The people who were okay also came out one after another after dinner. Occasionally, I met one or two acquaintances, and as usual, they greeted each other.

Only the two of them knew that tonight was no different than any other night. From tomorrow night, in the small town of Hiratanigawa, there will no longer be a girl named Siyan. Many people don't feel like they're missing something. However, Guan Zhong knew that his heart, from now on, would become extremely desolate.

Hiratanigawa has been a quiet town from ancient times to the present. But the evening of the Pinggu River is not quiet. The bustling flow of people, walking around on the short streets, I don't know what they are doing? In fact, no one cares what other people are doing. Walking on the street, even if you don't speak, there are some familiar faces.

On a night like this, Guan Zhong and Siyan want a space of their own, and there is only one place, which is the riverside. Most people go to the riverside during the day, so there are very few people on the riverside at night.

The riverside, which is not frequented, is a very quiet world. Here, only the sound of the river can be heard, and there is no smell of fireworks in the town, but there is the natural sound of heaven and earth.

Guan Zhong has been coming to Pingguchuan for so many years, but he still can't understand the sound of the river. Because, he couldn't figure out whether the water was flowing with one sound or several sounds. It's a high shout, or a shallow low singing.

Therefore, Guan Zhong doesn't know, what is this river that will never return, day and night? Is it the sorrow of the ages? Or is it silent thoughts? Is it the long trumpet of the platoon people? Or the reverie of the fisherman's heart.

When the two of them, side by side, sat on a big rock. A bright moon has risen high. The moon that night, although not very round, was very bright. The moonlight is evenly spread on the surface of the river, and you can clearly see those sparkling waves.

As soon as Guan Zhong sat down, he threw out a question that Siyan couldn't say well. He said: Do you think you can still go back to Hiratani River after this trip?

Siyan pondered for a moment. said: I'm afraid that if I leave, I will never come back.

Guan Zhong did not dwell on such a question, in fact, it was a casual question. The invisible future of the two people is as profound as the universe, and when it comes to this problem, it is not even a star.

Then, Guan Zhong asked a second question. He said: "Will Anbang be able to go back to your uncle's institute after his job in Japan expires?"

This question is not difficult at all. Siyan said: Anbang has such an idea, but my uncle has already designed it for us. When Anbang returned, he went directly to the United States. In fact, going to Japan first is also a foreshadowing for going to the United States in the future.

Guan Zhong said: It seems that the second half of your life. Your uncle has arranged it for you, so you don't have to bother.

Siyan said: It's not like that, now that I think about it, I went to college once, and now the only useful thing is a foreign language. I left my major to Hiratanigawa. When I leave Hiratanigawa, that's when I leave my major. In the future, when I think about my major, I can also think of Hiratanigawa.

Guan Zhong said: Therefore, Pinggu River is still of great significance to your life. It is a good interpretation of your existence, your value.

Siyan said: Yes! If it weren't for Hiratanigawa, I wouldn't know what I studied in college. Hiratani River! Hiratanigawa, in the simplest and most earthy tones, wrote about a period of youth in my life. In the past, it gave me a lot of troubles, and in the future, it will give me a little bit of attachment.

Guan Zhong said: Isn't that great? Isn't it said that a woman who loves to laugh is always blessed? Perhaps, this is the best place for a woman. From now on, I wonder how many women will envy you?

Siyan said: Yes! A woman like me who does not seek to get ahead, does not seek to be outstanding, and does not seek to achieve fame, such a destination is indeed the best. From now on, I just need to learn to be a little woman. It seems that the university still chose the wrong major.

Guan Zhong said: Professionalism is indeed very important to some people; And for most people it's not so important. Some people study a major that becomes their own profession, and some people who study a major becomes a level.

Siyan smiled and said: So it seems that the university I went to is just a step?

Guan Zhong said: If you want to say yes, it is not, and if you want to say no, it is also. Even if you're not a college student, when your uncle introduced you to Ampang, would he talk about it?

Siyan nodded.

Guan Zhong said: For a doctor, there is not so much difference between a junior college and a university. When your degree is not a condition in the eyes of a boy, your university is not a step. But if your uncle introduces a high school graduate to Anbang, even if Anbang won't refuse, your uncle is embarrassed to open his mouth, right? In this sense, your college diploma is also a step up for your uncle.

Siyan smiled and said: I didn't expect that you are more transparent than I thought about my affairs?

Guan Zhong said: Is everything insightful and knowledgeable? When you think about it, the world becomes a lot more interesting. Lin Huiyin once said: Reading does not make people rich overnight, and if you don't read, the world is as thin as paper. Those who read books can see different aspects of the world from each book, and their knowledge and emotions are naturally rich in reading. Reading is precisely to meet a better self.

Siyan said: I don't know now if I met the best version of myself. When I set out on this path, I wondered, is this the right choice? But everyone around me thinks that this is a good choice and the best choice.

Guan Zhong said: Actually, it doesn't matter what others think, the point is that you feel happy. How many people are there now, and they are running around in the unknown world every day. You, on the other hand, are going to live in a known world.

When others are blindly searching, you already have a definite direction. Others are wondering where they will live next? And where are you trying to put your gaze? This is life, a different life, a different feeling.

This is like a flower, others are born in the wild, I don't know, one day there will be a warm breeze to let it open. I don't know which day, in a frost, let myself wither. And you will be the flower that grows in the greenhouse, forever blooming.

Siyan said: Even if I am a flower in a greenhouse, do you know? That flower is no longer a flower in the true sense of the word. Because, it has lost its ability to survive on its own, and you have to rely on others to take care of you every day, and all your efforts are no longer efforts.

