I thought that Xu Wei's father would come to me, but I didn't expect him to come so soon.

The day after I came back from the hospital, I was told again and again what time to eat, when to rest, and when to go downstairs for a walk.

When I went to open the door, I didn't expect it to be him, but I wondered if someone was coming to the door to sell something.

Looking through the cat's eyes, I saw his face come into view. I didn't want to open the door, but he rang the doorbell again, and I hid behind the door, listening to the doorbell ring over and over again, and when it finally stopped ringing, I looked through the cat's eye.

He stood for a moment, then turned to leave.

Hiding is always something that can't be avoided, and it's always something you have to face. So I opened the door.

The sound of the door opening sounded behind him, and he turned hurriedly, and when he saw me, a light suddenly rose in his dark eyes.

"Xingzhu."

"Come in." I answered him and went in first.

The door was closed behind me, and he came in after me, not daring to speak.

"You sit down first, and I'll pour you a cup of tea." I sat him down on the couch and poured him water.

"Don't bother, I'm here to talk to you." He politely wanted to stand up and stop me, and he was very uncomfortable.

"It's okay, I'll be right away, you sit."

I am not a cold person, even a stranger, and I must treat him well, and the etiquette must be practiced, not to mention that he is still my father.

I poured him tea, and he politely took it and said thank you.

"Xingzhu, I didn't mean anything else to come today, I just wanted to come and talk to you." He is already a face of vicissitudes, with gray hair and wrinkles on his face, but on the whole, it can be seen that he should have been a very good person when he was young.

"Okay, then let's have a casual chat." I didn't intend to embarrass him, maybe he was cowardly, maybe he didn't want us in the first place, maybe he might think of my mother at some point, but it didn't matter.

Because now, most importantly, I know that my father is such an old man, he is old.

"How have you been all these years?" There was an old pity in his voice, and he was probably taking pity on me.

"It's okay. In the past, there should be everything, just like everyone else. I answered truthfully, when I lived at my grandmother's house, it was true that I had what the children of other families had, and none of my grandmothers and uncles lacked me.

"Did you suffer a lot?"

"Life is never smooth sailing, they all grow up in setbacks, and it is also appropriate to endure some hardships." I don't think there's anything bitter or not, anyway, as long as I have no regrets in my heart.

"You're just like your mother, you're a strong person." As he spoke, he sighed, his eyes pulled away from me, thinking about what he was recalling.

I didn't answer, it's not good to be strong for too long, and if you're strong for too long, no one feels like you need to rely on.

"It's a pity that your mother's life was ruined by me." As he spoke, he cried like a child, old tears.

I've never seen this before, and I don't know how to comfort myself.

"You're okay, you don't have to be sad, it's all in the past." I handed him a tissue, and I didn't know how to persuade him, so I didn't mention the past anyway.

He calmed himself down, slowly brought himself back to normal, and took a sip of water from his teacup, which was considered to cover himself.

I pretended I couldn't see him and let him wipe away his tears.

In fact, sometimes people's hearts change.

Like me, when I didn't know who my father was at first, and I didn't have any concept of the word father, I became affectionate with the person in front of me called uncle.

Later, when I found out that he was my father that night, all my sanity was gone, and I said the most ugly and vicious things, and I even wanted to slap myself twice when I thought of being so close to him before.

But when I calmed down and looked at it again, the old man in front of me was just an old man who was blaming himself and admitting his mistakes, and I couldn't muster up the courage to hate him or scold him, or whatever.

In fact, in life, who can guarantee that we will not do something wrong, but we are too lenient about our own mistakes and too cold and harsh on the mistakes of others.

"Xingzhu, I'm glad you can see me, thank you for listening to me so much." After all, he is a person who has experienced the ups and downs of the world, and he quickly adjusted his emotions, and then he still talked to me normally and calmly.

"You are an elder, I deserve it, but it is just troublesome for you to come here to see me." I didn't really like the polite words, but I couldn't think of anything to answer him.

"After that, I'll come here often to take a look, can you, don't worry, I'll tell you in advance." He didn't want to be too aggressive, and he tentatively asked for my opinion.

"Alright then, you can come whenever you want."

I'm not a ruthless person, so I can't refuse him in person, so I have to respond.

"Okay Xingzhu then," he became excited as he spoke, "If you have any difficulties, tell me if you are uncomfortable, and tell Weiwei that is okay, Dad," he suddenly stopped when he said the word 'Dad', and he realized what he was talking about.

I was disgusted with the word dad, and I suddenly felt bad.

"That's not necessary, we're living well now, and there's nothing difficult."

"Okay, then." He sighed softly and continued.

There was a momentary gap between the two of us, and I suddenly felt like I didn't know what to do or what to say.

I coughed twice and cleared my throat to break the embarrassment.

"Do you want to stay here for lunch, I'll prepare." I looked at the time, and it was almost noon.

"Okay, then I won't bother you." He was interested, but he still had scruples.

"It's not troublesome, don't I have to eat at home alone, it's a little more interesting to have multiple people." Although I said this, I thought in my heart that it would be even more boring to have more people like this.

"Okay, then I'll trouble you."

I got up and went to the kitchen to see what was going on and was ready to cook.

"I'll help you." He also stood up and followed.

"Okay." I took the vegetables and washed them for him, so that he wouldn't look so embarrassed when he had work to do.

"Xingzhu, what do you know, tell me about it, I'll see if there is anything I can do."

"I, I'll cook a lot, as long as I can name the famous home-cooked food, I'll make it."

It's true, I'm staying at home all day, I just like to study what's in the kitchen, and I've never missed a food show on TV.

"Then you are such a good boy, you must know that young people nowadays rarely ask about things in the kitchen, you see Weiwei, she never goes into the kitchen."

"It's not like that, I just like to cook, and people like Xu Wei are blessed, just eat ready-made. In fact, cooking also depends on personal hobbies, I just like to cook and like the process. ”

"You're very similar to your mother, she also likes to cook a lot, and she likes to be at home and doesn't want to go out."

He suddenly mentioned my mother, his eyes were misty, as if he was remembering something.

I looked at him and nodded approvingly, in fact, I was very much like my mother, and I was very similar to her in many ways.

"Yes, when I was young, my mom also liked to make me this and that, and when she wasn't at work, the two of us could stay at home all day without going out, so I was quite like my mom."

"I'm sorry for you." As he spoke, he lowered his head, and his eyes suddenly darkened, "The most sorry thing in my life is you and your mother, Xingzhu, I'm really sorry." ”

"Don't say that, it's all in the past, and there's no point in saying anything now." I can only persuade him like this, and ask me to forgive him completely regardless of my past suspicions, but I can't do it now.

"If I had a little assertiveness and courage at that time, it wouldn't have hurt you to live that kind of life, and I would have taken full responsibility for your mother's death."

"It has nothing to do with you, it was an accident, no one wants that,"

"If I had gone back again, even if it was just to see, things might not have been the way they are. I didn't know there was you, but even without you I should have gone back and checked, because your mother used to trust me so much. He was so excited that he was a little incoherent.

I hurriedly helped him to the side and sat down, Xu Wei said that he had a heart attack, I was afraid that he would be too excited and have problems.

"Don't get excited, calm down. Everyone makes mistakes, and how can you not do something wrong in life. Don't get too excited. ”

He waved his hand and signaled to me that he was okay.

"I'm fine, I'm fine." He slowly calmed down, "You don't have to worry, I'm really fine." ”

I saw that he had quieted down, so I was relieved and sat down next to him.

"My mom, she didn't blame you, she just left early, if she was alive now, she wouldn't blame you or anything." My mother has always taught me not to live with resentment all the time, that will make you very tired, tired of yourself and others, because resentment will make people ruthless and ruthless, and when people are ruthless, they will fall into the point of being isolated and helpless.

"Your mother is the best person, and I can't repay what I owe to her in my life." He heard me talk about my mom crying.

I looked at his tears and couldn't help but feel sad too.

People's hearts are flesh and blood, how can it be said that hating someone can be hated to the point of unforgivable. If hate is useful, I should have done everything when I was young more than ten years ago, but hate is useless, so don't hate anymore.

"I don't hate you now, it's just that I can't talk and laugh with you for a while, so now we all need some time to calm down," I persuaded him, gently holding his hand, "I need to slowly understand you and know you, and you also need time to get to know me, after all, there is a gap of more than 20 years between us, and it is difficult for me and me to accept that someone appears out of thin air." ”

"Yes, yes, you're right, I understand, I understand." He was like a criticized child in front of me, nodding submissively, "Xingzhu, don't worry, I will definitely listen to you, as long as you promise to recognize me, as long as you are willing to forgive me, I will listen to you in everything." ”

It doesn't matter if you admit it or not, whether you forgive it or not, the important thing is that he is the father I have always hated and never met.

And now, he really wants to establish a father-daughter relationship with me, and he really wants to establish a relationship with me.

I looked at him, and the look of self-reproach was real, the look of remorse was real, and the attitude of remorse was also real.

Perhaps, he really has a hard time.