Guan Zhong said: I can't say that. As long as it is a living thing, it has a meaning of life, and it doesn't matter where it is born. Lin Huiyin once said: Everyone's life is a journey, but the path taken is different, the direction chosen is different, the emotions paid are different, and the stories that happen are also different.

Siyan said: In this way, even if I have a story, it will be a plain story. Put it in the wind, and it will be scattered. Put it in the sun and it melts.

Guan Zhong said: In fact, there is no real dullness in life, it just depends on what kind of environment we are in. If compared with Shanghai, Pingguchuan is a kind of blandness. But the people who live in Hiratanigawa have never felt that their lives are dull. In fact, the color of life ultimately depends on the color of the soul.

Siyan said: There are some truths, and everyone understands them when they say it. It's just that when a person is about to leave a place, it can be a little sad. To put it elegantly, it is for that period of youth that is difficult to give up. To put it in layman's terms, it is for some people who can't bear to give up.

Actually, when it comes to being bland and not bland. It's just that I compare it myself. Moreover, it is yourself who compares it to yourself. What's more, I prefer to be bland. I like a down-to-earth life, and I don't want to fight against fate.

Guan Zhong said: Each of us is growing up day by day. Every day, I feel about life. I'm not afraid that we will understand it late, but I'm afraid that we will not understand it all the time. In the face of life, our abilities are big and small, as long as we work hard. Nietzsche once said: Every day when you don't dance is a failure of life.

Siyan said: If you say that, I am lucky. Because, maybe I have to fight for many years less than you. You're walking, and I'm lucky enough to be in someone else's car.

Guan Zhong said: A girl like you who is so cheerful, so kind, honest in her heart, and so sincere. It should be, there is such a good life.

Siyan said: Whether life is good or not, it's still a bit early now. Such a choice can only be left to the years to come.

Just when the two of them were chatting aimlessly, the moon was secretly rising. The bright moonlight, with the stars in the sky, sprinkled all over the mountains and the river. Illuminate this unusual night as if it were day.

When Guan Zhong, under such a bright moonlight, go to see Siyan again. Siyan's face also shone like a full moon. It's just that in her already moist eyes, there is a different kind of light. Under the light, there is also a kind of goodbye and a faint sorrow.

When the breeze on the river blows. In the wind, there was a stream of cool air, which hit Siyan's thin clothes. Guan Zhong gently hugged Siyan in his arms, and Siyan also stuck to Guan Zhong's body naturally.

Siyan said: It's so fast! I've been here for three years.

Guan Zhong said: It's fast, I don't dare to think about it, I've been living here for ten years. Lin Huiyin has a saying: The years are like water, too hurried, and some stories were written yesterday before they really began; Some people have not yet fallen in love with each other and have become passers-by.

Siyan said: After tomorrow, I will be your yesterday, and Hiratanigawa will also be my yesterday. So, when the years wash away the lead, am I your passerby?

Guan Zhong said: Time flies, time flies, when you wake up in the morning, who is not yesterday? The sea of people is vast, the mountains are high and the roads are far away, and between the wind and rain, who is not a passerby? In this world, everyone is silently going their own way. Who knows, who is whose present life, and who is whose past life?

Siyan said: Is this what Lin Huiyin said?

Guan Zhong said: No, I said it nonsense, do you think it looks like her?

Siyan said: Tonight, why did you think of Lin Huiyin?

Guan Zhong said: Look at the bright moon in the sky, you feel the gentle night breeze, and you listen to the gurgling water. Who else do you think we can invite on such a beautiful night? Only the first talented woman of the Republic of China can be worthy of this moonlight, this breeze, and this flowing water.

Siyan said: It was really a good night, but it was mixed with some emotions that should not be there. I have never really experienced such moonlight, such a light breeze, such flowing water. But all this was my last night in Hiratanigawa.

Perhaps, because it was the last night, it was so real. Perhaps, because of you, this night will become unforgettable.

Guan Zhong said: Such a moonlight, such a breeze, such a flowing water, you can remember it deeply. Because there is a memory that can nourish our life and make it stronger. As for the existence of an idler like me, it may be that God asked me to accompany you on a ride, and it is best to forget it.

Siyan said: Are you an idler? Idlers should have Yaxing?

Guan Zhong said: The idlers with Yaxing have all disappeared in the long river of history. I'm just an idle person.

Siyan said: In the past few nights, when I can't sleep, I often think about it. What have I done in the three years since I came to Hiratanigawa? Come to think of it, it seems like nothing has been done. I sorted it out carefully, and it seemed that I had really done something. That's to mess up your life, unintentionally by me.

Guan Zhong said: It's not as serious as you said, and besides, you haven't disturbed my life. It's just that, just like the old saying: the wind rises and blows a pool of spring water. In this sentence, everyone knows that the spring breeze is unintentional, and the spring water is affectionate.

Siyan said: If you say so, I will be very relieved. At least for the days to come, I will have no guilt in my heart.

Guan Zhong smiled and said: If you want to feel at ease, it's not so easy? I also have a sentence: There are no waves in the spring water, just because the spring breeze passes.

Siyan said: I am a guest with the spring breeze, I hope that you will bring the autumn water to the galaxy. Alas, do you know who wrote these two verses?

Guan Zhong said: I don't know. The verses are so famous. Often, they only care about that sentence and forget about the person who wrote the poem.

Siyan said: Such a good night, with a light breeze, a bright moon, and flowing water. plus the state of mind of the two people, as well as the parting they faced. At such a time, if I return to Datang, I will definitely prosper in poetry, but unfortunately I can't write poetry, but I have lived up to such a good time.

Guan Zhong said: The ancients have written all the bright moon and clear breeze, and written the sorrow and farewell thoroughly. In the face of such a night, people today don't know how to write poetry anymore. Therefore, when touching the scene, I always think of some ancient poems.